99th_monkey

@Nomad lol id love one

i dont understand your intention here.

congrats haha

@Natasha thank you

nice to read this. my story mirrors yours a bit (passionate about work and a stay at home parent of young ones) but im much less regimented, and dont have any goals. And i completely understand your predicament with trying to meditate. getting 45 seconds of peace and quite is about as probable as getting struck by lightning. ive read your posts for a bit on here and theres not much i can offer you in terms of advise except to be easy on yourself You're a much better parent then you realize, you and your little ones are young enough so that the less neurotic you become, the less neurotic they'll become and you can build a happy healthy relationship with each other. cheers!

Was Jesus enlightened?

And be gentle. And remember that a judgment about being in the flow of a thought is also a thought, so just ease back and remember you're watching it all

We all are ;)

@Natasha thank you

I had battled with that as soon as the realization that "they weren't mine" And "I" And "they" weren't real. It was Hell

I've basically struggled with my attachment to them, my "daddy" identity

@WelcometoReality I have faith in that :)

hahaha

My problem is the "my children". can't seem to shed it, no real progress will be made until I detach from this. Be very clear about your intentions before you decide how to move forward. Had I known, I probably would never have started pursuing enlightenment, but now I can't stop,the fire is started and it's life ending.

then why do you need more "references"?

jees, it hasnt worked yet? maybe think about that?

Programming

sounds to me like you need to start digging,deep. i'm horribly unqualified to help you but some on here are

can you see something without light? can light exist without something to bounce off of?

This popped into my head this morning. couldnt help seeing the mirror "me" -Satan "mind"- Saddam "ME"- kenny

Rango