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I found you under my spell You were curled up like the winter I found me trying to get out of this place I found you trying to smother me with All your presents and all your visions I found you calling me your own name I won't carry you, I won't carry you Leave me to be I won't carry you, I won't carry you Leave me to be Tell me you'll leave me to be Leave me to be Tell me you want me to die Like I do I found you under my spell You were curled up like the winter I found me trying to get out of this place I found you trying to smother me with All your presents, all your visions I found you calling me your own name Aloha e aloha e 'Ano 'ai ke aloha e Aloha ae aloha e A nu ay ki aloha e There's no place I'd rather be Then on my surfboard out at sea Lingering in the ocean blue And If I had one wish come true I'd surf till the sun sets A wiki wiki mai lohi lohi Lawe mai I ko papa he'e nalu Flyin by on the Hawaiian roller coaster ride A wiki wiki mai lohi lohi La we mai iko papa he na lu Pi'I na nalu la lahalaha O ka moana hanupanupa Lalala I kala hanahana Me ke kai hoene I ka pu'e one Helehele mai kakou e Hawaiian roller coaster ride There's no place I'd rather be Than on the seashore dry, wet free On golden sand is where I lay And if I only had my way I'd play til the sun sets Beyond the horizon Lalala I kala hanahana Me ke kai hoene I ka pu'e one It's time to try the Hawaiian Roller coaster ride Hang loose, hang ten, howzit, shake a shaka No worry, no fear, ain't no biggie braddah Cuttin' in, cuttin' up, cuttin' back, cuttin' out Frontside, backside, goofy footed, wipe out Looking for the wipe-out Let's get jumpin', surf's up and pumpin' Coastin' with the motion of the ocean Whirlpools swirling, cascading, twirling Hawaiian roller coaster ride There's no place I'd rather be Then on my surfboard out at sea Lingering in the ocean blue And if I had one wish come true I'd surf till the sun sets Beyond the horizon A wiki wiki mai lohi lohi Lawe mai I ko papa he'e nalu Flyin by on the Hawaiian roller coaster ride A wiki wiki mai lohi lohi La we mai iko papa he na lu Pi'I na nalu la lahalaha O ka moana hanupanupa Lalala I kala hanahana Me ke kai hoene I ka pu'e one Helehele mai kakou e Hawaiian roller coaster ride

No intense visuals, a picture that looks like this, but in feeling: Paired with the song, like everyone singing together in unison, connected, praising life itself, like surfing a wave. And things look visually more colourful sometimes, like everything is breathing almost. Like this, like a clear miasma of ... nothing at all. And it happens if you stop thinking and just observe.

All the many corpses begin to speak What ignorance is cannot be argued over anymore It is too late for pleading white picket dreams Print you off, the shemps, the world is shrinking Rooted in a trivial concern, in interconnectedness In the need to make face and keep up And drown out the many voices within Imagine a culture that has, at its root A more soulful connection to land and to loved ones But I can hear the lie before you speak There is nothing but progress to eat And we are so fat and so hungry And the black wrists are cuffed in the pig van While the white shirt and tie in the tube car, distractional picture Pictures of beer and guilt about urges Sexual distrust and abandoned to nothingness Give me something I can nail myself to Give me a sharply-dressed talking head Who has something about them I trust and despise And what of it, anyway? These windows don't open They were designed to stay closed Shower, smoothie, coffee, commute Check the internet, never stop, never stop There is a scar on the soul of the world and it needs you to look The blood of the past is here, it remains The blood of the murders, the bodies like sacks leaking brain All stacked, chest aback on the planes, it remains To acknowledge without guilt, to accept without condition And to listen when other people tell you how you have behaved Truth is, it's for us to feel and be moved But I hear the clatter of bone against steel, it is coming It will not be stilled, it is there In the air, scorched white The reflection of sunlight on glass bouncing back into sunlight And glass bouncing back, industrialized Denial, business as usual So roll your eyes, shake your head, turn away and call me names I'm okay with that, too proud Unable to listen, we keep speaking Moted by blood, unable to notice ourselves Unable to stop and unwilling to learn This song makes me think of global warming, extinction and mass immigration. People being stuck in areas that are flooding or too hot or won't produce crops and other countries won't let them in, and the refugee problem becomes out of control. There is unrest everywhere and only the rich are protected by their wealth. People move to northern climates, after that we work on ways to reduce what has happened and beyond that I don't know - maybe we learn how to manage the weather somehow? You know, the basics. : / How can we live in harmony with nature? Will there be a massive die off? Like one we have never seen before? Most likely. It is said the black death allowed society to flourish afterwards; it empowered the poor and helped society move towards freedom. High thoughts. Maybe the same thing will happen again? I wonder how everything will play out, no one can really predict. Imagine being someone in the future stuck in terrible conditions as the sea rises, and you have been keeping water out of a ramshackle home for a few years and the mold gets to you and then the weather hits and destroys everything and you cut your foot in the water and die of sepsis? And your whole life was just hunger and stress and survival and that's it. And then you die. Imagine having to ration water, and being hungry and thirsty all the time and living in a tent in the desert? Your country has turned into a barren wasteland. Humans will survive it, but it didn't have to be this way, and if it did, what will come of the mess caused by global warming for future inhabitants of Earth? As in, how would the new society structured improve future generations if we lost a lot of our population? As it is, global warming is going to make diseases spread much easier, faster. And we have seen how humans handle this. : / What if ... like... dramatic events in history like this are synonymous with the rapture and that after a quick death, these people go to heaven or something like that? How would you karmically die from one life and move into something like that one? What event would need to take place, I wonder? Maybe it is purgatory? To clean up karma for a lot of souls quite quickly? What is the long term reasoning, plan and justification for the pain humans have to go through? The wave of future suffering is going to be unbearably heartbreaking. Cities might metaphorically be possible to make from the bones of the dead. I wonder how much time we will have in between each major disaster on our way to this timeline? It will always be something out of left field of course... Go to youtube and this is the first in my notifications. Something I will keep watch over, then. Probably another chain.

