Gustav

I have a friend who can sense ghosts. She hasn’t given it much thought other than being uneasy and scared. I have encouraged her, saying she’s one among few who can. Told her she should develop her abilities and that she can help people, dead and alive. Help souls who are stuck to move on. Personally I have no such abilities so I can’t teach her anything. But she says she doesn’t know where to start and needs help. Can anyone help me/us and point in the right direction as to where to start, get more information or how to practice hearing and communicating with spirits/ghosts? How do you become a medium basically. Thanks

Still very diffuse.

So, Karma = conscience ? or Karma = domino effect ?

When placing the heel under the perineum and sitting on it in meditation, it hurts and creates a burning sensation on the heel from the pressure. You know similar sensation like when folding your leg under your body and sitting on it; it burns and falls asleep and circulation is cut. It it supposed to hurt or go away after some practice or what?

I'm not sitting in a kneeling position. I'm am trying to sit the yoga way with "legs crossed" with left heel under the perenium. Siddhasana with cushion.

I am confused about the point of enlightenment work, especially at the ultra-high levels. How do we reconcile the following (this is my terrified interpretation): On the one hand, no possible life can have true happiness, fulfillment and peace of mind, even if all your wishes were met and you dominated the world, without becoming spiritually enlightened. The most fantastic life we can conceive of would be nothing compared to being enlightened. On the other hand, to enlighten oneself is to annihilate oneself. And further, to realize one is God, Love, Infinity, and all the rest, is just too much to take. To go into that territory I must kick and scream and burn in purgatory. If I knew what I really asked for, I would not want it. @Leo Gura says "YOU DON’T WANT IT." Jed McKenna says "Waking up is kinda dumb." When we say "You don’t want it", we mean "I, me, the ego, this person right here talking, yes me!" don’t want it, but do we also somehow point to something beyond "me/I" that don’t want it, whatever that even means? I mean can there be resistance to deeper awakenings even long after one sees through or "destroys" the ego? How is it possible to not be able to stomach deeper awakenings if there is no ego at all to have preferences and have to "stomach" things? See I can’t help but think somehow one could regret having awakened, or at least becoming conscious of specific things (God, Love, etc.). I’ve got the impression that some awakenings can be so deep and radical that they’re just too much to handle EVEN for someone who has lost their ego long ago and have no stakes in life or preferences, that beyond a certain point awakenings will only be more hellish. Behind reality’s final curtain there is eternal hellfire. In short, it is simply not possible to completely surrender and not suffer at the deepest of the deepest insights of reality. It seems twisted that pursuing deeper and deeper awakenings can lead to greater and greater hell, but I know that to have a nihilistic view of spiritual enlightenment is to misunderstand it. Yet this is my impression that I’m trying to sort out. I don’t know what do make of it and what to do with myself. I hope what I’m asking makes sense, but in short it boils down to the question: How is it possible to not be able to stomach deeper awakenings if there is no ego at all to have preferences and have to "stomach" things? Or simplified: How and why are deeper awakenings beyond ego-death challenging and difficult? Thanks! Gustav

If you are the mad scientist, please unplug my brain from the vat now please.

How? Who? And why? Someone gotta explain this!! I am talking on a forum. Behind the words is a person like me answering my questions. Of course, as a matter of direct phenomenological experience, I have an idea of a person and simply a screen in front of me. But how is that the same thing as calling it imagination? And in what way is it my imagination? Why would I imagine "a guy on the internet" when it’s a lot simpler to imagine 5-MeO in my hand, which I don’t have. This is solipsistic hell to me.

If you’re talking about life purpose or creating something for others then sure, I think about that. I’m taking Leo’s course and I have some ideas. Probably my field is education in some fashion. Five things could be: reform mainstream education, build a school in Nigeria, write a novel that inspires, donate to charity, coach depressed people. I can get excited by the image of these things. But in this thread I’m not particularly interested in getting more inspired and happy. I was simply wondering what is meant by dreaming and waking up and my role in it or the bearded man in the clouds or whatever... I’m a cartoon with a red chimney on my head reading this.

Sigh... Right. And what do I do with this information?

"I am a trickster? Here we go again, it’s my fault as always" is what I think. I know you don’t mean that, but this is what I hear. Again I would snap my fingers to become awoke if I could.

@Nahm Hmm, you need to elaborate just a bit cause I don’t understand what you mean. I can come up with words like happiness, peace, fulfillment, joy, spontaneity, aliveness, excitement.....

