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He was feeling optimistic His heart was tickin' click tick tick Synthetic hopes of a different day Sparks flew across his vains The stars are shining from a light engine The dj is spinning wig, wig, wig Colourvision with a blurry view Thats life if he just knew His life becomes worth living When he is dreaming, while he sleeps His life becomes worth living When he is dreaming while he sleeps Monday morning the lights are on Monday morning his life is gone The world is turning dark again His fellow workers are alive again

^ great voice betcha never heard this judy garland song before.

Making art!

@MuadDib Those pesky Aztecs always ripping out people's hearts. Thanks goodness for their victims it was so quick. I love that song btw, it's one of Kasbo's better ones ty

@lmfao My Fi keeps thinking of families losing loved ones, poor people stuck without vaccines dying in third world countries, the economy, ect. Or even people here not getting it, then coming over here, sick, and telling us about it; possibly dying from it or suffering complications. "I don't want you to die or spread a disease to innocent people." "Coercive meanie!!" "" I'm kind of an imp sometimes. If someone mentions an action, it's right there to try it and see how it goes. Fi is more objective than it looks quite often; Fi-Ne is naturally coercive. I like to try different things, but it's still a work in progress - the underlying motivation is good - keep people safe and help move things back towards a state of equilibrium - the virus has disrupted everything for everyone and if I can help to change things for the better, I will do that. But I'm just one person. Everyone has to work together on this. I mean, there is a virus going around and people are like... "I'm being coerced into taking a vaccine!" What kind of world would we be living in if people didn't do this? It would be one where people just don't care, which is fine in small doses, but across an entire population that's no good. It just makes sense that during a pandemic, if there is a vaccine, people would be trying to convince everyone to get it. So we can stay safe and resume our lives as best as possible. I "feel" like people don't think about the headspace others would have to be in, and how society would operate, if humans didn't do these common sense things. The fact that people are trying to convince anti-vaxxers to get this shot is out of care. It is a healthy reaction imo.

I'll give my full response on Thursday, I had an awakening into getting the vaccine, that had come from left field. It will take a while to write up, as I have not gone into what sent me to the hospital (I was in a hostage situation at the ER a month and a half ago and got some very deep mystical insights into personal karma and collective responsibility through the deity that I work with.) I had been waiting to get my vaccine due to autoimmune issues, and still had karma hit me in the face with it. The vaccine doesn't stop the virus completely, but it prevents it from becoming a possible death sentence. So it has not been perfect, but why would that be a reason not to take it? On top of this, nothing that I have said would force another person to take the vaccine - just simply keep them from places where vaccinated/high risk areas/people are located; traveling, restaurants and the like to keep it from spreading as much as we can. I disagree with the sentiment here on provocateurs, and think that with such things that provoking a response can be an acceptable thing to do. Not everything has to be polite in order to get your point across. We don't have to sing kumbaya and hold hands while disagreeing. I've read the retorts, and I don't 'feel' provoked by them, so... don't feel that way about me for attempting to get across the idiocy of not getting a vaccine that can prevent OR lessen the symptoms of a potentially deadly virus - especially in this day and age - during a pandemic. If you catch it without even 'trying' to take precautions, and give it to many people, then that's not cool. At all. It may be your body, but you're playing Russian roulette with the lives of your community. Karmically, that is a big problem. For them and for you. If you have not had to actively question if your life is equally worth that of another person's - and to be in a life and death situation where you have had to admit that the person next to you has a future worth more than yours - then you don't know what you're talking about and it is all speculation because society has mollycoddled people into not really seeing that the world is sink or swim, eat or be eaten. It's nature. And karma doesn't care about how you "feel" about your actions, only that you can make the choice that benefits more than just yourself. I "feel" like benefitting more than just myself doesn't cut it. Mutual causal interaction. How well can you keep other chains healthy? We live in a community and an ecosystem and it should be treated this way. Arbiter of truth? Uh. Yeah. I view life as precious, and want to make sure you and other people are safe. How dare I?

@Clint Eastwood You're right we should be polite and allow irresponsible people to give other innocent victims this virus when there is such a simple solution - get the vaccine. Especially on a forum where we are supposed to be standing behind truth, let's acquiesce instead and give them ass-pats for their bad decisions. That's much less annoying. The point is that is has been spreading less with vaccinations. It might still mutate, and it will take time for people in third world countries to get the vaccine. I'm not sure what we can do for people in these areas, it is showing that without the shot that it spreads like wildfire, and that the symptoms are worse. You can still get it with the shot but the symptoms are not as bad, so there will be less death and less spreading of this virus all around. You can't get around that fact that the vaccine helps. @Opo It could be as simple as like having an id to get into certain areas. We already do this. The thing is, this is just a warm up - literally. With global warming becoming a greater problem in the future, and with innovations in travel, we are going to have an easier time going from one country to the next, these things (disease spreading) are going to be very common. This is the time to start planning for such things, and finding solutions for the future. This is a lesson in disease management for the world. It can be as simple as "no shirt, no shoes, no vaccine, no service." You don't have to force anyone to do anything, but just like a kid without an id trying to get into a bar at a young age, a vaccine card can keep these public spaces clean.

