Julian gabriel

that is beautiful, and yet not complex

Share anything which would help with the upward path of consciousness, aka the path of understanding and construction.

I have noticed that I am sabotaging myself constantly by separation logic and emotion. The more I interweave these things, the more they reflect and accentuate each other. What keeps them apart? where does one go when the other takes over?

I deluded myself into thinking that I was being compassionate and giving to others when in reality it seems that I was trying to offload my energy onto them because it was too much for me to hold. How do I tell if I am offloading my energy in order to genuinely love them, or just to get it off of me?

I enjoy a good mind fucking myself. Whether it comes in the form of a psychedelic or a person or a place. But it seems to make absolutely no sense for survival purposes. Why would an animal enjoy having it's model of reality radically changed every few days?

Most people seem to fear others seeing their body. One of the most common nightmares for kids is one where the child is naked in front of their peers. God says to Adam; "who told you you were naked?" Pornstars are looked down upon, even though they do what everyone loves doing. Why do humans fear their own bodies?

@gettoefl why are you asking me

@gettoefl Can I be both, I like both

@SeaMonster my mom died when I was 16 and I have a strong connection to her. what makes you say that it is likely a mother related issue?

Agreed. Leo has helped so much and I feel so grateful to him. I kinda wish I knew how to help him through this. But he's given so much to the world, there will surley be people in the world with the nessicary consciousness to guide him through this if need be.

Being alone is fun and all, but how am I supposed to love myself to death when I am already dead. What part of me wants to be seen? be recognized as me and not you? You. You are the me that I am not quite ready to be, such is beauty. I'm not great at communicating with humans, computers seem to understand me more. I wish to become free in my self expression. To stop searching for mountains to climb and instead light my heart on fire with something so simple that is kills my desire for more complex things to bend myself over backwards with. I want to live like I am in heaven, because iv'e known for a while that I am.

Logic is the old way of communicating, thinking, dancing, and being. One of the main reasons Leo is having trouble communicating his new insights to you is because you insist on communicating with him logically. Try speaking and thinking with the parts of you that you usually use to feel and dance. I myself am only just learning to do this, and I sense that the same is true for many of you. Does anyone have any advice on how to use words as more than just a sharp rigid robot? So that we can overcome this together.

@universe why do you say it's feminine?

@Wilhelm44 Thank you. I seem to enjoy punishing myself. like i'm torturing myself with problems. Even just pretending to have problems that I know I don't have. What kind of daily practices would you recommend to create those states which you refer to?

MY Grandpa wants to try shrooms for the first time in about 30 years. He has a heart condition and he has been ignoring a lot of his psychological issued lately. So the chances of him having a bad trip seem to be pretty high. I'm going to be guiding him through his trip. Does anyone have any advice for me? I want to help him explore his creativity more.

@Wilhelm44 Yeah cool point. I seem to be addicted to problems. After I solve a problem I just look for more, and my sense of fun disappears when I don't have a problem to solve.

@Tim R He said he wants to do 1g but he's familiar with less potent shrooms so I recommended he do less than 1g. The main reason I recommended he do less is because he has a weak heart and recently had major surgery. Do you think the shrooms would be bad for someone with a heart condition?

@Tim R I only have PE.

@Zedman Yeah ur right death is bad lol

@Tim R Why not penis envy?

@Leo Gura What if it happens to be penis envy

@Sugarcoat Iv'e been experiencing a similar shift from living week by week to day by day to moment by moment to no time at all. each room a different universe. each person a new lover. it feels like I previously imagined heaven to be.

@Wilhelm44 What's the difference between the fun of solving a problem and bliss?

@LordFall Even the ones who are truly engaged may be engaged with something that puts their minds at ease, far from the sharp painful truths. Being alone for most is a painful truth. But of course that's only because its a painful truth for you.

@Wilhelm44 Problems are fun