ll Ontology ll

The month of warhorse, as so told to me in a dream... Tame me if you can, you will see from my writing to come that you cannot. But I will always be there for you nonetheless.

Polyamory, or is it, one woman, to be But if the latter were true, wouldn't the world have truly seen? In misery of loss, to revel a double cross of unusual kind Is this the way that I would let, my mind resign? To find an angel, or to expand the spatial The answer is not hidden by man, if we look at how the world began An open mind then, so there is no reason for any pretend You must embrace how things are, so you can follow, the brightest star For if you cover the world with one hand over your eye, you will surely be mystified by the dumbest spy You must be honest and true, so that you can see straight through No need to appease, for even if there's many unpleased there is still one who sees Let go and move on to what was, so that you can embrace a higher cause All is true when you see it was never right, just someone who affected you enough to cause an inner fight They were not ready, but this was to show you the truth of what a human is It was never your image of possibility, what I felt in connection or even in exchanged words It was on the analysis of objective patterns, these were indeed, the highest matters For look where your heart got you, discarded as much as you put it out So what does this say about the truth of a humans ability to see what sprouts? Do not listen to words or even your heart, for you will find yourself again right back at the start Your heart is a guide of a free and open space, but when it comes to precision its obviously lost without a trace The possibilities are endless, and you just wanted one, but the world is not won by those who stare solely at the sun And so the sand slips swiftly between your fingers, imaginary compatibility spoiled by objective oversight Enough that there is no knight I can be to make this seem free I was obviously incorrect, for where is the finished product from me this grand architect So I'm left to re-imagine, re-integrate, re-analyse and through that transform But reality, I say to thee, you are all I want and enough too, through any thunderstorm Sure we have the art form, this much is noted, but the heart you must agree, can surely make things bloated We must also have a higher mind, to see below from the highest skies and across from the greatest worlds of the most sublime designs So that our heart also has an understanding of the distances it can travel and the depths it can reach outside of its immediate measurement for the greatest shrines worthy of leaving behind To this end, yes this is the end here, we begin a totally new computer generated reality Plant seeds, and finally experience, a wiser tree Pick the fruit with two eyes open now, sight on the world transformed, and your actions too, evolved and reformed

@AdeptusPsychonautica bro just focus on self awareness. Seriously nothing is going to happen. Take a breath. Focus on creating productive stuff for your channel. Good luck.

If one woman who I choose cannot handle the depth and truth of my heart then I declare no woman is fit enough to do so alone hence the big "P"; ha pun. But it’s more than that, what is there to live for other than true love, to that I will “hero it” as I stated earlier in my journal, dedicating myself to the greatest good I can imagine for humanity. I will use my creativity to push humanity forward in as many ways as I possibly can, socially (I.e. build communities like this but fulfil another need), technologically, linguistically, musically and more. This is my declaration to life itself, for what else is there other than my death. It was her, this, both or death, so I’m left with no other choice.

Brief dropping by. Will be a good comment to begin next month. Polyamory: I made a promise to myself that post a certain life unfoldment I’d just go with my idea of having relationships with women all around the world that I visit periodically or something that just works for us. Bonus for the women in the same country of course. I love women and relationships what can I say. Have spoken about it with girlfriend in past now will bring up again over weekend. ===== Will be hierarchically organising a strict list I’ll be selecting women on ==== Based on my experiences and relative to my own relationship style it’ll operate according to the following order: 1. Their emotional blueprint (so vital when you take both the short and long term into account) 2. Their cognition 3. Their attractiveness

@Eternal Unity I will read this when I get the time, interesting contributions. Rest of month off R.I.P @ll Ontology ll .

Wisdom is just what you become aka hence wise otherwise its just knowledge.

@ivankiss You also don't always know why a woman is having a positive reaction to you. They may just simply like you for other reasons rather than the games a dude is playing, so then it just becomes a self fulfilling prophecy for them in that direction. There's these balances with truth, reality and authenticity that are completely lost to the person playing a purely machiavellian game and so the fidelity of their life experience becomes less raw, tangible, meaningful and purposeful regarding the place of social relationships relative to their self perception. The very nature of how we interact socially goes right to the heart of the existential positioning and level of growth of our consciousness, so it's unforeseen consequences meets social Jeopardy being played by someone with growing existential Alzheimer's. In short you lose perspective. You're now the drunk girl playing chess and who wants to play with them because they'll never play by the rules.

