Alexander Nigma

Because impermanence is just a term to describe the eternal ever changing nature of reality. For impermanence to be impermanent things would have to become somewhat permanent which is impossible. its just a term. Don’t get lost in words. Impermanence is impermanence in itself. There’s nothing to debunk because that doesn’t really make any sense in of itself if you analyze it.

The only reason you are saying that is because you have the wrong conceptualisation of who you are. To say that the universe won’t protect you using this argument, we have to assume that physically dying is somewhat wrong and the amount of time you spend on this earth as some significance? It ain’t even about that. This is duality. Duality is very easy to get lost in.

-Impermanence: Impermanence (Pali anicca, Sanskrit anitya) means that all conditioned things (saṅkhāra) are in a constant state of flux. Buddhism states that all physical and mental events come into being and dissolve. Human life embodies this flux in the aging process and the cycle of repeated birth and death (Samsara); nothing lasts, and everything decays. This is applicable to all beings and their environs, including beings who are reborn in deva(god) and naraka (hell) realms. This is in contrast to nirvana, the reality that is nicca, or knows no change, decay or death, because an enlightened being doesn’t know other thing than the present moment, the difference between permanence and impermanence vanishes as the whole universe become one as the ultimate reality is perceived. -Suffering: Dukkha (Sanskrit duhkha) means "unsatisfactoriness, suffering, pain". The dukkha includes the physical and mental sufferings that follows each rebirth, aging, illness, dying; dissatisfaction from getting what a being wishes to avoid or not getting the desired, and no satisfaction from Sankhara dukkha, in which everything is conditioned and conditioning, or because all things are not experienced as impermanent and without any essence. -Emptiness: No-thing is SELF(spirit). Spirit is the unitive consciousness, the infinity that can be accessed while on earth. -No-self: Anatta (Sanskrit anatman) refers to the doctrine of "non-self", that there is no unchanging, permanent Self or soul in living beings and no abiding essence in anything or phenomena. While anicca and dukkha apply to "all conditioned phenomena" (saṅkhārā), anattā has a wider scope because it applies to all dhammā without "conditioned, unconditioned" qualification. Thus, nirvana too is a state of "without Self" or anatta. The phrase "sabbe dhamma anatta" includes within its scope each skandha (aggregate, heap) that compose any being, and the belief "I am" is a mark of conceit which must be destroyed to end all Dukkha. The Anattā doctrine of Buddhism denies that there is anything called a 'Self' in any person or anything else, and that a belief in 'Self' is a source of Dukkha(suffering) REALIZATIONS TIED TO THE 4 MARKS, THE 4 GOLDEN RULES 1: Everything is impermanent 2: Suffering is caused by earthly attachement & fear of death in every way shape or form thus the lack of understanding of your true nature 3: Emptiness aka infinite possibilities is the ultimate structure of reality & who you truly are at your core 4: Nothing is you, you are God, an eternal shape shifter that as no official shape or form, a god that can take infinite forms & play the cosmic game for eternity

Imma tell you a secret. It’s either you go gradually & learn about the shrooms OR you take a gigantic dose. Terrence McKenna said that the problem is not to take to much is to not take enough. If you don’t take enough your ego can still battle it. But if you somewhat take such a gigantic dose that your ego dies completely and is knocked the fuck out of consciousness THAN he has no power to fight it lmao. But if you do that you’re responsible of what happens cuz I don’t promise you anything at that point? & yeah obviously just look at sum Leo videos about his awakenings. If you don’t remark the weirdness I don’t know what to tell you. It’s no wonder why ignorant people think he’s a crazy psychotic weirdo that’s gonna start a cult. He reached some impressive levels of consciousness without any doubt buuuut the way his mind distorts reality is as much impressive if not even more?

