Alternatively, shadow work, freedom from thought attachment, and thus from scheming. 
Otherwise, use Youtube, Tick Tok etc, as platforms for the e learning business, and make sure to stay in front of people for as long of periods of time as possible, every week. Speak with conviction, convince others you know something, which they need to know, or are something which they need to be, to be happy and prosperous. Your con will be unknowingly adopted as their vice. Everyday would be way more effective. Three times a day might the ideal. Plant seeds of doubt with terminology such as wave slavery, as opposed to mindsets of abundance, and then offer a monetary solution to the problem you convinced them of, and don’t help them understand the discord from what was presented, stick to the money maker as the solution. Those listening will be your means of escape. Don’t overthink the content, it’s the staying in front & convincing that makes the difference. The masses seem to be attached to thought as well, and thus are very easily susceptible to this strategy, so let the 10 - 15 year plan go and start today. 

This is pretty much the definition of a meta-source and by default stage yellow.
This guy puts effort into properly summarizing books, some shortly some more extensively. Some of his read choices are top notch personal development books.
Ever heard of a book for a long time but never took the time to read through it ? Look up for the summary here and perhaps by skimming the wisdom you will get motivated into reading the actuall book.
Enjoy and thank the writer!

https://blas.com/

Several steps and methods are given, from beginner to advanced. Clear and precise Instruction is given by  Swami Tadatmananda , an ordained monk in the Advaita tradition. Highly recommended if you are new to meditation, or are looking to expand into more advanced practices. Posted a few examples below. Here's  Link to full playlist
 
Chapter 2: Turning Within
Pranayama: Breath Control
Calming the Nerves  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zgiz4mijG_8&t=0s
Nadi Shodhana https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zgiz4mijG_8&t=0s
Ujjayi Pranayama https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PqH2GuyzyRg&t=0s

Chapter 3: Concentration
Trataka Gazing  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MlfqHSDoFXI&t=0s
Bhramari Pranayama  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cbgS99egOjs&t=0s
Developing Your Concentration https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w5mrwZn2_OA&t=0s
Overcoming Associative Thinking  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nB7qfBSMQr4&t=0s

Chapter 4: Mantra Japa
Advanced Meditation

Name:
Forgiveness Meditation
Purpose/Effects
Forgiving others and ourselves is an important healing practice. We can often be unaware of how much we are affected by the burden, negative thoughts, and difficult memories we carry from not forgiving others. While forgiveness can be difficult it has been linked to improved physical and mental health. Benefits include decreased stress levels, blood pressure, and symptoms of chronic pain, depression and anxiety.
Method Summary
While you are sitting in meditation, ask for forgiveness first from others, then yourself, and finally forgive others.
Long Version
Begin by sitting in a comfortable position and settling your attention on your breath.
Step 1) Asking forgiveness from others
When you are ready, recall someone you have hurt in some way and feel into whatever emotions, such as pain, guilt, or remorse, you may have for what happened.
Allow yourself to compassionately be with these feelings and reflect on the causes of your actions.
This is not to vindicate yourself but instead help understand the fear, confusion or hurt that may have caused your actions.
When you are ready, offer your genuine apologies and ask this person for forgiveness.
Perhaps saying, “I am sorry for whatever hurt I have caused you knowingly or unknowingly, I ask for your forgiveness.”
Feel into what sensations, images and feelings arise.
Step 2) Forgiveness of self
Now, recall any ways that you have hurt or mistreated yourself in the past.
Become aware of how it feels when you acknowledge the pain you may have caused yourself and gently and compassionately be with it.
See if you can forgive yourself for the ways you may have caused harm, perhaps saying:
“For the ways I have knowingly or unknowingly harmed myself, I forgive myself.”
Be aware of any emotions that may arise as you say these words and hold yourself with deep compassion.
Step 3) Forgiving others
Next, bring to mind someone who has harmed or wronged you in the past.
Acknowledge what feelings are present and allow yourself to feel the sorrow or hurt from their actions.
Contemplate the possible causes for their actions. Again, this is not to excuse their behavior but to cultivate greater compassion and understanding.
Feel any heaviness from carrying this burden of hurt and grudge towards this person.
To whatever degree you are ready, offer that person your forgiveness.
Perhaps say: For the harm and hurt you have caused me, intentionally or unintentionally, I forgive you.”
Don’t feel bad if you are not ready to forgive. Even opening to the possibility of forgiving someone can be healing.
If you have trouble with forgiving someone, you can try to imagine them as a young child who is perhaps confused and frightened.
Repeat these steps if it feels right and allow yourself to feel the lightness or relief that can arise from forgiveness.
History
Forgiveness practices can be found throughout the world in both religious and secular contexts. The method here was adapted from guided forgiveness meditations by Buddhist teachers Jack Kornfield and James Baraz.
For more information about Jack Kornfield and James Baraz visit their websites:
http://www.jackkornfield.org/
http://www.jamesbaraz.com/
Cautions
Forgiveness meditation can sometimes be challenging and painful. Please be kind to yourself if you do not feel forgiving. Forgiveness takes time and we are only inclining the heart towards forgiveness in this practice and not forcing anything.
Also, it is critical to remember self-compassion when recalling past grievances towards yourself and others and remind yourself that all humans are imperfect.