@Opo Nothing super insane, but the law would require you have a vaccine card to go into certain areas that are crowded public spaces, and a mask if you do not have the ability to take the vaccine - i.e. kids, immune compromised. Kids over 13 would need it for school. You would be exempt if too young or too sick with ability to socialize but must wear mask to keep yourself and others safe. If they refused; nothing drastic, you just can't get into certain areas without the vaccine card.

Children under 12 and people who are autoimmune compromised cannot get this vaccine. It's already shown that among those who are not vaccinated, that the virus is spreading, and mutating. Get the vaccine retards. Coercion? Too bad, get over it. If you're on this forum and have not been vaccinated, then you're stupid. And should be remembered as such if you're so bold to point it out, how's that? Do you think that increasing vaccine coercion amongst the unvaccinated people that remain throughout the whole US is wise or could it actually backfire? No. In fact we need laws that force all citizens to get this vaccine.

Sounds like a normal girl dealing with a man's world. Love her. Nice to see some honesty about these dynamics, to be quite honest.

Music is my drug, just like dissing your sister is yours. Each is own I suppose. Lies that should be true, more and more... Music is God's language. Y'all must be listening to garbage.

Let her go for someone who won't judge her and find someone who's innocent and naïve instead and see if that's any more interesting. It won't be. (kidding... sort of) I've had friends who slept with hundreds of guys. Oh well. Their relationships were still great. Get over it. She knows what she's doing. Good for you. Try gratitude. I come from a background where some people were innocent and some slept around and guess what? Just because the woman slept around doesn't mean they were worth less or any less innocent. There's so many reasons for women experimenting. How do men expect us to do what you want if we can't have relationships? Or practice? You know? A churchgoing virgin could be a bigger jack*ss towards other people than some dear who just happens to love enjoying her body. Love your girl. Get to know her sexuality. Prudes aren't great, either, you know?

@SQAAD Oh trust me, most of my family lives over in Arizona and they have told me some things, so I know a small, small, small bit about what happens with these cartels. Some have said that when the ranchers complain about closing the borders it is not the poor families they are concerned about, it is the drug cartel members dressed in military uniforms that come through the border - a literal invasion that they don't cover in the news. My uncle that my aunt married - he is Hispanic and he deals with a lot of racism over there because of all that is happening with this. I can't watch vids like this. I can deal with death once already gone, but brutality or pain while alive ... dude that'll make me puke, feel weak, faint, ect. We'll get there with the decriminalization, but it will take some time... things are changing though, not just in legislature but the hearts of people and how they feel about controlled substances.

@SQAAD Yeah like, anytime a spiritual leader has seen stuff like this they do not reconcile. They take action.

@Zeroguy I don't know what you're talking about entirely but I know the source of your ire. I want to be single for life. I used to pine for something but I got over that well, quite a while ago - I'm not looking at you in that way, at all, there is no skipping or pausing or whathaveyou, ever, I am just responding to your comment as a semi stranger.

@Zeroguy There is no high or low quality. Everyone is equal. You have preferences, but that's about it. Things that can make your life easier or harder for you or someone else. And each thing about each person is unique. "I have to be this. I have to be that." It makes women/humans neurotic. This is Leo's stuff growing like a mold in people's minds because he felt like something was wrong with him at some point and turned "fixing it" into ... all of this... and the truth is... just BE. Just BE. Just BE. Just effin' BE. That's where it all comes down to. Keep that in mind folks, when doing this work that you're an equal human being to everyone else around you. Find what makes you feel comfortable in your skin, not what people will think of you in the future. You can do things, but do them with how it feels inside, each movement, each decision, check with yourselves. You don't need lists, because nothing is set in stone, things can change on a dime. You could lose a leg tomorrow. They don't work. What does though is feeling into yourself, your own uniqueness in real-time. When all of your flaws and all of my flaws Are laid out one by one The wonderful part of the mess that we made We pick ourselves undone All of your flaws and all of my flaws They lie there hand in hand Ones we've inherited, ones that we learned They pass from man to man There's a hole in my soul I can't fill it, I can't fill it There's a hole in my soul Can you fill it? Can you fill it? You have always worn your flaws upon your sleeve And I have always buried them deep beneath the ground Dig them up; let's finish what we've started Dig them up, so nothing's left untouched All of your flaws and all of my flaws, When they have been exhumed We'll see that we need them to be who we are Without them we'd be doomed There's a hole in my soul I can't fill it, I can't fill it There's a hole in my soul Can you fill it? Can you fill it? You have always worn your flaws upon your sleeve And I have always buried them deep beneath the ground Dig them up; let's finish what we've started Dig them up, so nothing's left untouched Ooh Ooh When all of your flaws And all of my flaws are counted When all of your flaws And all of my flaws are counted You have always worn your flaws upon your sleeve And I have always buried them deep beneath the ground Dig them up. Let's finish what we've started Dig them up. So nothing's left untouched Ooh Ooh All of your flaws and all of my flaws Are laid out one by one Look at the wonderful mess that we made We pick ourselves undone

@Preety_India Yeah, but it is so subjective that there is no way to really have a list that works. Plus, chemistry and a list of what you think is high quality doesn't make it so. Anyone that tries to put themselves into lists like this or pedestals should be knocked off asap. Life doesn't work like that, nor does attraction, love, spirituality, none of it. You know what does though is buying a house or a chore list.

