Gianna

Put the energy of self-love or worthiness into a glass of water with your focus and imagination and then drink it. The consciousness of water is very receptive and will become whatever you influence it to be (like God) or surround it with. It’s worth a try if nothing else has worked. Also, you deserve good things in life because you are a creator. You create beauty, experiences, thoughts, desires. You’re an artist. If you weren’t a creator you wouldn’t be in creation. It’s in everyone’s (including God’s) best interest for you to get everything you want. You are here to get everything you want. Because by you getting everything you want is how you grow, and thus how God grows, the universe grows. Getting good things expands your perspective and enables you to want better things. Getting better things enables you to expand and desire and get and experience other things, a diversity of things. In other words, your ability of expansion is why you deserve good things. Awareness, learning to love, growing, desiring, intelligence, diversity of knowledge and experience, all comes from you receiving.

Energetic unfolding can happen before or after an enlightenment. It’s a common symptom. Imagine it as the light of your consciousness, shining itself on the shadow to transmute the shadow into light. In other words, the light/consciousness that was ignited by virtue of enlightenment is now putting itself (consciousness) onto the stored/repressed/condensed energy and releasing it.

You can. You just have to be able to dis-identify with your own mind and body enough so that you can allow the consciousness of whatever you’re wanting to experience in, through God. So if you take on the consciousness of an organ, like say your liver, you can experience the corresponding thoughts, feelings, needs, of that liver. If you wanted to experience what it’s like to be a tree you can as well. It is all done through will, and letting go/allowing. It may be too subtle for you to notice. Or you may not be able to dis-identify enough to allow it to flow through you. But even my mom (unintentionally) had an experience of this. She felt a man’s jeans on her legs, as if she was the man wearing the jeans. She experienced his experienced. She’s doesn’t know about this work but she’s had the experience. And it was done through Awareness and Will (and allowing).

Yes! I agree. Instead of visualizing you can just feel the ‘visualized’ experience in your body. What would that experience feel like? How would it translate in your body? And then go from there.

God is creating the ego. And God has an infinite amount of choice as to how that reality will look. You (as God) created your life through thought. Once that thought was focused through will, it took a life of its own by virtue of it continually being fed consciousness (God energy). If you have the desire to enter into a life of a different reality, God (you) in your “next life” (thought) will use the power of will and focus to create the conditions necessary to actualize that thought/create that reality. How it works is you first have the idea of your life (through desire) (and through thought which is your life). But when that thought is focused with consciousness, it actualizes and takes a life of its own, and unfolds according to the law of attraction (that which is liken to itself is drawn [because thoughts are thinking]). Imagination and desire also play a role into how it will unfold (your imagination is limited to that which you have thought, and desire actualizes through contrast (which only happens through apparent separation /forgetting oneness]). Until that thought/life-form realizes Awareness, it will operate from unconscious creation. Once it realizes God/Awareness, is moves to Choice (Conscious Creation). But there’s more that goes into it.

Marriage is about a commitment to growth, together. Because your partner will often be your biggest mirror— sometime beautiful, and sometimes hard to accept. I don’t think it’s a very easy path. But you can get a lot of expansion out of it. A symbiotic partner is everything.

I have connected with embodiments of Christ consciousness. Ironically, it was not very committed to life on earth. Which actually makes sense given the state of the world (all of the devilry) but it was still filled with love. I think it was the love for love that made it depressed about where the world is. But Jesus had his moments too.. I think. With the lack of love from his time period. Although he was still loving.

Christ consciousness is Freedom and Love. More specifically, the Choice (Freedom) to Love. Jesus’ teaching was love. Christ consciousness entered through him; he was a physical embodiment of Christ. But this consciousness is making a resurgence on planet earth today, increasing our collective consciousness. It has fractured and entered into many bodies/embodiments you will shake hands with. Luciferian consciousness is Determinism , deterministic thoughts, feelings, vibrations (the opposite of Free Will thoughts, feelings, vibrations). They are both thoughts/feelings/consciousnesses in the mind and heart of God.

It’s up to you on how this gets played out. Sexual fantasies/desires are created from missing emotional experiences. So actually fulfilling this type of experience may be very healing for you. But it all depends on you, specifically, and what your needs/unmet needs are.

Cleopatra ?the master of seduction. Who better to learn from? ???

Hmm, this sounds really interesting. Is it on Zoom?

I love Benthino! He has great teachings.

