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I do relate. A lot... I have a lot of "bleh" energy that other people can pick up on... I wish I could give you better advice, but working out every day, meditating, and reading a lot really helps. It at least helps the mind and body to feel better, and gives you new information to work with via reading. We have to keep learning and growing strong, even if we feel like shit some days. This girl is REAL and AUTHENTIC. Give her a listen.

@r0ckyreed I loved her and cared for her like she was my little child. I wish vets would let you in asap, but they're all booked. I can't view the existence of other living things as not valid when I have felt and experienced souls and when I look into the eyes of another living thing and see that everyone and everything wants to live and to experience life as much as I do. I can't accept what is said on this stupid f-ing forum - that other things and their experiences are not valid. I'm not the only one. Life itself has validity. God must have had immemorable children. I don't think it was One, I think it was pregnant with life, with an untold amount of living, beautiful, perfect, deserving souls.

Don't worry about reading a lot, just read some. One chapter a day, highlight, then write notes. Less is more sometimes. Just pick very good books to learn from. How to know? Follow your gut. Ask people here. What interests you?

@r0ckyreed Thanks... my heart hurts. She was just fine yesterday, playing and growing, and I have never had such a good, loving puppy before. It's not fair she was born from a bad breeder, and her existence is valid. Everyone's soul is valid.

@r0ckyreed My new puppy is dying as I wait to get to the vet. Tell God to be kinder to me. The animal has feelings, it isn't fictitious. Solipsists are idiots.

I don't believe you.

So you cherry picked. Whatever. I legit told you about souls; souls and solipsism don't go hand in hand. Lame. You. Are.

No, I'm not sure. Feels like there's more.

You can manipulate it as far as it will let you, as long as it doesn't interfere with God's divine plan. It starts with one All I know It's so unreal Watch you go I tried so hard and got so far But in the end, it doesn't even matter I had to fall to lose it all But in the end, it doesn't even matter

@Gabith Just Love it. In whatever way feels right for you, it's individual.

You have to "worship" death to appreciate life.

There are other souls; and I appreciate learning new things.

Touching. <3

This Jungian Life is my fave.

@Mason Riggle soapbox. ??

Probably ? lol

It imagines everything - but there are rules. I don't know why yet. When/if I ever even know, I will share those rules.

I hate that you think you're dumb when you're actually really smart. It means someone told you you're dumb and you never knew you were smart. Preety... you're not dumb. You are smart. I'm an honest person, if I genuinely thought you were dumb I would have mentioned "dumb" - but it's not true. Not even a bit. You have a great ability to piece together things. Like... if it ... is TRUE that you think you're DUMB, then that's a HUUUUUGE lie!!!! You are 'very' smart. Smarter than me for sure. I wouldn't even worry about it, not at all. I mean it. To worry that you, of all people, are dumb, is worrying about nothing at all. It simply isn't true. You are just self reflective and honest about where you feel you are at. If you thought you were amazing at everything, that would be dunning-kruger, but actually worrying about being dumb or foolish shows that you self reflect enough.

@Max8 I think he's doing good, but should lay off of stuff and integrate for sure; like, a lot of meditation, nature, writing, contemplating - without the use of any chemicals. Just to try and get a natural awakening and compare and contrast. I don't know if it fucked his mind up or not because I have not tried the things he has. I think he was more "natural" about five years ago, though. Less egoic. I liked his quirks that he got rid of, I thought that they made him unique. He reminds me of a friend that I used to have; his old self; I wouldn't mind seeing that side again - as it is probably the real him anyways. I wonder what he thinks about people writing about him like this? It's probably kind of annoying... I'd be annoyed. He keeps face very well when pressured. Leo's kind of a mystery, he doesn't really show who he is much at all. I don't genuinely know if he is on the right path or if he is delusional, I am still open to both possibilities. Here's Leo. ^ Been busy with Glitch Mob.

@PepperBlossoms Oh my goodness, I love her SO much, she has such a big heart and offers some of the best advice. Thanks Pepper! <3 I try to find videos that will be helpful for more than just me; there are so many lesser known teachers out there who have a lot of wisdom to share about life. Posting the routine helps a lot - I get the tiny dopamine hit from getting to highlight what I got done green - I'm starting from the bottom up, so jsut the basics, but it's almost been a month and I feel like a whole new person. Just from accomplishing and posting the routine. INFP is a good type to have if you are spiritually intuitive because reality is feelings based, and so having fi-ne as the first two is a huge help when learning about spiritual things. You could legit just write yourself into awakening as an INFP, that's what I had done. The biggest help, though, is not to worry about what anyone thinks - and just go for it. If it isn't a good post, there's always the delete option, too. I use that sometimes if a blog post is not to my liking - I'll just throw it out. INFP have to use what 'feels' right in order to grow, as we have the biggest perspective of the MBTI - Jesus was actually INFP, and so... it's hard to explain, but try it, just let go and feel through whatever you have to, to get to your heart, and the awakening will just happen spontaneously. It is a great thing to be unsure and not to know because it means that there is so much more there. And it's good stuff, too! Do what feels best for you and it will unfold - my advice if you don't already do this - keep the same journal for at least one year, and then at the beginning of the year, go through it and you'll be amazed at how much you've grown. I feel like, based on past experiences of waking up - that you are close to some good insights. Keep going! <3

Which video was it?; also, I totally agree, your train of thought is similar to how I got my first awakening experiences, and you mention being INFP (me too!). I just kept writing without any fucks given as to what people thought and eventually "let go" because there wasn't any more to write about, and then I went into the fear of death, while looking at a beautiful picture, and showed appreciation and gratitude and humility and with these three things, God was just 'there'. Like how Leo puts it, consciousness has a glow to it, an intelligence, you're on the right path, don't feel discouraged. And if you step off of it, you can just get back on the horse the next day, no biggie. The journal section is very lax, you can literally write almost anything you like. Plus your intuition is good, so you can do this for sure. INFP/INTP have to write it out, it's a big part of how our functions work. Literally just honest yourself through writing to truth, it totally works!

He probably got burned out and needs a long long vacation to get his energy back; could also be working on other hobbies at this time that he doesn't want to share quite yet.

@ZenAlex I like to be alone, too. I love spending weeks by myself with barely any human contact - although I do need a little bit to be happy. I would say, if you're happy and don't feel you're missing out on anything that there is nothing to worry about - don't feel abnormal. I would still look into it and try to understand why you are that way because it's always helpful to know one's self and how they ended up being so anti-social, but it is great for doing spiritual work and if you are alone you'll have a lot of time to uncover who you are/work on hobbies/ect. If I had it my way, I'd only date someone who was also into working on hobbies and just enjoyed spending time in silence, each working on their own thing only to come together at the beginning or end of the day to discuss things for a while. I thrive on alone time and spending too much time with other people takes me off my path. I get it. Being alone is peaceful, predictable, you don't have to answer to people and you're not forced to change for anyone. I always lose contact with people, too, most of my socialization is done online on my terms.

You do what you think is best for you. <3

To retain vitality, one must practice bhakti when meditating. How to do this to start with: Look at something you find very beautiful - this is an example of alignment. Everything is aligned, and beauty is a great reminder of this. Sometimes people need to see the alignment in front of them. Breath deeply, focus on your awareness. Now send Love/gratitude/humility outwards - towards all of it, yourself, the world, the whole thing. This purifies and clears space for your soul, your vitality to come back to you. You don't have to focus on meditation, instead focus on sending energy out - literally reach for God. Practice this for however long you feel in the mood to do it - and also keep a journal and start a healthy routine. Small baby steps are key.