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Art! But it will be better and I won't be attached to the results, just enjoy the process.

Details on my journal.

Yes.

Makes me want to try it. That's dedication, good job.

@mandyjw *takes a hit, blows it in the air like a dragon* True that. That's what I'm striving for. Or rather not. It's kind of both. Some days though it's just so clear. We are alive and that's amazing and it is such a blessing to be able to take that breath that I just took. Some days the author is really apparent.

@mandyjw That's good, I'm bookmarking that. Could be the weed but it hit me at the right time.

@eggopm3 Some paranoia sometimes, and anxiety but it's gotten better with just awareness. Weed has always been pretty good to me. I can stop it or start again without too much trouble, sorry to hear that it gives you side effects.

@Gianna Honestly, what went through my head was, "I'll just validate what I have experienced personally." And then, "Gee, I wish there were more options like Leo's video on all the facets of the diamond of enlightenment." And then I thought, "I wish we all had that option of just copy pasting the certain ones we have all had here so we know, because it could be a group awakening project, which would be awesome!

@Gianna

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Aliens are real, but a large (most) portion are no longer physical. They teach love to move the soul to the same place they are at, species does not matter to them. The most life changing aliens imo are ones who teach universal love.

Don't take it too badly. There are a lot of creepers out there and so we have to be on guard, we don't always get it right when profiling. We get forced to when in situations that require it where rape, murder, abuse, and kidnapping can occur. Even I have been in situations like this in my early 20's. It is a quick reaction that happens after previous threats. You can't help it after dealing with creepers, it just... happens. Like being a rabbit around a bunch of wolves, prey animals will act like prey animals.

I don't use one but have been thinking of it to keep protected on the internet, so I might in the future, but I'm not a troll/spammer here and this is my only account. I could just send a note if I get one later on down the road.

@eggopm3 I totally get this, too, and that is why in November I am taking a break to do a spiritual practice for a few months and see how that feels. It does mess with my executive functioning. It's like, I might need a few months of smoking, and then I take like 6 months off to integrate but if I smoke 24/7 it is hard to get much done. I've been using it for my shamanic journeying, but I want to see if I can practice and get to the same level of state that I do on weed. My tolerance right now is pretty high, I smoke like sativa, and then add kief and wax on it and they're like usually in the 75 percent range. I've been synthesizing knowledge like crazy for months, but now it's coming soon time to put it into action. Weed told me part of my karma is getting off of it and learning to be of service to my family and to treat my body well in order to remove this karma. The weed will tell you when it is time to move on for a while for those who listen.

Weed is a fantastic tool for enlightenment, especially high thc sativa. I love to smoke weed and then sit down and really listen to lectures and podcasts and I pretty much just spend my whole day learning about spirituality and God and stuff. Weed with caffeine is nice, I feel egoless and so the information just flows right into me. I can't do that sober. I'd rather learn then forget learning and weed helps with this. And then, I can unlock my brain and I find all sorts of interesting things in there, you know? It's great for creativity, learning to love, sex feels better, calm state of mind, better at paying attention, ect. If I could smoke weed all day every day, I would spend my time synthesizing what I want to learn. I'd be so smart after two or three decades. If you do nothing and don't use it for development, that's a problem but tbh, I have add and I love to learn but I can't focus without it. When I can really learn the lectures I listen to, magic happens. If I can't smoke, I will learn a lot less. And I want to know as much as I can about God and about my soul, so I have to keep going. Weed is awesome when in the right hands. Weed cures my depression, makes PTSD and ADD easier to deal with and gets me closer to God. Weed is medicine.

Executive functioning skills are what I am looking into correcting right now and is my biggest obstacle.

Yes. If you believe and have faith, and move towards what your soul wants best to grow - and have goodwill in your heart for the planet and all living things, if your new life has some aspect of sharing itself for service towards others you will have more luck choosing another life you want.

@Vibroverse Is this just a teacher thing, then? Because I do channeling occasionally and the ego disappears, it is just my awareness, looking at the screen or keys, as a blank slate, I type and whatever decides to come out comes out, but there is no performer. I guess Eckhart seems to me to be the least egoic. idk. But he doesn't channel. Bashar just doesn't do it for me, but I like Jane Roberts and Ra material.