I really love and agree with these lines from @puporing. And if you're looking for support, permission, or validation in leaving your dad, you have our full understanding and compassion. We cannot move forward if we are anchored. And we cannot find something better if we are attached to what is worse, or what isn't working. But if you're looking to create resolve within you, here's what I would do. Because I know just how painful it is to feel the void of these missing emotional experiences. 1. Get emotional needs met. 1. Create resolve around the missing emotional experience within you from the past. (I wrote 1,1 because you don't have to do them in order) If you haven't already, I would get your emotional needs met so you don't continue to feel the lack of them. Now that we are adults, we can fulfill our missing emotional experiences by resourcing our 7 billion other humans on earth I would specifically am for empathy, understanding, and validation, as far as the emotional needs to get met. Make sure you are getting these emotional needs met by someone who is emotionally mature and developed– either a friend, partner, therapist, whatever. The other really important thing I would do is create resolve within your being of the missing emotional experience from the past. You can do this by creating a re-experiencing of the feeling where you really needed your dad and he wasn't emotionally there. I would bring up that feeling in your body and then I would visualize the time where he would come into your room at night, drunk calling his friends. Then, in this visualization, bring your adult self into the picture/scene. What can your adult self do to meet the needs of the little boy in the room? Does the little boy need your adult self to grab the phone out of your dad's hands and teach him how to parent? Does the little boy need permission from the adult self to punch his dad in the face and tell him off? Does the little boy need to be taken somewhere else, and given the emotional needs he never received but had the right to receive? If so, take the little boy somewhere and meet all of his emotional needs. Tell him he's right to feel the way he does toward his dad. Tell him that anyone would feel the way he does. Tell him that he deserves a developed parent to meet his emotional needs and to guide his emotional experience because that's what parents are for– guidance. It's important to do this and create resolve around the missing emotional experience within your being from the past– so it doesn't keep skipping within your being like a scratched C.D. Tip: when you are bringing up the feeling in your body, (the feeling where you really needed your dad and he wasn't emotionally there) it will most likely feel like rejection. Anytime you are on the receiving end of an emotionally unavailable or immature parent it feels like rejection. So the feeling of rejection within your body, here and now, is the little boy from the past. And so working with the feeling and creating resolve by meeting its needs (emotional needs) via the visualization will help you so you are not suffering in the void of emotionally missing experiences from the past. And from our unconscious emotionally unavailable parents who traumatized us hehehe. Empathy, understanding, unconditional presence, and acceptance with you in your emotions are all emotional needs that we must get met in order to develop. Just like a seed has the need for water, sunlight, and fertile soil in order to grow, we have mental, emotional, and physical needs that must be met if we are to develop in these areas. When you are raised by a parent who is emotionally immature or unavailable, emotional needs obviously never get met. In fact, they get wounded. So we, ourselves, never grow in this area. That is, until we are adult and have to resource ourselves. Something our parents did not do before having us

Oo, that's a really good point! I agree, 'I' is an energetic phenomenon. That is perfectly put! If you want to look more into the specifics of self-talk, read about intrapersonal communication. It is all about communication with the self.

It took me so long to realize that my guilt was an internal ABUSER! haha. But seriously this is what guilt is. It is a terrorizer, a moderator to try and get you to behave in a certain way. But it is only doing this/has this strategy to keep you safe. It believes it is protecting you from something. If it wasn’t it wouldn’t be guilting you. Everything we do, every thought, feeling, or belief we have was created in an attempt to save ourself, to survive. So asks your guilt, what are you trying to save me from?

You are not alone. I know how hard it is to deal with this kind of dynamic. So often, we suffer because of an internal war within us. I believe your circumstance is the same. Your internal war/conflict is between a part of you that wants connection and belonging (which only happens through authenticity), and another part of you that doesn't actually believe that you will get connection and belonging by being yourself (by being authentic). This is most likely why you do not feel so comfortable or safe being yourself (because you have a part within you that is either terrified of being itself, or of connection; or doesn’t believe that it will get connection by being itself). This conflict between these two parts of you is what is keeping you stuck and thus depressed about this painful situation. I would create resolve between these two parts by introducing them to new thoughts, feelings, beliefs. For instance, Is it true that if I am freely myself that people will not want to connect with me? Can I absolutely know that it is true? What is the part of me that is hiding my authenticity afraid of? What does the part of me that is hiding me trying to protect me from? What am I trying to avoid by not being myself? What will being myself, lead to? The part of you that is afraid of being itself is most likely an inner child— which is why you are probably saying you feel like a kid. I would do inner child work on this part, the anxiety (the part that is afraid of connection). And treat it like it is a kid because from its perspective it still is. This part has every reason to feel the way it does considering it’s experience. Treat this part with compassion and understanding. Give it love and safety and meet all of its needs. What does it need to feel safe in/being itself?

Wow, this response is incredibly beautiful. And something I resonate with deeply. I was actually told that I was not committed to life; that I was not fully choosing life which is a form of passive suicidality. An energy worker, too, had said that he could see me trying to leave my body. On a physical level this feels like a flinching and pushing/pulling/jolting within me. And so because this state is so painful, I know exactly how important it is to, again and again, remind yourself to choose to commit to life in love and truth. But it is not easy. Because, as you said, our egos/sense of self is an inevitable part of us experiencing this life of separation and difference. And separation and difference in an unawakened world is acutely painful. That is, unless you constantly remind yourself of love and truth. And in that love and truth is nothing but perfection.

