UnlovingGod

I did not write any books, but two screenplays for movies about 90 pages, with the option of publishing them, but I'm not completly satisfied with my screenplays, so I'm still trying to hold on, as I've got a guarantee, to publish whatever I want, whenever I want. Don't get too much caught on tips prolific writers give you. Writing is a very personal relationship you cultivate with yourself, as your writing is the direct manifestation of your thoughts and uncouncioussness. No one can give you real tips on how to write, which word melody you want to use etc. Big authors and screenplaywriters have massive egos through their authority and want to perserve this authority by giving you the only right ways to write. As for structure, you can take some insights from authors, as this is more a meta thing and not something in the domain of the relative. You'll get writing blockades, big frustrations etc. Learn to deal with it, because the most important aspect is to finish at least one book, even if it's just 50 pages, so that you learn how to finish this thing and know how to start the next time. If you want to get serious, you'll need to write the book at least three times. So that you get enough experience. Writing was at least for me, one of the most frustrating and satisfying things I did. So it's a painful journey. I compare the experience with for example getting serious with speedrunning games.

Infinity means also, that there are some things that will never be reached or exist. One thing, that will never exist, is a universe without love. It's not just infinity. It's a deliberate way of infinity we find ourselves in. Love is prior to truth, infinity, councioussness and gives them their inherent logic. Of course you need to work through truth, infinity and councioussness to understand love and then to be love, give love, receive love. We are first and foremost love, but still start as humans. Whats truth without love? Whats infinity without love? Whats councioussness without love? An unimaginable world, because it's not possible.

I mean, did your hands get cut off? If god would really want to construct the worst possible pain for you, oh boy... oh boy...

There are many explanations to it from infinite angles. Here's a more cientific one. Your brain, your "controlling" organ, is made out of neurons. Those neurons fire electrical and chemical signals to each other. A material scientist would say, if we had enough "neurons" in a complex system, then with enough "complexity" we would just have councioussness. Now think it trough, what materialist scientist don't realize, is that their defenition of "complexity" is just a magical term, a magical step, that makes us counciouss. So if you take this magical term "complexity" out of the equation. Now you just have neurons and you have your councioussness. No amount of neurons would make you counciouss. There is something magical to councioussness, but it is no kind of "complexity". We could have all those neuronal, hormonal functions and just act like robots or computer programs, so think what's the point of experiencing, if it is not inherently useful for survival and we could probably even better survive without experiencing or living and just be Virusus.

What's your opinion on China probably becoming the next world super power and overtaking the US. I've got a certain opinion, but I don't want to share it and hear your honest thoughts.

Maybe it could be useful to ponder about what could be Absolute Meaning?

I mean if you are bootstrapping a bussiness it really isn't the time for the next 3-5 years for Salvia at least, if you want to follow through on your bussiness. It's no joke...

I mean, there are a lot of assumptions, did they really die? Who knows if they did a fucking 360 noscope mahāsamādhi. If I can´t really fathom why God´s Will is at it is, I would give the Aliens the benefit of the doubt.

What is really interesting to me, that probably most of the congressmen and not even the president don´t have access to the UFO department of the pentagon. This is, where all of the conspirist fall short, that there is no "one" elite. There are noumeros "elites" and everyone with their own secrets, as everybody else has their own secretss.

As far as I know, since decades, various countries, probably predominantly Russia and US, have tried to get those technologies to reverse engineer them.

He is I and I am him, slim with the tilted brim, what´s my motherfucking name?

God moves in mysterious ways. All he does is to help you to awaken to himself, love, counciousness, infinity and truth. Why his Will is exactly as it is, with the human brain it isn´t in any way rational and comprehensible. Think of your cat or dog looking at you asking themselves, why the fuck you are using your phone to share memes, it doesn´t make sense, but for humans it may make sense. God is in another ballpark of intelligence, it´s not even the same goddamn sports. The wisest move is to get to the point to understand God in everso more depth and stop questioning him and moreso question yourself, why you need a "why?". Of course in high level states of counciousness it all makes sense why the things are as they are, but I still go to university and socialize for example, it´s not practical there to know, why I have to get up at 6 in the morning, I just know, that god is perfect and then in the trips, meditation etc. I can still try to fathom God´s Will. There is absolute and relative knowledge. I can be aware of the absolute and don´t know the relative.

Fuck... You are the only one

I don't know, but yeah probably. Since then I've appreciated that physical pain, can release emotional pain.

I did some acupuncture with a woman, that studied psychology and her grandfather is chinese and kept those teachings in their family, I did it last week and well this week, I felt really in peace, no problems, I slept better in general, My art was better, I socialised better, some blockades really disapeared. Somehow she was able to measure the energies and see them in her laptop and was then able to work on those specific points.

I get it from normal news side, watching some clips from Fox, to CNN, to even South China Morning Post. First Thought as a more independent creator, and there are a lot of nice channels, that focus on more broader generality than just daily political affairs like Kraut is a channel that I have high regards for. He really is an exceptional yellow political resource. And look out for some niche podcast, for example in Germany there's Wohlstand für Alle, that really cuts through this whole pseudoscience of economics bullshit. And think for yourself and don't get distracted in daily affairs.