Doesn't make lists separating one woman's value from another... who knew it was so simple??

No idea, I couldn't even finish this. What I could watch was wrought with rocking, shaking of the head, and shaking my arms and hands at the computer screen going, "no no no..." I don't know if you can... part of having empathy for people is feeling for these situations when they happen. Maybe accept that empathy is a form of love? Accept that you can't accept this sort of thing. That's okay, too. That poor guy though.... daaaaaaaammmmmnnnnn... that's too much. Can't watch that shit, I feel it like it's my own. Makes me weak in the gut, knees, ugh. I don't think anyone can reconcile that kind of stuff. Even if it is on the media, if it where to happen irl, how? No way. You'd have to be dead inside and not in a spiritual way.

Not reading responses and last comment here, I don't really read this journal but decided to in my spare time this weekend go through it a bit because it keeps showing up as the first subject to read. You guys seem to thrive on people witnessing your convos and not actually having a genuine friendship/relationship. What I expect will happen is that the guy with the other journal who was given the projections of what is in here, none of that will be remembered while this is viewed as an accost on character rather than an attempt at pointing out what's up and responded to as such. If it were just here I would not have noticed but y'all dragged this content all over the forum while I'm looking for genuine information on problems. Way to go. Very consciousness super wow keep it up. No one that I know or knew does that kind of stuff. Ever. Everyone that I have ever known across the span of my entire life has never used a forum to represent a connection. How can you grow as people using public spaces in such a way? Let me put it that way. Think on it. And zero? Your girls observations are on point w u. So if she says something about it, I would look into it. Literally everything she says is the same thing others have said to you. Try texting. None of us need to know about you both in that way. That's not intimacy.

Not gonna look at responses because I know how people are here but wasn't last year the magical year of wasting Galynas time? Seriously. Try a text message, see if that helps. ?. Cheers

Y'all ever thought that a private and connected relationship would prove that you're compatible rather than all this nonsense? Narcs have the strangest habits. You both are in a fake relationship and use this forum for supply over it. Like teenagers. Very strange...

Personally I find masculine energy to be dishonest, destructive to the feminine, and not even remotely at the same level as feminine energy by any and every margin. Truthfully, if a woman wants to be loved, completely, forever... and not have to deal with the dating game, the back and forth that comes with it, the nonsense that males put women through, this is the solution: become as beautiful as you can, be yourself, your kindest, truest self and when he starts to fall in love, ghost him. Don't say a word; if you run into them meeting , don't even look at them. Act like you never met them. No eye contact. Make sure beforehand to get really close to their heart - the more authentic you are, which is easier when it is a situation where you have an idea of the outcome already - and then leave. Otherwise it won't sting - the more it stings, the less pushback you put into everything up until the point of peacing out - that'll do it. You want to be great in every way, as many ways as you can be - no drama, nothing - then do it. There you go. You have an inferior form of love; that person, no matter who they are with will pine for you - if they don't, keep trying until you find one that does. This is a humanly form of love with something as invasive as a bark beetle, so don't feel too bad. Essentially, that's all anyone is trying to get to with all this dating thing is to find lasting love - because men really only care about your shell, so having a lasting, fixed image to pine over is more effective than dating someone for years, then finding out you're flawed, they're flawed, you're both ugly, you hate each other, ect, ect, ect. Really. Sounds counterintuitive, but if women broke men a lot more often there would be more love in the world for women. And you don't have to be a nag, or insane or cruel or whatever, just... leave... that is literally what makes men fall in love. I don't know why that is the case, but it is. Because men love more rarely than women do usually, you'll have the heart for at least a year, most likely more. Having the love and someone's heart, there is a lot of good energy that can come from this that is very beneficial. You know how there are pick up artists and stuff? There needs to be more women who know the dynamic behind what love can do for a woman - you don't need the person there for it; it can be a hindrance - women should develop more systems for this. Build ourselves up to the very best, and then just walk the fuck away. I'll bet a girl could get really good at it, and learn how to be her best self in such a way, and the right moment to leave, just like with pick-up artists, that she could claim a heart until it quits beating for it's owner. The comment on sadism up there got me thinking. It would fix my heart, if I could keep another in the same manner that mine was damaged. I read comments like this on here by men and I realize that it isn't that this forum is a bad representation of the opposite gender, but so many men really are just... not really worth much. It's like... you have cows and pigs and then you have... fish... you know? The cow and the pig feel more, understand more, while the fish is something that doesn't to the same degree. It's muted.... and I mean, yeah sure a bottom feeder is good at filtering out the garbage in the water, but if you're going in as your best you then you won't have to worry about that. I don't plan to try this, like, go out of my way to waste my time on it - but if the situation arises I will take it.

That was a fascinating read. I would love to know more about how they experience life as they get older and can articulate their worlds better. Thanks for sharing.