Gesundheit2

Stuck at Green emotionally, and at Orange intellectually. This dissonance is killing me. Contemplating the devil helps, a lot, actually. When you remember the evil nature of all beings, you get in touch with the responsibilities that come with it, since you're evil, too (like it or not). And as a result, you understand the importance of the devil, and the consequences of discarding it. The devil exists for a reason, that is to remind God of his purpose. The devil is God's purpose. No one really cares about you. Only the values you provide to them, from whatever deluded pov they hold. You, as God, have no delusions. You see with absolute clarity. You know what is what, and who is who. Survival, zero-sum game, and chimps in tuxedos. That is all. Orange above all.

Watching @Zeroguy turning 18 years old.

@Preety_India The ox is a symbol for my current struggles in life: The ox-herding pics.

@Preety_India Lol. This account was banned too. But then God sent the bug to unban it. Now, can we talk about something else?

Perhaps instead sit, relax your body and mind, meditate for 10 minutes, and then contemplate why you feel like you have to do the breathing exercise at all. Maybe you don't need it after all. Have you seen this vid? I think mastering body awareness is more fundamental than hardcore breathing exercises. With enough awareness, you don't even need to go hardcore with the breathing techniques. Your body will adjust very quickly to any changes, as long as you're aware. Personally, whenever I practice spirituality, safety is always my #1 priority. And I never force the practice. If it's not authentic to me, I don't do it.

@Hulia Bless you.

@Batman @allislove @BipolarGrowth @mandyjw @Nahm @impulse9 @The0Self @nistake @Mu_ @Inliytened1 Excellent points, y'all. Will contemplate on them.

@Hulia You're clearly biased, because you're a German nationalist/patriot and my username is German, that's all I actually enjoy asking questions. In real life, a lot of teachers, and people who think of themselves as teachers find me very intimidating because of how deep I am willing to go. A lot of the times, they think that I'm just asking deep questions to make them look bad in front of other students. Could be the same here, or something else. Anyway, and to be fair, I'm not the same Gesundheit that was banned a few months ago. I've actually changed a lot. That might not be obvious, though. But technically, I'm not the same person who was back then. So, there's no reason why I shouldn't be here. @Zeroguy You're just jelly @Mu_ This account was actually banned. But then a few hours after the ban, there was a bug that infected the forum and caused it to go back in time 2 days (backup database), so I was unbanned lol.

I can do that, but so can a panda. And Leo says animals are not enlightened. I'm not sure. If I starve myself to death, I probably won't enjoy it. I also need air and can't enjoy suffocation. Well enough to survive, I guess. I don't know anymore at which point the innocent mind turns to monkey-mind. I don't experience that distinction often. Kinda forgot it.

I guess it varies depending on the kind of shit that's happening. For example, I still feel uncomfortable watching gore videos. But how is that a test? I mean, the person doing the killing seems calm as he's used to doing it regularly. A butcher doesn't flinch slaughtering a cow, but a hippy person would probably get angry, even though spirituality is more associated with hippies. The butcher is numb, and the hippy is sensitive. How does spirituality fit in this picture? Notice the shit isn't even happening to the hippy personally, but they still get triggered. I guess what your saying essentially boils down to detachment. But perhaps an interesting question would be: how to distinguish between true detachment and numbness? And, what's the relationship between spirituality and detachment?

Huh? I distinguish between two types of suffering: Resting suffering, which is completely self-inflicted, made up, and unnecessary. Suffering in relation to the hardships of life, kinda inevitable, at least apparently. What is the experience of an enlightened master? Do they not experience both types? Or either? Or do they experience both? What's the relationship between spirituality and the lack of suffering?

She's probably a narcissist. Toss her leeching ass on the side of the road. And don't look back.

A survival strategy.

Appreciate your honesty and transparency.