@The0Self I appreciate the advice, thanks! I have just begun taking psychedelics so I’m gonna experiment more with shrooms and LSD first, MDMA maybe mescaline and then work my way up to DMT and 5-MeO. I’ll probably do some trip report then.

@Inliytened1 Well.... yes. But also, no.

This is exactly the kind of words that make me depressed. How can enlightenment come too early? Too early for what exactly? If it destroys suffering, how is that ever a bad thing? And if some kind of anthropomorphic force or demon or Zeus is conspiring and holding me back, what is the point in that? But there is no bearded man in the clouds, or is there? It sure feel like the universe is conspiring against me.

@Inliytened1 Not yet and I play with the thought, whether or not it will do more good than bad for me right now on my journey. I don’t want to destabilize my psyche before I have some basic psychological infrastructure to fall back on as well as meeting "survival needs". Maybe 5-MeO will help with all that and I am mature enough, but I don’t know for sure.

This seems to be the same thing to me. And it’s exactly thinking about what I want from life and not see it forthcoming that makes me go mad. And then on top of all frustrations, spirituality makes me apathetic.

Obviously I mean dried. And I don’t take medication, never have, never will. My friend who helped me get it said it was reliable and another friend who tripped on the same shrooms seemed to have better luck. So in any case I seem to have been dealt the worst hand in terms of tolerance. Also I took ayahuasca and 2 out of 5 times I was sober. This was in the Amazon with real shamans.

@Leo Gura I understand that it’s a catch-22 and I understand my limited perspective hinders my comprehension. Yes, if I’m afraid to take a step towards something but I trust the fear of taking the step will vanish after I take it, it’s a leap of faith and it makes sense to do it. Yes. However, in some cases I can take a step if I wanted, but I cannot snap my fingers to wake up, and this is a fundamental difference and problem. Otherwise I would have made myself enlightened just like that long long ago using the step-logic. Yet reading comments here always makes me feel like somehow it is indeed my fault, like awakening is just at my reach but that I refuse it. This is where the nihilism comes flooding in for me and a sense of guilt and shame. From my perspective this is totally unfair. I meditate and self-inquire baby but it leads nowhere. I did 2 vipassana retreats, one 30-day inquiry solo retreat, and a 3-day enlightenment intensive. I dare psychedelics baby. The first I ever tried was ayahuasca (never even smoked weed). First round was just nightmarish and without insights really. 4 weeks later I did a 10-day retreat with 4 more ceremonies, but it didn’t do much for me, barley had an effect. I’ve done shrooms twice, 2g and 6g and basically felt nothing both times. Got the Kriya book now and want to learn but so far that too seems extremely difficult and overwhelms me. So yeah.... shoot me plz.

I still don't get it. If I live a life of suffering, how does that make someone want to stay in a dream because one enjoys it? To me this suggests that waking up would be worse. Otherwise all this talk about enjoying dreams makes no sense. Please help me understand..!!! I'm existentially confused and scared..... I don't know what to believe anymore, and I don't want to make any decision about anything, just be all over with it.

When I read things like this it feels like it gets shoved down my throat. What does this even mean? I did not choose to be born. What is the point for "some comsic intelligence" to create a human who is doomed to suffer and cannot escape even throguh suicide since one will be reincarnated as some miserable soul. When you say stuff like this it makes the universe seem incredible dark and cruel, like there is only hell for eternity in all directions.

I'm taking the Life Purpuse Course, which is the best investment of my life. Even just the first part is completely revolutionary and I could easily pay five times more just for it. That's why I've been excited every time @Leo Gura has been dropping hints about other courses, one about subconscious programming and another about creativity. Also I've noticed, for several years now, by the end of every video one bullet point is always "Online CourseS". What can we expect as far as courses go @Leo Gura ? I am conviced more courses, especially about subconscious training, would have massive leverage for many people, myself included. Peace

That sounds incredibly amazing! I figured you’d probably not drop the idea completely, but I was getting worried since, after all, your other content has been coming out. I’m curios, that’s why I post: I understand it’s a mix of time and effort and priorities behind the scenes, but can you explain what the challenges are with making and releasing a course right now? Friendly curiously asking! It really sucks to hear about your health, I was clueless about the severity before the blog upload on July 21. You have all our best wishes, you deserve the best!

In that case, if the work revolves around getting to deeper and deeper levels of truth, and truth is peace of mind, can someone elaborate on what is meant by "Be careful what you wish for." Be careful what I wish for? Really? Is this only referring to the toil and work and pain of being in the process of awakening rather than what comes after "popping out the other side" so to speak?

Of course, I accept sacrifice of the ego. My speculation concerned if deep truths also require sacrifice of peace of mind.