Federico del pueblo

This just kinda blows my mind. 4 Arms, 2 brains, 2 hearts, 2 lungs, 2 legs. And they perfectly work together.

@Ulax I have no idea of catatonia. Though chronic fatigue is something I've done a lot of research about. It's very difficult, if you're dealing with an actual chronic fatigue syndrome than it's only normal to take years to recover from it. I saw your other thread about trauma and psychotherapy. If you're indeed still dealing with a lot of trauma than this is probably where a big chunk of the solution is to be found. Trauma affects the autonomic nervous system (ANS). The ANS is one of the most important regulatory systems in the body, in fact it's involved in the regulation of all other bodily systems. Unprocessed trauma leads to unhealthy levels of chronic stress which can create a maladaptive stress response in the ANS. This is when your ANS is permanently malfunctioning with the consequence that a lot of other bodily systems don't function normally anymore. This also can affect the energy production of your mitochondria which would logically leave you with decreased energy. My very skilled doctor also explained to me that there's another process in the brain in which - as a consequence of the chronic stress from trauma and other sources - your brain downregulates its own energy supply (in the neocortex, your thinking area) which can explain some of the mental fatigue. You can research the free info material of the optimum health clinic in London, there are some free videos that explain their model of understanding of chronic fatigue syndrome and similar syndromes. They also have a program called "The RESET program" that specifically talks about overcoming trauma and the relation of trauma, the nervous system and chronic fatigue. A few more observations. Most people with chronic fatigue follow an approach of trying out everything in the hopes of getting lucky. But this often fails. Of course you must try out whether certain things affect you positively, but it takes more than that. You must build a holistic understanding of your illness. You must constantly be doing ALL the things that are known to promote health. Or you split up recovery in different stages of which the first stage is overcoming the majority of your trauma. Once you've achieved that it becomes easier to also do all the other good things like perfect diet, enough sleep, supplements/naturopathic treatments etc. Another very important point that almost always gets overlooked is respecting your energy limits. People typically go from 100% to maybe 30% energy when they get ill with chronic fatigue. Then they reduce their exertion from 110 % (they were already doing too much before the illness) to maybe 40 %. But that's still too much, even if it's a lot less exertion. You have to lower your exertion to 25% in order to recover, you must do less than you can. Check out a YouTube channel called "CFS unravelled". The guy also has a very holistic understanding of CFS, just like the optimum health clinic. You'll find many recovery interviews there. Also ignore all the advice with pills and energy drinks and caffeine and so on. That won't do anything for you, you just get a short burst of energy and then crash, which is just further stress on your nervous system.

@Someone herehere Seems like you're putting a lot of pressure on yourself. Don't do that. Just have sex several times. Do a lot of foreplay, fingering and pussy licking. Then when you penetrate don't just start like a rabbit with super fast thrusting, like this you'd cum immediately. Do slow thrusting. Watch your breath. Practice deep belly breathing instead of shallow and fast chest breathing. Practice that before in your fapping sessions. If you are disciplined enough you can easily make a fapping session last 20 minutes without cumming. I've had 45 minute long sessions with an explosion at the end, so it's definitely possible to postpone your money shot a lot. Use the g spot fingering technique and the rubbing her clit technique (carefully, with moisture, not rubbing too strong, especially in the beginning). When you lick her, don't actually lick her like a dog. Instead, find her clit and suck on it as if it was like a little nipple, that's the best technique. When you're close to the point of no return, just stop penetrating, pull it out. If she's like "why you stop?" you just tell her that you're postponing your cum shot. Wait for a moment with your dick outside of her and do the belly breathing, think of something else, don't look at how hot she is or anything. If you need to you can flex your pc muscle (the same muscle you'd use to interrupt your pissing stream) and sort of close of the pipe ? that will prevent you from orgasming too. You could even press with your fingers in the perineum area to stop the orgasm by again closing the pipe. And if you cum early anyway, just don't give a fuck about it! DON'T be apologetic about it. You're still way too much in that "omg I must please her" frame. Instead, blame it on her hotness. "That's all your fault...you turned me on way too much with your hot body, you made me cum fast...". Good luck and have fun!

