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My soul is fine, I've found more of it lately and have also been vaccinated. I don't think it does anything to the soul tbh. Sometimes healers take this kind of stuff a bit too far imo.

@SQAAD I feel that way too sometimes, most nde experiences happen during cardiac arrest.

@RickyFitts you're welcome. ?

I think it takes practice. I have had insights that seemed super real, that turned out to be false, but learning they were false was part of learning what was true. It can be really hard to tell, because you can have like... 90 percent truth, and 10 percent falsity, and picking through it takes some work. That 10 percent can mess up everything else! It's certainly not a linear process, that's for sure. I like to write it out and roll with it, and have had some insights into truth so if something proves false, I just take a step back and try again, a different route. Sometimes, it is both! Sometimes karma hits you. It's all a lesson really, like learning a new skill.

@JuliusCaesar Wouldn't that be nice, though? I'd love to get rid of that last one there. ;P Kidding, kidding.

What was it that he took? edit: Salvia, didn't see that. Yikes, not my cup of tea, I hear you can get stuck in "forever" as like, swiss cheese with holes being punched into you or something very terrifying and abstract like that.

@Preety_India Oooh nice. I have a few on etsy I've been eying. Good luck!

@Preety_India You can use a ceremonial knife for cords as well, symbolically. Cord cutting under a personal ceremony produces best results. <3

Sent you some stuff on this, one is a discernment course and the other is cleansing/clearing energies, both for psychics/sensitives.

@Emerald I was a wingwoman a few times and it worked out well. Granted my nerdy friends were nerds, not creeps, so I didn't have to worry about them. Just Microsoft, Nintendo, Google employees who didn't know how to talk to women, and I had plenty of pretty and kind friends for them to get to know.

@Emerald I understand covid happened... but I mean... for the most part, what happened to early socialization? We would just go to bars meant for young folks, like ones in the U district, and the awkward guys got chicks all the time. After a few drinks they were not awkward guys anymore. This was also when nerds were starting to be looked at like prizes, nerd culture had a boom for a while there with the hipster crowd and all my computer tech friends found great girls over time. Maybe not AT the bar, lol, but but they didn't have this self deprecating attitude, and it makes me sad seeing guys who could do even better than my friends did feeling like they are not good enough. There is the early 20's initiation that is missing from modern society. It is a much more equal playing ground than some guys would think. To girls who read this: If you have awkward nerd guy friends, take them to the bars/clubbing with you. They need this. You could be a lifeline to someone's self esteem and dating life, if you do this for your awkward male friends. Women might need to step in and introduce them to their friends and stuff. There is a part of being in your early 20's where you need to get all the "party" out, and guys feel like they lost out on something if they can't do this. So bring them along and play on their strengths when you introduce them to pretty women. This incel stuff would disappear really quickly if we could show that women are not looking for "Chad" (my exes name, though lol) but we do like sweet/funny/intelligent... really though, we are all different, there is a girl out there for every guy. I think a girl as a wingman for an awkward guy would give better results than all of this stuff on the market. We might need to step in and just show guys like this what to do. So many of these guys don't deserve to feel like this, and if you can nip it in the bud in their 20's, it makes all the difference in the world. Seriously.

I feel bad, because even my nerdy awkward friends... they just went to the bar in their 20's and learned to socialize that way. Like, my autistic male friend who had a hard time finding a girl is now in a 3 year relationship. Granted he WORKED hard at getting two math degrees from university, both master's. The money did help a bit, because he then bought a home, and had what he needed to start a life. He was completely independent. He was honestly the most awkward guy in the world, and just worked on himself and found a girl he liked. She was not a model, but she was really cuuuute! A lot of these guys think "oh, I need the model" but there are so many cuuuuute girls, too. I have more stories of shy, or short... or insecure... ect ect. The difference is that they could go out and socialize. And after a few beers, they were not awkward. In my 20's, we did not throw our awkward guy friends away, we brought them WITH us as hot girls - and helped them. Things were just... different I guess.