I am not personally a huge fan of it. I prefer fantasies. I'll watch porn maybe once every two or three months but I'm not a very sexual person anyways as it is. Some women really like porn and I have met them, some do not. I would say that it is rarer that women do, though.

This song is catchy.

@Carl-Richard Right now, the past few weeks have been really hard coming to terms with how delusional I can be at times and all the ways it manifests - how can the mind be sooo tricky? I feel silly, that I was blind by such obvious things. I can't even fully describe it, it feels like sloughing off a fog in an area of awareness where I felt so sure of things. Ah well.... life goes on. I get it.

This song makes me think of blue - a nation of people working together happily towards one unified goal - and they have like a collective people's energy that those in the west have lost that kept them going through hard times and keep stories/culture alive and have a greater bond with everyone in their entire culture because of this. Blue, at its best, allows a whole nation of people to sing and work together as One. I'm integrating some aspects of blue lately. It's not too bad... I think these lower stages are very vital groundwork.

Open eyes Keep an open mind Out of nothing the stars align What is least expected Sometimes all you need Nothing lasts forever When every moment's A choice you're making Just let it guide you Down whatever road you're chasing Now who would believe That we're even in the same league So much distance in between But we’re running towards the same dream Whеn every moment's A choicе you're making Just let it guide you Down whatever road you're chasing

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Ask for forgiveness and for guidance. Give Love and thanks. Have Faith.

I got my first vaccination a few days ago, no noticeable side effects at all. Sorry for waiting on it, I was worried about possible side effects (have an autoimmune disease) but decided to get it anyways. I get the second one in a few weeks.

You can't know for sure why he did what he did, it is disrespectful to assume you know why he killed himself and then tout that around here like his ghost's personal white knight.

Started in 2017 - I love bats - I like how with their noses, ears and wings they offer more variation for strange shapes to come together. ??❤️? My poor batties will forever be synonymous with covid. But actually, they are apparently an important marker for ecological health and scientists use them to determine if an ecosystem is "sick" or not. They have many different specialties, too, some of them very unique. Me realizing just how crazy I am. This is going to take some serious work to untangle. I think, however, after this picture, I am going to draw a few cats for a while. I have some ideas. This song feels like asmr. I feel like I'm tripping all the time. How do things so obviously not real become so strangely real? Once the delusion is seen through it's just like, "Yeah okay that wasn't real." But then it pops back up again, like... signs that seem to have some sort of direction but also don't, but I still end up with spiritual wisdom somehow. As though my foolishness has forced me to go deep with this stuff, no pun intended. It feels like a curse, like I line 'em up and it's so wrong but also so so right. I just don't get it... I'm not special, I'm normal I'm just crazy and when you're crazy the rules of reality change. And then it's real. But in all the wrong ways - but the fact that you can see anything at all, that some pattern of truth breaks free, this means something important. I was in a hostage situation at the ER, but I also have had a lot of delusions and seeing through them requires noticing the things I don't pay attention to, or can't, and that karma is what seems alive most of all.