Silver

Thank you all for your insightful replies. I was thinking why I can't take this fulfillment and joy into the life where I interact with other people and it looks like I loose the awareness of the reality, my ego takes over. I would prefer to have joy and still interact with the world at the same time. Like Nichols Harvey said: But how can I get there? By reminding myself of the reality over and over when I find myself that ego has taken over?

Hi, I appreciate if I can get some advice. So I am 25 years old, I have noticed that whatever I do in my life, is it a business success, fitness, relationships every time the happiness I feel is so shallow compared to the joy and fulfillment I feel when I'm just alone and not aiming for anything. I don't know why is it like that. My ego says that I should live like a normal guy, have goals, have a good relationship but I end up always unhappy. I'm confused, am I ****ed up in my head or is it how it should be? Based on my feelings I should live alone with no friends, no goals, no relationship but this sounds just so bizarre. My ego is giving me signals like cmon don't waste time, do this do that and so on. Thanks, Silver