It depends on a lot of factors. The truth is, there’s no amount you “should” take. That’s only up to you. Also, all dosage is illusory which means that 2G,3g,4g etc are just numbers before a unit of measure but again all that is relative & different people will have different trips on different dosages. If I were in the situation where I didn’t took shrooms in 3 years I would probably buy something like 14g & do something like 1st trip 2 grams, 2nd trip 2 grams, 3rd trip 3 grams & the last two trips 3.5g or just 7g in one take lmao. Overall I would buy a good amount and go gradually. But maybe it’s only my compulsive neurotic personality hahahha. In the end it’s up to you, your mental health, your environment, your shadows & buried traumas etc are all things you should take into consideration. But one thing I am going to tell you is, be careful. If you only did 1 trip in your life I would go gradually & create a relationship with the mushrooms by examining how you react to it in different mind states, what are the pros & cons, how do you react to it etc & just learn about the shrooms relatively to yourself. It’s like a girl, you can fuck her one night do a couple rounds & shit but you might catch a std as you don’t even know her and wasn’t ready for that. But if you learn to know her, build an emotional bound with her, learn to be vulnerable & honest with her, examine how y’all interact & communicate, not only the sex will probably be much better but you will know what you are engaging yourself in by being with her. Same things with psychedelics, if you don’t do your experiences gradually with them & take them recklessly you just might cause yourself more harm than anything else. It’s always better to create a relashionship with the drug, learn about it through direct experience & gradually increase the dose. Know what you are doing. Psychedelic like shrooms creates ego suppression & can lead to momentary ego death where you forget your name, lose short term memory etc. If you have an immature ego & you indulge too much in shrooms you might just experience a dirty ego backlash & I talk from personal experience lmao. Know what you are throwing yourself into & judge by yourself if your ego is ready for these experiences because they are not to be messed with. Use them with caution. Only you can know if you are ready. If not, I would recommend you meditate & learn about yourself more. First realize or at least INNERstand that you whole life is an illusion that there’s only the present moment etc. If you don’t know thyself, you are adventuring yourself in possibly dangerous grounds. Look at @Leo Gurapsychedelics made him realize a lot of things, but because he was naturally a spiritual noob, his small self deformed reality & became overly inflated by the godly realizations he made. Only because his mind didn’t get through the natural process. You don’t get to know yourself through psychelics, it should be a tool. If you are not careful & don’t go throught the natural process before, your immature ego will take the realizations you made as an individual spirit & really distort reality in a weird manner. Overusing psychedelics without being ready would make you a spiritual 3 eyed fish in a sense that your whole being would become really ugly & distorted only because you abused of an external source of spiritual power. Just like fishes become deformed by radio active compounds in the ocean it would make you a spiritual deformed being. Your ego mind & higher self would entangled themselves to make you a weird Luciferian that wanna reach higher levels of consciousness again & again without realizing there’s no such thing as high consciousness the spirit realm don’t work like that. A human lost in the physical will always remain a human lost in the physical if he uses psychedelics to learn about his true nature. Life don’t work like that, that’s the curse of psychedelics. Just wanted to warn you & any other person who would tryna go on a spiritual ego trip of going up somewhere tryna figure out the “highest” truth. Motherfuckers like Leo been worshipping Lucifer without even knowing smh. GOD BECOMING MAN WILL ALWAYS BE A FAILURE. No disrespect to Leo but people need to know that life don’t work like that. Don’t become a Luciferian. It’s better to be happy & unconscious, than a conscious human trying to be like God. God is you you don’t become it. But you see, contrarily as some people like Leo thinks, it’s very tricky to know your true nature with psychedelics without getting lost. This is for everybody who wanna play with that psychedelic shit. Psychedelics does really weird things to people if you over uses them. You could see it with Gura himself, it made him very unbalanced & really a spiritual 3 eyed fish. There’s no other word for it, it’s just weird. What happened to him is unexplainable, the psychological imbalances & delusions that psychedelics can cause in excess is fascinating. So yeah all that to say be careful my guy?

