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Well sometimes an idiot like Trump with zero life experience gets the popular vote. Know the deep fantasies of the people and give them the illusion that you are their saviour. Even if you just say the right things by accident. What gets implemented is a whole other story, that may correlate, with what is being campaigned. And more counciouss people have higher degrees of fantasies. I wouldn't be surprised, that high level marketing guys and psychologist are involved in a political campaign. I mean the shenanigans that happens on social media are more often than not controlled by bots to distort the common fantasies of the population, I don't want to imagine, what happens, when AI becomes such a necessity as smartphones and the Internent. I mean the military spends millions into Hollywood, while China has also their influence on common Media, I may recall what happened to Blizzard and NBA in regards of Hong Kong. Everybody is seeking for their own good, that's politics and of course everything that can be used, will be used to win election, randomness will be eliminated as much as possible. And all of that needs a shit ton of money.

If progressive candidates had as much money, they wouldn't be as progressive, when profit interests collide with progressive politics, that's when society changes. Emancipation of woman in the workforce, for example. Capitalism is an ever evolving system and it doesn't care of the good of anyone, either you ride the wave or not.

I once read, when you fall in love you get a sneak peak of the other person's soul. When you awaken just a tiny bit, you get a sneak peak into yourself. That's why awakening can feel nasty, because you recognize yourself and all your Bullshit, I myself am full of shit still haha. And that's why it feels also sickening to fall in love with someone else.

Boo hoo, it's Fidel Castro, but as humanity, we should really start to have a vision for ourselves and a vision for our lifes and also the lifes in third world countries, that are as valuable as your own life! If you are socialist you can't be happy, was once said by Leo Gura. I say, if you are dissociated with the reality of other lifes and also your own life, that's were you are way more unhappy. Just because you are passionate for something big, that doesn't involve you directly, doesn't mean, you can't be happy, when you know how to put it into context. Just don't externalize.

I´m studying psychology, because I want to have a secure base for my life, as it liberates me freely to do my art. Financially I´m fortunate to be in a somewhat wealthy family and it really is a blessing, as they have their money spend in the real estate market. Right now there´s really something going in my main life purpose which is art. I really love psychology, but being an artist is so personal to me, as I´ve come from an important intellectual and artistic family from Spain. Streetnames in Madrid are named after them and we even have some paintings from Juan Miro and themselves were important actors, director, painters etc. We´ve lost all because of the civil war there, but are now again in good financial shape. But I want to bring the back the legacy from my heritage. Well, I started to write screenplays, but I noticed, that it is really hard to get into the film industry, as it is the most costheavy art, there is out there, but also the most complete artform with videogames, but videogames can be done alone, but cinema per definition needs at least actors. Of course those backrooms shortfilms were made with very limited budget and you can do musicvideos or do some cool things on youtube, but maybe that´s my egoism, I wanted to tell really big stories, real dramas. And I had a big love for Hip-Hop, I always imagined my scenes with specific music pieces, including them in my screenplays. I´m a guy that gets really angry with artpieces, that are shit. I saw a girl on Instagram post a little poem and I thought, that´s bullshit and I can do it way better, because I wrote a lot of poems to improve my writing skills. So I began writing rap songs and now I´m at a point, that I´m beginning to collaborate with multi Grammy Winner producers and producers, that worked for MTV through contacts, that I had way more fortune, than in the film industry. I still did not release anything, but there is an EP coming. It really is something else doing art just by yourself and doing your fun little Demos for yourself or having deadlines and needing to collaborate with other people, that are involved in the music bussiness and have their own labels and are investors in some kind.

I´m studying Psychology, doing a homework for antropology, going into Kant using ChatGPT to make my work easier and faster. ChatGPT "In the critical model, it is argued that the difference between transcendental self-awareness and empirical self-awareness is a matter of perspective and not substance, and that the thinking subject is an abstraction of empirical self-awareness." That is quite interisting! The "Empirical Thinking" subject is not really a subjekt Thinking, but a mere computer, that uses "Empirical Thinking" as his algorithm. The subject becomes quite literally an "Abstraction" of a counciouss being, like a computer, that is self-aware that it is using "Empirical Thinking" as his algorithm. Just something really interesting, that I wanted to share.

I can't just forget, what I've realized. Well, I could, but that's not something I'm interested in and would take too much energy just to realize it again. What I can honestly say, is, that I don't know what omniscience is. That's my next step. I want to know, if it's true or not. And have a great life at the same time!

I don't understand, how you can't be God, even if you are not God realized.

I don't count the psychedelics I do, but I have stopped doing them for several months, as I want to reinterprete my sober state, that's where I do my meditation. The hours I meditate? I don't know, I just go with the "flow", I just commit 24/7 to my work, which includes relaxing, studying, meditating, introspecting, doing all sorts of things and a lot of contemplating. I can't work good on timer or a strict plan. I'm just really determined to myself and try to not concentrate on as much drama as possible. I'm at a point, where I am so committed to life, that I don't really know what Life was like not being committed.

They are possesed by demons and out of nowhere stop function proberly and you go into windows properties to get it working and then out of nowhere, a good old beating makes it work again.

What´s your problem? I think this discussion is turning just into absurdity. I really did not want to attack you and your accomplishments about enlightment and all the years of suffering that went into it. I know what I am, and I don´t want to justify what I am. God has to justify to no one. And I really feel shocked that I have to justify my being to you. You are in no position to tell me, what I am or not, it´s just me. Please respect my souveranity as I respect yours. Thank you.

