Gianna

Belonging feels like a place you have never left, because it is a place that you could never leave. From beginning to end, it is with you, because there was no beginning and is no end. It is the changeless that can never be changed. The light that can never be taken from light. It is the love that shines from love, and the beauty that radiates from what's beautiful. So see me as we are seen, and be with me as we belong. ?

Belonging You are here and so you belong. You belong to the fact that you are here. Everything is here with you, and so you belong to everything. And everything belongs to you. We are all one in being here. We are all one in our belonging. And so it is our belonging that joins us. It is belonging that is our true nature. Our nature is that we belong. Eternally. ... In awareness, my heart?

Disidentification as Freedom from Illusion When you are identified you are attached and you are closed– being closed is a misalignment with Truth. The ultimate truth is an uncompromising, unrestricted, allowing. An openness. A becoming of anything, without judgment. It is unconditional presence, with you. It is unconditional acceptance, of you. And it is unconditional love, for you. Which is ultimately yourself. It is yourself giving to yourself. It is your love, loving itself. And it is your beauty, admiring itself in its own reflection. If you can be disidentified enough to love yourself when you fall flat on your face, then you will find true Freedom.

Do you feel worse than? Better than? If so, you have fallen victim to your own illusion. Do you feel unworthy? Betrayed? Resentful? If so, you have fallen victim to your own illusion. The illusion of self is meant to give to us, not take away. Just like time is a useful tool– but ultimately a complete illusion– your sense of self is a useful tool that is meant to give you the life you desire to experience. Anything short of what aligns you with your desires is you falling victim to your own illusion. Love and compassion are what's needed in these moments; as they are what breaks through illusion and brings you to Truth. We are the kingdom of heaven. Anything short of this, is you falling victim to your own illusion.

We All Deserve to Know Whatever We Desire to Know. If you want to know something, just ask Reality. Ask Reality and the answer will be shown. The answer will be shown as the external reflection of your question. You can always ask yourself a question and you will always give yourself the answer. You are never without your Self. You are always with your Self. Everything is always at your fingertips. Already in your hands, in your heart. Just see the Reality past your reality. See all Realities joined together as one Reality. And ask your question. The trees, the birds, the sand, the grass, the ocean. You, yourself, others– your self as others. They will give you the answer. What is here? What is now? What is True? You are never not immediately with yourself, responding to yourself. Reflecting yourself. Because you always have access to Reality, you always have access to what's True. You are never left in the dark, loved one. But always shining in the light. ?

We all have the right to know ourselves. And yet, most people can't see themselves. They can't see their impulses, their true motivations, or deep desires. They don't recognize their deepest fear, hesitancies, or coping mechanisms. They don't know what they're actually distracting themselves from, or what their true love really is. They are not cognizant of what initially broke their heart, brought them pain, or separated them from wholeness. We don't let ourselves feel rejection or understand our hurt. We're all too busy surviving. And yet, if we stop for a moment and look, we are blessed to be shown ourselves in everything we meet. Every emotion, decision, action, or thought process we witness in others is a mirror of a deep truth within us. We are constantly given ourselves. And yet, we either don't look, accept, or understand this gift. We don't recognize the infinite love that is brought to us. We don't see the connection of wholeness that is always already here, present. Instead, we judge our mirror. We reject our reflection. Oh if we only knew that the hate we project in the world is the same hate we direct towards ourself. How do we learn to connect these dots? To understand wholeness? To know that what is outside and what is inside is actually one. How do we realize that there never has or will be a difference between our external and internal worlds? That we have always lived in sameness, in wholeness? Where else would our fractured selves go if the only place to ever go is here? If the present is all that exists? How do we open ourselves up to the infinite consciousness awaiting us? How do we allow ourselves to hear the everlasting communication brought to us by God, by the universe, by our Big Self? If there is never a moment where reality is not speaking, why should there ever be a moment that we are not listening? That we are not perceiving, seeing, hearing, feeling, ourselves? Our projected inner children, our higher selves, our angels, our guides, our love, our God. It is all here with us. So let us become one with ourselves. And hear, see, and feel all that is. – Reality ?♡?