Ok, before I even say it, please don't take my comment too seriously, it's just speculation. But I could imagine something like this: "Ok, we're 1:2 down against Japan...but Germany is leading against Costa Rica again...ah fuck it...we don't need to win this match, we'll be second in the group and avoid the half with Brazil and Argentina" I could just well imagine if Spain had received a message that Costa Rica is up 3:1 or 4:1 against Germany and that they'll likely win the match (which would have eliminated Spain), then there would have been more motivation to "remontar" their own match against Japan, but as Germany quickly recovered from their 1:2 against Costa Rica there was no more pressure.

Seems like Karma caught up with Spain ?

So I want to be optimistic that my acid trips will all go well. Also I'm fine with it if a trip becomes challenging, somewhat scary or negative. But just in case a trip was ever to become a complete nightmare I was thinking about having something up my sleeve that could help to either end the trip or drastically reduce the fear. They say that you can use Benzodiazepines like Alprazolam as a fast acting trip killer. Has anyone here used them or other Benzos? Did you ever have to stop a trip or were you in one that you wished you could stop? Do you think one should never kill a trip and just endure it even if it becomes the most hellish nightmare, because it could still turn all good? What other strategies do you suggest when the trip becomes more and more fearful etc.? Thanks!

@acidgoofy I got the book here. Were you referring to that text called "Instructions for the wrathful visions"?

Of course the distinction is artificial. But it's reasonable to distinguish the two. You know that in a dream you could do things that are impossible to do in real life as a human. I could sometimes fly or float through space in my dreams. In real life the physical laws prevent me from flying and these laws are permanent or consistent. I'd have to seize being a human to fly. The imaginary realm (the way "imaginary" is normally used) is inconsistent. I could imagine a unicorn or a three headed monster, but nobody can see it but me. Not even I can see it clearly. The physical laws might be "imaginary" too (imagined by god if you will), but they are imagined to be permanent, measurable and therefore certain phenomena become predictable, like the time needed to travel some distance. In my dream I might be able to travel a few light years within a split second, which I can't do here in the physical realm. Therefore the physical realm is perceived to be real as opposed to imaginary whether it's real or not. That's correct. I'm simply choosing to not believe anything until I know from direct insight, so my belief essentially is "I don't know" until I know.

I didn't mean to sound rude. Also I don't feel like you're forcing me to believe what you believe. Ok. So who or what is reading your (someone here's) comment? A fictional character called Federico? Is he conscious or not conscious? Is he you in another life? Is his life simultaneous to yours or after/before yours? How does it work? Are you writing this (Federico's) comment? Or are you just imagining it being written by an unconscious being? Also it's just unhelpful that it's never clear whether you are talking about someone as a person or someone as all of god. Of course I can imagine a bald head, whether I'm awake or asleep. It doesn't proof anything to me though. But if I watch one of Leo's videos he's gonna say whatever he said when he recorded the video, it's not gonna change unless he edits the video. In my dreams at night he might say anything and it's completely random. To me this doesn't proof that Leo does not have a consciousness of his own, how does it proof that to you?

That's all just a bunch of self-supporting rationalisations buddy. There's no way for you to know whether he is conscious or not. Why do you assume that if you're not conscious as him that this means he is not conscious? Did you logic your way to this conclusion?

I'm thinking about what's the best food strategy when tripping on LSD. I want to start the trip as early in the day as possible and I need to consider that for the first approximately 2 hours after ingestion I feel close to nothing and then the effects start to kick in and peak around 2 hours later (to be precise I'm talking about 1V LSD). Would it negatively interfere with the substance if I first took it sublingualy, let it in the mouth for maybe 20 minutes before swallowing and then eat something small about 45 minutes after having swallowed the substance? Like this there's not so much waiting time after administration of the substance. Or would you eat something directly after waking up, then wait an hour or so before taking the substance? Or maybe not eat at all until after the peak? What's your strategy?

Good to know. Thanks! Good insights. Thank you! Right, that makes sense. Thanks for your advice!

That could end badly ?

@eggopm3 @JuliusCaesar Good answers, thank you guys! ??

Nothing crazy because I want to gradually up the dose. So maybe I'll just do 100 mcg after already having done 80 and 60. It's not like I'm crazy enough to just do 250 mcg without experience. But even experienced and careful trippers have no guarantee to not get a bad trip. And with my post I was only referring to the really bad ones, like when demons show up to torture your soul for eternity ? The traumatizing kind of stuff.

