MattFD

Hi. Just wanted to say firstly thanks for having me on the forums and thanks to Leo for providing a great outlet for his international supporters to help each other etc, also please forgive my no0biness if this thread is in the wrong section. Thought I would post this as I don't really have anyone else to speak with about these sort of things currently - why not let a bunch of strangers weigh in I am 29 years old and live in a remote rural town on the South Island of New Zealand and I am scared that I have become the person I always feared/swore I was never going to be: Alone, stuck in a dead end town and without any real direction. After a separation with my partner of three years, and workplace injury in the mine that I worked at ,my life went spiraling out of control, but it happened so slowly I didn't even realize it was happening. Being a night person now due to being permanently injured and having no reason to wake early, I do my best thinking and I am at my best state of mind/motivation levels late into the night and early into the next morning, however once I wake to a new day its gone again and this pattern has been occurring for nearly three years. I guess all I am asking is has anyone been in this situation before and maybe some suggestions that could help me get out of this hole I am in. Thanks for taking the time to read this. Matt.

@Mendy Thank you. Thanks for taking the time to reply and thanks for reading

@MonikaBcn Thank you for reading and your reply. I will check them out.

@ayokolomo It's not that I want to change who I am, I just want to be back to who I was. Currently relocation is difficult for me due to being left with two dogs from the separation. Its not impossible but with only part time work and the way renting houses works over here it is very hard to rent a place that allows dogs.

@The Alchemist Yeah that's how I ended up here. Really great stuff

@The Alchemist As a by-product of being off work so long I started gaming during the days. I have a fairly successful YouTube Channel which is the only thing I am passionate about nowadays. Aside from that im just not interested in anything anymore lol.

@The Alchemist My ankle is permanently damaged. I can walk but haven't run in a long time (properly for substantial distance) I know that exercise every day is a large key to getting better but often I will go months exercising etc then it just slips away. I guess my main issue right now is I can't commit to anything. The fire of thy youth is gone currently

South Island, New Zealand. Thanks for having me