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It's an ebook of 30 pages. https://a.co/d/ixi1R8D

@numbersinarow It's ok . Your value as a man is not determined by wether you have a girlfriend or not and simultaneously there are many opportunities waiting for you out there.

I was coming to hostel with my guy friend and a friend who is a girl. She paid for me for eating ice cream. I was saying no at first for not eating it but she paid for me and my friend. The belief that I can get a girlfriend is getting stronger.

@Ulax Thanks. Hope it sells.

@Husseinisdoingfine But that's still a good number as for me who meditated 1-5 minutes since years .

When I started regularly meditating in December 2019, I could just meditate for 1 minute . After 1 year I increased it to 5 minutes and now I am meditating 20 minutes per day. I am doing the no manipulation technique and the more I make myself present I realized that external noises , other's voices are artificial while natural sounds like sound of the fan and the air touching my leg are natural. Could anyone explain this ?

@Spiritedness It feels like all other noise are coming from artificial sources and stillness seems natural.

Has anyone tried to got off from the self improvement treadmill for some time by stop binge watching YouTube self improvement videos and just only recording their mood in an app or journal or somewhere and simultaneously apply an specific course worksheets. Even tough YouTube has enormous potential for improving one's life. I am doing this since weeks and here are my mood recording since 5 days

@Starlight321 Great dude. Congrats.

@BlueOak Suffering is a part of life.

@BlueOak Yeah we have accept our own suffering and negative emotions

Radical self honesty with oneself and then others.

I don't know what is going in this thread except me thanking @Leo Gura. 😂

@NoSelfSelf Thanks for the help.

@Keryo Koffa This thread was just made for thanking Leo , come'on dudes not trolling him.

@Spiritual Warfare I think it is some sort of troll.

How ? Any sources , proofs as it seems some sort of troll because Leo's face is morphed .

Haha but Leo is not a virgin as the title of movie is wrong.

Dudes , what you all are doing . Stop gaslighting him .

@Husseinisdoingfine I have been there and the best option for me was to move on . As you can't control others but you can control your thoughts and actions.

@Lila9 thanks.

Mods , please don't take this thread down . If it spirals out of control then you all can take this thread down. As @Husseinisdoingfine needs serious advice cause he is in a terrible condition. @Husseinisdoingfine some confrontation is needed in life but not too much. I also had confrontation with few people in my college.

@Husseinisdoingfine I am sorry to say it but it might be a blessing in disguise for you as you can explore other courses at different universities . I know it's hard and nobody would want to go through it . Seeing your previous post in which you were suicidal for your academic situation this situation would be an opportunity for you to explore different courses at different Universities. Best of luck.

@Emerald I remember that it's been since 2015 when all the bullying , romantic rejection , heartbreak started. In 2015 I felt in a one sided love with a girl , then she started dating other guy. In 2016, I proposed her she said no. Few of other girls were also there in my school who used to treat me badly. In 2017, I left that school and joined another school. I had this girl whom I talked regularly but another guy stole that girl. Then in 2018 I had a really awful experience, that a girl whom I liked and was talking to told me to stop doing dating and all and study as these things are useless , she then at the same time was flirting with another guy in my class . I remember that evening in my study coaching institute. Then next few days was my exam , I felt really bad. Leo's video - What is actuality helped me from drowning in more misery. Then I again met another girl and had a good interaction only to discover that she had a boyfriend. Then I took an year drop for preparation of college, then I talked to another girl and all of a sudden she disappeared from muly life. At that time I started seeing a psychiatrist who prescribed me antidepressants, antipsychotics (2019). When I entered college , I again proposed a girl online by saying- I love you. She bullied me , hurted me, her friend gave me a threat over call. When I transitioned to offline classes, she started dating another guy and her attitude towards me was very bad , still is. Up until now I am still on antidepressants and other medications. I began self help around 2017 of January. Sorry for the long post. I usually don't write this long.

I had an online confrontation over text with a family member who used to put me down and later I cut off contact with him. I rarely contact him.