Usually we think of love as open, allowing, acceptive and feminine but there is also a brutal aspect to Love. Sometime ago, Leo posted on his blog a video of I Am Legend as an example of an harsh expression of Love: https://www.actualized.org/insights/this-is-love
The movie Beautiful Boy is another good example of the kind of love I am talking about: the father of a drug addict tries everything to help his son get clean, even trying drugs himself, but in the end he has to accept that he can't help him and has to let him go and cut him off completely from his life out of love. Highly suggested movie.
It would be helpful to understand that love is not just the stereotypical kind of love that people usually think about when hearing the word "Love".     
Please share other examples of brutal love that you have seen in movies, books, articles, news, blog posts, YouTube videos etc. or even examples from your own life. 

1.Hypnotic Phenomena
Catalepsy: Inability to move Anesthesia: Inability to feel/sense a body part  Amnesia: Inability to remember sth Somnambulism: very deep trance Esdaile State / Coma State: The deepest hypnotic state. When a patient is allergic against narcotics, then some doctors used to bring the patient into the Esdaile State for heart surgeries. You keep full consciousness while in the Esdaile State and are so deep that you wouldn't even feel a heart surgery.  The nice thing about hypnotic phenomena is that they can be anchored. That means, if you anchor the Esdaile State you can enter it at any time in less than 10 seconds.
2.Benefits
2.1. OBEs
- How to reliably have OBEs:
- Benefits of OBEs: 
2.2 Enlightenment
2 possibilities:
Once in the Esdaile State, induce an OBE and then materialize and take psychedelics. The Esdaile State itself is already somewhat nondual. If you want to meditate towards enlightenment, then first go into the Esdaile State, and then do your meditation or self-inquiry, it will be on steroids. How many monks are able to go so deep that they could have a heart surgery without narcotics? Imagine starting your meditation practice from that place.  
2.3 Orgasms
You can have very long hands-free, whole-body orgasms. And if you anchor it, you can have them instantly. Here is one hypnosis audio for hands free orgasms: 
 
Already on the first time listening, I felt a surge of pleasure throuch my whole body every time she clapped her hands. I haven't watched it often, so I haven't had a full whole-body orgasm yet. The deeper you can go into trance, the more powerful it will be. So if you are not in trance, you won't feel anything.
 
2.4 Change your Subconscious
So many people do affirmations while only in a shallow trance. You gotta be in somnambulism for them to be very effective.
 
2.5 Healing and Regeneration
Esdaile State: Marco Lorenz says that your body heals far quicker when in the Esdaile State. He also says that it is the highest form of regeneration. He sometimes goes for a few days without sleep and spends a few hours in the Esdaile State, and he feels perfectly rested. I believe he said 1 hour of being in the Esdaile State equals 8 hours of sleep in terms of energy and regeneration. But he said it doesn't permanently replace sleep. Sichort State: This state is similar to the Esdaile State. Mr Sichort supposedly found that physical healing is increased 6-10 times while being in that state. This was apparently documented by the doctors Dolman and Marko through a method of systemic encyme counts. ( I haven't fact-checked that). Mr. Sichort is for example said to have healed a girl that was born with polio.  
3. Esdaile State
It was discovered by James Esdaile, a Scottish surgeon. It is reported that he reduced the post-operative fatality rate from 50% down to below 10% (compared to surgeries with narcotics), because of a lessening of post-operative shock (in the 19th century).
I guess the Esdaile State is similar to sleep yoga, staying aware during deep sleep. Though sleep yoga is certainly way more nondual, but that might be because the monks are trained and aim for concentrating on the nondual. And it probably also depends on the depth of the Esdaile State (in case it has degrees of depth). In any case, Marco Lorenz said that when you are fully in the Esdaile State, you have epsilon brainwaves (0-0.5hz). And the tibetan monks have delta brain waves (0.5-4 hz) during deep sleep. If you look up epsilon brainwaves, they are found in hard core yogis. So getting into epsilon is definitely very valuable. And it is definitely far easier to get into the Esdaile State than managing sleep yoga. That might indicate that you are in a deeper state in sleep yoga, or that their techniques are less effective, idk.
The fastest way to enter the Eadaile State is by going to a hypnotist. If he is very good, you can enter it within a few sessions. Once you have been there a few times and have already somewhat anchored it, it is far easier to achieve on your own.
On your own, by listening to good  audios, I guess that the average practitioner can reliably enter the Esdaile State after 40-200 hours of practice.
Two videos where Marco talks a bit about the Esdaile State in german:
 
