Gesundheit2

I've received several warning points as a result of our interactions. I'm sure many others have too. And I'm sure you have not. All the mods here, especially Leo, and even many people have an unreasonably huge soft spot for you. You just don't see nor appreciate it, cuz it's mostly behind the scenes. They let you get away with a lot, and you're still asking for more. Anyone looking from the outside will be surprised by how much special treatment you get around here. And all of that is not enough for you? Maybe it's not the mods' responsibility to protect you anymore. Maybe you're not protecting yourself. Maybe some part of you deep down wants the abuse and the drama. Think about it.

Your opinion has been disqualified since the quarter finals with your Brazil. I said Argentina from before day one.

It matters to you, because it's your life. Life purpose is not mainly about changing the world. It's mainly about elevating the quality of your life, by aligning yourself with your most elevated self. The world will automatically become a better place the more you align with your purpose and your life quality rises. This objection you're having here is coming either from a procrastination defense mechanism/laziness, or from depression and a generally low vibrational state. If you're depressed, look into shadow work and healing first before you start searching for your life purpose. If you're being lazy then just stop being lazy and move your ass and do it.

France is better and they will score, but Argentina will win. It is all written.

Argentina will win. God told me.

I am very furious right now. At myself, my parents, Islam, vampires, the world, God, everything. The depths of what I've gone through are unimaginable. A long series of bad luck, stacked upon bad luck. Even when my ego died and I stopped suffering, bad things never stopped happening. In fact, worse stuff started happening, and the more I lost of my identity, the worse stuff that happened to me. This low self-esteem thing is just one example, and it's actually rather a cause and an effect both at the same time. I originally had low self-esteem. Because of that, I gravitated towards stuff that would tease and multiply it. And then eventually, ego death caused by extensive religious practice obliterated my self-esteem entirely. I became completely worthless, or at least that's what I thought. This is also probably why I've never developed a spiritual ego. I've never played that game. I used to be spiritual, but without an ego. My sense of self was already absent when I entered stage Conscientious/Individualistic/Pluralist. And it's only coming back online as I'm moving further/higher. I just can't believe this. I always found it strange to think or feel that spirituality is a serious threatening thing that feels like death. I've never felt that way about spirituality when I was already heavy on spiritual practice. I was even warned explicitly to not go down that road, but I ignored all the warnings and didn't care. I couldn't care. I couldn't stop myself. Turns out I was already dead to begin with since my Muslim days. My initial momentum from Islam (Blue) never went away all throughout my spiritual phase (Green). And I basically skipped Orange for the most part. For you to feel threatened by spirituality, you need to have an intact sense of self. You need to have an ego, an agenda, a familiarity or at least an understanding of stage Orange. I had Red and Blue, but never really Orange. I jumped from Blue right into Green. It felt like the natural progression given my particular and rather super unique circumstances. I guess it couldn't have been otherwise. The suffering was too much to bear. I had to die metaphysically in order to protect myself physically. That's just a fraction of how intelligent my design is, and of how smart I actually am. I was simply not supposed to see all the truth at once, but rather one part at a time, until right now where I can finally handle the full picture. There's no other way around the truth. None of this is my fault. I'm actually way more than what this world deserves, I don't even give myself enough credit and I mostly just keep beating myself up unnecessarily for God's mistakes and shortcomings. The truth is that my environment is just too toxic to let me prosper and show my full potential. The only way out is out, and there's just no way out yet. Or maybe this is just my underdeveloped Orange talking.

My self-esteem is extremely low compared to who I actually am. I have toxic humility. I always knew that on some level, but today I've had the full awakening.

I don't know a lot about developing mobile or desktop apps. But I can say with confidence that there would not be much hidden costs in this case, if any at all. The server hosting the platform is already up and running. The user interface is already designed, so there is no need for a UI/UX designer. Here's an idea: Tell ChatGPT to replicate this forum in code. Tell it that you want a mobile app. Then sell that app to Leo, or give it for free.

@Tyler Robinson Hiring a freelance developer is a great alternative, especially if your needs are simple like this. It can be a lot cheaper as cuts a lot of company costs, because it connects the developer and client directly on a platform that charges minimal fees for providing the market environment and moderation services.

Mainly the company that I work for. And/or if I'm on some freelancing site, the admins of the site. Random devs are risky. There are no guarantees.

Some amateur devs might be like that, but most professionals are wise enough to not risk their reputation. I'm a professional web developer but I'm still junior to mid-level. I could create a similar forum on the web with a similar functionality, but it would take me more time and I will likely make more mistakes than an expert/senior developer, so there will likely be more bugs in my production and they will be harder to fix and the site will be generally harder to debug, update, and add features to. But that would not make me a scam, just not the best in the market of web devs, yet of course.

@Tyler Robinson It wouldn't need maintenance beyond the initial release and developer support. It's just a simple forum app, not a super complex corporate app like Facebook or something.

That would mainly depend on the developers who would make the app. If they know what they're doing, there wouldn't be that many bugs, and if there would be any bugs, they would be able to fix them easily. The website slowness is probably a server issue which would have the same effect on a mobile or a desktop app. The server probably needs an upgrade or something, and this will probably cost Leo some more money on a monthly rate.

It would replace the forum and everyone on it.

Sign up and tell it that yourself. Don't be afraid of rejection.

@thisintegrated Nah, you're just in love with Tyler.

The epitome of human evolution is in falling in love with rationality. It's as crazy and paradoxical as that.

Self-esteem is a newfound western concept. Socializing and mating are prior to it.

It's not, and this is rather an ad hominem that many people use when they don't have any cards left.

I don't think the forum went downhill. In fact, I think it's improving, given that many of the most toxic members are now gone or inactive, and given my own improvements. Even the moderation has improved a little, even though it is still largely the same overall.

On a scale from 1 to 10, who are you?

What is the "I" that humans refer to when they speak?

That's a very good question. For me, I would say the answer is that I am mostly preference-less, adaptive/flexible, and perfectionist. At least in the context of personality traits/structure and perception of the world. Though, on a deeper level, I'm a crazy person who pretends to be rational.