Not sure why I spent all night last night watching gore videos. Still somehow disturbing after all this spiritual work. I'm still not quite there yet. I'm still judgemental and fearful on the inside. Ideally, one should be able to watch gore, horror movies, or anything without it being disturbing. Earlier today, I got high during meditation, and I thought the fear of death was removed, not my first time though. But I don't trust my insights while I'm high, as much as I don't trust psychedelic hallucinations. Got some insights from it all in retrospect. Been focusing on my purpose for the rest of the time until earlier tonight, where I suddenly decided to go back in time and listen to the most popular music songs from my childhood. It was songs that people generally listened to all the time and especially on special occasions. I don't usually listen to Arabian music, so tonight was an exception. And YouTube to the rescue. It's weird that I haven't even once listened to the majority of the songs. All I have of them is hazy memories of the melodies, and that's it. However, it's been refreshing listening to them after all this time.

Hardships are good, but only if you know how to take advantage of them. It's one thing to face your demons when your life is perfect, and it's another thing entirely to face your demons, defeat, and burn them alive when you're living in hell. In the first case, you are naive. You think you're actually doing something, when in fact everything is being done for you. You're playing life at the easiest level, and yet with cheats. You're standing on the shoulders of giants, thinking that you are a giant. You're strolling downhill with ease, not really doing anything special, but you think you are, because you're naive. In the second case, everything is rigged against you. You start the game where you are weak and where your demons are freakishly strong. You're playing life at the hardest level, with huge difficulties/handicaps/disadvantages. And yet, you're not quitting. You take the hits fearlessly. You stand up again and again. You fight back, and then you eventually prevail. You take death in your hands, and turn it into life. You learn how to tame the wildest monsters until they've become your domestic pets. The ox is your servant now, and you shall ride back home. On the top of the world, that's where you belong, and nobody else. Now, that you're the strongest. What more is there to say?!

Westerners are very neurotic! Look at all this covid paranoia. Even worse, look at the vaccine neurosis, which brand to take, hands-on, first impressions, side effects, blah blah blah. Honestly, it makes me want to vomit. I mean, covid is real, but come on! Can't westerners be cool about anything?! Like, at all?!

Leo wants the forum to be like a school. You're not supposed to pose or even have radically different opinions than the mainstream here. Only devils had opposed Leo, and they're all dead now lol. Refresh the home page and you'll be logged back in automatically. It's probably something to do with browser cache and other technical stuff.

It's something inedible. Nuff said.

@Emerald In another post, I remember you saying that you'll be attracted to whomever you hangout around the most, or something like that. You said love is blind. How does that fit with what you're saying here?

Lucid times.. Every morning, roughly between 5:00 am and 6:30 am. Increased lucidity, vision, and creativity. I saw Biden talking to me lol. Electricity, trees, Whitehouse... Among other things.

How come I experience growth gradually, but also in leaps? Everyday, I'm a new person. Awakening happens every morning lol. I can tell my level by the many things/people I'm no longer attracted to. What used to attract me yesterday is now neutral to me. I'm outgrowing everything in life very quickly, very steadily. In the last few years, I've grown lifetimes. In the last year, I've grown decades. In the last few days alone, I've grown years. Every new level comes with different attraction trends. The trends are becoming more focused and less personal. And the previous levels are now seen as childish. Is there even a limit?!

The entertainment industry is a bunch of monkeys fighting over your time.

This is essentially true, but still is a bit distorted. Right distinction, wrong details. I can confirm that I experience the two layers, but I think your explanation comes from the feminine perspective. And so it's not representing, nor expressing the masculine perspective correctly. For me at least, the prefrontal cortex stuff are subject to the reptilian brain the same way my logic is subject to my emotions. My logical mind doesn't control my emotions, although informs, manages, and directs them. So, I actually have a desire for deep bondin with humans (not just women), as long as it serves my desire for dominance and acquisition. It's just that I am not interested in relations that don't serve my reptilian brain desires. All the joy for me comes from satisfying the reptilian brain. And so, I don't enjoy the experience of the prefrontal cortex desires, it's mostly neutral to me, but I do enjoy their results.

Most violent and offensive rap I've ever heard! LMAO! Topics: dissing, pride, rape, murder, war, humiliation, submission, and others. Makes sense.