 
4. Going into Trance 
First of all, going into trance is a skill like playing football, the more you practice the better you get. And everyone can be hypnotized and go deep into trance.
I would suggest you listen to a good guided hypnosis that brings you to the Esdaile State. Unfortunately there isn't much out there. 
Unless you find a very good one, I would recommend that after listening to many different hypnosis audios and somewhat learning how hypnosis works, you make your own script and record it. The benefit is that you can perfectly adjust it to your goals, strengths and weaknesses, and you can mix in the binaural beats you like most. I've already made a few hypnosis audios myself. With some I can't go deep in trance, but with one I get deeper than with professional audios. So making them yourself definitely works and it isn't that much work, just write a script, record it, mix the recordings together and add binaural beats. There are free audio editing apps.
Some basic tips:
The most important thing about hypnosis is that you are passive, receptive, surrender and let go. The conscious mind needs to step aside so that it is directly communicated with the subconscious. Dont try to make anything happen, just observe and notice how it happens by itself (when you are suggested to go deeper or relax. But when you are suggested to nod your head, you can consciously nod the head) If you want to get very deep then it's helpful to be a bit tired. You need to find the sweetspot so that you are a bit tired and are more receptive but not as tired that you fall asleep or can't concentrate. I like to do all my hypnosis while lying down. If you want to induce OBEs or mystical states, then do the hypnosis during the night after a WBTB. In order to go very deep into trance you usually need a deep bodily and mental relaxation If you doubt at the beginning whether you are actually in trance: You probably are. Trance doesn't feel magical. Everytime you watch tv you go into trance. The question is how deep you go. Swallow reflex. I put some pillows beneath my matress and pillows beneath my head, that makes a big difference. Otherwise, you just need to get used to the salvio and untrain the swallow reflex. Or just use it as a deepener. "Every time I swallow I sink deeper into trance". You can improve your suggestibility by making suggestions to yourself during the day and then following them like: "when I count to 5 I'm gonna drink sth". I recommend you record yourself saying some suggestions including some which improve your suggestibility and which say that you can easiliy go deep into hypnosis and into the Eadaile State. Then listen to it after a deep hypnosis session.  
5. Audios
5.1 Esdaile State 
Marco Lorenz has a very good Eadaile State Hypnosis. But it's in german: https://www.brainwave3d.com/gateprogramm/gate-1-10/111/esdaile-state-die-tiefste-hypnose-der-welt-gate-5?c=53 This site has Esdaile State inductions, but it seems like the website isn't active anymore. 3 weeks ago I purchased an audio but haven't gotten a download yet, and no answers to my emails. Perhaps you have more luck contacting them. http://firewall.readyhosting.com/Store - Audio Digital.htm The full Elman induction brings you to the Esdaile State. But I haven't found an audio yet, so you would have to record the script yourself.  Just listen to audios which are designed to get you into deep hypnosis: 5.2 Deep Hypnosis
The youtube channel UltraHypnosis has a whole playlist with deep hypnosis audios. Here are some:
https://youtu.be/zzTrR-WsbMU
 
 
 
 
 
 
5.3 Audios by:
Ultrahypnosis: https://www.youtube.com/user/UltraHypnosis They make very good free hypnosis audios on youtube. some good ones:   
Nimja https://www.youtube.com/user/NimjaHypnosis  He doesn't have binaural beats in his audios, so you can mix those you like most. Zach Pincince  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCu0USluM11DeKM2-VlczMeA . He has a few videos to induce stuff like catalepsy and amnesia in the viewer.   But most of his videos show how he hypnotizes people on the street.  David Barren: https://mindcontrolpublishing.com/product/super-somnabulist-hypnosis-training/  His super Somnabulist course teaches you catalepsy, anesthesia and amnesia and good visualisation skills.  It is good but not really better than free content in youtube. Though I like the 4th video of his course. I cut out the boring stuff and made the parts about anesthesia and amnesia cycle many times, thus the effectiveness is increased. 5.4 Binaural Beats 
I had been underestimating the power of binaural beats (and isochronic tones). You can't expect them to work on the first try. The brain is like a muscle, and everytime you listen to binaural beats, you train a specific brain region. Thus you can train your brain to go into alpha, theta, delta and ultimately epsilon waves. So binaural beats are very useful to mix into hypsnosis adios. When you practice with binaural beats, you should gradually go down from alpha to epsilon over a course of weeks or months without skipping a stage. And you must have headphones. (I believe In ear headphones are fine too, but the quality is lower). 
I recommend the binaural beats by Marco lorenz. He has the most high quality. Usually you get them in mp3, but he sells them in wav 24 and wav 36. That means the quality is exponentially higher and he said he observed a noticable difference on the EEG. Before you buy the more expensive wav version, make sure that you have a device that can deliver the quality. It certainly isn't necessary to have them in wav but it probably gives an additional boost. Marco has his own research lab and adds some more technologes to his binaural beats like 3D technlogies and dissociative sounds. His website is in german, so use google translate.  The binaural beats are without voice so it doesn't matter.
Here is a link to some of his binaural beats.  https://www.brainwave3d.com/meditation/tiefenmeditation-fuer-profis/ I can recommend alpha till epsilon. If they are too expensive, then binaurals from youtube will certainly do as well.
 
6. Resources to learn hypnosis
Google: go through reddit posts, they have a lot of valuable information. Don't even bother searching through normal internet sites, most are so low quality. YouTube: Watch some of Zeck Pincince videos https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCu0USluM11DeKM2-VlczMeA He is very skilled. You can learn a lot by watching him.  Books: "The Elman Induction" by Graham Old. Informative short book. Also includes some pages about the Esdaile State with an induction script. Very recommended I haven't yet read these two but they are said to be good: "Hypnosis: A Comprehensive Guide: Producing Deep Trance Phenomena". and : "Reality is plastic"  
If you have any questions, Im happy to answer