I don't know anyone in my life, when I was in my 20's who acted like this. I think the whole redpill thing is off, because "saintly" women, women who "sleep around", single or multiple partners, good or bad men, high or low quality, we kind of just went with who we liked the most. There wasn't some sort of inner game where a guy with higher status was considered better. This may happen with really top tier models who are looking for the millionaires, but most normal, average people are looking for the same thing - which is compatibility. I don't think you have to worry too much about hypergamy unless you're doing the same thing and showing interest in women who are out of your league. Most men want a woman like this, but guess what... they are the same as women in your league. They need the same things, they worry about the same things, you know? We don't need to regulate the dating market because the only women you want to regulate are those you (not you as an individual, but the royal you) probably won't ever get. Don't worry so much about these sorts of things, just focus on finding someone who is a human being. Try to relate to women more from that level and you are ahead of the game. Wish I could give you better advice, Emerald has you covered here. I would just try to reject what a lot of these really dry, almost doctor prescription-esque views of women. Try viewing women instead of "women = the animal", try "a unique chick = a person with a life story and history just like you." I'm in my 30's now, before a lot of this social media stuff was happening, and the girl who slept around a lot, was just as sweet, innocent and loving as the one who waited. People just... talked... and if there was compatibility, great, if not, then we reassigned roles and became friends. There was little drama about the whole thing. This red pill stuff, it feels like reading a dog behaviour book, but for an intelligent human that has more emotions and nuance. These human behaviouralist sorts of worldviews don't really work on real people, we are too complex at the individual level. Try getting to know someone, as a person first and see how that goes. I don't get dating nowadays, it is so much different from my day, and it seems like it changed SO fast, too. Like I'm not that old, and I feel like I come from a different world view as just folks who are ten years younger. I wish I knew what happened, because it isn't mostly for the best. I don't look at that stuff, like dating advice and things like this because I don't want to give a script to someone that isn't me. It's inauthentic. @Emerald What happened to the dating scene? My 20's was spent with a few guys, but really just one guy on and off again for about ten years. I don't relate to most of what is said about women, because he was just a normal guy... not top tier, no one talked like this, either. What do you predict it will look like ten years from now?

@Preety_India You will! The unified field is within self love/love of all things equally, you'll get closer the more you love yourself, life will feel more clear. What we are underneath all of the social/familial stuff that was imprinted on us is actually is pure magic! It's like liquid gold. All people have access to it, too.

@Preety_India You're very welcome, I'm in the same boat; it takes time but the results are worth it and you will see results pretty early on, too! It's super important to learn on the path, it makes spiritual awakenings much easier to have with that self love in place. Self love over time, will make things like this image come alive almost with the energy of pure love, beauty, truth and warmth. Self love fixes so many things, and opens so many doors as far as seeing with clarity goes, it's the first and most important step. Take all the time you need on this, but if you feel a lack of self love I would strongly suggest starting a self love practice, something to feel within you every single day. To put it simply, your entire power as a human, and as a spiritual being rests in this one step. Because everything is You, if you separate something as less than, it can no longer be a unified field of consciousness. You see? You are it. That's the cure! Love unifies everything.

@SQAAD For sure, sometimes with more spontaneous arrhythmias like the one you have, it can be harder to "catch it in the act", and with the week long use of a monitor, they will know exactly what is causing it, from types of food, to certain exercises, emotions, the position you sleep, ect. I just don't want you to feel scared when you don't have to be and there are many solutions out there if it gets to a point where you need it. You'll be okay. If it gets worse, send me a note because I went through the whole process getting my heartbeat regulated. Have a wonderful day. <3

@Tudo You're welcome, I hope it helps! <3 I did! Well, I knew it meant female wolf in Spanish, but not Portuguese. There are probably a lot of similar words, Spanish and Portuguese. I love that everything has a female and male name for it, even colours! We have a white can named Blanca.

@SQAAD That's good, if it gets worse, there are medicines that can correct the heart beat, I have an arrhythmia, too and I take medicine for it and it got rid of the off rhythm of my heart and it beats normally now. So if you feel scared about your heart, just know there are things out there than can help. You can also strengthen your heart by starting with light cardio a few times a week and eating a heart-healthy diet. I was really scared, too, when my heart was not beating properly and felt the same way. If it increases in the future, ask the doctor for a heart monitor that you can wear for a week, and then write up the activities you were doing for that week and they can see where and what was causing the irregularity.

Are you taking any beta blockers for this like propranolol, or have you seen a doctor about it? 8/10, most of my spiritual practice is about overcoming this fear of death. I've had a phobia of it ever since I learned that we die.

