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This level of skill made me question my entire existence!

@Loba Nice to see someone finally benefiting from the things we keep repeating here all the time instead of resisting and denying them. That's how women should generally regard our contributions here as men.

Silent mind. Perfect stillness. Peace of heart. Throw whatever you want at me, I don't care, I don't feel hurt anymore. I'm wide open. And I can close on demand. The gates are guarded. I am safe, and dangerous. I have myself, what do you have?

@Leo Gura OK, fuck this. I'm out.

Again, I'm not the only player here. You're playing with me. Even during your supposed "deepest awakening - LIVE" you still played the game. Can you develop? Here, you are mixing truths with delusions. Yes, I am imagining you and I am alone, I'll wear your lens and agree that these are facts. But then this weird connection you're creating between the two fact, that's the problem. It's a story. Your story. And you have no way of confirming it, regardless of how confident you may get about it. Sigh.

So how do you reconcile this contradiction? You claim full awakening. And you claim others don't exist. But who are you talking to? You will say it's not others, but rather yourself. Well, then what's the difference? If others are you, why all this fuss? One God or infinite Gods is literally the same thing.

@Leo Gura

The difference between Leo and Buddhists is that Leo thinks he has the biggest dick, and they think they are sucking it

Lol.

Yes, please!

Psychedelics increase brain activity.

People used to believe that the earth is flat and that the heavens and Gods are above. With such beliefs, it's only logical to assume that you're being watched and that there must be a reason for (your) existence. If you think very hard about it, you will find that the ultimate reason for existence that you can find under that worldview is pleasing the creators, or at least trying not to anger them, so that's probably how the concept of judgment day had emerged. Now in the modern world it seems silly to think that way because we believe in the infinite space-time continuum. Although, I'm still not sure which view is the correct one.

Everything beyond good health is a bonus. If you apply just this one principle you will never be unhappy ever again.

When I was a slimey lesbian.

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So, my sister relapsed recently. We talked to her psychiatrist, he said we need to increase the doses, or change the anti-psychotic to something from the second generation (while risking having new side effects like weight gain). Nothing I wouldn't expect from a traditional materialistic douche bag, to be honest. I've been telling my parents to stop the medications from the very first week, but they kept refusing and preferred to stick with the doctor's plan. They're very afraid and don't understand. The doctor just doesn't understand. Haloperidol causes tremors and other side effects, and my sister is especially sensitive to hand tremors because she's a dentist and for her that means no more work. So when the drug took full effect, the tremor got maximal, and she got paranoid and delusional again. The doctor prescribed Procyclidin from the beginning to nullify the tremor, but apparently it didn't work. He said we should increase the doses, of both drugs. But he's crazy. I say we should stop the medication altogether. Finally my parents agreed to my plan after weeks of rejection. We stopped Haloperidol two days ago, and she started improving. All she needs is rest, and good company. I know how to treat mental illnesses cuz I treated myself from a bunch. The first thing you need to do is to isolate the cause of the illness and remove it from your life, at least temporarily for whatever time you need. In the case of psychosis, it's the stress and overthinking that cause the paranoia and hallucinations. Where do they come from? Mainly from work and her programmed thoughts. My parents thought it's okay if she went back to work immediately, even though I warned them that it was still premature. Now they see. So, no more work/stress for her until she's ready, and in the meantime I will be working on improving her thoughts, maybe I'll teach her meditation too. Nature is also important, so I'll make her go out with mom in the spring. Drugs are not always necessary, and in our case they have been harmful even. But that's essentially what healing mental illnesses takes in a nutshell, the rest is a matter of time. The rule here with mental health is, extract the pathology from its roots, cut off its supplies, and create new healthy ways of thinking and modes of being. The thing with drugs is that they suppress the real issue without ever addressing it, and they have a lot of side effects, which by time will create more issues than they will solve. There is no need for drugs because there is no real illness to begin with. Everyone has a certain capacity and sensitivity to stress. And at some point, anyone will break. Basically just know your limits, and you will be fine.

There are many people who contemplate existence seriously, but you don't see them often for various reasons. But "many" does not mean "most". Most people are busy playing out their community's stories and so they don't have, let alone dedicate, time for contemplation. But there are degrees to this interest. Some people can't get enough of contemplation. Others can't take in one or two thoughts. Most people are spread out across the spectrum.

There's a distinction between life and consciousness. You can be alive and unconscious, e.g. during sleep or anaesthesia. But you can't be dead and conscious. This means that life is larger than consciousness and that the latter is relative to the former. Consciousness is couched within life, not the other way around. My consciousness is couched within my life, same as yours. And we're all couched within Life, which is something. Life consists of consciousness and unconsciousness.

The giants in Attack on Titan. It's mind-boggling to me how identical they look, and the different variants that represent different ego states. Here's an example:

No vegan knows his address

I keep seeing her in my dreams. My uncle's wife. Sexual dreams, but not so explicit. We flirted and kissed but haven't fucked yet. I saw her three times so far, but not consequently. There have been time gaps. We actually live in the same building, but I don't daydream about her. I literally don't think about her at all, but now I might. This is crazy.

Thanks. I appreciate it.

With God, it's always a one-sided relationship.