Bashar is honest in what he says but he does have an ego there when channeling. I love that kind of stuff, but I could never get into Bashar.

Those who have these problems should set them up and catalogue them properly; they should ask themselves a number of very simple but direct questions, as to what makes them happy, how they wish they could spend the time if they could do anything they wanted to, what they are anxious to become more than what they are and how they are going to face a future that is going to close in on them relentlessly. There has to be something in the form of a plan to make life really valuable, and without value life is a sort of drifting from the cradle to the grave, there is no purpose in it. The history of the world and the present condition of society both indicate clearly that the average person does not purpose his own existence, he depends on outside influences, he can be worked into a frenzy by a tyrant, he can buy things he can't use and doesn't need, he can demand luxuries that are not necessary and many are detrimental to him, he just goes around doing what he pleases, ending something in a premature grave and sometimes in an involuntary bankruptcy. Out of all this, time is wasted. We have lost approximately 25 years of life. If not all in one place, it is scattered through, is a 75 year lifespan only about 1/3 can be said to be available to the average person as time for himself. The other 2/3 go to work and sleep. But this third that belongs to him is a magnificent opportunity for a career, the person has a paid initiation into the best schooling, he has the right and privilege of learning almost anything he wants and if he wishes to want only that which is best he will find that his economic situation may improve through less ambition and less extravagance and he can really have a very important extra life that is now lost. He can have another complete existence, instead of being a working man for 8 hours, and then a sleeping man for 8 hours, he can also be a growing person for 8 other hours of every day. Growing up into new aptitudes and opportunities. So what are the opportunities today? Probably one of the best forms of growth that we can work with now is cooperation and service to each other. The individual finds perhaps the greatest basic joy that there is in the human composition when he brings joy or releases joy through other persons. One of the simplest things we can do is to plan a program of helpfulness, of not thinking about ourselves but earning the respect, admiration, confidence and affection of other people. It is something to look back quietly upon a good deed that has brought security to another. And this type of backward looking is probably the most cheerful as possible. So service to others, if you do not know what to do, help someone in desperate trouble. Forget being deprived of a few hours of television or being requested to turn away from some ordinary leisure that you have planned, but try to see what you can do to help other people. If you have trained abilities, there are many opportunities that open themselves to the person who really wants to help. If you have music, as a background and have the abilities, find some young people who want music and cannot afford it and instead of sitting around gossiping or answering phone calls, help these young people with music. If you are in business, take young people and train them - they will not get proper training in school but they can get it from someone who has been through it and knows what is right and know what should and should not occur. Everyone can do something and out of the best they have done themselves share with another. There are things you can do for yourself if you are not in a position or do not feel equipped to work with other people, then work with yourself. Develop those faculties and powers which are not functioning properly today. Look over your own life and see what your mind is doing; is your mind growing? Watch your thoughts and see if your are criticizing things you do not understand instinctively or have developed prejudices which interfere with justice and judgement. Look over your own nature and then go to work on the problem that you find needs attention. It is not good to simply covert yourself, to sit down and say I shouldn't hold that attitude is usually not very meaningful, what you really should do if you dislike a certain condition is get into that condition yourself. Move in on it and find out why people think the way they do instead of criticizing from some set point within yourself, find out why other people are not more successful in their judgements. He knows people who have simply gone into walks of life which are not their own in order to find out how other people really live. And it is almost certainly an eye opener. If you do not which to go through all this, then the best attitude you can have is to believe firmly to believe every individual is doing the best for what he is. And it is always important to estimate what he is and help him to become better. We have to study what we are and find out why it isn't satisfactory and then start to fill in the areas where we are deficient. Nature tells us from experience that each one of us should have at least three and probably four dynamic interests, these interests are not in conflict unless we put them in conflict. Realities are never in conflict, they simply absorb more and more time but with judgment and control can be properly allotted. First of all everyone should have a physical regime of some kind, a short period of physical exercise and be watchful of the health of the body, diet, not abusing medications and things of this type. You have a little pattern there to set aside a few minutes a day to make sure that this very useful creature that carries us about has proper attention and care, on the other hand we