Check out this PDF on how to utilize your strengths:
Strengths Test Help .pdf

Start with some introductory material by other authors. It's impossible to piece together his writings without either guidance or a really, really long time of study.
There are two books I recommend starting with:
1. Anthony Stevens' "Jung". It's a very light introduction to Jung's ideas, but you'll also have a really wonderfully written biography of his life, which I feel is surprisingly helpful to understand his ideas. What kind of person was he, what was his background, when and how did he have his breakthroughs. It will be a good foundation that you can "hang" other knowledge on.
2. Murray Stein's "Jung's Map of the Soul". This is a proper introduction to Jung's ideas that is light, but also goes right to the core of them.
These are books that won't necessarily make you a Jung fanatic, because they're not sexy, but they are extremely helpful as a foundation.
If you now want to make Jung more sexy and just get a general feel for how to look at him, you can binge-watch Jordan Peterson lectures (which gets Jung wrong sometimes, but I wouldn't worry about it since you're still gonna learn after this), or people on this forum or Actualized videos.
After that, you can start on Jung's own writings (finally! lol). I recommend starting with Man and His Symbols. It was written for a more general audience and is super interesting and has a lot of illustrations and dream interpretation and is easy to read. Symbols of Transformation is great because it analyzes fairytales and dreams and stuff. Psychological Types is also interesting if you're interested in personality psychology and typing (MBTI was built on this).
After this you can start on Archetypes and The Collective Unconscious and Aion. This in many ways is the "core Jung". You won't understand these completely on first reading, but they'll give you a thorough understanding of the archetypes! They also include grand analyses of western civilization that requires that you are more historically, religiously and philosophically aware, but don't worry about it.
After this you can go down the road of the alchemical psychology writings (Psychology and Alchemy, Mysterium Conjunctionis). This is crazy shit. Don't start here.
Hope this helps!
 

@Vynce
Nah dreams aren't crazy non-logical stuff. There's method to the madness.
I've recommended this book to many people on this forum called "Mindful Dreaming" by David Gordon. Go take a look if you're interested.
I'm making it a goal of mine to learn how to navigate dreams better and get insights from them.
And working with dreams is also an interesting way to deconstruct the materialist paradigm.

Hi everyone  
I am excited to announce a little project I've been working on for the past couple of months.
The Actualized.org Textbook!
I have assembled a document of summaries of foundational Actualized.org videos based on the "Start Here" section of the website. In addition, there are some extra video summaries at the end.
A lot of these summaries were written by me but I would also like to acknowledge that a very major part of the work came from the video summary thread and also some YouTube comments. I would like to thank @Juan Cruz Giusto, @TimStr, @Huz, @Nic, @Hello from Russia, @AleksM, and @Dan Arnautu from this forum for their significant and very helpful contributions. 
I have tried as best I can to standardise the format, but doing this perfectly would take a massive amount of time. So please do note that the summaries are written by different authors with different stylistic preferences, some with English as a second language. Secondly, there are still small mistakes and probably some typos that I haven't picked up.
This document is best suited for:
-People who have seen the videos and want brief notes
-People who are up to speed with the latest videos and have followed for a while, understanding the conceptual frameworks within spirituality
 
For complete newbies, or people who have recently joined, the summaries may confuse you a little so I recommend you watch the original videos. A lot of the nuance and subtlety is lost in text.
Also,
This is version 1.0 and I have linked word and pdf attachments to this post. 
You are free to download them and modify them as you see fit. However, if you wish to update this version (i.e. fixing mistakes or adding in more fundamental videos) for the community, please keep a couple of things in mind:
- There is a changelog on the 2nd page, so please insert changes made and also update the version number (i.e 1.1 from small fixes or 2.0 when a significant amount of content is added)
- Also, please consider that when content is added, page numbers may not sync up so you will have to update them.
 
Think of this as the textbook for the undergraduate course.
- Watching the video is like going to class
- The textbook is like all your classes in one place in note form.
- To get a good grasp and to orientate yourself you will need a massive theory base at the beginning (i.e an 3-4 year undergrad degree)
- Taking action and watching the advanced videos will be like post-graduate study
- Doing this work seriously and taking massive amounts of action, and going off on your own is like doing a PhD
 
You need to get the basic theory down BUT YOU MUST NOT GET LOST IN THEORY AND CONCEPTS. Orientate yourself, and go take action (a Masters/PhD candidate does experiments in the lab, he doesn't just sit in lecture theatres) 
My main reason for assembling this is I see a lot of wasted time on the forum (myself included) of theorising and arguing and advanced people not communicating at the newbie level to newbies. Don't get me wrong, the forum is a great place and many people have helped me here (thank you!)
This is my parting gift to the community. I saw that I avoided doing the work by visiting the forum too much so I will be leaving to do the work for the next 5-10 years. My main focus is embodying and fully integrating stage orange, green, and yellow, as well as doing the spiritual practices and planning for psychedelic retreats.
Finally, @Leo Gura, I'm so sick of hearing your voice. I've probably listened to 20 of your videos in the last 3 days  I only now have caught a tiny glimpse of how much work has been put in by you over the past 5 years. Thank you for what you do! I'll still be sticking around for the advanced stuff  
Actualized Textbook.docx
Actualized Textbook.pdf

Love this book. Many of the things said are exactly the same as Leo's teachings. There are differences as well.
Check it out

The best way that I can describe this book is that it's "an adventure."
Definitely one of my favourite books that I've read so far, I would recommend it to anyone who has the patience to actually try and understand the analogies and metaphors that this entire book consists of.
There is occasionally some difficult language but I firmly believe that anyone can understand this book if they read slowly enough and take the necessary time to think about what they have read every few pages.
Overview: Kastrup details the logical flaws of materialism.  Then he presents the alternative, idealism.  Then he uses idealism to explain everything from paranormal phenomena to elves to UFOs to psychedelics to the ego.  He literally explains everything using the metaphor of idealism EXCEPT for how reality BEGAN.  I am very unsatisfied with his version of the creation story but it is only a small paragraph out of an otherwise exemplary book!
Read this book if:
- you like learning about the brain
- you like metaphysics
- you are interested in spirituality and would like to see an almost scientific and logical description of the nature of reality
- you are skeptical about the credibility of modern science
- you like psychedelics 
- you want to experience  a very sound description of why mystical and non-local experiences occur
 
This book is extremely profound and you will have deep insights at every single page if you take the time to contemplate the reading. Worth your time! 
 

