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That’s fantastic advice @Preety_India, will do! I have to be careful about my troll lust though my violent tendencies towards those I consider “bad” can sometimes get a bit out of hand haha, they’re my violent fantasies I brought up here about a week ago. A good offing off with the head, the odd ball chopping, making them chew on the bones of goat horns with an intentful glare as glass is being slowly pushed through their eyeballs back in and out, you know, the usual .

@Preety_India anyone that messes with Preety is going down. Ha. Good list. I know you’re becoming more and more ferocious by the day you wouldn’t need me . Yeah on one of your points above it’s just because they’re insecure, they’re just trying to present an image of growth rather than being here to grow. Confront them and that image crumbles. Do it with emotional control though because the majority of the time they just want a reaction from you. If we just focus on bringing our best/authentic selves this place will get better and better by the day.

In my own opinion my writings will be much better, much of that didn’t click with me haha.

Just doing vocal improvs for the fun of it haven't done singing for a bit just screwing around LYRICS BELOW NO EDITS ETC Oh some days I'll find my way Oh I want to know my way home Oh I walk the city streets wonderin Where the lights will guide me Oh will they guide me home Or will they guide me back to hell Oh I want to know Where the city lights are going to guide me MORE TO COME EVERY 20 MIN OR SO

@Hulia hahahaha that's awesome

@Hulia haha thanks I linked a reading just before but I didn't realise at first the background noise doing "if" by rudyard kipling for fun

So I never knew Jordan Peterson could sing.... sharing off the cuff improvs over the next few hours for fun based on forum questions haha :

^^^ THAT WAS EXCELLENT!!!

sharing off the cuff improvs over the next few hours for fun based on forum questions haha : I can't be bothered writing out the lyrics haha

A LINK TO MY PROFILE TO FOLLOW IMPROVS (apparently its pretty hidden these days) BEST WISHES TO YOU ALL https://www.actualized.org/forum/profile/24721-ll-ontology-ll/

just did this improvisation for you im sharing improvs over the next few hours for fun hope all is well sir mean every word lyrics below: https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/65503-vocal-improvs-concert-one-concert-for-few-hours-only-haha/#comment-896305 I want you to know That you’re loved I want you to know That you’re loved By me Oh I’m feeling much love for you Oh I want you to know that the sun does shine for you through me Just send me a message if you need to too Oh I’m opening Oh I’m opening Oh I’m opening my heart to you Will you open Will you open Will you open your heart to me?

I've decided I'm going to do improvs based on the questions posted in the forum!!! ILL POST THEM IN THE FORUM THERE AS WELL NOT HERE

@Eternal UnityOn True and Heart: I love that line, "Truth will set you free", a variation; "Know truth. Be free." In this case as it applies to energetic transmutation by concentration on what the core of ones being (deepest ocean heart) is trying to tell them about the energetic/related truth of something, followed by as I said, concentrating on that frequency until it emanates from your entire being. It's a feedback loop it seems between concentrating on truth (in the way described) --> Openness (letting that open one up) ---> rinse and repeat continuously . Is there anything else to energetic truth? Other than delving into the philosophical nuances on the how's etc which I promised I wouldn't do haha, I can't think of anything that indicates there is. Pure, simple, beautiful. I never realised this was the way to live my life until now, I feel so much freer. I've realised that wounds can be there so long you take them to be normal when you don't know stuff like this, that then re-exposure to wounds can at least be good to show you where you should have been healing. It's like a shoulder injury you've done nothing about, you get used to things, then you start to try and use it and you realise what rehab you should have been more fixated on. It's made me realise that an emotional wound can very much be like any flesh wound, we have to make sense of where it is though in the darkness and find analogous bandaids to surgical procedures like these that at least work orient themselves well with me.

@Eternal Unity I love that. I've just been meditating on the fragmentation of my heart. Doing an exercise where I focus on the core of what's inside, of what I feel about a situation, without attachment to my mind at all, concentrating on the extremity of the feeling of what that truth feels like it is, and then letting that energy transmute all other energies, and with that, open up my mind and turn being whole. This is a fragmentation to re/integration thing then definitely. There are some people we will always love. They taught us how to make ourselves whole through our experience of love together, and in our own way, we taught them how to make themselves whole through their experience of love. Shadows collide with light, shadows and shadows, light and light. Just some mindful thoughts, nothing in depth at this point. Thank you for the share. I asked a question. I got an answer. I sunk into the truth of that within my heart as deeply as possible and let it reshape everything else about me. The answer. It changes everything about all of this.

@Eternal Unity I am personally going to research everything I can about Paramahansa Yogananda and anything else there that is important to understand relating to what you've said and get back to you at the beginning of next month sir. Forgive the delay as you can see by the above I'm going through a bit of a transition at the moment (I'm sure you totally get the picture) and I just totally need to dis-engage from any ballsy philosophy/spirituality related stuff even though it is certainly one of my favourite topics. I'll provide this with the utmost attention and care Greg considering I can tell the obvious sentimental value it has for you, so there is that benefit to the wait there. Feel free to share any other journals, writings and thoughts you have here in the future that are of significance to you they will always be welcomed by me. Best regards.

@Eternal Unity Ladies and gentlemen Greg here is a total stud, look at how authentic this guy is just boldly shares an unedited journal he did 10 years ago I mean how fucking rich. Follow this dude. I will take my time with this Greg, thanks so much for sharing I hope other people learn as much as I will and try to share as you've requested as best as I can. Why? Because Greg shows fucking respect. He's badass mother fucker. Cheers

Oh wait I get it haha... The inspiration doesn't need to do inspirational creative writing (because they are the inspiration in and of themselves). Now it makes much more sense as to why my intuition was taking me just down the comedic route. My presence is enough and my comedy a bonus.

