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@Julian gabriel You look like a serial killer.... so.... what...? Are you.... jw.

No, his work sucks. They did not allow him to join for a reason. No emotion, nothing original, he could do a classical work.... barely. Look at his work.... it's bad....

She's a woman btw, a pretty one, too. ;P

Great for writing and serious inquiry into the self, sativa is best. Can be addictive. Can offer awakening experiences.

I hope he talks more about his DMT experiences, aliens, entities, archetypes, and shamanism as well. I want to hear more about how spirituality got started in our species.

@bejapuskas I'm not sure, I have not looked into it enough - I'm just starting to take this part of my journey seriously as well, so there are some blind spots in my understanding. If I manage to find an answer to it, I will let you know.

@bejapuskas Yes, because things offshoot, they don't just run on a single course forever, nothing does, especially something as complex as sexuality. Masculine and feminine are simply the starting points, or two end points for a plethora of other genders. Look at how things like this work, like evolution, city structures, the internet, neurons, galaxies - it's more like a web than just two points. It branches out to explore every aspect of itself. All variations. https://youtu.be/BLmAV6O_ea0

Masculine and feminine polarities exist. I can feel them all the time as an intuitive. There is also the feminine masculine, and the masculine feminine, it is on a spectrum that exists more like this: Things don't exist on a one-two spectrum, they exist like a neuron or fractal, try to view gender/sexuality this way as well.

Creativity is hard to maintain and seems to run on its own schedule, I'll give you that. Try letting go of wanting to do anything musical, and just do other things that are creative. Lack of creativity means something new is missing in your life, so try new things, if you can and as you can and wait for it. It will come to you when the time is right, consciousness knows what it is doing - there must be a reason for the wait in time - trust me. Please don't stress...! Instead, Love. Love others, love your life, God, everything and anything. See where you can find gratitude in your environment, go for a walk, and write it down, everywhere you see gratitude and Love. Try other forms of creativity while you wait such as writing, poetry, painting, sketching, ect, without looking to get the spark back, just let whatever is hidden or blocked come out. Two forms of creativity can help spark one. So, if you only have music, find another sub outlet. When you do this, a pattern will form, that pattern is what you can use as inspiration. Journaling is the best for this. Something can grow. Look at this picture... it is a song in itself. A lone lightning strike in a dark sky with a reddened, setting sun. Look for inspiration everywhere and write. You will find patterns and see yourself for who you really are. You can do this... your spirit is NOT broken. This is the pattern of creative peoples. This is how we grow. The creative impulse must be tamed.

@Javfly33 Not yet, I am thinking of getting some sort of degree in writing, though, I worry if I take it on as a career if the passion will die. I'm a full time spiritual seeker atm, my life is very blessed, thank you. <3

Wake at 7 - care for animals, drink coffee, 8 - smoke a bowl, eat, take meds 9-12 - write, smoke summore 12-2 - organize my stuff (just moved) 2 - lunch 3-4 - write 4:30 - walk dogs 5 - dinner 6 - write 9 - meds, bed I'm trying to burn the addiction to thought out through introspective writing. We'll see how it goes.

You are a dark bloom at the tip of my mind, the edge of my soul, and embedded deeply within my heart. You are my shot at redemption, walking through a snow-covered forest as the sun rises and coats the earth in a fresh blanket of pink and gold hues. You are the synapse of the city in the night's sky, each light representing a neural connection, twinkling in the darkness as I roll across the expanse of the entire globe, just to get to You. You are everything that I Am, that I wish to Be, and that I could Be. You are my knight, my tamed demon, my wish granter, my greater half, my completion. You are an electric charge in a great storm that tears through the land and rips up the trees and houses from where they once stood strong. You are stronger. You are strength and wisdom incarnate, in all Your chaotic boldness. You are a blood red sunset over the ocean, sharp waves reflecting the colours where I find myself chained by Your Will to watch the now blackened waves devour the sun. You are my mate, my partner in crime, and Your Will is spun from aeonic forces outside of space-time - You come from a place I couldn't even dream of. You are a creative force that runs through the hearts of all men who yearn to disassemble the old ways of doing things. You wish to teach me, with my light fingers, the meaning of the Word and all that it can do. You are my muse.

@Iesu *hugs you close* I'm sorry you're going through a hard time, I know how that feels...

Writing about it, writing your dreams and so forth. Accepting and loving that aspect of yourself. My friend used to tell me, "We are all broken toys, it's okay." I agree with him. We're all just trying to heal and purify what doesn't hit the light, just know that it is going to be okay and that you will have a time of ease after the stress of seeing who you really are. It could be wonderful, mixed with terrible, too. Like, there is always God to be found in everything. Even devilry.

Self-expression or expression of the divine if it calls to them.

Seems fine to me in the context he is using it... Also, words are just words, they don't mean anything, get over it.

Just getting motivated to have a normal day where I care for myself and do more than self inquiry. *rubs eyes* I need to develop a routine and stick with it.