must sometimes get this creature over the problem of being utterly spoiled. In which every desire, every craving, every appetite is dynamically fulfilled regardless of cost - this type of attitude will result in a short and discomfortable lifetime. Having done this to work out that, we can go to the emotional nature. We should have an outlet, if we have art or music this becomes an outlet and a little time every day should be devoted to it. If we are not skilled, then the study of art can become very important, the appreciation of art, beautiful books are valuable, and also art carries us inevitably towards the recognition of the dynamics of beauty, the dynamics of beauty also tell us that attitudes are beautiful or not beautiful. Words spoken, beautify or deform. Modern art and music is a form of deformity but we have grown so accustomed to it that we have assumed these deformities are normal, they are not, deformity, asymmetry, discords are not ever normal. They are the natural results that arise in lives that are themselves not normal. In art we also find poetry. We find all kinds of appreciations for beauty in every field, we also feel the importance of the art of living. To live kindly and graciously, to endure everything that we can, to maintain the essential simple dignity of the human being. The moment we lose temper, we are destructive. The moment we do not transform or transmute suffering into soul power we begin to become neurotic. Beauty is something we must all have, a beautiful view, picture, etc. - if these things are denied us, whatever beauty we can build in the intimate associations of which we exist. There's always the possibility of tuning in some good music on a radio, there are programs on art, on humanities that do come through on some of these stations, especially public service stations, all these things can give us pleasure with growth. But whenever we settle down for a nice long evening of murder we're in trouble. We are sickening ourselves. It's just as though we were slowly taking a poisonous dope, after a while we reach a point where without a murder the show is too slow. We demand crime, and of course the thing that we are all self deceived by is that we are seeing fabrications and artificial things that are conjured up for audience appeal, and assuming the world is like the abnormalcies we see. Certainly you may find traces of any degenerate influence somewhere in society, but to have it thrown at us day after day certainly disillusions and destroys the integrities that we must build if we want to be good, successful people. If all else fails get a good book; do something that will give you inspiration instead of closing in and making you feel more and more hopelessness and futility of personal growth. Everything should have some kind of meaning. Another important point is friendship. Friendship today is a hard thing to have, most people do not find friendship easy, they are imposed upon, their friends are too demanding, their friends are selfish and self centered and the individual finds gradually that he is hurt more than helped by contact with society. One thing to do if you find this happening in your own life, take another look and make sure that you are not aggravating other people, make sure that your own attitudes are not such that other people can't take it any longer. If your great joy is to criticize and condemn something, you will drift into loneliness because people looking to friendship look for one thing more than anything else and that is truth of the essential kindliness and goodness of human nature. They may fail you, that is their problem. When you fail them it is your problem. Everyone should try to live and think that they can be happy and pleasant and constructive with people who do not exactly agree with them. We should be happy to know that people are trying and doing things and we shouldn't try to dominate them and make them do only what we want them to. Friendship is very vital and a small group of congenial persons can make a great difference in life. In the older group where we have retirement problems, friendships can be very vital to the happiness of the older person who wants to share the experiences of his own life with those around him. The best and happiest elderly are the ones who can look back with a quiet joy on the simple things of life, that were hard when they happened some of them, but now they are turning into a kindly realization that things were pretty good. A sense of humour is necessary. The individual who is too serious about life is always in trouble because actually humour is not ridiculing other people, humour is the recognition of the delightful mistakes that we all make and which can become very valuable as an outlet. Humour is a form of hysteria which relaxes the nervous system without damage. The problems them go back finally to the mind-level again. The mind-level has all kinds of interests and preferences and for many people, mental recreation becomes difficult these days because of the inconsistencies of society. One of the best ways to develop a better mental relationship with life is to take some field of activity and specialize it. There are all kinds of things that people can do mentally to enrich their lives and perhaps help other people. Very often an avocational literary career can be developed in which the person finds either in his own life or in the lives of those around him interesting episodes and incidents with which he can share with other people. Another form of that is continuing education. If the person is interested in any subject of importance, adult educational opportunities are probably available. And these opportunities help to fill in or enrich the mind on some phase of life. Fix something which perhaps you have always felt wasn't right. You've always thought that particular field was either worthless or actually