Gesundheit2

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I can't believe I'm the same person who wrote this. I tend to experience this feeling rather regularly, so it's not exactly a new or a strange feeling. The difference, I guess, is the feeling of disgust that is absent now, and the amount of hurt that was there but now is not. So much growth has happened in the past two years, and more is yet to come. The best is yet to come.

I remember the odor of the sea. It felt fresh, full of Oxygen, very refreshing. I plan to go there sometime within the next 12 months. Once I have enough money, I will move there permanently. I want to stay near the sea for the rest of my life. The sound of the waves, the colors, and the smell. I don't think I will ever love anything else as much.

I don't believe in love. It exists, but it's unreliable. There are better delusions to chase and have.

I don't think I'd ever felt that kind of love during childhood. Always felt used and manipulated by love/fear rather than being loved for who I was, even though I didn't know exactly how at the time. I always felt wrong growing up, like there's something inherently wrong with me. I don't think many people grew up differently, though I think they might still be under the illusion that they did. I think having good intuition is what separates me from the rest who think they've actually been loved. But I don't know.

No need.

No.

Hard to describe what I'm feeling/thinking. I know what it is, but I just can't put it into words. Not that I need to, but that it's annoying. Like, I see everything with clarity. Literally. No doubts. No confusion. All clear. Yet, nothing is happening like I want to. And I know how and why. But I can't really do much about it, at least at this point. At the same time, I don't really want things to be any other way. So, I don't really have problems with how things are. It's just that things could be much better. I can see the potential, and how it's being wasted. I can see the future, and how things will turn out to be. It's just not that good. Seize it now while you can, that's all I can say to anyone reading this. What is this "it"? I can't say, cuz it's different for everyone. But now it's more than it is tomorrow. The only thing that is increasing is the collective suffering. It will keep on increasing for God knows how long. I will be dead by that time, so it's up for others after me to figure out the rest.

Life is a game of musical chairs.

Inverted bell curve.

Spiritoilety.

To create a sense of abundance for themselves. Recovery method/Backup plan when she's lonely. To skip threats. Liked you at first, but found someone hotter. Fake number. Other misc. reasons.

Ramadan is finally officially over. Now I don't have to pretend to be fasting anymore. I pretended for 30 days. It wasn't hard, but it was a little bit annoying. This week is a holi-week. No work, no university, no hospital. Nothing. Just visiting relatives and stuff, most of whom I don't really like, but whatever.

God is the only scam that you will need in life. No more scams will work on you afterwards.

@Zeroguy You missed a chance. I dodged a bullet. What else is there to say?

Actually, most if not all religious people accept this wager unconsciously. The funny thing is that holy books (at least Quran) state that most people are deluded and will go to hell. So there you go. But there's wisdom to this wager, which is impermanence, which can decrease the suffering of half-ass believers.

You answered yourself. The thinking is the imagination. It's not anything more than that.

Beliefs are the thoughts that you think, but don't think about.

I don't give this chance for many people, but you're my friend, so I'll be a little bit generous and offer to trade my Middle-Eastern paradise with your European hellhole slash paradise for a reasonable price, nothing too expensive for one of my favorite Advaitas ??? PM me for more details ???

You can easily return at least 4-5k out of 30k and without much work.

"Why?" is an irrelevant inquiry, because the answer is only ever going to be the same; Why? => Because. Reasoning is a function of the human mind. It works by connecting events that pass through consciousness and events that reside in memory. Pure brain activity. A better inquiry would be: How to make this hellhole into a paradise? I would start from there and see where it goes.

30 grand = $30,000