I received a lot of messages about the story I shared regarding collapsing the duality of self actualization & spirituality, and using the dream board, so I thought I’d make a post and add the responses here as a resource for anyone interested. Give it a try, & have fun with it! That’s the point & the ‘juice’ that makes it work - create your dream life!
 
Edit: If you’re looking at this thread you’ll probably find some insights in my videos, so I thought I’d start adding them here.
 

(Here's all of Leo's recordings from the blog.  I'll update as more come up.  Enjoy !!)
 
Actualized.org Blog Videos:
     Society & Politics
[] Inside The Mind Of Trump
[] My Political Awakening
[] Rethinking Human History
[] My Critique Of Zizek's Critique Of Buddhism
[] The Big Picture Of Global Politics
[] Why The Media Is Corrupt
[] Why Bernie Sanders Lost
[] Deconstructing Property Rights
[] Conscious Capitalism BS
[] Life Lessons From "Life Below Zero"
 
     Epistemology
[] Why Are My Videos So Long?
[] Metaphysics vs Epistemology
[] Understanding Better Than Academics
[] Changing Perspectives Destroys Reality
[] All Understanding Is Metaphoric
[] All Understanding Is Metaphoric - Part 2
[] Skepticism & Nonduality
[] How To Test For Self-Bias
[] Learning From Partially False Perspectives
[] Sherlock Holmes' Brain
[] Why Debates Don't Work
     
     Enlightenment
[] Absolute Infinity Demo
[] Explaining God For Dummies
[] Total Omniscience Awakening
[] Infinite Love Awakening
[] Ego-Collapse Awakening
[] Tapping Into Collective Consciousness
[] Miracle Awakening
[] Sense Organs Are Imaginary
[] DPT: The Other God Molecule
[] What It's Like To Smoke Salvia Divinorum
 
     Life Purpose
[] Why Get Rich Quick Schemes Don't Work
[] How I Started My First Business
[] Requisite Variety & Creative Laziness
[] Guerilla Business Advice
 
     Health
[] Don't Half-Ass Yoga
[] Sitting Posture For Yoga & Meditation
 
     Leo’s Health & Life
[] Do I Doubt Myself?
[] My Health Situation
[] Back From 2 Month Break, Updates 
[] 14 Day Water Fast
[] Water Fast Ends, Carnivore Diet Begins
[] Things I’ve Been Wrong About
[] Fat Leo (I had to add this because it’s adorable)
 
     Retreats
[] Solo Retreat Videos & Insights
[] Hawaii Solo Retreat Feb 2018 Videos
[] Mindfucked In Hawaii
[] Hawaii Retreat Intro
[] Hawaii Late Night Insights
[] May 2018 Solo Retreat - Part 1
[] May 2018 Solo Retreat - Part 2
[] May 2018 Solo Retreat - Part 3

@RedLine Jesus this turned into a monster if a text hehe.
Pain is really negative emotion that you are not cognizing as emotion. It's good that you are cognizant of this pain and have some insight to it's nature, most people are too numb to even notice.
All emotions exist in the body. The placement of these emotion are mapped out by the chakra model.
The way to resolve all this is to fully go into the pain, get to know it and then transform it into the positive expression that it seeks to become. It's clogged up energy but it's still energy and thus has tremendous potential. It is seeking to go from its current solid form to a more moving and transforming form which is liquid form, and then to a blissful, spacious, liberated gas form.
This pain will not disappear into nothing but rather unfold into something positive, something you have been seeking for a long time, like grounding, power, self-assertion and self-expression.
This is an intuitive, gentle and intimate process. Using hard shit for this kind of healing is the wrong paradigm. Psychedelics could aid this intimate process, a low dose of something like lsd that doesn't give you hallucinations could be a good aid, but any crazy psychedelics seem unfit for you right now. You can fix all of this sober. With the right understanding, wisdom and techniques you have that power. 
 
