Gesundheit2

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The slowest, and most excruciatingly boring times I've ever experienced were the times I was doing something I didn't want to do, or waiting for something that I wanted so much. And even slower than that when I combined both at the same time.

I'm starting to get some insight into it. It's finally becoming a bit clearer. The problem was that I was afraid of a certain label because I don't like it, so I would dismiss it, and therefore when I inquire I miss it. Now that I've realized that, I can do some research and gain some perspective. After that I'll sort it out at my own pace. ------ On another note, a high value person, male or female, is a person who values and respects their time above everything else. And that would be a direct result of them valuing and respecting themselves in the first place, and life in general. It's not the same thing as unavailability. People often confuse the two. An unavailable person could be playing video games, shopping, watching YouTube, jerking off, or doing some other pointless activities in most of their spare time. That doesn't make them high value, rather just stupid and unreliable. A high value person is always looking to improve themselves and life. They're designed to make life better. They challenge the current standards and set the trends, because they have vision and are inspiring. Although, that doesn't necessarily automagically make them flawless angels. They could still be lacking in some areas, on which they can receive feedback and improve, no biggie. If they can't learn and change, they're not high value. High value is a normal person that understands, appreciates, and respects the gift of existence. They know it's an impossible miracle to be here, and yet they are.

@teraflu You can get into web design or something like that if you're artistic and into that kind of stuff. It pays well, doesn't require much left brain power, and it can be done remotely both as a free lancer or in a company.

It's not. Not that either.

The masculine has to control the feminine, that's just the way it should be. It's the only way to functional creativity and a creative functionality. If the feminine controls the masculine, it will lead to chaos and delusion. Consciousness needs to stay on top of unconsciousness. God has to be on top of the devil. But, this masculine control should be properly controlled, too. Too much control is suffocating, and it leads to rigidity, coldness, and eventually death. It kills the creative essence. On the other hand, too much freedom is disempowering, and it leads to fragility, weakness, and eventually death too. It kills the masculine power. The masculine has to exert control with the right amounts, at the right times, in the right places, and with the inclusion of the will of the feminine. So basically it becomes just leadership rather than control. But, for this leadership to work, the feminine needs to submit and trust in the masculine. And the masculine needs to be reliable and up to the task. This is obviously very tricky and hard to achieve in practice, which is why it virtually doesn't exist. It's too perfect and idealistic. Too good to be true. Most that I have ever seen so far is dysfunctionality or at best imbalance. There was a time where this forum seemed to have the right balance and the right components, but that time seems long gone and without return. My wish is to be able to manifest this perfect balance in my life. It should be possible, and I don't doubt my abilities. I just probably need to keep this insight in mind so that I can embody it everywhere I go, and then from that place, the right things and people should automatically manifest. I trust in the feminine, too.

Nice improvement. Keep going One letter per day, and eventually you'll get truth

Buddhism is very popular in the west precisely because it resonates with the feminine side of these gurus and many of the "Greenies" there. You probably resonated with it initially because of your high vision, intuition, and creativity. You sly Mr. INTP.

Maybe. I have no preference, to be honest. You definitely can, but maybe this just isn't the right time yet. I was set in my own ways until I've suffered enough and could not bare staying the same way anymore. So I guess maybe you're right, after all. Cuz I didn't make that change, it just kinda happened against my will. How? As far as I know, Zen is all about meditation, intuition, and the body, all of which are core to the feminine principle. Maybe it is adopted and applied in a masculine manner by most schools cuz a school/discipline is masculine by definition, but the core is still very feminine, at least when compared to other disciplines like Abrahamic and Hinduism, and definitely when compared to your lone-wolf stage Yellow solipsistic discipline.

