Gianna

Okay, so I am going to leave my notes on the video here so I know where to find them: these notes just help me to crystalize my own understanding "separation is just a thought to give meaning to certain things" "individualization is another word for the expansion of consciousness expressing itself, building new relationship within itself with its infinite options/possible realities." individualization is crystalizing yourself as an expression. you are becoming more and more and more of a responsible co-creator of the universe by continuing to crystalize yourself possibilities are infinite and so individualizations are infinite you are becoming an individuated god of god individualization is becoming a clear and integral reflection– co creator– of god endowed with all of God's qualities. "consciousness wants to express the inexpressible one. infinity. which is beyond comprehension. beyond experiencing. The closest it can get to becoming this flowering of infinity is to express itself in as many possible ways as it can imagine. you are becoming a co-god that will at some point create its own offspring, its own gods, its own individualization, its own creations. the more you follow that breadcrumb trail of what resonates with you, excites you, what your higher self is guiding you towards, the more you will aid in the crystalization and therefore individualization of your thought-form, of your expression law of attraction helps you to be more effective in individuating yourself (i.e. what you are nonphysically, in physicality.) you are the intention you wanted to experience in form you cannot have an experience that you did not generate

I feel eternally grateful and full of love and bliss. So thankful for you sharing and for this forum!! Ohhh youuuu!!! hahaha. Well, it came at the perfect time because I just read a chapter in a book last night that was another expression of this and if I didn't read that I might not have understood this. So everything is happening in divine order– as always.

@SriSriJustinBieber I can't even get through this video without pausing it every minute just marveling at how incredible it is and how incredible it is that you brought it to me. This is EXACTLY what I needed clarity on. Like exactly. Everything makes sense now. And I am only 5 minutes in...

@SriSriJustinBieber There it is. Wow. That's exactly what was confusing me– being individualized before birth. Like he says, this seemingly contradicts oneness/nonduality. Seemingly. Lol. Thank you so much.

I have an intuitive grasp over the Truth because we ARE the truth! We all have this intuitive grasp! We just have to go into it instead of going into the mind; but obviously (per this thread), I fall into the mind's fear at times. It gets the best of us! But I like what you said, it gets easier with practice– to not kneejerk react due to our instincts, but to be mindful/aware. It's harder with new experiences/territory I've noticed. Like dimensions with Demons!!! lol. Last night, one pushed my water bottle off of my dresser as I was sleeping. I woke up, it scared the shit out of me. No fan, or air, or any other people in the room (I live alone) nothing else there. Just a steel, heavy, and full water bottle moving itself at night. No big deal. haha

Ugh you always have the best advice!!! If only I could remember this in the moment of fear. But you simplifying it as such is extremely useful I agree. I’m going to focus more on my body from here forward.

@mememe listen mememe, I have no bad intentions. This is how I stay organized and the title The Artist Way is the title of the book that I’m taking notes on so I know. I read many books. You are projecting your evil assumptions on to me. Consider working with the part of YOU that wants to mislead people. That didn’t even cross my mind once because I don’t think like that. @RickyFitts I love you ? and I always hope you read my threads ? you are my soul brother.

Something that helped me with this is realizing that you are robbing them of their growth by sheltering the way they feel. Bad experiences/feelings is where growth happens. As painful as it is, the brave thing to do is to let it happen. If you take on this responsibility, you are taking it away from them. They need to be responsible for how they feel, not you. It will only benefit them in the long run.

I was at a conference and someone was talking about Demons or 'bad spirits' trying to get into your body or mind. What is this all about if all is one and all is Love?

What was the tone like? Sometimes a lot of misunderstanding and miscommunication occurs simply because of the way someone says something and not the actual thing that was said. Did you have a tone that would trigger someone to be defensive? If not, defensiveness might indicate she is hiding something and afraid of getting caught; that she knows she is doing something that she shouldn't be doing. etc.

I love you.

I am conscious that reality is infinite imagination and I understand now that there is no contradiction. I think what I was misunderstanding is how these dimensions coincide with oneness right NOW– but it's in the definition of the word one. Everything occurs within infinity. And just because I am not experiencing it doesn't mean it cannot be imagined. I don't know what I was thinking honestly as I re-read my thread. I think I was thinking/living out of fear in that moment because of the horror stories I was hearing at this conference (possession, demons, etc.). Crazy how you lose all knowing when you think out of fear. It's like you go into a complete dissociated state.

