Gesundheit2

This.

True, if they are venting on their journals. I respect the space people need and use to express themselves. Notice I never comment on your journals (I don't read them tbh), and when I comment on someone's journals I'm often supportive. But, when you make a thread about leaving in the self-actualization section, then it is my right to point out that that's unnecessary drama.

Look, dude. You said you want to leave, and I said it don't matter to me. Seems fair, don't you think? Or do you want me to cry and beg you to stay?

Do I have to give a fuck about you staying here? Much narcissism?

Can you make this a little bit more constructive? For example, can you list the problems that you see here that make this a bad place for people in general and not just you? Try to keep it objective and without naming anyone in specific. Whether you leave or stay is your private business and it probably doesn't matter for most of us.

@PepperBlossoms I've read many of your posts here on the forum, and honestly you don't seem like a people-pleaser at all. You seem fairly self-expressive and focused on what you want without much care for what people think. Not saying you're lying or anything like that haha, but maybe that can give you some clues on how to behave in the world. Maybe you need to have a clear goal in life, etc.

@hyruga I think the guidelines both here and there are mainly targeting spamming issues. It's another thing to be an active member who shares his insights in a different format.

You're just jealous you were not invited No, seriously. This framing of "minions" is a little bit over the top, don't you think? How did you come to this conclusion? I'm curious. What did you see and I didn't?

We've only listened to one side of the story while the other side is not even here to talk or explain. Have you received a "recruitment" invitation yourself? Cuz I haven't. How many people have actually received those invitations?

It depends on what you mean by real and imagining and all these Leo Gura words. Obviously everyone is going to hit some point where they will no longer be alive. How do I know? Well, I don't know per se, but this fact is the second most certain thing we know after existence. You can literally doubt everything, but death still proves to occur all the time. And to say it's imaginary doesn't change the fact that it will happen, all it means is that you are currently thinking about it even though it's not happening to you at the moment.

There's nothing flimsy about ego-death. It's one of the most "serious" spiritual experiences that one can have. And there's no need to rush this knowledge, since it's inevitable and you will come to it finally.

You are legit addicted. Please return to smoking, it's a little bit more healthier.

What Is Not Allowed On This Forum Recruiting member for chat-groups outside the forum. -- From the other forum's guidelines. LMAO!

Got the link to the forum, took a quick peek, and saw some of my favorite members there. I'm signing up, but I'm staying here too.

I said my final piece on solipsism a while ago, before I was banned. But I guess it doesn't hurt to state it again with the latest updates. So most people think of this issue rather in a binary way; It's either me alone that is conscious or all beings are conscious. I find that way of thinking myopic. The hardest part of this realization is the labelling, because it gets deeper and deeper every time. Don't ask me how or why, but the latest data/updates/downloads strongly suggest that there are only five conscious beings in the universe; Me. Empty slot (Leo previously, lost for banning me). One female (yet to be found). One other female. And lastly one unknown/locked character (including all genders and can be anyone but not you). I'd be happy to give you the empty slot for a certain price (negotiable, btw). Waiting for your response. Best regards. Ges2.

A few months ago you were laughing at me for believing in magic, and now you have paranormal abilities. Clearly Nahm wasted this opportunity. How can I subscribe?

LMAO dude your humility levels are intoxicating ??

B-but Nahm is just a thought

Well, what is Actualized.org? A YouTube channel with Patreon. A website with the Life Purpose course (product). And a forum for discussing self-help topics. I don't think these things necessarily form a cult, even though they can. I mean obviously no one is being blackmailed or forced into anything they don't want. But I can see some cult dynamics which can be unconscious from Leo and from the others. For example the blind defending of Leo from some Actualized members sometimes, and the hero displays from Leo as a leader, these things seem a bit cultish. But I guess it can't get any better. For me, the pros weigh more than the cons, and if it's a cult then it's a very useful one.