In those kinds of videos, they can just put whatever subtitles they want and no one notices it. I can put some angry american kid and put subtitles like: "Riceeaters have to die", or "Communism is evil, that´s why I don´t kill people, but I fight against evil." And show it to some chinese people. And sure, you can go to wherever you want in the world and you´ll eventually find those type of people. Eventhough it´s way easier to just put random subtitles. You can actually do the same and go to an american shooting range and distort it in some twisted way. This video just comes off as way to unprofessional and not nuanced, that I´ll dismiss this sort of critique. It´s even bad, for those, who want to make a real critique of China, cause you have to compare yourself with this. I mean go to any rural town in a Nato country and you´ll find people, that say, we should fucking nuke Russia or China, and why? Because of those kinds of videos. So the irony is, that what he is critiquing, he is doing himself. Critique the hell out of China, but nuanced, profound and with some epistemoligical integrity.

I´m sorry, you misunderstand me.

How do you get this assumption? You can be an entity behind your eyes, you can be in a fluffy state, where everything is made out of imagination, where are thoughts? Well in my fingers right now, writing this. You think, as if there are no other entities and when you put your thoughts in your mouth, you act as if others are hearing. You can make seperate entities in your thought, or communicate with others, as if they were also thoughts in your "mind" as a whole entity. It´s just a certain concentration on concioussness, and one doesn´t make the other untrue or true or real or imaginary.

I'm quite good at socializing, vibing. Even before actualized.org I just got those insights about vibe. The only thing that really drops my conversation rate, is going more intimate with the touch. I'm just so fucking scared to be mocked, once had to change universities, because there was a rumor going through the whole university, that I punched three girls in the face. I don't even know, where that came from. I haven't punched any girl in my life to be clear. But you can imagine that being in this environment, where everybody thinks you are a serial puncher, can become quite frustrating. I just have so much fear for my reputation, that anything, that can be used against me, may be used against me. And I'm quite bullyable, a little charactertrade I have, that I need to get sorted out. So that's what keeps down my conversation rate and I know, with some little tweeks in my psyche it could be 5-10% higher. Anyone knows how to deal with it? Of course just touch more anywhere, but man, everywhere I go, there's just so much shit talking behind the back and the reputation is just so fucking important, because it means social status, and everyone who wants to get you down, wants to get you down.

Well, I'd say imagination. I'm just imagination. Thank you.

It really made me think, when you posted, that some truths are just hidden under experience. And it clicked for me. Comprehension is experience and sometimes experience has to take another form to comprehend. And gets lost in experience again.

ChatGPT really depends on the inputs you give. When you ask ChatGPT about a specific Data, it gives the output of the specific Data. Else it gives you the norm of the ideology. When I wanted ChatGPT to write my opinion more formal, it did not want to do it and disputed my opinion. It just gave a fuck about helping me formulating my opinion on certain scientific articles and tried to convince me, that I'm wrong.

In my whole educational life span, I was never taught, how to think, nor did we even entertain thoughts of any kind. Not even in subjects like ethics, that I had in school. That's what I tried to point out, with this "empirical thinking", you just become a zombie of what others think, I think, that's what also Leo pointed out in "Why socializing makes you dumb". It's the mechanics, that I find interesting, that I've mentioned in my post.

Quite interesting with the Weed example. I mean even if, you can still do the vibe-bridge and have a lighter, that you can give or something like that. Learnt it from a friend. Always bring your light even if you don´t smoke anything, you can just give it someone and BAM conversation. I do like to be around people that smoke weed even if I don´t, you can use a whole type of another question palette, as they are in another state of councioussnes, which is really fun! You can literally vibe your way through this sort of stuff, I mean, if you are chill enough, nobody will question you why you do this or that, hang with them out, even if you don´t smoke. Because being chill equals to not being a danger or be seen as a survival threat and you can do all sorts of stuff. I saw a video of some guys going to areas that where prohibited to enter, they just put some clothes, that gave them authority and were also chill. Authority plus not be seen as danger and you can do a loooooooot of stuff.

One of the biggest L´s of Reagan and Thatcher economics was the implemantation of Share Holder Value. Of course most CEO are doing their Job way better, than 99 percent could ever do. But what kind of CEOs do we want and make accountable for what? The Share Holder Value Ideology really fucked up the responsibilities CEOs had. Even if there are kindhearted CEOs, they are literally held hostage by Investors.

You pointed it out in "legalizing drugs", right now there´s a real lack in political will and not just the politicians, but from normal people. Politicians will just do stuff, that gets them elected next year and try to get certain groups of people to vote for them. There can just be change, when you implement something, see if it works out or doesn´t work out and then implement other things. But we´ve got this mentality, that the economics we´ve got right now are the best out of fear. Any kind of hard set change will fail, so we need to take babysteps. But without any will, there won´t be change. And that´s where I´ve got my biggest problems with LGBTQ, Feminists(Nowadays) and Andrew Tate shit. They just be looking at content, but not structure, or they´ll look at structure and develope a victim mindset and go to Hustler University and maaaaaaaaaybe buy a Bughatti to compensate for their victim mindset they have or fight for shit like, more women as billionaires and buy their products to fight against this Hustler Ideology and then the Hustlers fight back, never taking real action. And it´s just as easy to know some basic politics and economics, so that politicians have a real responsibilty.

Reality really is personal, sometimes you gotta forget and that´s good, because that´s a really enjoyable aspect of reality. It would be boring watching a football match, knowing, that your Team will win. And then you connect with yourselves and it´s terrifying. It´s fucking personal Reality, I smoked some Weed, watched Leo´s guided exercise to god realization and then I somehow saw the puppets I had as a child, that were so personal to me. I really had a connection to them, and I saw them as an aspect of me. At the same time I had such a special connection to a specific person that I got reaally emotional and it didn´t feel bad in any sense. When you become one with another person, the love really hits to the core. And then I just slept, as if nothing had happened.

Nice anology with imagining something! Always love to read your posts,