Oh man, this drives me crazy. I have the same experience but with people (which is also an experience). The thing I love the most is the same thing I absolutely hate. How do we get out of this– would it be– samsara? I heard AND consciousness is the resolution. An acceptance of yes I love it and simultaneously hate it. But contradiction is so uncomfortable.

Mhh mystery and a sense of wonder are the greatest feelings (and blessing!) of our truest essence. Nothing can be known, only felt in awe <3 I do love that. If only I stayed in the apparent-ness of it.

I'm not either. Which is actually why I started this thread– to be reminded. But I agree nature is lovely, and a great reset.

@puporing @roopepa I love both of these responses so much. Thank you dearly for responding. Your answers are my answers ?

@Focus Yes you did <3

We are all thoughts in the mind of God. Thoughts that are thinking. Thoughts that have been thinking for so long that I forgot who I am. But if this thought is repeated it must have something to say. So let me hear you as you are worthy of being heard. Let me see you, feel you, be you, so I know how to love you. And bring you to Truth. So I know what to give you, in this world that is infinite. Let us follow the Buddha and invite Maya in for tea. For without illusion there could be no awakening. And awakening can breed yet another illusion. The illusion that you are not me, my thoughts, when we are everything. The illusion that you do not love me, my thoughts, when all you have tried to do is protect me. So let these hands be your hands. And my light be your light. My dearest thoughts.

We are able to transcend all that we can transcend, until we arrive at something that doesn't want to be transcended. But instead demands to be loved for exactly the way it is. Upon this arrival, we are at the precipice of a grand awakening. Because it is our own rejected selves that hold the key, the key to the kingdom of heaven. So let us go into these selves and meet them in truth. Because who else would give us our awakening, when we awaken to ourself? Our challenge is to become one, to become whole. We become whole by becoming our opposite. We become one by becoming each other. Can we love anything that arises? Can we become everything that we are? In this reality of mirroring, we are all that we see. And we are blessed to see all that we are, in infinity. Through our differences and in our sameness, we see the sameness of our differences. And so we see everything has value, because everything shows us what we are, and what we are able to become.

Stage blue/orange= unconscious love, false love, attached 'love', toxic 'love'. Your parents are under the illusion that they love you and want the best for you so they are trying to control your decisions. But how could they say they love you when trying to control you is rejecting you? As you are. As your heart is. Do my parents really love me if they don't accept my heart? If they will only accept me in a certain way? A way that they believe in? This form of 'love' they are portraying is a form of attachment. It is a love that says I will accept you, admire you, give to you, learn from you, appreciate you, when you act a certain way. A way that validates my beliefs. When you do not act in this way, I cannot accept you, I cannot accept your way of being. I reject it, so I reject you. True love is detached and accepting of whatever is. It is a state of wonder and admiration for someone's authentic nature. How they are, how they wish to be. They are not reaching this state of love with you because they are not viewing you as an independent person but as an extension of themselves. So when they say they love you and want you to be a certain way, that certain way that they love is a way/mirror of themselves. So they are only trying to love themselves more. Or trying to love you as an extension of themselves. So it is a selfish form of love because they want you to validate their own decisions they have made in life, instead of loving you for how you are or what is best for you. Don't make your life about validating theirs. Live out your dreams because that is why you are here. Actualizing your dreams is how this universe is going to expand. You getting everything you want is how the universe learns about itself. It is not going to learn about itself and thus expand by redundancy (you mimicking them). I would introduce to them their level of rejection of you by planting seeds of awareness. You can do this by asking them questions that will make them wonder; that will make them realize how they are hurting you, rejecting you, refusing to love you. Make them realize that they are only trying to love more of themselves. Make them realize how they are being selfish by requiring you to validate them instead of living the life that is loving for you. Make them see what they are doing but it has to be through their own realization they will get through thinking about your questions. They need to deeply self-inquire into what they are actually doing in reality, not in their thoughts, beliefs, opinions, etc. They have to see it/come to the understanding on their own, themselves. If you try to force this understanding on them they will not get it, because they are unconscious to it. Them coming to it themselves will make them more conscious. If you frame your question in a mind-opening/expansive way, they will be up at night thinking about it. Puncturing their belief structure, making adjustments. Good questions could sounds like: Was that what it was like for you? Have your beliefs changed with the world changing? Are you raising me out of a different time period? Have your resources changed now that the world has changed? And do those resources breed different decisions? If you were to make different decisions now, in this world, with all of our expanded resources, connections, internet, global village, etc., would those different decisions work? Would your old decisions be even necessary? All of these questions kind of stem from an evolutionary pov but that's because your parents are so stage blue/haven't realized the expansion (green) that has occurred in the following generations. New generations are what expand our world. So ask your parents, If every generation conformed to the previous generation, would we ever expand as a species?