If the pain in your chest comes from fear then I would guess that its strongest in your solar plexus and emanates from there. This is a minor chakra that's between the naval and the heart chakra and can negativity impact both when closed. In its open state it's tranquil and serene, in its closed state it's anxious. This functionality is closely related to the root chakra which is in your perineum, near your anus. In its closed state it's fearful and uncomfortable and in it's open state it's grounded, secure and comfortable. For this I recommend the protective bubble technique, it will sooth both chakras.
Protective bubble technique 
Imagine that you are inside a bubble with the diameter of roughly your length. The ball is about 4 inches thick and made out of a transparant material that is glowing with beautiful light. The bubble should be felt as an intelligent energy, rather than dead materia.
Inside this bubble you feel completely safe, embraced, tranquil, joyful and loved. Both feel these qualities emanate from within you and feel like you are receiving this from the bubble.
The walls of the bubble are semi permeable, good energy such as love and joy flow freely through the walls. But negative energy such as domination, suppression, unloving expectations or anything that is less than completely loving and accepting, is kept out by the walls. I’m talking about negative energy both from people and our thoughts, perhaps the idea of our mother or father.
This bubble subconsciously symbolizes your boundaries.
If negative energy gets through the walls against you will, it might be a sign that you need to set and articulate boundaries in relation to the negative entity. This is a function of the throat chakra. In your head, talk to the intruding entity, be intuitive. Ask it what it wants and establish boundaries with it. Listen to what the entity wants but don't comprise with it. Try to articulate why it's wrong. Let love be the mediator here.
If the bubble feels limiting in any way that means that you are not letting good energy flow through it. Let go of the limiting feeling but keep the healthy boundaries.
The visualization itself is only a tool to get in touch with the subtle sense of how your boundaries should be. Keep the subtle sense and the attitude throughout the day.
The point of this is to cultivate healthy boundaries and the attitude that we won’t tolerate negative energy, boundary violations or threats from the outside. There is absolutely no good reason to ever be affected by other people’s unloving, negative energy. There is no good reason to not be fully happy right now! It’s about allowing yourself a level of happiness that is unwisely seen as unacceptable by others and our culture.
When you have established a health bubble, just sit and bask is self-love, self-acceptance and happiness, while protected by the bubble.
You can stay an bask in this wellbeing or you can continue into the other techniques.
The contracting of the throat is the throat chakra. As you know, it's repressed stuff. You have things that you want to say and it remedy is to say it.
Self-expression technique - can be done after establishing the protective bubble or by itself.
In your head, say the things that you hold back or anything that pop into your mind. Some key words here are "I feel ...", "I want ..." And "I like ...".
Example: "When this person did that I felt unloved and betrayed. I want him to apologize and I feel resentful that he hasn't."
Like this you articulate in your mind clearly whatever you are thinking. Let it be a stream. Really get into it. 
As you keep going you might want say things aloud. Let the process evolve naturally. Whatever works for you is the right way to do it. When you really get into it you might want to scream and shake and go crazy as your energy gets unstuck. That is progress you don't have to verbalize your screaming but definitely flow with the energy and don't suppress it energetically. When you have purified your emotions you will eventually find that these emotions have clouded a profound gratitude that will reveal itself. Don't force it. Express good things if it comes naturally.
Pay extra attention to your throat while doing this. You can try to incorporate the breath into this by breathing deeply and relaxing your throat and do the self expression on the out-breath.
Start with this exercise as it will begin to purify your other stuck energy, not only your throat chakra.
I'm guessing the reason you have become accustomed to suppressing yourself is because your parents suppressed your will and your expression of that will as a child. A suppressed will is an angry will. So some of your anger might be directly liked to this suppression and might be remedied by the self-expression technique.
 
The bubble and the expression technique should dissolve some of your blockages but probably not all of it. For that you should get into the chakra and open it to it's happy state.
Overview of chakra system, find more precise placement of chakras on google:
Chakra name Solid, closed, repressed state, passive Liquid, closed but active and transforming state, has a will to seek catharsis in gas state Gas, open, happy, blissful, cathartic Element(the solid, liquid, gas form of energy is only metaphorical and not related to element which is a deep aspect of our psyche and cognition) Root  Ungrounded Fearful Grounded, secure Earth/physicality Sacral Alienated, lonely Horny, approval seeking Embracing, passionate, lively, connected, orgasm Water/movement Navel Submissive, victim complex Angry Joyful, benevolent power Sun/warmth, change, vitality Solar plexus(minor chakra) Withdrawn Anxiety Tranquility, serenity None Wish tree (minor chakra, located right under heart chakra and is connected to it and it's love. Many think these are one and the same chakra and they almost are, so you can see this as an aspect of love) Nihilistic Longing Fulfilled, purposeful None Heart Apathic Hatred Loving, healing Air/spaciousness, sky Throat - doesn't have an emotion in itself but is rather a conduit for previous chakras Suppressing  Expressing discontent Expressing content, gratitude Ether - irrelevant Head - also doesn't have an emotion in itself. Is the ego itself, the master chakra. All other chakras are mirrored here as thoughts and are controlled from here.  Unconscious Dualistic, ego awareness, closed-mindedness, dissociation Non-dual, boundless awareness, happiness, open-mindedness None Crown - melting together with the cosmos - irrelevant in this context All chakras influence the others and all are effected by physical conditions like lack of sleep or poor nutrition. So your healing won't take as long for every chakra as when you open one you positively impact the others. The heart chakra has the biggest impact on the overall system as it's the healing chakra. So you want to fist focus on the heart chakra to then use its love in healing the other chakras.
 