I don't understand the 'having respect' part of what you are saying. These are notes I took on Cameron's writing for me to register and understand thoroughly. If other people want to read the notes that I take that is cool and fine but it is not why I did it. The exercises I do privately on paper and do not post on the forum. Because you're right, the deep dive into myself should be a 'sanctuary', it's not on the forum. But what about anything that I am doing is not respectful?

@mememe I think you are projecting your issues onto me. I take notes so I can better understand– not so "other people can see". I don't care if people read my threads in the journal section or not, it's all for me at the end of the day. What mistake did you make– specifically– that you said you didn't want me to make? Care to share your experience?

Week Eight - Recovering a Sense of Strength - creative people are dramatic - thinking about the odds robs you in realizing that Art is a process and puts you at the mercy of imagined power ‘out there’ - when you wallow in the big questions you fail to see the small answers - being addicted to anxiety is preferring long-standing pain over temporary dread

Week Seven - Recovering a Sense of Connection - “Art is not about thinking something up, it is about getting something down” - when we get something down we are not doing, we are listening. - perfectionism has nothing to do with fixing things— it’s a refusal to let yourselves move ahead - instead of creating freely and allowing errors to reveal themselves later as insights, we often get stuck in the details. - When we fear mistakes, we correct our originality into a uniformity that lacks passion and spontaneity. - “do not fear mistakes, there are none.” - if every draft is a final, you are a perfectionist. - mid-way through a project, the perfectionist reads it over, outlines, revises, to see where it is going. Aborts the completion. Never satisfied. This is the pursuit for the worst in ourselves. The part that tells us nothing we do will be good enough. That we should try again. - the perfectionist pulls the roots before it is able to grow. - ask yourself: what would this look like if it didn’t have to be perfect? What would I do if I didn’t have to do it perfectly? - the craft of an artist is to move out of the head and into a body of action - in order to do something well you just be willing to do it badly. Once we accept this, our options widen and we are able to take risks - jealousy points the way. It tells you the territory that you cuvet. if you are jealous of something it is because you want it for yourself. - jealousy is always a mask for fear - jealousy doesn’t allow for abundance. It tells us that there is only room for one

Week Six - Recovering a Sense of Abundance - what we really want to do is what we are meant to do - when we do what we are meant to do money comes to us, doors open for us, growth and expansion presents itself - when we put a stopper on our joy by turning down the small gifts of life, we turn down the big ones as well. - what gives you joy? - luxury is a shift in consciousness more than flow. As we invite what feels luxurious to us, we trigger an increased flow. - Creativity is a living paradox: serious work comes out of serious play -“creativity does not always have to involve capital A art”

Week Five - Recovering a Sense of Possibility - Scarcity thinking limits our flow by anthropomorphizing god into a parent figure. - God is an energy source that LIKES to extend itself. - When we put more dependency on source we paradoxically allow for greater intimacy. - This is because source moves through people and places. -Without the neurosis of depending on the temporary, we can rest in the infinite eternal presence. - When we are afraid to be selfish we lose ourselves. And we become destructive towards our true nature. ***

@mememe Oh, I was just taking notes while reading it. These are all quotes from her! My morning pages and other exercises are on paper and not posted on the forum. What makes you believe I am not understanding what it is about? I appreciate your help Also, great advice for not posting it for others to read. I think she talks about that in the book.