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This entire channel, not well known, is all about learning self love, on the physical, mental and spiritual levels - as being the most important part of spiritual practice. I've posted some of her stuff below - she is about green/yellow and her videos are very informative for someone who needs help in this area. These are all the different types of lack of self love I could think of posted down below. Check out her channel if you have the time, she's quite "real", which is refreshing. Good luck! I wrote some notes on this very topic here: Notes: Why self-love and nourishing who you are today (learning how to show up for yourself, internal self love) is the foundation for everything: You must learn how to become your own safe place. Everything is built on top of self-love and it will be very hard to fix yourself and change your habits if you do not love yourself - but with this tool everything else will naturally come. We don't need to force ourselves to become something and it does not work. Go slow on this path, this is the fastest route. Embrace it. Your subconscious has been programmed for a certain action and it can unlearn it and learn a new skill. There is a reason for why we do what we do and none of it is that we are bad or wrong or stupid, incapable or self sabotaging or self hating - every reason comes down to this is what we learned in childhood, and if we want something different then figuring out what we need to do instead and get the body and brain on board with the new thing is difficult. If you just do this one thing - making yourself your own safe place, everything you are capable of; progress comes from this. Without doing this, your nervous system will not let you do the other things. Results will not be quick. It will be the same thing over and over again. Deal with your guilt and shame before working on other skills because if you try to fix yourself without this foundation then the other tools will not work. If we don't understand where the lack of self love came from and if we have confusion on what is good for us, where if we do things in the moment that feel good that have bad outcomes, if we do not understand why this is happening then none of this will make sense and will look somewhere else thinking that it is just a bad part of you. Everyone thinks they are an exception to the rule and the horrible thing inside of them must be fixed because of the negative outcomes, however this is not the case. There is no quick solution and you are not the exception. This applies to everyone because although we are all different, we are not all that different. So listen up! In our childhoods we are in a temporary reality, a codependent reality where we are not capable of understanding or meeting our needs and are completely dependent on our caregivers to meet them for us. That which is supporting our growth leads to pleasure. That which does not support our growth causes pain - all living things share this in common, we want to grow and humans are very complex and so is life - it wants to express its potential and live. In order to live, we must be continually growing. In order to be continually growing, we have to be taking in new information; feedback loops, cause and effect. We are all evolving here on Earth. This is the fundamental element of pain and pleasure. When we are children we are being programmed about how reality works. Children have a good connection to their instincts - pain and pleasure - because they have not been programmed yet, so their connection is stronger, but they are not more knowledgeable. Caregivers are meant to teach their children how reality works, and to show us how to meet, to understand our needs. We only have control over our expression of pain and pleasure in this lifetime. Our caregiver's approval means survival for us so from day one we are programmed not to pay attention to what our bodies are saying to us - when caregivers "go away", I don't get my needs met. Needs get met from someone understanding me and meeting my needs. When I am rejected I am at risk. That is our first program. Approval. What should happen in a healthy environment, we start to develop autonomy, we are given tools by our caregivers for understanding when we are in pain that a need is not being met, and to identify why there is pain and to be able to change it - pain and pleasure experienced in a neutral way. When we experience true pleasure there is no negative backlash, this is the different between real and fake pleasure. What actually happens is because humanity doesn't understand itself or how reality works - struggling to survive - and creating systems based on misunderstanding on how to survive, this complex web has created a consensus reality, which is "this is how you have to be, what you have to do, good, bad, ect. and through our growth process we begin to experience something called guilt, shame, abandonment and rejection. So as we are expressing ourselves, as we are growing and going through the learning process, we did things where we expressed and were told we were bad. Or we were in pain and were abandoned or rescued and did not learn why we got hurt. This triggers the nervous system, "I am not going to get my needs met, I am rejected, so what do I need to do to to get back in their good graces?" So now we don't know what the original pain was in the first place. "Who do I need to be, what do I need to do to alter my behaviour so that I am approved of again?" So now we are two layers removed from real reality. An appropriate response, "I still love you, you are still loved and safe, how does it feel to have hit the other child for the toy?" Children would tell you that it does not feel good and would learn that hitting and taking the toy is a negative action. "You hit because that was your instinct." Then you can teach them to share once they learn the source of