contributing to some form of mistake and take a course in it and see what happens. You will find that very few people intentionally or consciously take up lines of activities which they think are no good, they take up something they feel they can use or is going to be useful to others. An outsider standing on the side of the line does not realize what makes other people better, or makes them think more wisely, or more kindly, or more thoughtfully. Again there are other types of exercises and lessons that have good mental opportunity building. One is language. Very few people have a full a control of language as they ought to have and many have no interest or no background in foreign languages. If the older person has leisure, and foreign language will help, or to complete an education that has been interrupted by the processes of living. There is almost nothing you can take up that will not do better for you than watching a television show. You will learn something, and learn is to use time for some constructive purpose. And is some skill perhaps, very often persons will find as they go along that if they had a certain kind of knowledge their affairs would run more smoothly. Therefore as adults, they can take the courses, study the subject or read at home and gradually familiarize themselves with these subjects which have been difficult or unsatisfactory up to the moment. Also of course the educational field offers a secondary career in many instances. The individual who works at a certain type of job can at another time go out and take a scouting troop as a scout master, or can become associated with youth, rehabilitation projects or join a useful civically oriented fraternal organization. He can find things to do in which he will share with other people useful activities. It used to be things of this kind were more or less considered to be men's activities but today the average woman needs them more than the man does because she needs to experience a world which has been previously dominated largely by male thinking and she is now working into that field to take her proper place in it, therefore everything educational, everything that will strengthen her contributions to society is far more important to her than small talk or just routine procedures. Everyone should try to find ways to be bigger than they are so they can do a better job than they are doing and this is really a joy in the last analysis. There is something very wonderful in having done it right and having everyone else know you did it right, this is an experience not enough of us have. And then also on the mental-level we have the creation and inventive side of life. People can begin at any time in life to take up an art or a science and do whatever time permits them to do while in this particular embodiment. Not doing anything or "it's too late, too soon too weak, too involved in other things" is an illusion. The thing is if you have the incentive and the intention you can do it and this takes your life and puts it in your own hands. Another point comes to the religious matter. Religion is so vitally important that time devoted to it is very useful, but there's one problem in connection with religion and that is if it is not properly understood it can be the world champion time waster. There is nothing that is a greater waste of time than theological argument. It is also a waste of time for the individual to walk out of society to some isolated mountain top and commune with God for the rest of his life, this does not do any good to anybody. Religion like any form of knowledge must contribute. It must strengthen. It has nothing to do with avoiding and evading life. It is not also the idea that by having some grand and wonderful concept of what is going to happen in infinity, we can go on and be nothing now, this is a common fault in many religious organizations. They retire into small groups of their own kind, very small, practically isolated, they spend all their time trying to study some system of theology, they try to meditate themselves into nirvana and they get all the common responsibilities of living. And it is in this that they fail. The purpose of our being here is not to be physically here and mentally somewhere else, the purpose of being here is to learn the lessons that are here. Religion becomes a wonderful help in time of trouble. It is a background inspiration all the time. It also helps to strengthen morality and ethics, it gives us the strength to keep the ten commandments and it gives us the internal moral quality which enables us to appreciate the sermon on the mount. Religion has a tremendous overtone of integrities as wonderful and highly important, but the individual who wishes to consider religion to be his labour should take a very firm look at himself and see what religion is actually doing for him or to him. If religion is making him more useful, if it is making the family closer, if the religious person is a better father, mother, child, that is fine. But if it is simply a series of intellectual allegiances and everybody remains the same as far as conduct is concerned, we are not getting very far. This is the problem with this type of thing. Conversion is something people get over very quickly for the most part, but a dedication that is experienced within the self can be a tremendous thing if it is a dedication to service, if it is a dedication to unselfish giving. When you get into a situation today where the minister expect 50,000 dollars a year and 25,000 expense account, or he wants to live in a fine home with a swimming pool and things of this nature, the old dedication to the service of people has gotten pretty weak in many localities. It is now a profession and a business. A career. Not a dedication. So the study of religion and the life of the person, religious life is one of dedications. Of self sacrifice for the