Hi Actualized forum!
I'm wrapping my mind around this thing, let's say is mental gymnastic, and in a sense a question that leads towards further awakening, but:
What's the point of awakening? If I'm God and I've deluded myself, by my own design, into creating (by imagining it) reality to experience it as an unconscious human being, and to forget that I was God dreaming up all of this, what's the point of awakening and get to know the Truth? Wouldn't it be considered as some sort of "spoiler"? And isn't a spoiler a bad thing if we want to enjoy a movie? Or a videogame?
Like, what's the point of telling Mario that he's a videogame character? Just so he could stop being so distressed about saving her princess and living the adventure? He would stop being Mario and being engaged with his story, I think.
I'm probably going through "the sad stage of awakening", everything looks pointless to me but in a "happy" and enlightened way, I'm so awake right now that the only thing I "want" (at this point this isn't even a "want" as in a materialistic sense) to do is go meditate on a mountain, and live an happy life in harmony with nature.
In a sense, I see awakening itself as "wrong", God's will in first place was for me to not realise the Truth about Him, or he wouldn't have bothered to imagine all of this and he would've remained God itself fully conscious without reality and humans, animals and everything else. He would've stayed God and that's it.
So, shouldn't being unconscious the "right way of living"? The most natural? The most obvious? The one that aligns with God's will? The one that makes us fully engaged with the dream since we don't know it's a dream and therefore we live it at its fullest?
To compare it to dreams, it's cool to lucid dream but once that is realised, there's no going back to the unconscious dreaming, where you're engaged with the story and you don't know what will happen, all there is left to do, in a first moment, is to imagine every kind of strange thing and having fun in every possible way, but after a while, since there's no surprise anymore, it gets boring, so at that point the most convenient thing to do with all that lucidity dreamy power would be... to forget that I'm dreaming. To live again the joy of dreaming, in an engaged way, where you don't know what will happen. And we're back to point 0. And that's exactly what I'm trying to state: there's no point in awakening.
