Gesundheit2

Lol.

The "You Don't Know JavaScript" book is awesome! It's the difference between scam and the real deal. There are many misconceptions that I've been taught in the YouTube courses. The book calls them out, apparently because they're fairly common amongst developers. And the reason that is the case is because almost nobody actually cares about understanding how JavaScript actually works. Most developers only care about learning the basics in the most simplified way in order to get a job, which is superficial and inefficient. And that's precisely what causes buggy and/or slow applications. A program that contains unnecessary code will more often than not be buggy/have low performance, as well as a program that lacks correct and precise code. The more precise and accurate, the best the outcome. Programming is all about detail. For me, I can't put up with less than mastery. When I do something, I do it perfectly. And when I learn something, I learn it completely. This is what differentiates world-class from average. I want to be world-class. But of course, that'll take some time, and I gotta start somewhere. So, I don't have to be a master to start working, but becoming a master will be my goal after getting the job.

Soothing.

I remember when I was in school, the teacher would shout at us and tell us that we were the worst generation that she saw. My father has the same memory. So, it's either that every generation is worse than before, or that reincarnation is real

How can I use this insight to improve my life?

Areas I currently struggle with: Finance; major struggle. Self-esteem; specifically, the confidence component, but it's minor. Lifestyle; not congruent with any of my highest goals, but it's temporary. Energy levels; due to poor lifestyle (poverty = low quality food, mild anorexia due to having to sit most of the day, etc.). Relationships; I rarely interact with people nowadays, due to, again, poor lifestyle. I absolutely believe that improving my finances will result in improving all the other areas, which is why I'm mostly focused on it at the moment even on the expense of the other areas. Money will buy me freedom, and I will use that freedom to improve my life. You don't know how limited and paralyzed your life can get unless you experience poverty. There are degrees to poverty, I am probably somewhere near the lowest tier. I know poorer people, but they're few. If I would have to guess, I would say I'm one of the poorest 5% people on earth. As for confidence, I would probably rate at 80-90%, but that's not enough for me. If it's not 100%, it's not real confidence. I can be confident on demand, but it requires conscious effort. Ideally, a truly confident person is confident on autopilot. That's what I'm aiming towards.

We know life is such a heavy load!

Manipulation technique for my survival.

Nihilism appears exclusively at Orange. It's impossible to be nihilistic (or have a problem with meaninglessness) without the materialist paradigm.

Murder itself is not the actual problem. Rather, it's a symptom of much deeper systemic problems. It's an exquisite example of society thinking backwards, which is why it will never get solved without the proper social fixes. And btw, the biggest criminals are not the individual murderers. They're the politicians, and the people who support them.

Things I'm proud of having done/learned/achieved: Spending half of my childhood working. Spending most of my adult life working. Gaining a variety of skills (I've worked mainly in 6 different jobs so far; pharmacist assistant, house painter, courier, "warehouse guy", medical representative (the only job I hated and kind of sucked at), photographer/designer/photo editor, and other miscellaneous jobs that I won't count). A Bachelor's Degree. Admission into medical school (graduating in less than a year, probably). (currently) Learning front-end web development under poor conditions, and planning to learn other stuff later. Discovering spirituality, self-help, philosophy, etc., going down that rabbit hole and coming out of it with enhanced perception and logic. Completing the spiritual quest, and achieving happiness/peace of mind. Almost completely transcending the ego. Discovering intuition and the feminine side. Knowing English next to my native language, and planning to learn Chinese. Obliterating most of my addictions in the past 10 months, as planned. Creating a very flexible personality that can change, adapt, and endure the hardest circumstances. Recovering mentally and emotionally from a 5-years war situation in my city. Breaking out of religion/ideology completely. Breaking out of the mind completely. Creating a custom religion for myself. Achieving full societal awakening; i.e. breaking out of most social illusions and delusions. Achieving abundance mindset, and sowing the seeds for actual abundance. Breaking out of the romance paradigm, aka neediness/co-dependency. Integrating narcissism into my personality. Discovering empathy, and achieving high EQ levels. The ability to be alone and satisfied; I never feel lonely. And more is yet to come; I'm still 25 years old.

@r0ckyreed I think it really boosted the moment I decided to stop multitasking.

Doesn't matter the number or the kind or the depth of the experiences I've had so far, I still know absolutely nothing. And who dares to think that they actually know, something or anything at all, expect the ignorant?

I meant follow your intuition. For example, try running today and see how it feels and maybe compare it to regular meditation. And when tomorrow comes, see if your body wants you to run or sit, and then decide. Who knows? You might get enlightened today after the running session, and then you won't need to run for the next 29 days. Or you simply might have sore muscles and sitting meditation will then be optimal. I say it's your life. So, live it day by day, or better yet, moment by moment if it's possible. After all, what's the point of 30 days? Why not 31 days or 29 days? If it's all made-up, then why should it have any authority over your life? Why choose a plan over intuition? Which one knows and will guide you better?

Live in the now, not in the next 30 days.

Coincidence? I don't think so.

She was sexy, until I saw her. Just like Sia. And unlike in real life, where women seem sexy, until they open their mouths.

Love yourself.

It's normal. You've simply grown past the usability of these models, because now you know yourself more intimately and accurately than the information they provide. You are realizing your infinite nature, and your full potential is beginning to come to light. Trust yourself, Raphael. You're doing great.

The difference between Westerners and Indians is the difference between Batman and Superman on a small dose of Kryptonite. The difference between Indians and Arabs is the difference between Batman and Superman on a moderate dose of Kryptonite. The difference between Arabs and Middle-Easterners is the difference between Batman and Superman on a lot of Kryptonite. The difference between Middle-Easterners and Syrians is the difference between Batman and the Joker. I'm not siding with Batman. It just happens that the motherfucker is born rich, technologically advanced, and doesn't have a weakness point.

Identification is necessary to ground us in reality. Otherwise, we'd all be insane, and this communication would not be possible. But it's not like we're either 100% rigid or 100% fluid with our beliefs. Most people are fairly open-minded and can display a wiggle room and some fluidity with a lot of ideas as long as those ideas are not perceived a threat to their survival/identity on some level. We can consider this perception of threat a web of meta beliefs that operates behind the scenes underneath the conscious level. Where does that web of beliefs come from? I'm not sure. But probably it's in the nature of humans. A normal human being probably can't survive without somehow forming beliefs about reality. But these webs develop and become more nuanced and complex with experience and reflection. Now, how much of those beliefs are conscious and how much are unconscious? That's the important question, because the answer dictates everything. The more conscious you are, the more easily you can see with clarity and navigate through those webs of beliefs, you will be proactive and in a powerful position. And the less conscious you are, the more you will be in an emotionally reactive state, or maybe a passive state in some cases depending on the kind of beliefs you may have. But it's not always clear whether a person is actually acting from a highly conscious place or otherwise.. Because a highly conscious person might sometimes need to use what might look like an emotionally reactive response in order to be effective. As well, a low consciousness person might try to mimic highly conscious behaviors by acting cool or passive. So, it's not necessarily correct to associate certain appearances with levels of consciousness. In that light, it's not necessarily correct to associate fluidity of opinions with high consciousness. That's a trap you want to avoid. In terms of Spiral Dynamics, a stage Green hippy is not necessarily highly conscious, even though they might display what might look like high consciousness by being super accepting and fluid. A truly highly conscious person understands the subtle nuance here and is not limited to a certain way of thinking or talking or behaving. In other words, identifying strongly with opinions is not necessarily bad, and identifying less strongly is not necessarily better, nor is it the most conscious thing to do. In fact, in a lot of cases, it's low consciousness mimicking high consciousness behavior.