@ivankiss For me so much of what I'm attracted to is around respect which is related to value, if I'm there pushing buttons and very good at it which I probably can be, it just makes me lose respect for someone. It totally makes sense that guys become more narcissistic and sociopathic from pickup when they don't take on a larger level of awareness and reference frame for navigating existence. Look at how the average person thinks about robots, zero respect because we don't associate those non Carl Sagan inspiring appliances as having sentience. The more we subtract choice from someone the less respect we give them on a subconscious level whether they realise it or not. To bridge with the discussion rather than purely playing devil's advocate I think its just important to look at it from the perspective of understanding the intrinsic interests of a potential partner, whether that partner is sexual, emotional or otherwise. If a guy looks at it from the perspective of the woman's wants rather than purely from the perspective of pushing buttons to fulfil their wants I think they'd have a more fulfilling interaction, otherwise doesn't it all just become about power if you approach it so mechanically like this? At the very least pure self gratification in a way that wouldn't be pleasing to anyone. Many women love being objects of desire not many in my experience ever liked being objects of desire purely from the perspective of gratifying ones desire to be good at pulling strings.

@JosephKnecht If I have children, with one extremely special woman (most likely just one woman and most likely a woman, I've thought about the prospect of a genetically enhanced organism or an ET (symbiote's are a candidate, apparently they're form Klyntar?) but it just doesn't seem likely plus there's less sentimentality there and my kid will always ask me if I ever really loved mom/hybrid): A combination. Simply learn to use their being to orient themselves in this existence along with number one. As it concerns two it would be contextualised by one and their understanding of how to think about reality, number three. My child will be a mixture between an Amish raised child crossed with a German Shepherd, kid genius and a rockstar minus Tallulah Bankhead (who gets the reference?).

@ivankiss So good of you to catch up with me .

@ivankiss No. I'm all about creating an inner culture, and I don't have time for analogies just because I'm not in favour of tacitly endorsing philosophies I haven't fully engrossed myself in. Don't worry, we're still dancing so nothing personal.

@Eternal Unity fucking love these man. ----------------------------------------------------------------- Abstract insight in relation time stacking (conceptual invention elaborated on above): I want there to be as much connection between the domains of memory as possible so that there is a maximisation of reality reformatting. One example involves the simultaneous representation of the activity on planet earth with any one autobiographical experience we re-expose ourselves to through our subjective lens. There is a natural overlay, transposition and relationship that unfolds between that multiplicity. I think people already trying do this with the ever present now, they project a universe beyond them they've experienced in their imagination, now I'm just coming up with creative ways to do that in as many useful ways as possible to build both the brain and the minds relationship with its perceived reality. Imagination is the frontier to reality not just the limits, I get annoyed by undervaluation of reality just as much as overvaluation. It automatically happens when we reflect on experience outside of autobiographical memory (AM), AM often times gets updated or at least gets recoloured, gets slightly improved specs when we advance, refresh, improve or alter our informational compass for how to think about reality and the mental phenomena that exist within that frame which governs the thoughts that inevitably link to the behaviours that will follow within and from us (meaning when I'm imagining anything in the past I'm simultaneously re-experiencing that with imagining the whole of reality that I know of among any other useful variation I come up with there, aka +/- 100 to however many years). This follows from a CPA (CONTRAST = PERSPECTIVE = ACTION) formula I came up with a while ago I'll talk about later, in this case, the utilisation of the mind from the perspective of its highest relationships with time to generate as much creative awareness as possible. The "now" is purely dogma for me, I want the most advanced way I can experience it while falling back into the timelessness of experience simultaneously, as I've spoken about above regarding the balance between timelessness and time, the latter here being the creative exploration of the dimensionality of that. Dimensionality is going to be a theme I'll bring up again next month when I get a little more philosophical, this shit an't philosophy for me just perception and it's organisation. One day I'll have my fucking dysonsphere.

