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Shit, what do you do if you're poor and technologically illiterate and have never looked into buying something like this and you don't wanna get caught? I just wanna experience, once, what everyone here is talking about.

@gettoefl That is really good advice, thank you! @Salvijus I feel like my actions are still bound by ego, and not Love as of yet, but is getting there more and more. So there is still a way to go. @catcat69123 I am more compassionate, thoughtful, artistic, get along better with my family. But not empty.

Poor guy, I saw that video, too. I hope that he is able to recover from the loss, and work through his addictions. I like his videos and he seems like a nice person. I think a lot of us with trauma would prefer just to trip it out; as the therapy aspect, the real work, can be even more intense. You don't have the substance as a crutch to make it all okay. You have to then face it head on. Still don't have the courage to do that, so mad respect to him for having the strength to not only be honest but to be doing what he can to work through what life has given him.

@BipolarGrowth That sounds fascinating. Did you experience any anxiety during these trips? I have heard it can sometimes be intense. Do you mean pattern recognition as in, you could piece different insights together much easier?

@The0Self I'll check them out, I love the Law of One! I used info from that book on my initially negative oriented spirit guide and moved it onto the path of Love and now I get occasional hints from it such as "try taking plants to grow." After that my autoimmune issues started to clear up. Buddhism is one that seems to be calling me, based on this wheel of gravity thing that I feel sometimes. Everyone feels to be on it. @WelcometoReality Thanks! I will check all of those out tonight and incorporate them into my work. How does Jesus's life work as a map of consciousness?

@The0Self I might have to try something just to see it first, but once I get it I should be good to go.

@The0Self So what then if you have already in your direct experience faced the fear of nonexistence? That was my fear when I went through, like... just... never being, ever, ever, ever again. And that is what opened the gates, because I offered just admiration and love for the picture of nature I was looking at, and through the "in between" the lines of mist and green in the mountains, the lack of shape kind of allowed God to come through because it was so beautiful, but there was nothing to identify the image with because it was moderately abstract. I mean... I was dying... my teeth were getting lose, my hair was falling out, my feet were turning purple, my mind was going (autoimmune stuff), so I gave in to nothing because I was raised without religion. I didn't think there was anything else. And that is when God showed up. But it wasn't "me" in that I intuited, but it wasn't "other", either. It was all! What are some of the nonenlightenment paths? I was called to shamanism through this process. This non-existence opened a gate, and that is where all my strange experiences come from. It is beautiful when you go all the way through the fear of death, but not something I am able to do often. When they are done, is it that illuminated, clear headed space where it feels like everything guides you and all is one? Or is it less intense? It could be that my ability to feel is not high enough for God as well.

@Michal__ Good for you, that is awesome you learned it so fast!

@BenG So I could be beginner-beginner in which case to keep my ears doubly open. If I am, that is even better. That means there is so so so much more, even more! @Nos7algiK Thanks dude, appreciate the advice.

@Nos7algiK I think a psychedelic will help with this as well. I need to get back to that very egoless state that I was in when I got sick - and from there, I could reset, because the body load was so strong that my ego just, wasn't there, it was like, I was in my body focusing on healing it with my intent. Not even a story was present, but strangely, that's when I get the paranormal stuff is when my ego goes out the window. It could be a whole host of things so I am going to try a few substances in the future and see if I can dissect it further - and then once I do I can "let go" at the "death door" and an awakening should happen. Still, no God realization as myself. But it will happen someday. So, onward!

@Terell Kirby Thanks dude! I'll do my best. @Nos7algiK Thanks! That eased my mind a bit. I wanted to share some experiences, but I didn't want to take it too far and share something with someone who was like, really far along and already knew - and I'm hear trying to school someone who's been there or something - that would be embarrassing. I guess there are just so many facets all we can really do is just put them together as a team and see what we get. I think what I realized is that I was farther along than I thought, but with that came some awareness of how little I had gotten as well. So it was a mixture of getting somewhere, but also seeing that other people have these experiences and they are valid and real and I wasn't aware of it to the same degree I am now. So it's like... I guess I am still a beginner, but not one that thinks they are "all that."

I guess my question is, how did you guys know where you were at on the path?