Of course, but I mean, who isn't discriminated? Discrimination can just happen, because you have an Ego. I mean, it's not that the seperation are out there, you are making the seperation that a seperation is being projected to you. You need to cope, understand and then appreciate your Ego. And as long as you are not a slave in the confederate states or a jew in Nazi Germany, which I take the assumption you are not, there's always a way out, because reality is your imagination. I know it's kinda hard to comprehend, and when you comprehend it, you want to twist it for your own agenda, but intuite that god exists and that you can have faith in him and everything can turn out nice. At the end you are god, that's confidence right here.

Jimmy Hendrix - Voodoo Child, there's a video of a concert, it should be one of the first to pop on YouTube Pink Floyd - The concert in Pompei Is incredible Kanye West really is a musical Genius - Famous, Bound 2, Slow Drive and many more, but I think he also has a lot generic stuff. 50 Cent - Many Men, It gives me really chills Rolling Stones - Gimme Shelter, that part when the voice of the woman singer cracks, incredible stuff J Dilla, Led Zeppelin, And in generall Scorsese or Tarantino soundtracks always cool to listen too. Some russian classical Music, Tschaikovsky, Rachmaninoff. I also like Wagner. And I'm in general quite fond of East Coast old school Hip Hop, way more than west Coast.

Understanding + Concentration + nurturing your love and recieving love.

Yeah, those experiences are kinda cool, cause you see the real influences with the Imagination, but man would it be too stressful, to be in control of everything, it's like being a president, I couldnt do it alone. For couple of hours is fun, but you really learn to enjoy the limitation of your control, it gives you so much more peace and surprise in life.

I've got my first egodeath on weed before I didnt even know of actialized.org and spirituality. I was always a curious kid and when I was one time high, I questioned myself, who is the I in the brain. And reality felt like a monitor without a viewer, I was just the monitor in a space and I had such absurd panic, I couldnt really put this experience into perspective. After watching Leo's content, I had an awakaning on Councioussness, that councioussness is Love, God realization and that every moment that I lived through was Love's will. Well I took like a one year pause of Weed to integrate all this stuff. Then I took one push of weed and I realized, how I was fantasizing what my friend, was about to say. I went to a party, smoked Weed and I was Jesus and felt like the people suddenly knew that Jesus was at the party, because I didnt say anything and everybody wanted to take pictures of me, talk to me etc. I was able to control the music at the party at my will. At this party there was a like a street fighter console from the 90s, I don't really know, never have played it and some random dude challenged me on it. I had no clue what I was doing, I just looked at the screen letting my hands do their thing and I beat him. 1 month later I ate a cookie with some friends, I was again able to control the music and be the music, I did a lil freestyle and felt Biggie Smalls was spitting his bars through my mouth. We went to a party and I just sat there when a girl took a seat next to me and through pure concentration I fucked her. While she was doing her movements next to me on the couch and we never looked each other in the eyes. Now I'm integrating all this...

For example with the music, there was guy that sat at the table, at my will I played the most obnoxious mexican pistolero song, that was about the love I give through killing him, I took my lighter pointed it at him, the lighter was like my baton for the music, I popped two times a fire, gunshots in the music. He got REALLY angry, but the music was so obnoxiously taking him all the dignity and any power, that he just retreated and I had to laugh like a psycopath.

People really overstimate the level of counciousness in the west, too. There are a lot of purple and a fuck ton of red and deeply blue people, too, in the US and in Europe.

Sorry, cant delete those quotes. What do you think are china's intentions with those investements in africa and latinamerica. What do you think are US intentions in their interventions. Both want power, but there are many degrees of the goodness of power. The US doesn't give a flying fuck about the souveranity of other countries and it can be seen in so many so obvious ways, that It would really be a disgrace of my time to elobarate them. China has also just loyality to China. But they respect the souveranity of every country. Of course a industrialised latin america and africa are in interest of china as trade partners and future allies. But they don't care which government is governing the country, even more so that latin american countries are democratic. China doesn't care. The only one who cares, which president was elected by the people of their country is the US and you can see it in the various coups. If you look into the loans, those are fair conditions. Investements > overthrowing the government, not taking any responsibilities about the future of the country, not elobarating further.

China is not yellow that's for sure. The politicians are certainly solid yellow, the foreign policies are just way more counciouss than Americans and European one's. What are you saying with capital enterprises? Substituted bussiness probably. Yeah there's a lot of critic, that those bussiness have an edge over other foreign bussiness, because they can sell at a lower price and the exchange rate of the Yuan is also somewhat controlled by China. So what, independence from the stock market? Every bussiness needs investors, and if it's the chinese government, that invests? So what? What's the problem that bussiness isnt as profit incentive in China as in western countries? And state interventions happen in China in way more noumerous orders in the economy just than substituted bussiness. Western countries don't understand how modern money works, it's not real, it's imaginary. It's not gold that has intrinsic value, it is just paper and the government has full control of it. One of the few good quotes of Trump "We print the money". Inflation doesn't correlate as stupid with the amount of money flowing through an economy nowadays as 100 years before. There is a competition between two in a race, one comes with a 1980s car and another comes with a Lamborghini. And then the one with the 1980s car makes critic on the Lamborghini, because he doesn't follow the rules, eventhough he has stuck with the 80s car because he doesn't want to follow rules. USA under Biden has shown tendencies to a more state centralised economy as they need to switch to the Lamborghini. Green New Deal for example... Bernie Sanders also wants a more state centralised economy.