Fuck it, I'm just doing comedy I mean that's what YouTube (inspirational vids) is for right and you clowns wouldn't move your asses in the way I need you to anyway.

My official relationship status is that I am no longer single. Off the market ladies. Sweet thing it is to build strong bridges ?. It's been over a year since I've wanted to entertain a relationship so I thought why not, what have I got to lose she cares about me there's some chemistry and I just never know. There's a lot of gaps between us but the cares there you know and that helps a lot, if the cares not there what can you do you're just forced to throw your arms up in the air. She's very agreeable, placid and just very sensible so that gives me a good comfort zone. Compatibility is a fascinating thing, normally I wouldn't really go for someone like her but it's just one of those things you know, giving it a go. #fills up fuel tank for jetpack of love haha

@Raptorsin7 No problem, yeah just work on your confidence you'll be right. This falls outside of what I'm interested in unless you've got specific questions, for me and women its pretty simple I just like to vibe and have fun I don't make it much more complicated than that. Just to reiterate so it's not lost in translation, tickets are selling fast to every comment I make on the forum so be sure to buy quick. Bare in mind you can only buy them from penguins in Antarctica; they're likely to try and steal your wallet out of misinterpreting it as a squirrel or is it a fish yeah a fish of some sort so watch out for that.

I wrote this on the fly for you. Love to you sir! In your heart, you do design The world alight, you intertwine All your wounds with soothing ointment That only you, know how to apply For within you, is your own healing And within your consciousness, a higher ceiling Of powers deep within, that only you can unlock But do not try, to act like Spock For your heart is not, a padlock This is an airlock you close shut So that the you inside can no longer fly out of where you were cut This may seem abrupt, but this is the strut That you must find for your own amusement and no one else's It is called you, to help you see all the way through Beyond the confusion and doubt, perform your own jujitsu Leave God on the coffee table and first look beyond life's previews So that you can see you and all the world anew Where the worth and deservedness you seek Will be much more available to you than what you feel when you are meek Peering up at a God hoping that he will speak First look inside and hear your own mystique As beautiful and rich, with absolute pitch The you waiting to be heard, as quiet as a bird Opening up out of its shell, for the first time you hear the bell The sound of your youth that allows you to break free Now you sir, yes you, you will watch grow your very own tree Beyond all and above those black seas

Imagine if an overly positive person was actually just disguising the fact that they were a suicide bomber or at the very least just committed an atrocious act, I have to say I get a little suspicious of them sometimes. Look at Donald Trump, not overly positive but overly one dimensional, no? Dimensionality is the antithesis to stupidity as well, but does this mean that people who have an overly negative perception of positive people are intelligent or just as kamikaze except they just wear it on their sleeve? Who do we watch out for more, Dr. Phil's one dimensional sympathetic demeanour, Donald Trumps one dimensional sales pitches, the overly positive or the overly negative about the overly positive? But then look at Hilary Clinton, isn't she the measurement of the balance? The crooked dimensionality that absorbs all of Trump's mistakes with a giant devil's pitchfork in one foul swoop? However even though she has dimensionality I think we could argue that she fits into the category of overly positive, no? Thus validating my perception that the overly positive are probably hiding a little more than irritable bowl syndrome of authenticity. So where do we go from here? So it neither has anything to do with one dimensionality or dimensionality but that lack of dimensionality on the surface is correlated with something to hide if someone seems overly positive. This is why I never trusted Christmas or literally any holiday break, I'd rather just pay homeless people to sing death metal at carollers. They're the overly positive right? I don't know who take out first, the carollers or the people paid to dress up like Santa, elves and so on - what's more cruel? At least I don't at all try to humiliate the homeless by playing dress up on my imaginary fantasies. You wouldn't want to know what I'd do to the easter bunny and that's why you barely ever see anyone dress up as one these days.

P.S - I'm now officially taking a more active role in the forum to instead use my inspirational and comedic focus as described elsewhere to help others, doesn't make a lot of sense to let such talent go to waste on one or two journals when I have a gleefully awaiting audience requesting my advances all over this site . Wherever you happen to be in the world I hope life is treating you right and most importantly you're treating yourself right throughout whatever commitments you have to face from the open wounds of inevitable suffering that'll require your quickest recovery to the moments that generate greater devotion from you with more ease.

I'd really love to see higher standards on this forum. I really mean that. I don't care what it's about just so long as its to a high standard and there's decency between people. That's the atmosphere I'd like to see created here by everyone to your ability only. It's my hope that through my growing example I can reflect that into reality. This journal of mine here is to encourage anyone to debate, question and more or less just entice me on anything. I am completely against non-debate because it sharpens minds however in saying that I will do my best to emulate a positive example there in the spirit of things unless of course its important to operate under some kind of necessary defence or oblique humour. On that note anyone here is free to discuss anything on this subject to share their thoughts to the enth degree of their highest potential. I have no intention of naming any names as I'm sure everyone is aware this has been done enough on this forum to date. Looking forward to being a part of that vision that I hope as many of you will join me on that mission.

Here's my unique destiny relative to my own personality, autobiography and abilities, I hope this inspires others to discover, create and follow their own. Doesn't take long, spent about 10 minutes developing this insight. The ( ) examples for plain white walled humour. To explain briefly, I've got x amount of time in my life with y amount of potential to achieve the end destiny in terms of first searching for all and solving all the problems that my abilities are capable of bridging the skill difference between (parallel alignment). Follow my second post in this thread to paint a more developed context, I'm not going to reveal too much of my autobiography outside of private conversation and unless I've gotten to know you well xo.