Gianna

Because the reasoning is where I think I get myself in trouble because I'm too fucking passive and pleasing. Maybe my new trick of the trade is to never add any reasoning to anything.

@Flowerfaeiry I am going to soon. I have to. Do you think reasoning is necessary? Or just the clean break?

I knowww huh. Ugh! Hmmmm. This is interesting! This is probably why it'll never happen. Because you can't have one without the other. Looks like we're fucked then (not literally).

HAHAHA omg this is toooo true. Okay this is soo true. I know a guy exactly like this so you are so right. But actually, he's the only guy that I'm interested in right now. Haha. Go figure.

Okay. I think that it's because it would be sooo hard for me to put myself out there because I'm so used to guys coming to me that I feel bad denying them. So I guess because it would hurt me I am projecting that onto them as if my rejection would hurt them. But you are saying they are used to it?

This is the thing guys, I totally appreciate when guys put themselves out there. I think it takes courage, effort, vulnerability, risk of their esteem. I look at these things as good ways to be in the world. So do I want to punish them for it by denying them? No! I want to encourage them and say yes that's awesome! But nooo not with me, find someone else. Haha.

I do not ghost people and I am sick of flaking. I just need to learn how to be brutally honest. But honestly, I feel bad for the role guys have to play: always having to make it happen, being rejected. I know it's probably not easy! I appreciate when guys put themselves out there. So do I want to slam them down on the ground when they are putting themselves out there? No, I do not want to do that. I would rather be covert. But this is clearly not the way to go haha.

HAHAHA. Omg I love you. Um because I want to be single. I am 24 and have a whole life in front of me. I want to have freedom and be able to live however I choose.

I'm not talking about one specific person really this is a continuous problem in my life. Someone commented and asked for context so I gave them one. There is one guy specifically that I do love to hang out with we have awesome conversations and similar interests but clearly, I am not going to be able to hang out with him anymore– this is very very unfortunate. I'm sick of having to deny him. Obviously, I am not clear enough but how much of a bitch am I suppose to be? That's not my nature I don't enjoy having to do that.

Sooooo can anyone give me actually liners to say? Like specific statements. Clearly, I need help with that. Haha.

@Preety_India Thanks girl. Also, this is so true:

I don't want either of those.

Okay, so how would YOU do this. Specifically. What specifically would you say?

Is it bad to want masculine energy also in my life but as friends? Like wtf.

HAHA. Omg. I want people– as friends. But they don't want to be just friends. So I have no friends. I have blocked numbers. And I know I need girl friends I am working on that.

Well yeah. But what if they keep texting you? Do I say, "please stop texting me?" Haha.

@Arcangelo I knowww. ugh. but HOW.

@Iksander Someone you thought you were just friends with but who is trying to make it something more. Actually, this just triggered me to think that maybe a good thing to say is, "I like you better as a friend." Is this totally defeating? Haha. I shouldn't underestimate what others can handle. But I hate the idea of possibly hurting someone's self-esteem.

Because once upon a time society treated women as objects to own. How do you take your living object off of the market? How do you make sure no other man sleeps with or sells your woman? By creating marriage. Of course, this is only one interpretation

Are you seeing yourself in everything?

@LastThursday @Nos7algiK These quotes help me so much!! Thank you guys greatly. I am going to quote some below so I can refer back to them.

I would work on your emotional needs first and your life purpose second. If you do not fulfill your emotional needs they will control you. They will get their needs met with or without you. Join pickup if that is what you have been wanting. Follow your desires and your emotions. They are a compass to tell you what direction to go. Suppressing them will only lead to madness. You did not come here to deny yourself. You came here to give yourself whatever you need to grow, to experience, to learn, to feel, to understand. You came here to fulfill your desires. Let yourself do it!

@knowyourroots I would keep going and let your body lead the way. Your body (including your emotional body) knows what it needs. Just listen to it. Ask it even. Get in a deep meditative state and ask it, "Do you need CBD? Mushrooms?" Lol. My guess is it'll say no. All it needs is You.

This is everything <3 "To be this mystery consciously is the greatest joy" I can 100% attest to this. So unbelievably true.

Maybe they are referring to superposition hehe