Ok. So how would you do that? Watch something scary or think about scary stuff?

They are definitely not something you'd want to ingest regularly. They make you physically addicted after not a lot of time, so that they're typically only prescribed for acute problems to calm the patient down. But they often get abused due to their addiction potential. I don't really know about the toxicity, but I'd assume that they're not that good for your health, like most pharmaceutical drugs. And yeah, they can have a lot of side effects like almost all psychopharmacological drugs.

Great answers. Thanks guys!

@Thought Art That's pretty much how I see it. It's like this debate about inner game vs outer game in dating. Ideally you're good in both and both contribute to each other. If you know a lot of cool things to say, but feel insecure while saying them, it might still work, but it works less consistently and is much less fun. But if you don't know what to do at all it'll also make you feel insecure...

I think he makes good points, which people who are only doing (predominantly ineffective) inner work really need to hear. But he's also just overseeing and misunderstanding a lot of things. It's a case of pure stage orange judging stage green and viewing it as below orange instead of above. There's definitely value to inner work, but it's often poorly understood what that even means. I wrote a fairly long comment under the YouTube video, which I can't copy paste here, so I'll post the screenshots of it.

@Someone here I wouldn't begrudge Argentina if the finally won it again. Especially to see Messi crown his career to then retire would be a cool story. France is even after the several injuries still a very strong squad, but maybe not enough of a team. I'd like to see Germany get very far (as a German), but it looks like they're not there yet. They lack a top class striker and high class left/right backs. All together I don't see any one obvious favourite and my prediction of Argentina will probably be wrong anyway ?

@assx95 That all sounds terrible. But yes, it seems like there's no other option. Move out and live life on your terms. It seems like your mom is dealing with serious psychological issues, what she's doing to you is highly abusive. Don't feel any guilt. Your mom is coping and trying to transfer her own issues on to you. You are alright the way you are.

@OBEler thanks. Now the thing with the dose is a bit tricky though. I had taken the same substance 4 days prior at a lower dose and then used some LSD tolerance calculator to determine which real dose would lead to an effective dose of 80 mcg. The actual administered dose therefore was about 120 mcg and only God knows which effective dose I really experienced ?