THE PHILOSOPHER STONE MODEL TO UNDERSTAND YOUR TRAVEL IN THIS REALM OF REALITY AS GOD!!!! This will be more like a metaphysical freestyle than a clear and clean explanation I am just bored and when I get bored I have fun deconstructing the very nature of reality and playing with metaphysical knowledge like its child’s play lmao SO, before you read what I am about to say make sure you dissect for yourself the picture I just put below. This is the philosophers stone and that’s a model to understand your travel as god in this world. First, take a look at the circle. The circle is the separate human self aka the mind that you have created as a god body to manifest yourself in this sphere of reality that we call GAIA EARTH TIAMAT ETC. God being infinite possibilities have to take some sort of body when he manifests itself in any light aka illusion aka realm of reality. The human mind is the body that you, as God, have created for yourself to travel here, on earth, while you also manifested your SELF AKA SOUL in many worlds other than here. It would make sense then, that in deep meditative states you can remember “past” AKA parallel lives and see extraterrestrial beings, because you would then have access to your other god bodies that are manifested in different worlds. See that, in the circle, there’s a yin & yang symbol which represents the duality of the human mind. Duality is a necessary thing to have as god to remember who you are and carry your duties here on earth, but also very easy to get lost into it as a spirit because it is extremely tricky. So the goal here is to use duality to move through this world. So you are the higher self, soul, God(purple triangle), that incarnated into this life as a separate self(green circle) to move through this world(red square) to carry God’s duties and responsibilities AKA higher will of the source(blue circle) Now, as infinite potentiality TOTALLY TRANSCENDS duality, the higher will & morality is not the same thing as human would conceptualise “good” to be. Leo already said it, even war, murder, death etc is an expression of LOVE in the end. Now why is that? I will keep it very short because we could talk about this for 20 hours. Good and bad are 2 relative concepts co-dependently arising & passing relatively to the given context. Knowing that, we can understand that even death & chaos are things that are necessary to the development of consciousness and that we cannot know good without bad and that death is in itself an expression of the higher will. Both good and bad are being manifested as stepping stone towards the next step of human evolution & because both happens simultaneously each day, it creates a sort of cosmic ripple effect that will propel us towards a certain “future” aka a certain dimension “somewhere” in the quantum field. So, thing is, you cannot run from the ultimate nature of reality as, at the deepest core, YOU ARE IT. No matter how, things are always changing, evolving, shape-shifting etc which means that we are always going forward and that the ultimate goal of life is to create, but a creation that also incorporates destruction. TRUE creation is not the polar opposite of destruction, as destruction is a form of creation as Graham Green said. The Devil also said that lol, but again, the devil is part of the WHOLE. So if the ultimate goal of everything that exists is to create in every way shape or form, then we can come to the conclusion that... this is all a cosmic game that we(as gods) took seriously???. No but seriously, we come to the conclusion that, because the nature of everything is to infinitely shapeshift in this big ass cosmic game that we are all apart of as souls, we realize that we have no possibility whatsoever to run from the cycle of life and death, and that demonizing one of those will only get us lost as spirits. Only humans try to cling on to life. But, as our true nature is infinite potentiality, we love being in high vibrations as souls, that’s where we strive. And we are lucky enough to be in a time we’re there is a mass awakening and a shift in human consciousness in this world. So love, being high vibrational, is a state we love to be in and that’s also a power we all have inside of us. In the context of infinity, learning duality allowed us to learn what we have to do to bring humanity closer to god. We learned good & bad to be able to propel humanity in a loving era, where people are in touch with their true selves and exhibit love, understanding, intelligence etc. Chaos, death, destruction etc ruled this world for so long that we are now at a turning point where we will witness the slow beginning of a golden age. So making the difference between good and bad allowed us to be able to bring humanity closer to god and end the cycle of hatred and suffering that we have been through as a species, not because it is necessarily bad, but because that’s where we are at in our process of evolution. As we learned duality, we have now the chance to transcend it and actually take humanity in a spiritual place of love and infinite potentiality, somewhere we all like to be as Gods! If you discover the ultimate truth of reality, you know that there’s only one truth that cannot really put into precise concrete words, as it is nothing concrete. But, even if this truth is not necessarily “good” it is something that we can conceptualize as good because we have no choice but to be in complete admiration of everything that exists both good and bad when realizing this truth, and when even bad things cannot affect you, you truly know that you reached God, when you fully grasp the beauty of everything that exist, when you realize the complete beauty of infinity, you have no choice but to transcend both suffering and lower morality, to access the higher realms of truth. Whether good or bad, the ultimate truth is something we are all familiar with, because at the core, it is us, and being able to bring humanity closer to this ultimate truth is a great gift. Death, chaos and suffering allowed us to see bigger. The ultimate goal of everything that exists is ultimately to have fun in this game. But, when you access this truth, you have no other choice to have fun as you realize that any of your worries where nothing but a product of the illusion of your little self into which you lost yourself as God. In the end, absolute truth can destroy us and be a real nightmare for humans who cling on to illusions and concepts, but in the end, as Gods, truth is where we belong and even if the human mind shakes in terror in face of truth, we, as Gods, know that truth is where we belong and it will always be a joyful and blissful state to marinate in this truth. so going back to the philosopher stone now that humanity experienced duality to an expreme extent, its time to transcend duality and illusion and the reason we remembered who we truly are in this lifetime aka a multi-dimensional infinite God, is to share this truth to other people to create an entanglement of causes and effect towards the goal of bringing humanity closer to this ultimate reality. And as Gods, our mission is to move through matter using our individual self to share the ultimate truth as we are all Gods connected to the source of everything that exist. The philosopher stone is something nobody can escape in this realm of reality as we always will have an individualized body that we use to share our message as god through the illusion of matter. That’s why it’s probably one of the best models out here. This will always be true. Even after an ego death, you are still communicating through a seemingly separated entity that we call human. There’s no escape from it. so the goal here is to take care of your human mind, integrate your shadows, dissolve your humanly dogmatic beliefs, remember who you are, transcend duality, killing the false analytical awareness that fears death aka the ego, actualizing your true self, learning magick & esoterica to learn how to use your powers correctly in this reality & contributing to the evolution of humanity towards the ultimate truth of everything that exists.

