Gesundheit2

I see the future. Not a static vision, but a variety of scenarios; all of which are bad for most people, which makes me happy. It's nothing obscure to the keen eye of the observant, but most people are asleep and blind. I will not tell my visions so that no one can be prepared. I am evil, and I worship Satan. In the fight against the devil, I'm on the side of the devil. With me, the devil is more powerful than God. The devil worships me in return, btw.

Can I be one of those bunnies?

I seriously doubt that I love anything at this point. Though, I don't really hate anything, either. I feel mostly neutral about most things. I can lie to myself and others and tell them that I feel positively about something, but in the end I have the recognition that a lie is just a lie. I can feel appreciation and grace and a bunch of other rare feelings from the esoteric realm, I can even feel high, but I wouldn't say I love these experiences, because I can feel okay without them. One thing I might have hatred for is disease/pain/suffering. But I can get around it most of the times, unless it's extremely severe. Maybe I love the feeling of emptiness. Or maybe I do need to contemplate this question further. Though, I haven't tried psychedelics or cocaine or meth, so maybe I'll love one of them if I ever do try them. I don't know.

Insanely genius! I could have never solved something like this in a billion years.

The more I learn about programming, the more fascinating the human language becomes. The contrast is teaching me appreciation of how complex this one thing is, and how much we take it for granted.

https://www.codewars.com/ Awesome!

I made two comments in the society section today; they were too revealing and insightful I had to delete them afterwards. My conscience just couldn't let me leave them. Sharing the highest wisdom with lesser beings is against my religion, and for committing this sin I am deeply regretful. I will stop sharing wisdom altogether for as long as I can to make up for this mistake. I seek atonement and refugee from myself, with myself ?

Can you imagine a worse place?

The only people who follow politics or have any interest in it are the fools of society. What is political interest but mental masturbation to power/control shows?!

Lol.

Lol.

Lol.

The "You Don't Know JavaScript" book is awesome! It's the difference between scam and the real deal. There are many misconceptions that I've been taught in the YouTube courses. The book calls them out, apparently because they're fairly common amongst developers. And the reason that is the case is because almost nobody actually cares about understanding how JavaScript actually works. Most developers only care about learning the basics in the most simplified way in order to get a job, which is superficial and inefficient. And that's precisely what causes buggy and/or slow applications. A program that contains unnecessary code will more often than not be buggy/have low performance, as well as a program that lacks correct and precise code. The more precise and accurate, the best the outcome. Programming is all about detail. For me, I can't put up with less than mastery. When I do something, I do it perfectly. And when I learn something, I learn it completely. This is what differentiates world-class from average. I want to be world-class. But of course, that'll take some time, and I gotta start somewhere. So, I don't have to be a master to start working, but becoming a master will be my goal after getting the job.

Soothing.

I remember when I was in school, the teacher would shout at us and tell us that we were the worst generation that she saw. My father has the same memory. So, it's either that every generation is worse than before, or that reincarnation is real

How can I use this insight to improve my life?

Areas I currently struggle with: Finance; major struggle. Self-esteem; specifically, the confidence component, but it's minor. Lifestyle; not congruent with any of my highest goals, but it's temporary. Energy levels; due to poor lifestyle (poverty = low quality food, mild anorexia due to having to sit most of the day, etc.). Relationships; I rarely interact with people nowadays, due to, again, poor lifestyle. I absolutely believe that improving my finances will result in improving all the other areas, which is why I'm mostly focused on it at the moment even on the expense of the other areas. Money will buy me freedom, and I will use that freedom to improve my life. You don't know how limited and paralyzed your life can get unless you experience poverty. There are degrees to poverty, I am probably somewhere near the lowest tier. I know poorer people, but they're few. If I would have to guess, I would say I'm one of the poorest 5% people on earth. As for confidence, I would probably rate at 80-90%, but that's not enough for me. If it's not 100%, it's not real confidence. I can be confident on demand, but it requires conscious effort. Ideally, a truly confident person is confident on autopilot. That's what I'm aiming towards.

We know life is such a heavy load!

Manipulation technique for my survival.

Nihilism appears exclusively at Orange. It's impossible to be nihilistic (or have a problem with meaninglessness) without the materialist paradigm.

Murder itself is not the actual problem. Rather, it's a symptom of much deeper systemic problems. It's an exquisite example of society thinking backwards, which is why it will never get solved without the proper social fixes. And btw, the biggest criminals are not the individual murderers. They're the politicians, and the people who support them.

Things I'm proud of having done/learned/achieved: Spending half of my childhood working. Spending most of my adult life working. Gaining a variety of skills (I've worked mainly in 6 different jobs so far; pharmacist assistant, house painter, courier, "warehouse guy", medical representative (the only job I hated and kind of sucked at), photographer/designer/photo editor, and other miscellaneous jobs that I won't count). A Bachelor's Degree. Admission into medical school (graduating in less than a year, probably). (currently) Learning front-end web development under poor conditions, and planning to learn other stuff later. Discovering spirituality, self-help, philosophy, etc., going down that rabbit hole and coming out of it with enhanced perception and logic. Completing the spiritual quest, and achieving happiness/peace of mind. Almost completely transcending the ego. Discovering intuition and the feminine side. Knowing English next to my native language, and planning to learn Chinese. Obliterating most of my addictions in the past 10 months, as planned. Creating a very flexible personality that can change, adapt, and endure the hardest circumstances. Recovering mentally and emotionally from a 5-years war situation in my city. Breaking out of religion/ideology completely. Breaking out of the mind completely. Creating a custom religion for myself. Achieving full societal awakening; i.e. breaking out of most social illusions and delusions. Achieving abundance mindset, and sowing the seeds for actual abundance. Breaking out of the romance paradigm, aka neediness/co-dependency. Integrating narcissism into my personality. Discovering empathy, and achieving high EQ levels. The ability to be alone and satisfied; I never feel lonely. And more is yet to come; I'm still 25 years old.