the bad feeling, if it is not covered up by shame, fear, guilt, ect - their nervous systems can learn to enjoy sharing. This is real learning, the child then becomes more complex through that interaction. Most interactions do not go this way - this takes away the empathy because all they feel is fear from the situation and freeze. What looks like self sabotage in adulthood is actually your body doing what it learned in childhood over and over again, now as an adult. Most of us as adults do not learn to be autonomous and to meet our own needs, with or without acceptance or approval of others. We take the codependent approach and think others hold the keys to what we need. So rather than becoming an adult and communicating and understanding our needs we become codependent with everyone around us, and when we are in pain because we learned in our childhoods that pain is wrong and bad, we connect to consensus reality, which is made up of stories and fantasies. "We are wrong or reality is wrong." That is how we learn to interact with pain. The shame and guilt always comes from "I am in pain because I am bad and did something wrong." Why do we do that? Because in childhood we only have control over our behaviour and nothing else, so if something goes wrong we assume it is our behaviour that caused it. So we all collectively move and act from the false assumption that pain makes us bad and wrong and so we project it onto ourselves or others. Self help, spirituality and self-improvement come into play with this because they are riding on the idea that the pain is your fault. Something broken and wrong about you because you are in pain - it all plays on your insecurities. We want to believe it is true because it makes it simple. "If I just do this, just fix this, then everything will be better." There is no questioning of the system. "You are deficient and here is the fix." And that feels good because it is familiar conditioning. Adaptation. This creates a learning trauma. Real reality is: it's either supporting your growth or it is not, and some of the things we are doing to cope are because we exist in a system that doesn't work for people, the rat race does not align with who most people really are. We are disconnected from our true selves. Being. Instincts. Pain and pleasure. We don't have the tools to learn what we need to learn from the instincts we are born with. We were trained to disconnect from the instinct to fit in, so people will meet your needs, so you feel safer. It becomes a loop of trying to fit in. The internet creates echo chambers where people who only interact with those who have ideas like theirs because we are so afraid, we don't want new information, we don't want to believe that the way we are seeing things is wrong because if we are wrong then we are bad and this is shameful and we don't know how to learn from that because we then have to learn to change and our bodies don't want that so we join echo chambers, and the world just keeps getting more divided because we are all stuck in nervous system trauma. The more we operate from, "How do I show up for myself right now?" and "What do I need to feel safe?" and "Why am I doing what I am doing?" and assume innocence and a good reason and it is not always my fault. Most of humanity is taught the wrong way. Pain = shame. Half the people = I am bad. Codependent. Half the people = you are bad/at fault. Pain really means something is out of alignment and what do I need to do to get into alignment. This is a long process to learn what these things mean to you. Reprogramming base nervous system programming from childhood takes a lot of time and it is hard to do, and is the foundation on which you have built ALL your other behaviours. Everything that you resist comes from not questioning your reality. If you were to accept yourself as who you are right now as loveable and good enough, that is what takes your nervous system out of fear and then you can start the process of learning from your experience. When we don't have this foundation, all the tools do nothing because we are triggered into a state of fear that forces us to do the same thing over and over and over again. This is why becoming your own "safe space" is so essential. It is not one and done. It is a continual practice of learning to show up for yourself when in pain, pleasure and be in the moment and as, "What do I need right now?" Start with self compassion. This gets rid of fight or flight, and then we can learn but it takes time to learn to stop abandoning yourself when you are in pain, so be patient. Investigate. See that you don't die. Be there for yourself. Do it again and again. Investigate, investigate, investigate. Assume innocence within yourself. If a program is stimulating your nervous system and disconnecting you from yourself, it is not for you - esp. if it is based on "There is something wrong with you." "What did you learn?" "Why am I in pain?" "Take as much responsibility for myself as I can." Self help can keep you stuck in a state of self-obsession, so try and use your time to contribute towards better things. You feel safe when you feel loved, so love yourself. It is a lot of work. But it all comes down to showing up for yourself with compassion and curiosity and assuming innocence. This is all you need.

This is a pretty good stage yellow podcast that has a lot of great information on how to heal certain complexes. I just went through about five of these over the past few days and have learned a lot - I haven't listened to this one but if it is anything like their other videos, then it will be packed with helpful stuff. I found these two to be pretty good. ^ This channel shows you how to create your own inner safe space and how to heal and feel self love no matter what, it's not a well known channel but there are a lot of gems there.

Her voice is magical. Reminds me of a goddess pining for how the earth used to be.