True meaning of the star ⭐️ 5 corners = the being as a whole while on earth 2 corners below = Human and demon 2 corners above = Satan and Lucifer Corner in the middle above = God aka true/higher self Spirits run through all those SIMULTANEOUSLY As GOD you are supposed to use the four other corners as your TOOLS when needed, without losing yourself in them(leads to different forms of hell if u do lose urself in them). You are supposed to use them WHEN NEEDED and shape shift between each other all the time. That’s the game of life. ***We are all stars*** Meaning of each corner God: God is the true self. God is the infinite no shape and form that you are and always have been. What we call the higher self. It is the direct offspring of the divine, ultimate structure of reality which is infinity/no-thing etc. God is the true self beyond any logic and rationality. It is the creator and observer of its own individual reality that he himself created for his own individuality which he shares with other gods(we all are gods aka creator of our personal reality). God is the soul. The supreme and eternal nature of oneself. The higher self is directly connected to the ALL which makes everyone directly connected to the very structure of reality having in their disposition infinite universal knowledge(if opened to it). God is truth, oneness and unity. High vibrations are always the way to god. That’s why love is an enormous and necessary part of connecting with ones true nature. Lucifer: Lucifer is god becoming man. The individuality leads to egotistical behaviors when it’s used to much. Lucifer is the one who takes credit for the knowledge of God and appropriates it to himself like he is somehow the owner of this universal knowledge. He takes pride of this knowledge and uses it for egotistical purposes. Being lost in Lucifer aka the false light is a common trap on the path. As the ego is being inflated with the illusory perception of himself, he becomes crazy with the idea of sacred knowledge and think it’s individuality is somewhat superior to the other individuals who have yet to connect with themselves. Lucifer is the product of ignorance and human awareness that corrupts the sacred knowledge. Lucifer is not bad, but losing oneself in its light is a real danger for the soul, as it cuts you off from yourself and puts you under another illusion, ironically. Lucifer is the human mind, the illusions of “I am” and the thoughts that are in your head and the way you identify to them. Logic and words are Lucifer and are meant to be used, yet so many loses themselves in these things. The human mind should always be used as a tool for god to manifest its will into this realm of reality, he should never be controlled by its own creation, which leads to hell for the Self/Soul. You could see that Leo lost himself in his Lucifer after his awakenings because his separate self took credit for the sacred knowledge & somehow he came back as a separate self inside his head thinking he was god lol. The difference is that TRUE Luciferians don’t share their knowledge. Leo just fell for the light of Lucifer but that’s what happens when you are a weak spirit that awakens as a human through psychedelic drugs. You think the stuff you discovered is the deepest stuff ever when in fact, if I judge by the knowledge he is kicking, he just scratches the surface. But yeah, the light of Lucifer makes an individual very delusional and distorts his perception of himself by coming back as a human with the knowledge of the gods. Only a human would take some sort of pride out of their discoveries in consciousness and let that pride take over them to the point were it distorts their vision of themselves and reality. Claiming things like “I don’t know how many humans reached these levels of consciousness” when, I didn’t need 5-Meo-DMT to realize that the knowledge Leo obtained is pretty basic when it comes to TRUE universal knowledge. Lucifer can make someone kind of an ego maniac who keeps his knowledge to himself like Freemasons. But Leo still carries god duties in the end, he is just an immature spirit lmao. Satan: Satan is the structure and the density. Satan is the time and the use of the concept of time in your human experience. Using time and everything that relates to it(memories, time perception etc) is a great tool but also an easy one to get lost in. As God you are always shape shifting and changing bodies every nano second which makes you a traveler of the present moment. Life is all about that. You endlessly travel in an eternal here and now as a spirit experiencing infinite