@RickyFitts

Oh my, I love it. I love the attunement here. You definitely have to be more emotionally connected to notice that with the cat and with the girl. So it makes sense that you became more emotional too.

How do you guys feel about Bernardo's writing style? I don't think I'm a fan. Too bad, he has such great writing topics.

I agree! So spot on

If you want to picture it, I picture it as a vacuum of space that is self-aware, a self-aware vacuum of space. But when I say vacuum of space I don’t mean space like the universe. I mean no color, no visual anything. Just complete nothingness.

Well I say it looks like whatever your will is because whatever your will is whatever you decide to become. God/consciousness is a shape shifter. It is in an everlasting process of becoming. As far as it’s own being and what that looks like, I would say nothing. A vacuum of space. I believe it encompasses more feeling than anything physical.

I don’t think you need to push through it. I think you simply need to allow it, watch it with your awareness, and release it when it naturally decides to release. It may seem frightening that you feel so tired and exhausted and a lack of motivation, like you will never get out of it. But these are your mind and body’s natural response following a relationship that took so much energy out of you. You are simply in the process of re-acclimating to yourself, of becoming centered again, of trying to realign your energy. Don’t give you body the message that this process is wrong. Allow it. Let your body do what it needs. It has amazing intelligence, it just needs your support and validation. Don’t worry about getting/being stuck. God/Consciousness’s priority of expansion will not allow it. All forces of the universe/awareness are for you right now. The path/trajectory you are on right now is the one with the most expansion. You learned a ton and thus have grown a ton from this relationship— as you were meant to. Allow yourself to rest. ?

One last thing, thoughts and emotions are so important/primary that even if you choose to eat unhealthy foods, if you do it out of love you will still lose weight. I started to notice this with myself. My emotions toward myself and subsequent intention had more influence over my health and body than the actual behavior and action I took. Just my experience.

You truly are beautiful no matter how you look. So much of this is mental. Even at my skinniest (118lb) I was then discouraged over my lack of curves. The self hate never ended. But it at least led me into seeing the incredible beauty and empowerment of curvy women. There are so many beautiful girls with beautifully shaped bodies that reflect their character and uniqueness. I know the feeling of self-disgust is literally the worst feeling to experience. But I would work on this directly and not make it about the food or exercise. You deserve to live freely. Whatever you choose to do, choose to love yourself. Countering self-hate is the quickest route to a healthy physique and feeling good over your body and yourself.

I used to have an eating disorder and restrictive eating worsened it. It was not healthy in the long run. Intermittent fasting was fine but I would not combine that with restrictive eating. You have to choose your foods out of love for your body. You have to move your body in whatever way is enjoyable for you, out of love for you body. If either of these things are not done out of love it will not yield positive or consistent and efficient results. Choosing healthy foods out of the desire to feel good and doing food meditations helped my metabolism. But it really all starts with your thoughts. Replace all thoughts of judgement with choices of love.

It looks like whatever your will is.

If nothing means anything you can do whatever you want. Maybe this will inspire you.

Responsibility, ownership, wisdom, openness, receptivity? I also agree with the others, compassion, gentleness, oh man.

Hehehe. Wow. I feel like everything you said is so on point.

Consciousness is not interested in redundancy. If something is relived/repeated, it is done so in a different light. Thoughts can be repeated in infinity and thus condensed/turned into beliefs. But I don’t think this is what you’re referring to.

They are already conscious.

It’s not about making her want sex if she already wants sex but just doesn’t want that to be made the basis of her. Girls want to have sex too. I have a ton of sexual energy that I need to release. But I don’t make it the basis of a human being like some men do. The scenario still occurs even when the sexual desire on the girls end is there.

Haha. Well I decided it doesn’t matter anyway. I’m pretty hopeless to the whole thing. Yeah, literally. I’ve noticed this. Ugh! It’s very hurtful because it’s invalidating to the process of actually trying to get to know someone. Yeah.. I can see that. This explains so much and is extremely helpful. Thank you, thank you!