@zurew Thanks, man. Appreciate the tips. Are you a developer yourself? I started out my journey from the Front-End end, but I might as well go full-stack eventually since the paths seem similar and cross over each other all the time. I chose the front-end path for a variety of reasons; The low-end hardware that is required. The high income that is promised. The low mental demand, which turned out to be a bit illusory, but still relatively low compared to other programming careers. The former experience I have in design. The luck factor. I happened to watch an HTML and CSS crash course by accident, and I thought why not go all the way? To be honest, I don't prefer this kind of job for itself. I prefer more physically demanding jobs, I think they're more healthy, but most of them are frowned upon and don't pay well. But I don't hate it either. The only one obstacle that I'm struggling with right now is problem solving. And I'm not struggling simply because it's hard for me, rather because I don't have a high IQ. I mean, I can understand the problem and the solution when the instructor is explaining it, it's no problem whatsoever. But to replicate the solution on my own, it takes time and effort, which is probably the case for most developers. I still haven't gotten over the learning curve, but I've only gotten into problem solving like 6 months ago. Overall, I've been on this path for a year. In two days the year will be complete.

Complete surrendering and submission.

I used to have low IQ and EQ, but I used to (unconsciously) think a lot (not the same as overthinking) in order to make up for the low IQ, and somewhat the low EQ. In social interactions, my physical appearance (clothes, style, hygiene, glasses, elegant watch, etc...) used to do much of the work for me. People always assumed that I'm top tier and gave me leeway and special treatment without me actually saying or doing anything special, well except being successful in school which I don't consider an indicator of intelligence; people apparently think differently. Some people could see through me and treated me as I deserved which I found cruel or cold at the time but now I find fair and logical. I always lacked confidence and charisma, which is why I didn't have a lot of success with the opposite sex or with my former job as a sales representative. As for confidence, I used to do religious affirmations and they worked like magic. But charisma has always been a bitch with me. It's hard. You can't make a John Cena into The Rock. The gap is so big and obvious. Cena doesn't have charisma. The Rock has it. How and why? Nobody knows. I'm John Cena; boring, flat, unemotional, I even joke with monotonality, etc... So, in order to fit in with the expectation that I'm top tier, I used to counter the lack of charisma by acting like a hypermaniac with verbal diarrhea. Luckily, I didn't do that for long, because I actually got burned out quickly, but jeez looking back now I definitely was disgusting I would kill myself. Right now, I still don't have the charisma that I want but at least I'm comfortable with myself, which allows me to act somewhat charismatic and it seems authentic when I do so. But back to the original IQ topic, right now my IQ levels are average or slightly above average according to the test. However, in a way I feel dumber because I don't think as much as I used to, sometimes I doubt my ability to think. But when I think even for a little, I'm smarter than many people. As for my EQ, I can now read other people's energy and emotions very easily and with very good accuracy probably because I can read myself, but I'm still working on how to respond correctly in a way that not only promises a win-win scenario but actually guarantees and secures it. In theory, my EQ is very high, but in practice it's still below average. It sucks, but it will change with more practice and awareness.

I'm starting to think that what people call a religious experience or God experience or direct consciousness, etc... is actually my baseline state of consciousness. No one I know in real life talks about any of the stuff here from experience. All of them parrot religious wisdom without comprehending basically anything, because they're mostly materialists and wear the religious mask due to conformity/out of peer pressure. I always found trouble relating to others, now I'm thinking that's because we're not on the same frequency to begin with, hence I still manage to relate eventually with some effort. The people on here and on other substance-induced awakenings sites create a lot of drama around God and view it as a weird/rare artifact, which indicates that they don't experience it long or deeply enough, or that they're full of ego and the contrast brings them to their knees. I can't be fully sure until I try the drugs first, but boy does it seem like what they consider God is just the mundane to me. I wonder if that is actually the case, and if it is then what would a drug do? For me to actually be efficient in the materialist world, I put lots of efforts, which seems effortless for almost everyone else. Sometimes I struggle to think a sentence. Sometimes I wonder how people can go on and on and ramble about anything basically non-stop when I can't speak about anything from memory. Almost every time I talk or respond to someone whether online or in real life, I find myself automatically tapping into the words themselves in the moment without much tapping into memory. In other words, I rarely rely on memory or the subconscious mind to think or interact with people, rather I mostly talk from the now. I actually used to have more trouble in the past couple of years when I was fully dedicated to spiritual practice, right now I'm not at that frequency and life feels somewhat easier, albeit being less happier.