realms of reality. Now, in this density, we get attached to structure, lights, illusions and we use time aka the timeline of our perception of the life of the false self to justify the things about our character. These things are illusions, structure is illusory and only meant to be used by you in this density as a guidance but not as something you get lost in. The ego loves to use structure to reconfirm its own illusory sensation of himself. Don’t fall into that trap. Human: Human is the awareness of ones separate self aka the ability to judge your own existence based upon your illusory and limited perspective of reality. Human is the ability to judge the illusion of yourself based upon another illusion which is the illusion of the perception of yourself from a human perspective aka an ILLUSION. The human corner also represents the fleshly desires and delusions, the attachment to the physical world and the fear of death aka the will of survival aka the ego aka separation as trying to keep alive an illusory and empty sensation which is the ego, will always lead to selfish and close minded behavior as the will to survive just SEPARATES everybody. The will to survive is the polar opposite of oneness. Fear of death is the worst enemy of the spirit as the spirit is always travelling to infinite realms of reality every single moment of its existence in an eternal present moment, which leads to everything behing in a permanent state of flux and everything behing impermanent even in our world as life in itself is death as both are co dependently arising and passing through each other. To live is to die to die is to live. Impermanence reign supreme in every realm of reality, and only a spirit lost in its human ways will try to keep things as they are and be afraid of change and death of realms of reality aka sensations, lights, feelings and emotions etc. Satan is above the human form and we could say its the ruler of the human corner. Humans rely on structure and the illusory perception of time to develop attachment in the first place. Without Satan, the human corner could not exist. Demon: Demon corner is the low vibrational world. It as a couple layers to it and is multi-faceted as a concept like the other corners. The Demon corner represents being LOST in pleasures, desires, egos, guilt, revenge, remorse, regret, fear and REPETITION aka LIMBO aka HELL. The reason repetition is a hell is simply because as a spirit travelling through infinite dimensions in the quantum field through an infinite succession of NOWS which really equals ONE now, repeating a set of behavior and energetic patterns aka staying in the same multi-verse for to long, leads to hindering the voyage of yourself as an eternal spirit which inevitably causes enormous suffering because it leads you to act in the opposite way of your true nature. So attachement leads to suffering but attachment in itself is the opposite of your true nature as you are a high vibrational being travelling through infinite dimensions. Clinging to things literally takes you away from yourself and human behavior leads to demonic behavior and repetition, out of the desire to control and keep things permanent for your safety which leads you to hell as you are always supposed to flow and shape shift in harmony with infinity. disclaimer: I don’t care about human words so you will have to read between the lines of some things I said. This is profound knowledge that can only be understood by a spirit that came back to itself. Connect with God before trying to understand that. so brief recap: GOD = YOU AKA INFINITE POSSIBILITIES LUCIFER = GOD BECOMING MAN AKA THE INDIVIDUALITY WHO TAKES CREDIT FOR THE KNOWLEDGE OF THE ALL WHICH LEADS TO EGOTISTICAL BEHAVIOR SATAN = THE STRUCTURE, THE ORDER, THE TIME, THE EPOCH ETC WHATEVER IMPLIES STRUCTURE, ORDER & TIME HUMAN = CONSCIOUS AWARENESS, EGO, FEAR OF DEATH, ATTACHMENT TO THE FLESH & PHYSICAL WORLD. (When you get lost in Satan aka structure for too long it makes you become a human aka the voice inside your skull, your desire to survive & ultimately your separate self.) DEMON = LOW VIBRATIONAL WORLD, FEAR, ANGER, PLEASURES, DESIRES, EGOS, GUILT, SHAME, REMORSE, REGRET & REPETITION. EVERYTHING THAT COMPOSES YOUR SHADOW SELF IS THE DEMONIC & IF YOU ARE NOT AWARE BOOM YOU GET LOST IN THE DEMON WORLD. **WE ALL TRAVEL THROUGHT THESE WORLDS SIMULTANEOUSLY AS SPIRITS THE GOAL IS TO NOT GET LOST IN ANY OF THEM AND EXPERIENCE THEM WHILE STAYING GOD AKA THE OBSERVER AKA YOUR TRUE SELF AND STAYING CONSCIOUS OF WHAT SPACE YOU ARE IN AS GOD INCARNATED IN THIS REALM OF REALITY**

