Loba

@EmptyInside Yeah no problem! I loke the song you picked too. Love finding new music!

Not better, but about on the same level, I love the message.

I have bipolar - it looks similar to bpd, and have dated a bpd man. It was hard because he always saw fault in me and took my money - just one bpd though, I've had friendships that lasted for longer than a decade - one ended because the boyfriend molested me and she took all of my friends away from me, and the other didn't last because she was talking shit about my autism and I flipped out on her. They were fine while it lasted but in my experience bpd usually ends the friendship for some reason, or they expect something out of you that you can't fulfil. As someone with bipolar, I have a lot of empathy for people with bpd, I know what it is like to have to manage emotions, it is very difficult. I try all sorts of substances just to get the bipolar regulated - I would seek a therapist and psychiatrist to help you out, there are therapeutic modalities and meds that can help a lot - it's the same kind of treatment for bipolar, mostly. I'd say the only dif., living wise between bipolar and bpd is that bipolar, the episodes are more spaced out and that meds cure it while bpd is more random and therapy cures it.

I almost died, went through the fear and found out some stuff, but it contradicts the modus operandi of this place - and I'm weary of people trying to convert my experiences into their own belief system, so I'll just say this and call it good:

I am the sickness you cannot define The nauseating smile in your mind I am the anger the hate and the pain You'll remember my name I am your god There is such a thing as karma for those who do great evil. I am the alpha and the omega Your beginning and your end I am that I am You will never be alone again You don't even get hell. Move heaven and earth to break free My son, take heart you will never be Long anywhere to anyone you can hide You can run but after all is said and done It's my kingdom come You get what the ego is afraid of the most. I am the alpha and the omega Your beginning and your end I am that I am You will never be alone again I am your god You get erased. Nothing, nada - the promise of getting to move on and create a better world, you get none of it. You get the big black hole.

I made a play list on it girl. Check it when you have a few hours spare time. Evil is ignorance, nothing more or less. Just a lack of knowing. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Ku-17pr3Yk&list=PLtcN2XK5jBbCkzL9ENOvC0d7sDwzcU574 Goes from true evil to angelic innocence.

Dude; stop. You are NOT unlovable. Look at all the women who love people who don't deserve it? And you think ""you're"" unlovable? No way. Not true, what is actually preventing you from true love? Where? Why? How? Look into it. You deserve love. Holy moly. The amount of people who think they are less... GEEEEEZZZZ... I wish I could give you the expertise of the life of someone who get a lot of attention, but no love... it comes from within. I am dead, dead, dead....so freaking dead serious that you deserve true love. What is truly going on that prevents you from finding love????? Fix that. For me, it is emotional disorder. I want it calmed before seeking a mate For you? Is it harm OCD? Work on that - I have a course I bought in spiritual discernment, cleansing, etc, sent me a note and I will send it your way.

No.. .... ... ... Are you... .... ...... daft?..... I don't think you are. So what's with the retarded question? Women simply wish to pee easier. That's it. No gender envy at all. We just wanna go hiking with an easier spot to look at nature. Or if it is out of the blue, to pee on a wall. But that's not envy, and there are tools that let a woman pee anywhere. I have NEVER had ""penis envy"". That is the only circumstance I can think of where a woman wishes she had a dingdong.

What's up troll? Lonely? ..... Need a "fwend", yes I saw your instigation on another thread... Just get out of here. Go. Leave. Most of you don't think for yourselves... shameless.

Please don't give your authority away to someone like Leo... he is not that far along, he is super lame. Read books. Don't care about what someone who says a soul doesn't exist feels or reads into anything. Like... it means he's soullless. And he treats his followers like someone who has no soul. So there you have it. Your "God leo." Burst that bubble. He's a ... what would you call it... dishonest. He's not leading you in the right direction.. Look for that direction yourself, wherever it goes.

This dude needs this the most but thinks we need it. Whatever dude... you think arrogance is spiritual attainment, right? That's what you're here for... you're arrogant. And flat out wrong half the time. What are you here for again.....?????

There is a soul, you just missed it.... You're lacking... a lot. Stop this pretending like you know the truth, more than people here because you're just a drug addict, dude.

The weird thing is, if you didn't do a drug to get there people here wouldn't be winking at you or offering hearts. They'd be telling you how you're still wrong, that you didn't get far enough, ect. That's how disingenuous this forum is. Dictating other's experiences. But as soon as you add the 5-Meo label, then it's "legit". Why are you asking if you don't know? It should tell you, so they say... I don't think drugs are the right path.

No. It's all cope.

@RickyFitts https://people.com/pets/the-ugliest-dogs-in-the-world/ Also, I didn't get her message, hound dog. "Here, respect her wishes while I respond to you." You're not a good person. You follow women around on here too much. Focus on yourself.

@RickyFitts I'm spot on dude. Nice guy... I mean. You're nice to hot chick here, not just PEOPLE.. in general. You have an agenda. You're a hound.

I just don't care about genetic rejects. Sorry. Natural selection is there for a reason. I don't see them worrying about my needs. Women don't need to care, we have our own problems to deal with. Get the picture. I'd care more if people cared about me, but they don't. So I don't. Care gets care. Incels are like... don't-try-at-alls... tbh. Laziness is not attractive.

@RickyFitts He's reaching out cause you're a cute girl. That's it. No bravery or valiance at all. None. "Nice guy"

@Random witch How is materialism worshipping death, I guess I don't understand. What are your opinions? Death is life... It really is. How can materialism worship it? Keep in mind Sam is a narcissist. Can his word really be trusted? Even as a genius?

@Random witch Agreed, wise comment. We need both, you must view death as a companion that helps you to view life in it's fullest form.

I eat meat... but I want to stop because I view animals as creatures with souls. Cows cry, did you know? https://faunafacts.com/cows/do-cows-cry/

Sorry that happened Leo, sounds very scammy. @Blackhawk It was not one of his best, I wouldn't worry about it. It really wasn't... When I watched it I was like... "this is what people are freaking out over?" I see why he took it down; he would have had to worry too much with that video. And not because it was profound. It was just subpar imo compared to other videos out there. Maybe he'll make another one in the future.

@r0ckyreed Thanks Rocky, you rock for taking the time to talk to me through this. It means a lot to me that someone reached out and showed genuine care. I legit don't know what to do, I have another three hours until the vet opens and I can take her in. I had all these plans to make this dogs life fulfilling and she might not get that and it just feels wrong. They're like little children, baby animals, no different from us, and she trusts me and even though I didn't do this, I feel like I betrayed her life somehow. I've had a lot of spiritual experience, but nothing that leads to solipsism, only... like Leo says, diversity. Just an insane amount of diversity.