Gesundheit2

Not suicidal. Appreciate the pun, though. This journal will be dedicated towards deconstructing society and all of its illusions, one by one, like the pieces of a giant puzzle. Some posts might not make total sense at first or any sense at all, and some might miss crucial additions, but overall I will try to convey what I mean in the simplest and most direct ways possible, and I will try to remain as transparent and objective as possible. This is a high-consciousness journal that only a few select humans will be able to read and understand, and well not necessarily because I’m some sort of an alien genius that will write in some cryptic language that it will be hard for the reader to understand, but essentially because of how radical and shocking a lot of the information that I’m gonna put out there will be to most people (I suppose even to those who like to call themselves highly conscious). If some of my posts sound offensive, it’s because they are. I think it’s important to note here that I don’t like humans. No, sir. Not at all. And I have very good reasons for that. This is just to highlight the fact that I have an antisocial bias, and that I am fully aware of it. Therefore, anything written here will be in that light. But I'm not going to be talking about that in detail here, maybe somewhere else, or maybe certain topics will force me to talk about it briefly. I'll leave it as that for now. I don’t have any particular expectations for the topics that I’m gonna cover or how frequently I'm going to be posting or anything like that. As always, the insights will come to me naturally, and I will be expressing them effortlessly. I hope that after a period of time it will become like a book with a variety of different topics. And because I intend it to be like a book, I will try to be systemic as much as I can. And of course, this will be a work-in-progress kind of project that I’m gonna grow past quickly as I keep going deeper with my understanding, mainly through observation and deconstruction. Most of my writings will be based on my experience, and not much on philosophy or theory. Research is like my final card. I don't generally research things before contemplation. For me, the right approach to high-quality understanding is: contemplate first, and then complement your insights with a little bit of research. If I inquire and find my understanding lacking certain pieces of information, I look them up. This way, I can make sure that my insights are totally genuine. And more importantly, I can make sure that I'm not being biased towards or brainwashed by outside agencies. This should make the journal a pure expression of my wisdom, thus making me a truly free thinker. If I end up writing high quality content that is simultaneously deep and easily communicable, I might start thinking of actually turning it into a book and profit off of it. ________________ Next topic: Introduction/Fundamental Concepts & Definitions

Not to put you down or anything, but it sounds more like tier 1 thinking, to be honest. Naturally, at tier 2 you start identifying less with models in general, including the SD model itself. And also, you start taking models less and less seriously, and you start treating them less and less literally. The map is not the territory is a tier 2 saying. At Turquoise, you realize that development is infinite (infinite Spiral levels), and you realize the infinite depth and complexity of reality. And since it seems you're identified with the model and attached to the labels, I would say you're either at Blue (which I don't think is likely), or at Green (most probably). Green, especially when backed up by an enthusiastic Orange core, can treat the SD model as a video game where you win if you level up to the highest levels as quickly as possible, which gives the ego all its desired feelings of triumph and victory after finally conquering the video game (in this case SD). I don't know about your spiritual progress, but I think it has very little to do with SD. SD mainly maps the different sets of values of different societies while taking into account their overall cognitive development, but it doesn't specify or focus very much on cognitive development as it was not mainly made for that purpose, although there are definitely certain intersections. If you want a better assessment of your cognitive development, try the 9 ego stages model. It's designed for individuals and it's more accurate, imo. That's just my take, though.

Good idea, but bad approach. Whatever your environment is, your state of mind will follow. So, yes, becoming more familiar with ruthlessness by getting more in touch with it will make you ruthless. But that's the lazy, unconscious way to do it. Instead, you can learn how to influence your state of mind regardless of environment. You can learn to be ruthless in normal circumstances, and you can learn to be anything else for that matter. However, you can't force the shift. You would need to have an authentic desire for ruthlessness (or whatever you want), and then by cultivating it and allowing it to manifest through your emotions, it'll start manifesting in your life. Again, you can't just think a thought that you want to become something and then make it a reality. Authentic desire is essential.

@Windappreciator Okay, now you're being totally cryptic

I also did not understand.

This is absolutely false! Arrogance does not exist at all. It's literally impossible. The way you perceive it, though, is that since you're God, and God is the ultimate Judge, you judge others for expressing themselves as God. In other words, people aren't really arrogant or egotistical. You're just too goddamn judgemental, because that's what God is at the deepest level (infinite imagination = infinite judgement lol). God just sits there and keeps judging himself all the time, unless he doesn't have enough time to do so (i.e. in case he has more important shit to do).

Funny how all the busy-ness came together at the same time; Starting from tomorrow, I will be training for a job inside of a pharmacy and then I will start running the whole pharmacy by myself as quickly as possible. The training shouldn't take more than a week, since I have prior experience. (7-8 hours per day). On the 11th, my exams schedule starts as well. (I suck at studying. Period). My web development learning is still in progress, but should be accelerated right after I take charge of the pharmacy, because of the inherited laptop that comes with it ? (Hard to progress quickly with all the electrical limitations, I need more practice that the laptop will provide). I have this new book project that I intend to work on seriously: Societal thoughts. Perhaps I will write one article per week. But I might quit this project if I find it too stressful. Ideally, those things should take all my time, and then I would have no room for slacking and sliding back again and again into old patterns. I feel a little bit stressed already, though. I need to look into it.