Gianna

Sometimes people feel really good about something in the moment and initiate. But then when the time comes they get nervous, anxious, and it's 10x more hard to put themselves out of their comfort zone. Is she introverted? I would seek more understanding from her before you do any devilish act.

Maybe.. I feel like I have problems with self-expression sometimes in the moment as I freeze up. So maybe this is holding back the emotion from being fully expressed when I'm around others. But it still happens when I'm alone. But then maybeI still hold back when I'm alone. Idk, I don't feel like it's shame or guilt. But I think you're right, there is definitely something there blocking the emotion from being expressed. Maybe I should just scream because that's what it makes me feel like I need to do. haha

It means that reincarnation is not what you think it is.

Let's take a vote hahah

In one of Leo's episodes, he said something along the lines of: Who are you going to turn to? If you run to your Mom, you are only running to yourself. There's no one here but you. This is a huge paraphrase of what he said. But let me tell you, I felt so much comfort in these words. I don't think I've felt more comforted by an idea (not that it's an idea). If only my awareness of this was permanent– I am completely alone. Life would be so incredibly beautiful. And I am living that life! But I wonder, am I a psychopath?! All of this talk on how we are a social species and we 'need' other people and connection. I believe it! And I want connection. But what is wrong with me that I love the idea of being completely alone in this life so much? That everyone is me and I am everyone.

So here's the scene: You're waiting your 28 seconds or whatever, no big deal. And then you think your 28 seconds is done (because who sits there and counts? you don't count when you meditate haha) so then you click submit and then BAM– you're an idiot, the 28 seconds was not over yet, and so here's another 180 more seconds for you. Then you think the 180 seconds is over with... NOPE. Here another 320 more seconds!! Okay, goodbye to what you were going to say. The forum has moved on and your comment is irrelevant now. LOL. I'm just teasing you guys.

Don't give Leo any ideas!!! It's a good thing but doesn't really work... I just open up a new tab and start going through other areas of the forum anyway. haha. Guys, do I have a problem!!?

A very enlightened approach!!! Love it. Okay then guys! Looks like we have to painfully meditate through our passion. Haha. But no, self-control and mindfulness is always good.

If you accidentally click 'submit' early (before 90 seconds or whatever it is) it will add another 90 seconds (or however many seconds it is) to your time. So unless you are sitting there counting, you're better off waiting a full 2 minutes for each post regardless. Edit: okay perfect example. I just went from 28 seconds to 108 seconds!!! Because I didn't count and I thought the 28 seconds was over with and it wasn't so it added another 80 seconds!!! I guess I really do need the patience guys. haha I think this is a great idea/thinking but bots may be able to bulldoze right on through 100 posts, easy.

That's because there is no 'forward'. Your feelings are right. So trust yourself, it is all you have to do.

this is the most beautiful discovery of it all.

Exactly <3 So so beautiful.

Okay then. If only my eternal awareness comprised of thoughts only of my aloneness– or rather, my connectedness with everything. Love everywhere. Without apparent separation getting in the way, ever. Right now, my ego is still fighting for its integrity. However, I feel with my recent realizations that my eternal presence will come to the foreground permanently– as it has always been the whole of me. And I will live in the space of my All Loving Self for the wholeness that it is. And my ego will be in the place that was meant for it– working as a tool for expansion, movement, creation. Of course– and I know– that this is already happening. But the momentum behind my thoughts is still there, and strong. But it is slowing.

As we all know, a lot of nondual followers believe that we can never die because we're not even alive. We are both Alive and Dead. So how would we die? How would we even kill ourselves? Are we going to reach out with a knife and stab our Awareness? Where will we stab? But if we don't know the nature of our 'aliveness', how do we know if it'll ever come to an end? If things will ever change from an absolute sense? Will the lights ever turn off completely? Or configure into something else? Anything could happen in a flash. Late night thoughts guys.

I really need help setting and defining my boundaries. Does anyone have any advice?

haha it was really just an expression, I think I got it from Leo hahaha. he can be a vulgar guy. he has probably played world of warcraft

I stare at my hands and think, "why are you scaring the shit out of me?" And they look back at me and say, "I am only trying to Love you".

I will say though, the darker your abyss the greater your dawn. I know it's hard to care about enlightenment right now. But just remember, "the darkest part of the night is right before dawn". Keep going. I love you.

I am going through the same exact thing. So much love to you. I do not know what advice to give as I am also going through this. At least we have the forum, each other, and Love– although the Love doesn't really feel there. I totally understand you.

I think it is so beautiful that you reached this realization by choosing to love your body instead of criticizing it. That's how it's done, always. Through Love. Good for you girl! Keep going!!! <3

@spinderella Yes, yes <3 Your body is consciousness, everything you experience is consciousness. It is all ONE. Without consciousness (aka awareness) you would not be able to experience anything. Amazing <3 The thing that makes you alive or 'awake'– your awareness, the thing that "turns the lights on", the first and only thing you have ever experienced– is your consciousness. It's infinitely you. God. Love.

If you recognize your connection with all of reality, I do not think it is bad to find comfort in this notion of 'alone' even if it does imply separation. Whatever makes you feel Love/Beauty/Truth/Connection.

@Someone here Do not be frightened. You are getting closer to God– and thus yourself. It is a beautiful experience. Even if it has and you realize that everything has been an illusion, you will not feel fear. You will be filled with so much love you'll want to throw up. You'll realize that you have never left yourself. You'll realize that you have been with yourself the entire time, just sitting in the background with gross amounts of humility. This will not make you fearful; it will make you grateful.. to tears. What will happen is not fear, but maybe deep sadness. Deep sadness knowing that you have turned your back on yourself. That you have been so distracted, ignorant, and selfish that you haven't even realized yourself exploiting your own unconditional love and giving of yourself. That all along, all of the signs have been point back to you, saying, "I am here. I will love you forever. I am you forever"

@VirusOfTheCult I am absolutely not referring to that as God.

It's not really reincarnation. How can you reincarnate if you are not alive nor dead? It is really just a change in perspective and limitations.