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Hey @Leo Gura, so I’ve heard you talking about your thyroid problems. I think you mentionned you had hashimoto’s disease. So my dad is a 60 years old biologist & has been studying human health for 40 years now. He cured me of the flesh eating bacteria & helped me enormously with serious eczema when modern medicine couldn’t do shit. I know he already helped at least one lady who had thyroid problems when he was doing consultations. So, I am not saying that he could cure what you have, but I am saying that he could help you with it because he has great knowledge on the human body. You helped me consciousness wise and I wanna thank you like I can. So recommending you to my father for your thyroid problems is probably the best thing I can do. If you want to come in contact with me you can text me at +14382298093 or e-mail me on antiquistriangulum@gmail.com. Also like I said, I wanna help you, I won’t charge you money or anything like that. Any money you would have to spend may be on some products that he recommends you if he does but that’s it. So don’t hesitate to reach out to me brother.

Yo @Leo Gura, so there’s this Youtuber named Frank Yang who claims to be an Arhat, the level just below the Buddha for Buddhists. Like the “final” level. I would find that interesting if you could make a video with him like an interview or just a conversation about enlightenment. Check him out!

So, Shinzen Young said that the stage 7 of the Ten Ox-Herding pictures is actually Nirvana aka complete enlightenment, Heaven etc. He said that the 8th stage was the substance, the 9th stage was the appearance and the 10th stage was the ultimate use of enlightenment. As this model of enlightenment is pretty abstract(like all models) this is pretty confusing. The goal is not to get anywhere BUT I would like it if someone(especially @Leo Gura)could clear up the subject. Because if the last 3 stages of enlightenment on this model aren’t stages then it’s useless to think about them in terms of stages as they are not meant to be think of in that way.

If you want to talk about honesty you gotta keep 2 things in mind: 1-Practicality: So obviously honesty comes with a lot of great benefits for yourself. Thing is, for practical matters, sometimes you just gotta lie and there’s nothing wrong about that. If you harm other people doing so and you become what Leo call a “devil” that can become a problem for others and for yourself. But all in all there’s nothing wrong in lying for your own benefit sometime. So being honest 100% of the time is a great goal that has great benefits but at the end of the day what is the point of setting a rule out of being honest and keeping yourself from lying when the situation calls for it. Just use your judgement in the given context. Anything that we want to do in our life, in the end, we do it for the GREATER good of us and the collective so you can argue that practicality as its place in every given context. Does it serve anybody in a good way or no? You should treat honesty like any other thing because nothing is good or bad and everything is relative to the given context. Just have fun while being in alignment with THE ALL. 2-Context: So again this ties to what I just said above I just wanna dive more in depth into that. If you wanna be 100% honest for any spiritual or logical reason you are already shooting yourself in the foot as you would have-to come to the conclusion that you have to be honest-to assume that honesty is the “right” thing to do in any way shape or form for whatever reason that you have in the first place. But let’s assume that you just wanna be honest for practical reasons like not creating shadows, not attracting illusions in your life etc. Everything is dependent on the context. 100% honesty is as twisted as 0% honesty because you will inevitably fall into a context when honesty will cause destruction in every way possible and because you will have created a rule out of honesty then you will cause destruction. Nothing is all black or all white. I will even go as far as saying that 100% honesty is complete insanity. Consciousness is not given to you for nothing, the more you become conscious the more you have the capacity to shape shift. Lying and putting on masks only for the sake of it is part of the game of life. Lying can have as much benefits as honesty depending on the given context. This type of questions will give you headaches lol. Just follow you heart, your intuition and ultimately follow your spirit, it knows the way. This kind of question is a question that only a human would ask. Don’t approach these questions from your human perspective. Detach and follow your SELF. You are supposed to use your human side, not losing yourself into it.