Due to an injury and a failed surgery I am experiencing immense pain and suffering. Unable to look at old photos , I am desperately trying to find out who I really am. Meditating has not been easy either as I get bombarded with thoughts about past and self blame. I know of people who have gone through worst but have come out stronger. Knowing that I will need to have a second surgery in about a year, creates uneasy feelings of worry. My question is , how do I break away from my past, the way I once felt and looked, and embrace the suffering I am enduring, and accepting my present and having faith in what is yet to come. This has been the most difficult experience of my life so far.