service of that which we believe to be the noblest of all things. The glory of God and the security and salvation of our brother creatures. To work with these problems is fine, but the real answer is always in religion. Don't retire into it, rather allow it to come through you to serve other people. The great sermon is the good life and if we are able to achieve that, we achieve everything. So a little ways along the way we try to find answers to what makes time a wonderful opportunity. An opportunity to grow and to be and to become that which we were intended to be. We can never outgrow our own potential, it is greater than we can ever fathom because if we trace deep enough into ourselves we find God there. We find everything is flowing from a great spiritual source. Man has been given a limited intellectual individuality, he has been made capable of doing what is right and also failing to do what is right. The reason why this determinism is of the greatest importance is there can be no virtue unless it is a decision. There can be no true right without the realization of that which is not right, therefore the individual cannot do everything he pleases, he must do those things which his own capacities make possible. He has the right of choice, free will is the right of choice. He can choose the better or fail to choose the better. If he chooses the better, the power of choice gives him growth and good karma. If his choice is for that which is not the best then the experience gives him punishment and pain and is also karma. Each person has their inevitable and eternal right to grow, to use the potentials that have been given to him to make his own decisions about character and life and the degree that he makes these decisions wisely, he grows and at the end of an appointed span of 80 or 75 year or whatever it may be he goes forth and nature says that he is a good and faithful servant. The infinite accepts the good into itself as part of itself, and each of us in our own way must make decisions and the times of the decisions is leisure time. It's when we can sit down and think things through, it is gradually building a career around a conviction. Whatever that conviction is once we have it set up, we should keep it and we will find that keeping it in the long run improves health, saves money, prevents wasted time and prevents the individual indoctrinating himself in falsehoods or things that are of no value to himself or anyone else. So each one in his own way has to use up time, and the best way to use it is to almost forget it exists because we are so busy doing things that are important for each other when we no longer really remember we are working with time we are probably using it the best because we are then saying to ourselves, "I haven't got much more time for this." And then hurrying up a little to get more done anyway. We have to really find a proper use for every potential we have, every though that we have comes from a thinking power. Every emotion from a great feeling power. Every thought can lead to wisdom. Every emotion can lead to wisdom, affection and understanding. Every physical condition leads to the improvement of the ability of the body, and over all of this is the incentive. "Why should we do these things?" "Why should we try?" "Why should we aspire to being better?" The answer is that through a religious experience, religious enlightenment and through the contemplation of the universal plan of things as it has been given to us in the great scriptures of the world, be become aware of the strong reason why we should grow. We realize it is not a little decision of our own, that actually the problem of growing better every day is a fulfillment of a purpose and that we must fulfill this purpose, and failure to do it now simply projects the problem into the future. Nothing is every solved except by achieving solution. So in our time we should be friendly, we should be loving, we should take care of the responsibilities, we should build firm homes, we should be honest in our trades and make weights and measures, we should have a good deal of fun along the way, good friends, kindly associates and we should live in a world in which we are making increasingly beautiful by the simple process of releasing beauty through ourselves. We may do this in spite of the difficulties of world time in fact the evil pressures of society make it more important that we find the roots and centers within our own nature. The condition of the world today as we find it is a tremendous constructive pressure to the individual to become a better person and to stand for the principles be believes, to work cheerfully in the presence of the discouragements around him, to never compromise or falter in the realization that in the great plan of things, all things work together for good. We can help them to achieve that good, we can discover it in ourselves and in this way every hour of the day becomes an important element in the unfoldment of the divine plan through ourselves.

^ She's noticing the interconnectedness of all things, my interpretation.

@Leilani That was a good read thanks, I bookmarked that. I meant more like, the attachment to it. I can still learn from it, but if holding onto an attachment is holding me back somehow I could let go of it.

Interesting, you feel that your experiences have been stronger (not sur what word to use here) than those who have had NDE's? Because I have had one, and so sometimes I cling to what it has shown me over what is taught here. I am still open minded to having different types of experiences, though, but I have never had the full "I am 'The' Bubble" one and a few others people talk about here, but at the same time I don't see a lot of talk of the types of experiences I have had here - in other places yes, though. I guess what I am trying to say is, should I let go of those experiences?