You wrote that the chest pain also is anger which I would guess is actually felt strongest lower down around your navel area and parallel vertebrae. You wrote that you also experience anger in your head. This is a missing of the anger in your navel chakra. All lower chakras are mirrored in our head as thoughts. If the energy is stuck in our head tho I would think it means the anger is combined with dissociation from the anger. This is healed by going into the anger and resolving it instead of avoiding it. Own up to the anger instead of casting it to the shadow.
Use this technique to open the remaining chakras (although use the previous technique for the throat chakra):
Chakra catharsis release technique - can be done after establishing protective bubble or by itself
Choose a chakra to work on, this can be changed after a while i you like. Find where in this area you feel the most energy, either in solid, painful form or in liquid form.
Take a deep breath. On the in-breath, bring up the liquid form of the chakra you are working on the most energy-dense point. Feel the energy radiate outwards from this point and don't restrict the energy to this point at all. Make it as intense as possible, the intenser the liquid form, the more solid energy is transformed to liquid, and the stronger the eventual catharsis. 
On the out-breath transform the liquid form into its cathartic gas form. The liquid form has a seed of the gas form in it. Find that positive crenel in the liquid form and go into it while letting go of the negative aspects of the liquid form.
There are two additions to add to the out-breath step that you can add when you got the hang of the basic technique:
Combine the positive expression of the chakra with love. This turns root chakra comfort and security to flourishing, sacral chakra pleasure into loving embrace, naval chakra joy into generous nourishing, and head chakra awareness into loving surrender. On the out-breath also tune in to the chakras element. Root chakra: tune in to the physicality of earth, the space you are in and your body sitting on earth, feel grounded. Sacral chakra: tune in to the water element, it's a warm and embracing water, feel it all around. Feel the density of the water. The world is in constant cyclical movement like ebb and flow. Flow with the world, breath with that flow and feel your stomach and chest expand and contract. The water element is what connects us with the world. Feel that connection with nature as you breath with the world. Just like nature ebbs, flows, turns from night to day your body ebbs and flows with the breath. Like Bruce Lee said: Be like water my friend. Naval chakra: feel a sun in your belly, radiating your powerful love outwards, warming and nourishing the entire world with it's blindingly bright light.  Heart chakra: tune in to spaciousness. The spaciousness of the room you are in, of your body and lungs. Imagine your body being hollow. Breath the spaciousness, breath love and feel how spacious love is. Feel how still and how peaceful it is. Breath deeply. Feel that spaciousness expand infinitely. It's soothing. It's indestructible.  Let's use the navel chakra as an example, on the in-breath feel a powerful anger radiating from your gut. On the out-breath find the kernel of joy and benevolent power in the anger and go into the happiness of that while letting go of the painful negative aspects of the anger. As you breath out you radiate that cathartic, powerful joy.
Hold the out-breath for as long as comfortable and just bask in the bliss of the positive expression(gas form) of the chakra.
Once you have gotten in to the positive open gas form of the energy, stay with that on the in-breath too and forget about the liquid form if it feels right.
It can be a bit tricky to get this technique right, there are many subtle distinctions to make and you have to experiment a bit to get this all right. Take this process in your own hands and follow your intuition. Whatever feels right to you is what you should do.
Be a little careful with going into the power of the navel chakra as it can increase your overall prana and make the painful chakras even more painful. If you feel this happening, then focus more on the blissful joy side of the chakra and less so on the power side of the chakra. Or switch your focus entirely to dissolve other pain or focus more on the heart chakra.
For more information on these techniques and more complementary techniques, I highly recommend 5-Minute Miracle by Tara Springett.
Pro tip: make the last meal before doing these exercises only fruit, preferably water rich fruit. Fruits are the most prana rich foods on the planet and will get your energies moving. I myself am enjoying good vibes and high energy on an entirely fruitarian diet.
I'm glad you reached out with this because everything is healable and everyone deserves healing. Hope all this is insightful and helps. Let me know how these techniques work for you or if they don't, or if you have any questions. 
Lastly here is a great song about life and healing: https://youtu.be/sg209CadVQM
 

Treat Google like a guide.
Every place the human mind has ever gone to, every minutiae of existence and the lack of it can be found on Google.
An exemplar of this:
Reading a book is like conversing with another human; the human who has written a book has spent a considerable time of their life putting their thoughts into it, through research, practice, contemplation, or any other means. So, it is like living the life of another human in a couple of hours/days.
Now imagine, every thought that has come into our life has been spoken about by another person, or at least on those lines. 
Now imagine how many people have been on Earth, and how they have expressed themselves.
Still, there are many things that we, in our limited capacities, have not stumbled across. 
Still though, we have at least some speculative data.
So, now let us put this together:
Everything known, everything vague, everything speculated is on Google. 
Google is an extension of you, and you are yet to realize that. 
Moreover, every new thing is added by the second. 
So, basically Google is the human-meta that there is for the most expansive knowledge there is, or perhaps ever will be.
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So, how do you go about it?
The answer is simple ---how do you go about life? That is the manner. 
Lead the kind of life you have imagined for yourself, and make Google your guide in that process.
Google is there to help you, and you are there to help Google. 
Google will contribute to you, and you in turn, through your life will contribute to Google.
@LeoX8
 