@The0Self I don't fear death very much, but when face to face with it, I do see it's presence as either comforting or sending me on a very strong journey due to not being aligned with it. I certainly feel that, when I grow it can be very hard to see how I was just weeks ago. And it happens so fast, you almost want to be unaware again at times, but it's a good thing. I am thinking maybe still advanced beginner. So, certainly, I know some things, but there is just... so, so so much further I could take it and should keep my ears open.

@Nos7algiK I know, I view it as valid, but also that they may have an experience (or many) to share that I have not had yet and view that as valid as well, because many have had stronger, more profound awakenings. I can't gauge yet. Sometimes people come in talking like this and they really do know and some do not, but I do not know this person well enough to make that assessment.

@Terell Kirby I know what you mean. This might be the example that I am talking about; where I do have some education on this to understand where you come from, but not the 'God is me' realization... yet... but many others that do show the illumination in the outer environment and clarity of mind that comes with an awakening. I do view God as everything, that it makes up everything, but I simply have not felt in direct experience being God. The ego has disappeared many times, though, and I do see it, and can put together the pieces, and I have a faith I will experience it someday. Maybe I might need a psychedelic. What was your I am God experience like?

@Terell Kirby It was just God there in the environment, within nature itself. I let go of the fear of death, so it felt very real to me, as there was nothing left to hold onto, and then God was just... there... like sluffing off a skin or something over my eyes, you know? I had a few more after that up until '17, and then many deep insights, and many awakenings this past year having gone into death again. Most of my experiences are direct ones, with a few that were directed by reading a lot. I just want to be sure when talking to folks that I don't get ahead of myself; and if there was a guide out there that I could read on where I might be at - although I do know that ultimately there are no "levels", just for the sake of not talking over someone or maybe getting into a conversation where I "think" I know more, having that guide would be awesome - just for the sake of being conversationally fair; proficient; helpful and grounded.

@Terell Kirby I didn't start the path, I had a spontaneous awakening in '16, that lead me here. Awwww!!! That's great! I love this.

Vocals in this are great. Mooji with fractals.

@Jannes I have had weird things come up when doing Carl Jung's active imagination technique, and I just let them pass through without judging them as good or bad and sometimes they can get pretty weird. I do feel at times that these things can be repressed memories and so I think if you write them down and then look into them later you can come to understand your Shadow side a little bit better it's as though the other side of your subconscious wants to be known, and it will make itself known in really obscene ways sometimes so please don't feel disgusted with yourself or bad for having such visions it's very normal. I used to have OCD around a particular types of thoughts that would come into my head repeatedly and I eventually had to just accept them in order for them to go away, but first I took the time to look into where the thoughts might be coming from and this helped me to not feel as though I was a bad or disgusting person for having such thoughts. If you're early experience in life was that of being overfed and you felt as though it was intrusive and disgusting to constantly be fed food and if it felt uncomfortable then there might be something way in the back of your mind that is trying to process those feelings and so I would thank the mushrooms for showing them to you and just continue to work through it and don't judge it. You are doing good. Gl.

I've had a few insights about math but due to not being very good at it I wouldn't have the same insights as someone who understands mathematics as a language and a way of understanding the world. I strongly believe that people such as this would have the ability to have many different insights into the nature of reality. If you look at people like Einstein for instance he was able to mix mathematics with imagination, so I don't see why other people who are interested in math couldn't do the same sorts of things. I have noticed an improvement in my art since working on myself it's almost as if I don't need to practice as much as I used to because my ideas are becoming a little bit more complex although I'm not able to really articulate what those ideas are at this point in time, I feel as though someone who has a propensity for understanding math would have so many amazing insights to share. I'm surprised that there aren't more threads related to it to be honest. I have heard that if you mix music with imagination that mathematicians can have very interesting insights.

@BipolarGrowth what was your trip on salvia like?

Dude me too. One answer gives me like a hundred more questions, it never ends. Maybe do both, follow some questions until you find an answer and also practice letting them go at other times?

I feel bad for people who are stuck in these situations. I don't think it is easy to get out of poverty in a third world country... I get to sit at home and work on my channeling all day, or art, whatever I like... I'm free to do it. Never have to work. It's a very cush life, but quite boring at times... if my life was hectic, I don't know how that would work... people that struggle everyday for their daily bread, it's not fair. Life is so not fair. I wish we could all have comfortable, safe lives.

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