Something a little more functional compared to the previous post but hey we gotta let those rip every now and then: Time stacking, a simple invention post my previous comment in my profile history. Ode to False Joy on that note (concerning the Forum) though sometimes you never know what you’ll find in that dragon cave, honestly hardly any dragons there clearly we need more fire more like a bunch of old women who accidentally cooked the television remote on the frying pan thinking it was bacon. Putting that aside time to cut the chase otherwise let’s hope my humour isn’t wasted on rats here #black-plague is pure conspiracy my mum was a survivor (so she knows); there's discrimination which is totally abhorrent and then discrimination between when I'm sharing my sense of humour and when I'm merely hiding behind humour to secretly reveal a deeper truth about myself. I just realised how poor my calendar based autobiographical memory was, and to me it’s a little embarrassing considering how much I pride myself in other areas concerning my cognitive abilities, I still have my dignity there though ha, with murderous memoric (second new word for my third journal entry of the day--- spoiling everyone here obviously) intent. Some people have superior autobiographical memory, so that’s cool to try and emulate but I’ve come up with something a little different. All it involves is comparing any day you’re focusing on with the exact same day a year before, merging them and then designing insight from that mergence. You could effectively merge as many as you want simultaneously from any period but I like this rule of thumb for myself travelling back as far as I can so I actively make an effort to grow my hippocampus. It's existentially relevant for me to ponder the question why the hell am I even living this particular day out with my free will if I can't with my free will go back a year before and remember how I lived that day out, and too all the way back to my birth. I am totally estranged from this idea of living like a sim like automaton like the majority of the populous and to me one way of avoiding that is through this kind of abstract time synthesis that allows me to generate wisdom that leads to direct alternate behavioural routes. I mean wow, I am utterly shocked at my own ignorance, this is societal anosognosia honestly as it concerns literally almost no one doing this. We take our weaknesses for granted so much when instead we should be diligently cognitively interfacing with our global strengths and weaknesses of cultures across the planet and learning to transpose what we learn there into direct implementable lessons. If I don't have sight on not only what happened but a system of understanding pertaining to those experiences including a direct numerical relationship aka this calendar work, my ability to relationally organise my own temporal experience is just so much more limited. In general I don't see my autobiographical memory as bad at all, I wouldn't know how good it was compared to the population average but for my own purposes its severely below my own standards now in light of the abstract benefits I've discovered here. It broadens spatial reference frames for the psyche that organises itself in the moment and ones gaze at the future in light of the changes one wishes to implement becomes not only much more integrated but more honest with the true directionality of the inner self. Time stacking is the foundation to advancing what I've denoted very basically as the PC-H-R relationship, that is the relational feedback loop that can be optimised between the prefrontal cortex (PC) and the autobiographical memory (H = hippocampus) in order to derive self-wisdom via reflection. It's totally preliminary to any premise for beginning existence to me now and yet I've instead been reading the Christian bible for my sole way of life, I mean obviously right. How the fuck am I going to be the Dark Lord emperor of the known universe if I haven't first mastered the cognitive basics that most humans have totally overlooked? And I'm only half joking there, at present I'm still on the good side but in life you've gotta have shades of grey, especially if I want my fucking dysonsphere, gonna need to organise a lotta slaves to build me that. Wisdom as well truly needs its own organisational system of thought in terms of how we represent it in the mind, there needs to be some directionality with our movement towards the future and we can do this much in the same way that we implement intelligent processes for doing anything but in our case it relies on us moving intelligently towards some vision. Vision denotes objective, objective denotes criteria and criteria denotes rules of accomplishment and or engagement which are reflective of any wisdom we would follow to achieve our desired ends there. Wisdom is thus circumstantial, wise to our era of vision is a novel way of thinking about this, to see yourself on the railroad track of a unique path is literally the way it needs to be conceptualised for it to be done accurately, the realisation that the worlds wisdom is meaningless if it doesn't accompany the completion of your vision; the best visions of course are created by something like the best wisdom for lack of a better way of describing it, though no body has done this for some reason. The human species is almost entirely unsophisticated this is just something you'll have to come to terms with if you want to generate a truly honest path that is as a consequence to that a revolutionary one as at least to me everyone's path should be. This starts with a revolutionary act in consciousness and to me time stacking should be considered a rudimentary normal act of consciousness we do everyday to serve as a standard function for how we organise and reorient ourselves within our finite perception of time. Don't get me wrong I'm going to find this very difficult to begin with but I've made several discoveries on the subject of breaking through ego barriers and just the minds organisation in general that I'm going to be writing about in the future which will at the very least confirm anyone else's similar thoughts or even perhaps, thoughts that they could even advance themselves if they were so inclined. But honestly what the fuck, I still gotta take this up a notch though right now its past 2am so laters.

