I need explanation, why I don't want to feel anything ? I keep avoiding anything that trigger my emotions even positive ones like passion and excitement for example I avoid listening to music or watching movies that makes me emotional I rather listen to boring podcasts or youtube videos about boring subjects I'm too serious I don't like to relax because I know I'll have to face my emotions so I keep myself busy all the time, I don't want to reflect on anything like what I've done so far in my life or where I think where I'm going etc .. before bed I try to watch something to distract me from thinking I don't let any chance to be conscious of my current state I always convince myself that I'm doing what I'm supposed to do and I'm doing okay just to stop triggering my emotions ( like depression , sadness , anger etc. ).How can I stop this ?