Hello people!
My name is Denis, I'm from Romania and I want to share my story about my life purpose.
This month I celebrate one year since I found my life purpose and this is the path that lead me to it. (My purose in life is about mathematics)
It all began with my ex girlfriend. We met a year ago when I was 17 and I thought that she is gonna be the love of my life (we broke up after a month, so she wasn't :)) ) and everything was nice and beautiful untill we started arguing about something she thought i did but I didn't.
While my girlfriend and I were together I also started learning more. And that was because of her. She was very into learning and I didn't know how she could learnd that much, read that much and all this stuff. I remember when I said to myself "If she can do that I should be able to do that too" and I started wondering what would be the best topic that will help me if i'll go learn about it. And suddently, I do not know how math came into my mind, so I decided to give it a shot. I was struggling so much with it because I almost knew nothing about it. I was asking her how to do this and that problem and I started to improve my skills and go better with it. My colleagues were coming at my home to learn math (we had exams in that period) and I stood out. They started questioning me about their exercices and when I saw that I had some insights, I asked myself "have I really got it, I mean they think I know what I'm doing. Did I really learn something about it? Maybe I'm not that bad. I think this fits for me". This was just the beginning.
In the end me and my girlfriend knew we cannot be with each other anymore. She started telling me that I'm immature and that I behave like a clild. I was so frustrated cause I knew that everything she said was true. So I made a commitment, from that day on, I said to myself that I have to change my life and all of this has to stop. I wanted to become more wise and especially more mature. I wanted to show her that I can do it and I can do anything. I wanted to show that she is wrong.
And now it has pased a year and I continue to study math from 4 to sometime 10 hours everyday. I 've also read like 30 books since then and got into self development, got involved in calisthenics and learning many other things.
I think I grow immensely in last year, but this is just the beginning of the story.
It was I think the best decision I've done with my life. I found my life purpose and I love it. For me it is the most fascinating thing in the world. I'm planning to go learning deeper fields and topics about math when I'll go to university.
And now my question for you is how did you find your life purpose and what is it?
I'm so curious to see your stories!

It sounds like a very front-loaded life purpose. By that I mean there is a ton of research that you'll need to do upfront to catch up on hundreds of years worth of philosophy before you can start contributing your own thoughts.
If you do shallow research and start writing too soon, there's a good chance that you'll end up just coming to the same conclusions as previous philosophers and not contributing anything unique. All of the basic ideas have already been considered and discussed ad nauseum. 
This is a life purpose where you're particularly going to need to have a strong vision or end goal in mind. Because you might be learning and processing massive amounts of information. But on paper, you're not going to actually have anything to show for it for years. Things like # of words written per day is not a good goal early in the process for your case. Instead you'll need to find something else like numbers of books read, or create your own arbitrary scales for how far you feel that you've come.
For some people, their life purpose is more like just throwing money at the problem and it starts functioning on day one like a McDonald's franchise. Other people need to go to school for years in a subject before they can even start working on it. You are in the second category. You need to look at this like a marathon and not a sprint.

Drop that belief. The resistance felt in feeling is with the thoughts, not the actions, nor the perception or experience. With that one belief you create the resistance in experience across the board.
There is no such things as resistance.  
Believe that. Be the One you are. 

If you increase your awareness really hard, then you'll see that the ego is just a misconception, it can't be killed because it does not even exist in the first place.
The ego is just the voice of the body from which you experience life + your beliefs/assumptions, nothing more.
BTW, who would want to kill the ego ? The ego ...

To start a business online you need to roll up your sleeves and start doing lots of research. Survey the marketplace and start eyeing a niche for yourself. As you do that, find answers to the following questions:
What kind of business do you want to have? What do you want it to accomplish? How do you want to run it? Who would you be competing against? How would you be attracting clients? What is the value you'd be offering to clients? What role do you want to play in the business? How many employees do you want to have? How much money do you want to make? How much money do you have to invest in the business to get it off the ground? What are your passions? What are your are your really good at already, or could become good at?

Hi Alex,
I also do not like the traditional 9-5 work week. I started my own business and work from home now. Some important questions to ask when considering starting a business are:
- Where are your expertise/ What are you good at?
-What is there a need for? 
- What is your experience? 
- How can you find a niche and stand out in an industry.
I will use my own personal experience for an example.
- I am good at understanding businesses  and marketing. I also did an internship and have a bachelors degree in marketing.
- In my particular area, there is a need for small business marketing. They are big enough to want to invest into some additional marketing, but can not yet afford to hire and in house full time marketing employee. 
- Once I realized that there was a large group of businesses who wanted to do things like social media or SEO but could not hire a full time employee to do so, I found my niche. They are my target audience. I keep my prices lower than traditional marketing companies, I do not offer "cookie cutter" marketing (each company has a slightly different focus and way for reaching their target audience), I am cheaper than hiring a full time employee, and I present data evidence monthly of a companies growth. 
 
I hope this helps! 

This is a really good example of someone running into a innovation out of their own need. He shifted away from his domain of mastery, which was wallet making because he got injured. This lead him to the idea of creating this product. Kind of similar to what Napoleon Hill describes in his audio about think and grow rich.
I've been pondering more about product innovation and ideas. I figured if you were looking for some inspiration for a business or product, then this is a great video. I highly recommend the watching the whole thing, 
 

@BlurryBoi Great Question! First, please understand that the ancient Stoics were pioneeringly deterministic. The dichotomy of control is deterministic philosophy. What must be differentiated between is external and internal causation. Externals are seen as completely out of one's control, completely deterministic. Internals are seen as deterministic but less so because a human mind can be prepared in advance by disciplining it to a virtuous character with wisdom, reason, ethics, and courage that will enable high quality responses to adversity rather than inflamed emotional reactions. There may be the appearance of contol of mental impressions and they may even be spoken of conventionally as controllable relative to externals, and while more controllable than externals, internals are still ultimately determined... except....
...The most advanced teaching on this subject is that in paradoxically giving up all illusions of control the divine Logos can express itself through the highest Nature of a human to grant a contol of Mind so powerful that nothing can disturb its peace.
Happy Stoic studies my friend