If it's starting to bother you that's when you know you need to make a change. If it is not driving you insane then you are still benefitting from it. Maybe what you are benefitting from is letting yourself experience it more and more and more until you break. Until the point where you are so sick of it, you want the change. That's when change becomes easy; when taking action becomes easy. You'll do anything to make it stop. The fear then becomes of not changing. But at this point you become neurotic and impulsive. So how do we know that we need a change before reaching neurosis? Well, awareness is the short answer. Realizing that everything is already as it was meant to be is the long one. But for now– and in the moment of panic– take a breath and realize that if it weren't for everything that was you wouldn't be facing what is. And isn't what you're facing wonderful? You made it to the crossroads where you can see everything. The brink before change is the place where you perceive both sides, all sides. Isn't this enlightening? It's where you are meant to be but it's not where you are meant to stay. You are meant to move and find yourself at your next intersection. At the point of intersection, you see all roads, all sides, all diversities. What a beautiful place to be. But you are not meant to stay at this crossroads. You are meant to be brave enough to choose and go down the road that will give you the most growth, the most understanding, the most expansion despite your fears. Do you want to take the red pill or the blue pill? Do you want to take the scenic route or the quick and bland one? If any choice at all defeats you, just know that there will always be another intersection for you to sit at. There is always more for you to see. There is always more for you to choose between. There is always choice itself. You’re never stuck unless you stay at your crossroads. But even then, the universe will push you forward by turning up the heat. You’ll start to get uncomfortable in this heat and move because you have to. “How do you want to do this?” the universe will ask you. Do you want to live willfully or neurotically? Either way is fine. If you choose to rely on the universe to push you to where you need to go (if you choose to live neurotically) it is only because you don’t trust yourself. You don’t trust that you’ll make the right decision. You don’t trust that you know what you need because you don’t even know what it is you truly want. You turn to the universe for guidance but in doing so you give away your authority. Which is fine because you are ultimately giving it away to yourself. But why not take on this authority primarily instead of secondarily? Because then things will happen a lot quicker. Instantaneously in fact. So what are you afraid of? Are you afraid of success or failure? Either way, this fear is what is holding you back from choosing. Do you even know what you are choosing between? You are choosing between autonomy and connection. Do you want to take control over your life or do you want to be receptive of it, reflective of it? Both are what you want and need. It’s the difference between masculine and feminine orientation. Both are necessary. And both will lead you to the same place– Love, Insight, Creation of Life. You see, you are always creating your life whether you want to be or not. Whether you feel like it or not. Whether you are aware of it or not. This is because life doesn’t stop and it never could. Life is beyond time. It is what is happening RIGHT NOW; why are you afraid of it? It's already what is. Rest in the fact that no matter what you do, you will always have choice because you will always have change. And so if you always have change you can always change your mind and no one can take this away from you. So don’t worry about what you are choosing. If you feel like you have made the “wrong choice” you can always switch directions. But don’t you see? There is no direction because life is beyond space. No experience is wrong because they all lead to the same thing, You. They all lead to deeper understanding of you, deeper love of you, deeper connection with you. Look back on your life right now and realize that this has always been the case. No matter what, experience has always expanded your awareness and your awareness is what fills you with so much love and gratitude. The people you’ve met, the moments you’ve had, the growth and realizations you’ve had that gave you connection with so many people– because you can relate. Relating is understanding and understanding is Love. And Love only comes through experience which only comes through choice! So what are you going to choose? The answer needs to be choice itself. And bravery. The answer needs to be, “Fuck it, we’re doing it!”

I went to a conference and ran into a professional energy worker. I have been dealing with energy moving vigorously around in my body for a while now. The energy worker told me the reason why I feel these 'energy jolts' in my body is because my spirit is trying to leave my body because I am not grounded (i.e. I have a contracted root chakra) and the energy wants to move around. What do you guys think of this? Are there any energy workers on the forum?

I wonder how this happened. Through my meditations? It started as slight involuntary rocking back and forth and then side to side. Then it turned into this enormous shift in energy that yanks me around. I have an allowing meditation that I do but out of fear it'll get worse I have been not doing it as much. Will an allowing practice ground me?

@Carl-Richard great advice, seriously. So simple and true. @JayySur Yes! I relate to this immensely. But where does this tie in again? By not overwhelming myself by trying to learn all of it? Also, yes, I am open to the idea that there is no contradiction I can kind of see that there isn't one already when I think about demons just being negative thought-forms. @Johnny Galt Thank you! All resources to connect these two realms are welcomed. What is theosophy? @VeganAwake Yes, I experience this with music. Everything points to the Truth once you know what the Truth is. @SriSriJustinBieber What do you mean by this? @ZzzleepingBear Thank you, those questions help. I have the tendency to want to understand everything so I totally bypass questions like these which I think are super important to ask prior to understanding. @mememe Do you mean to become familiar with where the New Age ideas come from, in history? @tsuki I want to but it seems like risky business if I don't know what I am doing. Am I going to become possessed by ignorantly experimenting with it? idk!

@RickyFitts Awe man thank you!! I'll check out the video now. Also, you nailed it with this: this is exactly me right now; so much energy pent up in my body and a ton of time spent in my head. Now the jolts that are pushing my body around (like somatic Tourettes ) are nauseating. I literally need this grounding exercise you posted. Tysm.

I went to a conference and was talking to someone who frequently 'astral projects'. What does this even mean and what is the experience like?