AlliNone

The deepest awakening is love of all that is, was and will be. This statement needs to encompass an infinity wrought with anything from grim to fortunate initial and ongoing circumstance in past life, life now and the imminence of future life experiences. In an infinite scenario of breadth and scope, it doesn’t seem far fetched to believe that there may be a certain purpose for our experiential scenarios. I’m new to this and not entirely in the camp of being able to manifest my own destiny through intent. I’m not ruling it out though of course because my experience points to this being a dream state with ample opportunity for choosing absolutely anything to become focused on and proficient at. My hang up is why initial circumstances are chosen for us? I can theorize as to why we all start in differing circumstance but knowing for certain is quite difficult. Is there a moral element to our evolutionary circumstances? Are we put into lives as a matter of consequence? Is it a progression? Is it none of the above? I’ve been measured, trained and tested in ways I suspect that I am largely not aware. Often times I wonder about “the other side”. If I look at myself in the mirror there, what would I see? I’m hearing here that we are separate and connected; bound together as a part of the whole and thus the ability to reach out with the mind to grasp the unknown through the interconnection we all share is possible. It is though quite the paradoxical journey to drown the self while simultaneously thriving in life and making strides at physical, mental and spiritual betterment. Wouldn’t the draw of power and energy then inherently come from outside of the self rather than conjured from within? If I can quote Cypher: “What a mind job...” A major part of me wants this whole experience to be a ‘Total Recall’ dream state. But then, to be in a state of complete submission of the mind to an outside force scares the living heck out of me. My mind begins to delve into the darkest and most painfully possible depths of what experience can indeed be under those circumstances. The degree of trust would need to be impeccable. I liken that idea to a time when I was looking at an apartment and the man opened his cellar to display extra storage space. It was just us and he wanted me to go in first. Did I? No freakin’ way!!! I tend to get in the weeds of the unknown some but there’s a bright place in the mind as well. I find leaning on the Christian philosophy of somebody with serious clout having my back offers my mind the opportunity not be afraid of the unknown. I experience a solid breadth and depth of what it is to be human. Our religions offer the best of our best ways to describe the human condition in its many forms of capability. We are indeed quite capable of treating each other in any way imaginable. So, complete love and enlightenment must embody the entire gambit of the condition of nature. That goes for humanity, every other creature under our sun and all who are out there into the great beyond. This enlightenment business: being capably aware of everything...being as a god...it’s a lofty stretch for me to say the least. Intriguing? Absolutely. The goal of shooting for the top often leaves falling short BUT it also leaves us further along had we set the bar lower. I’ve asked the powers that be that I may know as god knows. It does take a certain amount of love to look at someone in pain and be willing to take that pain from them and make it ones own. Sacrificing the self for the benefit of others. It’s heroic and pious. I’m jabbering now. Glad to be here and supposedly subsequently hear how ridiculous I am if anyone cares to take a stab at this wind baggery of a first post.