(effective dose was about 80 ug of 1V LSD) There's a lot I could write about this experience. So many things happened and were experienced, it's a bit of a wild mixture. It was the first time I actually experienced "trippy" things and the mind fuck of what consciousness is and what my own mind is. At some point I started seeing patterns arise above whichever background I was looking at, the wall, the carpet, the ceiling. Certain geometries started to arise and fit themselves in the existing geometry of the background, the things started to merge and "warp". At some point I just wanted to look at my hand. So I saw my hand and the patterns on it (the hand lines, wrinkles etc.). Again new patterns or geometry was created, fitting itself within the geometry of my hand lines, creating an entirely new image that kept evolving. Then one moment later my hand kind of just disappeared. It was still there, but blended so perfectly into the background that it became practically invisible. It was like I could see through my hand. But it kept reappearing and everytime immediately new patterns were projected onto the hand (or just created there) and then it merged with the background again. This was already such a mind fuck. Just my own hand became this huge experience...it seemed to last very long. Vague faces would start to appear within the patterns of my hand, blending in, being created, being destroyed, some moment looking friendly, then neutral, then serious/evil. One minute of looking at my hand felt like almost an hour had passed. I felt like I could have walked down any of these small routes and immersed myself with it. E.g. had I chosen to put more attention on the evil looking little faces they would have become more, and more evil too. I just didn't decide to go all the way into this "little evil faces on my hand" experience. It felt like this was the beginning of insanity, just potentially though, I didn't feel insane, I also didn't feel bad or anything, but I could grasp how a certain mind might go down the route of insanity, how it could get lost in whatever kind of idea it might want to think of. Just getting more and more obsessed with something. Then my hand all of a sudden looked tiny, like the hand of a baby. It seemed like there was no more "scale", like you/I couldn't really tell how big or small things were. Just totally weird ? My room, which in reality is about 15 feet long and wide could now be several miles long and wide, or just one inch. There's no way tell. Each perception is correct but also wrong. Some time much later in the trip I looked at an image of a girl, and it all became so trippy. One moment the girl had a smile, the next instant the looked evil. Then she looked like a cute cheerleader kind of girl and then very serious. All of this just kept on moving and progressing. "Evil witch girl" => "cute innocent girl" => "girl with new face" "girl with another face" => "girl suddenly wearing different clothes" => "patterns arising around the girl but girl staying there in the center" => "serious girl" => "girl completely disappearing and merging with background patterns". "Girl staying present but growing small little devil's horns on her head and the colour of her outfit changing and warping and merging, appearing and disappearing. It was like many hundred of these small alterations were experienced, but each moment was an experience in it's own right. Each moment had the potential to become like it's own little universe, an experience to completely get lost in. ____________________________________________________________________________________________ At some point I just contemplated about different fears or insecurities. And whatever arose was just there, it was just experienced and felt the way it was. It's such a mind fuck to consciously contemplate about one of your fears and just completely, mindfully observe it. You just stare in the eye of the fear. And nothing happens, it's all ok however it is, the body feels unpleasant, so you observe the unpleasantness, which becomes an experience in it's on right. The unpleasant body sensation is just there, but it doesn't even really make sense anymore. You just observe it. "Unpleasant" has lost it's meaning. There's nothing unpleasant there, there's just experience, just sensation, just some energy, just now, the present moment however it is. The concepts like "not good enough" don't even make logical sense anymore. There's just some energy to be observed and experienced, that's all (it's hard to describe what I really mean here). And then just continuously experiencing the sensations of that fear. It's scary but also liberating. The fear loses a lot of it's power when you can observe it with so much presence. Crazy stuff... ____________________________________________________________________________________________ At another point I also experienced ecstasy, joy, Bliss and love. I had started to meditate and then later listening to inspirational instrumental music feeling into the music, feeling the love and just being grateful for existence. Being grateful for having "a life", as in a conscious experience at all. The music deepened these positive emotions of love, bliss, joy for life and became a new experience. Just imagine listening to the track I will link below (Gladiator, now we are free) and experiencing every second of it. Every 20 seconds of the track seeming like hours and hours. Feeling all the love and joy in it. All the love of whoever created this music, how they must have felt, then just being completely immersed in the music, feeling free, feeling the NOW. It seemed like the track would never end, but it was amazing like this. ____________________________________________________________________________________________ Ok, I'd say that's about it. A lot more could be told but I would keep writing forever, so let's just end it here. Have a great day! https://youtu.be/ghxzLw2wRis

@Thibo there's a lot to say about self healing, it's a bit of a complex topic. Obviously, if you can find a doctor who's specialized in your disease, this would be very helpful too. People who recover from complicated chronic diseases typically do so by sticking to some kind of holistic recovery approach for a lot of time. What can such an approach consist of? Well, a lot of the things you already mentioned...but why is that? Let's first address what keeps people sick to answer that. People stay sick due to several factors that are working against them at the same time, so that it becomes too hard for the body to heal whatever ailment is present. For a lot of people the factors are inadequate nutrition (especially if the illness comes with specific, new nutrition needs/problems like intolerances etc.), toxins from the environment and in food and very importantly chronic stress. That last factor is typically underestimated but it is more often than not what prevents recovery, because a body will not heal in a state of stress and people completely misjudge how stressed they are because they've somewhat normalised to it because it seems normal in our modern world to be stressed. So if you can find some kind of good supplement program for your liver condition (or maybe even conventional medication in some cases), the nutrition that works for you, avoid toxins WITHOUT becoming completely neurotic about never ever eating the wrong thing or being exposed to some toxin and manage to keep your stress level low, then you maximize your chances for healing. Important note about the stress issue: in a lot of cases psychological trauma and all the consequential anxieties also plays a major role in recovery. Trauma is basically a type of chronic stress and it effects the body on many levels, including the regulation of genes (gene expression) and your entire biochemistry and physiology. If you want to get still more hyped about healing the body using the mind I'd recommend Dr. Joe Dispenza's 'you are the placebo'. It's just so informative and jaw droppingly inspiring due to the amazing recovery stories it includes. For immediate help with any of your lingering anxieties about health I'd recommend 'emotional freedom techniques'. This technique can help you to rewire your brain in order to weaken/eliminate these anxieties and calm the stress center in your brain. Hope this helps. Good luck and best wishes.