@Leo Gura I don't think that's necessary. In fact, I personally enjoy your filthy attitude to some degree. I think the real issue that most critiques are trying to address is your attachment to the masculine principle to the exclusion of the feminine. To me, this is clear in many of your communications and overall attitude. Many people, especially women, seem to perceive you as cold, strict, dry, distant, etc. This also explains why you don't like Buddhism, cuz it's a very feminine discipline. You skimmed through Buddhism, but didn't dive into it fully. You are open-minded, empathetic, etc. and that's awesome and you're not completely disconnected from the feminine, but that's not enough. There are depths to selflessness that you have not yet accessed, or maybe did but have not yet embodied, but you might if you allow more femininity in your life. Just my 2 cents. If you work on this deeply, this will likely fix your social tendencies and awkwardness, and it will likely make you a hell lot more appealing and attractive to the ladies. And if I was selling a product, I would tell you that it would increase you dick's size, both physical and spiritual

I would say it's mostly social value that is related to EQ, empathy, and bigger picture understanding. Things like social circle, knowing how to play the women's game, co-operation and being a team-player, connections, diplomacy, support, nurturing, and selflessness. This is as opposed to being rebellious, a "Karen", entitled, negative, argumentative, selfish, etc. In my imagination, an ideal woman is positive and pleasant to be around at all times. She does not only know how to understand and manage her own emotions, but also her partner's and family's too, and basically anyone that comes in contact with her. She can contain everyone and everything in her big warm heart. Her gentle touch is enough to heal the deepest wounds, if you will. She is wise and knowledgeable and knows how to talk, and when to be silent. She is mature, diplomatic, and a problem solver. She is tactful, calibrated, and does not offend anyone. She is an excellent story-teller, and she knows how to recontextualize any event into a more positive, meaningful, and empowering frame. She is able to provide appropriate support for anyone in and under all circumstances. She is able to nudge people in the right direction without being bossy or too involved in the technical details of what they should be doing. Subtle, but powerful. Nobody would give up a woman like that even if her beauty faded away, because she still holds a lot of value, both evidenced and potential. Even if luck fails her somehow and something bad happens to her out of the blue, her connections and the services that she can provide will help her find a way out of basically anything. Though, that does not necessarily invalidate or contradict a successful business-oriented woman. It's just that business can take her away from her family and make her unavailable.

Not so much the ego, though.

@Frenk ???

Everyone has value. It just manifests differently for men and women. Women's value is already realized but decreasing. Men, on the other hand, just have to mine their value before it is realized, and when it is realized it should only keep increasing. Because typically, women's value decrease with age, as opposed to men's value. But that is only true if you as a man are building your life responsibly without wasting it on pointless distractions.

Jobs don't suck. They're necessary to create the life that you are living. Without those jobs, you would not even have a phone or a computer or any easy way to learn or travel. In the big picture, you're one bee in a super complex hive of bees. And if you don't discipline your ass and contribute to the tribe, you will get replaced, because someone else is gonna have to make that contribution.

@Leo Gura If you are the forest, how could socialization make you stupid?

The only cause that is worth fighting for and dying for is family, my family. They're the only reason that I'm still standing, and the only cause that keeps me going. Always been there for me, in sickness and in health. I swear will never leave or fail them no matter what. I will take them out of this misery and make everything up for them. I will make them forget these days, and what suffering feels like. We will laugh at all this soon enough. For all their blood, sweat, and tears. For all their decades of nurturing and support, despite all the circumstances and all the suffering. For all the memories. I will protect and provide for them for the rest of their lives. And I will make sure they will still be safe even if I die in the process. My life is but a humble sacrifice for all that they have done. Nothing could break this bond, not even death.

Winter is coming ?

Ego-death, for some people, is an essential part of life.

Why can't I inquire into this? I feel like there's a barrier, a block, a gap, or a blackhole between me and understanding this delusion. Something's missing for sure. Possibly, and most likely the biggest part of the puzzle. Whenever I turn my attention onto literally anything, I immediately gain insight and clarity, except with this. Who's pulling these strings on me? What's this entity? Is it me or something else? Probably irrelevant to the inquiry. I just don't get it. I keep coming at it from different angles and perspectives all day long with different levels of focus, from high to low. And no state of consciousness that I've experienced so far had given me any useful information about it. Nothing seems to crack its code. It just seems locked but without a key. I guess I don't need the key per se, but I would like to have it anyway. I like having control over my life, not the other way around. My highest value as of now is full control over my own life. And this bitch just keeps disobeying me.

I don't think Leo would have posted it if his ranking was low.

Or Andrew Tate.