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Interesting!

Currently I'm just avoiding sleeping on my left side (where the shoulder pain is). I sleep on my back too, but only sleeping on my back seems hard. Like at some the urge to turn on the side becomes too big. Can you sleep only on your back? @Arcangelo ? I'll be strong. @Asayake Thanks for the info.

Yeah, I've done that. I've released some anger. It didn't help with the shoulder issue, but it's good to reduce overall anger levels

@Javfly33 @Javfly33 Yeah definitely the feelings of unworthiness and inferiority etc are linked to the addiction behaviour. It seems like a cycle, in which the addictive behaviour perpuates the negative emotions that are the root cause of the behaviour, wouldn't you say? Anyway, just keep doing the work, you're on your way.

@Medhansh Thanks! I'll look it up.

@mysticalninja Thanks for the info. Yes, I sound impatient because I am at this point ? Though, it's two weeks until the doctor's appointment, but it was in December when I injured myself, so it's been over two months. And since in the beginning it felt like "no big deal" I didn't even consider a doctor and thought it would probably vanish rather quickly, but it didn't

With ear plugs sleepers will soon be dominating the world ?

Immune relevant supplements that I take are: Vitamin C, Vitamin D, astaxanthin (an anti oxidant), a b Vitamin complex. Now I'm a special case because I'm treating a more complex chronic illness, so I take even more supplements that are not so relevant for the Immune system like magnesium, Omega 3 fatty acids and others. So I couldn't possibly tell which supplement has exactly which effects.

I would consider anything if it's promising, even a shaman at this point ? I'm gonna look up tomorrow if that doctor where I have my appointment is also a chiropractor (I think I might be vaguely remembering something). What I do know is that the head of my arm bone (sorry, too lazy to look up the fancy medical term) did not jump out of its normal position, but who knows maybe something in the shoulder blade did.

Yes it's normal in a sense, but it is still due to the "damaging" effect COVID had on your immune system. I had a regular cold about two years ago (that was my last one, I haven't caught COVID so far) and after about 10 days the cold was done, but because I had already had a weakened immune system, after the cold I had a persisting pain in the bronchia for 3-4 more months. This didn't go away until I started to take supplements in high doses. No idea about the pain being cured by COVID ?

Maybe you're not fully recovered yet, like a low key long COVID. COVID is a strong hit on your immune system, your body needs extra good care even after the virus is eliminated. More sleep, high doses of vitamins and antioxidants, less mentally straining activities, less stress. Do whatever you can to support your body, stop anything that seems to be weakening you, if possible.

@K Ghoul I never sleep without my ear plugs in ?

Honestly I think something like 600$ is enough of a "pay wall". Nobody who's not serious about it will pay that price. And if you make it a 1000$ there's still enough of a chance that some people who take the course will be dealing with the kind of problems that Leo described in his blog video. You could make it 5000$ and still wouldn't be able to exclude that risk.

I think anything above three gets annoying (if we don't count these very sporadic hook ups with some girls that are like once in two months or so).

Just do it!! Now!

It's so funny how just minutes before your first post I watched a YouTube video in which this "cobra Tate" dude also appeared haha. So you mean on their website it gets more orange or you mean something entirely different? https://youtu.be/9EiEE8Oxwz0 This is equally orange

@Javfly33 Isn't there a way to make this stuff very hard to access, so you can't fall for your addiction so easily?

It can't get any more orange ???

Not the boobs themselves of course, but the emotional reaction to your boobs for sure. What ever feels best to you. What would you do if you were confident about your boobs? Just do that. This strategy of waiting extra long with sex until he is in love etc can backfire a lot, because in all that time you will still worry that he may dislike your boobs. And it's still possible that he dislikes your boobs, I don't think a guy who loves you would then not love you anymore because of boobs, but it's kinda odd if you let him wait extra long to avoid the boobs issue. You'll have to make yourself vulnerable, so I wouldn't wait extra long with sex (unless this is what you'd do anyway). I wouldn't judge it. I've had girls who had their boobs changed and I could tell how there probably was a severe self esteem issue around their boobs (because they were still small after surgery, so they must have been tiny before), which is why I could kind of understand their decision. No. Just make sure you improve what you can. Develop a fun personality. Be confident about your boobs and sexuality. Be hot in the bedroom. Be the girl who does the things in bed that other boring girls don't do. Recognize and overcome your insecurities. Yes. If you're still insecure, then own it. Admit it. Don't worry about the not looking confident thing. If you have an insecuritiy it's still the most confident thing to admit it. You'd seem more insecure if you tried to hide it. Own it in a sympathetic, fun kind of way. "And I have to let you know I got funny looking boobs, don't be mean ok? ?" And as a woman it's not as important to be confident (for attraction). This boobs thing is only one thing. Don't let that colour everything else. You can still be confident as a whole. Absolutely. You can be a total sex Vamp and a crazy wild b***ch in the bedroom. Take his dick and slap it on your boobs and say "slap the funny boobs bad boy ?" Maybe let some porn chicks with small tits inspire you. They have small tits but behave like complete sex goddesses (Sasha Grey, Tori Black). Let him tit fuck you (well, when they are really small it's more like tit rubbing ) Learn how to give dirty blow jobs etc. Limiting belief. Let that go. Always. No matter how hot your boobs are. Men think about others boobs, pussies, mouths etc. They think about getting their dick sucked by two girls simultaneously and sex orgies etc. Everything you could find in porn is something a man might think about some times. Absolutely. Maybe you want to have a quick "I'm insecure about my boobs" talk before it to reduce tension. I've once had a girl undress herself and and then place her hands above her boobs saying "but they're really small" with a shy look. So I was like "I love their size" and she took the hands away. Then she was fine and we could fuck. That's just what you ask to feed your anxious mind. There's no guarantee ever. It might happen. Embrace it. Don't give a fuck. - Working on the subconscious mind - Release techniques, trauma release (EFT/tapping, shadow work) - mindfulness, acceptance

... before you dive really deep in spirituality? Or is it more like exploring spirituality deeply will make it easier to master your psyche, or maybe even that it's "mandatory" for psychological/emotional mastery? Can you even draw a line between psychology and spirituality? Is the only way to find out how much spirituality you "can take" to simply explore it or are there clear indicators for when deep spirituality is not yet appropriate? I'm not unstable, suicidal, depressed or anything like that, I'm just not completely free of "fuck ups". How can you know how deep you can responsibly go?

Will "I" ever experience life from a Leo Gura point of view?

Awesome. Was it like certain trips enabled you to "skip levels" so to speak? Like suddenly you were able to perceive things in a different way, and you couldn't possibly just have thought yourself to these conclusions without tripping?

Lol, an insecure ego gaining pleasure from placing itself above someone else ? Just be more loving.

Why did I dream up this thread? Is this something I'm doing to leave bread crumbs for myself, so I have an easier time awakening? It's crazy to understand how I would dream up a @Null Simplex character and a thread created by him with a story of him and his grandmother and his awakening and all that. I mean, you gotta give it to me. I must be damn good at creating imaginary characters and stories, I'm impressed by my abilities ?

@Jacob Morres Yeah he was pretty chill, didn't give much of a fuck. Just try to "tune into his energy" and mimic it. What must this guy be believing about himself and himself in relation to girls?