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@Javfly33 awesome! Thanks for responding!

@Leo Gura What would be your suggestion?

Hi all, I'm not gonna name the books because they are from his book list, but let's just say there's a thick one and a thin one and I ordered both of them and they arrived today. And I have to say the thick one seems kind of intimidating, it's so damn extensive, it literally has over 30 lessons (different techniques/methods). So my question is whether you really just work through all of the lessons one after another, practicing every single technique until you've mastered it. Has anyone here done this? What do you recommend? Thanks!

@flyingwhalee good to know. Thanks!

Hi guys, I haven't posted for a while but I think a lot of you still remember me from my more or less regular posts. So here's what happened: Last Tuesday I took a 150 ug of 1V-LSD. The experience went very normal like about 10 other experiences had gone prior to this one. 150 ug is also not my highest dose, I had priorly taken 170, 190, 225 and 245 (last one with a tolerance present though). Nothing crazy happened in this trip, I felt able to handle it during the experience. Because nothing came up by itself I felt into different fears/insecurities and let my body do the work to release them. This is the mechanism that had occurred in all prior experiences too. The body does trembling, shaking and twitching movements and it feels like the pent-up emotion is sort of flowing out of me. I felt into one specific anxiety of traumatic origin that I've had for about 19 years now and the same occurred (trembling etc), though I can say that this did not improve the anxiety after the trip. Directly after the trip I felt normal as always, just physically exhausted from all the movements. One or two days later though I realized that the specific anxiety had actually worsened and was now more out of control = harder to regulate. But not only that, it also seemed like the specific anxiety then started to generalise and then I was sitting there with constant anxiety which I could not regulate with thoughts anymore. I basically felt psychologically regressed 11 years back when I last had these kinds of states. The thoughts driven by this stronger anxiety made it very hard to not worry and this brought me much closer to depressive territory, like anxiously depressed. All together I feel destabilised (in the bad way, not like after a breakthrough, god realisation kind of trip like some of you have experienced). It seems like the substance activated or strengthend something in my psyche that is now very hard to control. I try to not worry, to not be negative or pessimistic and so on, but when it hits me I cannot will myself out of it or think myself out of it. @flowboy I should have listened to your advise about trauma and psychedelics. If you have any (positive) advice I'd be grateful. @somegirl As we recently talked about my lsd experiences in the pms I thought I'd tag you here. I wouldn't want you to take an irresponsible decision about psychedelic use. @Leo Gura If you know something feel free to share. To all of you: no matter what you write please be kind and supportive. Please avoid writing horribly negative or paranoid stuff. Be uplifting and encouraging if you can. Thank you all.

What kind of breathwork are you talking about? Like holotropic breathwork?

Thanks for that! You seem loving too!

@flowboy Thank you so much my friend! That post is loving and encouraging, I appreciate it very much. You seem like a great person btw! I'll do my best to recover quickly and I'll let all of you know when things get better.

Interesting story and experiences you share! Thank you man!

Thank you so much Leo for replying! It's really heartwarming to see that you replied even though you probably have better things to do and are busy yourself. I'm very grateful for this. You are love! Btw: if you don't mind me asking: how has your health condition developed? I hope you find the solution!

Specific to a certain cause but sort of can't be avoided at the moment. Then from there it generalises into, well, general worry about the situation/condition. Thanks for your other tips!

Thank you. Yes, deep belly breathing helps to calm me down. I'll do my best. Thanks for your love! Thanks for your help too. I appreciate the love. It means a lot to me that there are people who care!

@SamC bro, the important thing about this is to really not worry about it and have good communication with your girl. You are totally normal and things like this happen to all guys. Tell her how you need it or show it to her (jerking off) or do it yourself together with her. In any way don't freak out and tell your gf it's not about her.

Thanks buddy! Great post!

So you lie there doing the hyperventilation for a prolonged time. What's the minimum? I'd guess an hour but maybe more. But what do you do then? Do you simply stop and see what comes up? Or do you do some breath holds and then continue the holotropic breathing and do more breath holds? Or do you meditate? Should you contemplate or just look within or will it be completely obvious once you've surpassed some threshold? Thanks!

Set the intention already before the trip to bring up your "shadow stuff". If 130 was no problem you can try 150.

At a fairly big range of dosages, starting with about 100 mcg (maybe even 80 for some) all the way to about 200 mcg. You can go even higher and you will release emotions also at still higher dosages (even more so) but it will start to pull you more and more in the mystical realms, where there's less ability to analyse and work through things systematically and where experiences tend to become crazier, like very early childhood trauma, reexperiencing your own birth combined with ego death or even past life experiences, often accompanied by associated inner imagery of death, human violence, insanity, apocalypse and similar things. The high dosed experiences will overall probably do even more for your emotional wellbeing if you handle them well (no resistance, fully letting everything unfold and completely working everything through till the psychological gestalt is finished), but I would recommend working with lower doses for a while so you gain competence and trust.

@PurpleTree lsd is excellent for that. It brings these emotions up and let's you release them physically, you're body responds strongly to the emotions and you can let it out. You might need to actively feel into the emotions first (just think about it) but you might also automatically open the barrel just by taking the substance.

@Ulax good idea. Thanks!

Come on guys.

In my recent lsd experiences but also in some of my deeper meditations I saw internal images that I would say represent things like insanity, fear and terror. It's like quickly flashing images that come up and disappear and over the last few weeks they've become a bit more concrete and long lasting. What I concretely see is eye balls - kind of like when a potentially dangerous animal stares at you out of the bush - and scary looking human faces or grimaces (sort of "monster like"), which have their eyes and mouths wide open like they're in complete terror or going insane or maybe like they're getting tortured. What do you think where this might go or what it could indicate? Am I approaching ego death and thus see imagery that represent things close to death? I'm btw not at all concerned about it, I just think it's interesting. I do believe though that one of my next trips could get really scary ?

Makes me wonder whether there could be like a "stream of consciousness" in the collective unconscious, kind of like as though we're tuning into the same frequency so to speak, something that exists in a shared field of consciousness.

1.) Don't be dumb enough to take on any responsibility during a trip - at least if it's one of your first trips and you're inexperienced and don't know the effects of the substance very well yet; example: taking care of refiring a stove in the middle of a lsd trip (you might get overwhelmed, confused and scared) 2.) Always go with the flow, allow even the worst things to come up and embrace them; embrace fear and the feeling of going insane "If I die now, then I die...it is what it is" 3.) Ideally calm down already the day before the trip so you're as unstressed as possible on the day of the trip. 4.) Know about potential experiences by studying trip reports and reading books, so you don't resist anything that unfolds It's good to know that you could turn into a witch who's getting burnt in medieval times or similar things ?

I'm in my early 20s. I'm pretty young but I consider myself mature, despite the lack of experience characterestic of this age. I'm always trying my best Thanks for the kind words bro, I appreciate it. And you do seem more Matura for sure. At your age I was still a completely ignorant idiot ?

Interesting. Was this kind of like an authentic identification as a dinosaur similar to a reexperience of a past incarnation or more like some random space robot dinosaur kind of thing that just wanted to show you how weird your consciousness can get?