@StarStruck Just don't share for unaware reasons. Done. Candidly, I've had that behaviour reflected in myself in the past as well and to myself there's only one answer to that, be more aware. Lastly, try to make it personal especially if you've become familiar with them otherwise you're not talking to a person you're just talking at them. This site is full of people oversharing their wisdom for various reasons and I can only continually point to that sentiment, other than this my recommendation is that underneath I sense there isn't much development in the realm of personal introspection. That's just my take. Some personal questions I'd get you to ask yourself and not have to share here to test this would be, "what did I learn from yesterday that involved me having to spend time reflecting? How about all of last week? How about all of last year?". I've got plenty of others that I've got to spend more time asking myself but that'll stop you in your tracks right there.

@Bubba66 yeah we need more of this.@Ethan1 you too.

@LastThursday Replied at same time above. Ha. And for me its a natural consequence of genuinely exploring different aspects of yourself, like there's no need to act unless that's what you're exploring and its coming from a genuine place. To me that's most healthy. I want to emphasise what's most psychologically healthy if anything here.

@LastThursday Was it my sex talk soundcloud? We could re-listen to it together again if you like. Focus on certain parts.

@ivankiss As long as we get to do a mexican wave as well. And tap shoes. I busked as a kid (the shoes), made millions if we converted the cash to the 1300's and brought it back to this period.

@ivankiss no games please this is boring now. @LastThursday Yeah all good. One game is fine. But yeah we both probably feel the same about them and +2 on what I said, whenever you feel it. I mean, viewing myself objectively I'd raise at least one fine eyebrow at some of the stuff I wrote on here haha but at the end of the day its just me exploring different aspects of myself more than it is "trying to be something". Peace and peaches.

@ivankiss @LastThursday And let's just be clear that you guys are the ones advocating for persona and I'm not. Just so we're on the same page. Got it.

@LastThursday And feel free to put anything to me at any time. With me here's my advice, just confront me about it and I'll speak to you candidly. There's never going to ever be any avoidance on any issue unless its of a personal nature. I feel that saying this will give you a bit more confidence around me to speak so then your mind never feels the need to make assumptions like that. Just attack whatever is on your mind there and I'll respond accordingly with proper measurement. @ivankiss Ha. Indeed I am.

@ivankiss Sure shoot when you're ready. @LastThursday Like a billboard you pass speeding down a highway from hookers never paid . Yeah its projection, can't see reality without it so good luck avoiding it.

@ivankiss Sure sounds interesting. So tell me about the project, what are your goals? I'm quite passionate about psychology I'd love to add good feedback if I can.

@ivankiss You're playing with illusion when you're playing with persona, that means you're being convinced by your own self created illusion that you hope others are going to be convinced by as well. Lotta mind fuckery going on there, just saying. There's like zero persona with me. That's honestly where you want to get to. Now imagine trying to be a rabbit and you played that part so well in your mind that you convinced yourself that you were a rabbit, everyone else would just think you were crazy, right? The only difference here is with the persona you're still looking like you're acting human but under closer inspection with any eye opening person they'd be able to pick it. I know and get the difficulty, but I'm telling you straight man you want to be just going head on straight into raising your awareness and acting from there as candidly as possible and just making sure all your other shit is together. You've gotta be asking yourself as well, who is the persona for if you're looking for a true relationship? What is this fabricated social construct you've created to justify the need for the persona? Aren't you just gonna feel so much better to be around on an energetic level if you're just vibing with you, what's real within you and the shit you gotta get done in the world? This just my take. There's no dichotomy trust me, that's just confirmation bias because that shit has been thrown at the lenses of your eyes repeatedly so then you believe it and then just start creating shit in relation to it to the point where one day you decide to write it about it here. There's just humans wandering around being human with shit flying around in their head for some its merry poppins on stilts while wearing a bikini without waxing, for others its solving rudimentary chemistry equations and then for others its teenage boys and girls developing their first crush but having no real self awareness on that state to the point where they can think beyond the anxiety they have so feel the need to act cool, etc or just not a certain way in front of the girl they like. If you raise your awareness, you'll solve so many other problems than what a temporary social mirror can do which will eventually break under pressure anyhow.