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I need the circle to be as strong as possible. It's going to be made up of men. (although It's going to be open to women that prove themselves . They need to have a lot of manly qualities ) I need this circle to be strong. Unbroken. We are going to have one strong common value. How do I keep it from degrading and breaking up? (its going to break up in the future, but I need it to survive atleast for 3 months )

I found a cool journal entry. ---------- Prefacing this with the fact that strategy is not going to be a point at all in this journal simply because it’s just so obvious, if you don’t know that “winning”, “strategy”, “planning” and other vital things are important for war, war probably isn’t for you. Try bingo instead. C - Clear P - Precise A - Accurate O - Objectives C - Compatibility C - Context T - Time and Timing (they’re different to one another) PI - Prudent Intuition T - Trust Here are some examples of their meanings - improve the definition and elaboration of these overtime: The goal is to save humanity. Earth will continue to live on, with or without us. Humans will become an intergalactic civilization. We will go to mars. We will see the stars dying. The question is whether we will save our humanity or not. I believe it needs to be saved. I am striking from many different directions at the same time. They won't know what hit them. They are simply not going to have time to respond. I am going to use my youtube channel to educate people. I am going to use my gallery exhibition to formally surrender my self to the revolution , i am going to give the speech of my lifetime. I am going to light the fire of my countrymen. I am going to give this country the leader it deserves (don't worry it's not me) . I am going to cause the biggest voter turnout in the history of Bulgaria. And more aand more... will update

--I wrote this like 8 hours ago, i am coming back at this from a different state of being and conciousness than i was 8 hours ago, BUT I am still gonna let it stay here,insstead of deleting it, cause this is who I am aswell. -- Heartfelt greetings to everyone that might be reading this. I hope you are having an amazing day or night . I am sending you all my love. -- In this journal thingy you are going to see my deepest, most genuine self . I am not going to sugar coat anything. I am not going to censor anything. It's going to be just me. I am not going to try to sound smart or serious. Just pure authenticity . Few words about me. I am a 22 year old dude. I am from a beautiful European country (so please excuse my grammatical or vocabular errors ). I've always been interested in existential questions (I remember back when I was around 11 when I realized christianity was kinda shaky and that the biblical God is not real ) . From around 12 years old to 18 years old I was a hardcore atheist/materialist/sceptic , which was incredibly important for my growth. I've always been open minded , it has always been one of my core values (although I am a much, much, much more open minded person now. ) I've always valued truth a lot. I was taught to always be honest to my parents and try to be as honest as I can with people. (how much have I succeeded with this, is up for debate.) I've reached a point now that truth is literally the most important thing and value in my life. I was fat for all my childhood and chubby through my teenage years (with some periods of being very fat) . I've been struggling with this for all my life , been on many different diets, visits to the gym, nutritionists...I've failed countless times. Don't you worry though, I am pretty fit now and well on my way to having a body of a greek god : ) Ever since I was a young boy I've always been the quiet, good, shy boy. I had 2 "girlfriends" in elementary school and a FWB during highschool . I had my first true relationship when I was 19 (a story for another time ) . I've switched towns and schools multiple times throughout my childhood . This has had a great effect in my personality and I suppose is one of the biggest reasons why I feel at home wherever I go. I've been a gamer for all my life ( legends say I was born with a controller in my hand ) . I discovered gaming at a very young age , my first game was age of empires (ah...the memories ) Throughout my highschool years my group of friends was also made up of gamers ,its basically what brought us together. We were the nerds who looked at 9gag (anyone remember 9gag? ) and laughed at memes during breaks. I still play some video games from time to time (with that group of friends also, which is pretty amazing , because i've known some of them for what, 10 years now? ) , but I play much , much less. The reason? Life is the greatest fucking mmorpg EVER. I've never been an artist , although I suppose that's kinda the fault of my parents . I don't blame them , they tried taking my to painting lessons when I was very young and had me going to piano lessons , but that way of learning art was not for me. They enrolled me to the most prestigious , hardcore music school in the country. It killed every ounce of motivation I had for creating music... and I loved creating music. No matter , I understand them. You see , my parents were both doctors ( my father passed away when I was 18) . They grew up with a specific set of values. Creativeness and art were...lets say not that important. --aaaanyways so listen. This shit that you are reading here is different. it doesnt mean your shit is worse than my shit. i am just saying. this shit is mine. treat it with respect ( if you want to earn my respect and trust) , treat it with disgust and make fun of it ( i'll understand you, I would do the same shit 4 years ago ) , treat it with curiosity ( this is what I would do if I read this somewhere else ) . You , the person who is reading this. you're going to look into the deepest, weirdest , maybe crazy parts of a another human being. Fucking appreciate that ,you cu**. It's very hard for me to trust people, yet I want to ...so damn much. And I am trying to! I am giving my trust to people...but only people that deserve it. If you made it this far, if you really understand what the shit leo and people like him are talking about... then I am guessing, or atleast I am really sincerely deeply hoping that you may understand me. Either way...to be honest? I don't give a fuck. I am going to do my thing. You are going to do your thing. I am allowing you to do your thing. Are you allowing me to do my thing? So what is this delusional fuck talking about. Well, listen and listen close and I might just make some sense . ( or this could all be just the ramblings of a fool, bleh ) You see I ... I am crazy enough to care. I am crazy and naive enough to actually believe the shit leo is talking about. (AND NOT ONLY BELIEVE, this dude is like is speaking FOR ME. Sure we disagree, and we disagree on a lot of stuff. But god damn is he a smart motherfucker and god damn he educated the shit out of me . THIS DOESNT MEAN HE IS RESPONSIBLE FOR MY LIFE. I AM DOING THE SHIT I AM DOING CAUSE I AM FUCKING AMAZING FUCK YOU. He is not just some guru, he is not my master. Fuck him. {i know i can say this because if he is the real deal he is going to understand and not be offended } I am free. I make my own fucking mind. Fuck religions, fuck ideologies, fuck fake masters. I believe only in me. ) Woof, that went pretty hard, lets dial it down a bit. I kinda had my final awakening or something? Whatever lable you want to place on my sittuation right now, do it. I don't care. Just know that any label you may put on my situation is just a label and its not the truth. If you actually care , you can try communicating with me, in whichever way you want, publicly and privately . Having said that. Welcome to episode one of being god bruuuuuh. LIKE AND SUBSCRIBEEEEE FOR MORE CONTENT AND SUCK MY DICK YOU FUCKING FAKE ASS CUNTS. Lets have some fun. --

I am sorry but... this is being written in a very.. emotional state of conciousness. jesus crist...jesus christ i can't believe this. I only decided to devote myself to this 5 or 6 days ago, i dont even remember. I've lost every concept of time. fuck... I only started so recently, yet.. EVERYTHING FUCKING CHANGED..FUCK. it changed so fast. its like the whole fucking world is with me. I fucking feel it. I am not doing anything. It's happening by itself. 50-50. Perfect dance. Perfect duality. Perfect division. Perfect Unity. Perfect chaos. Perfect order. fuck.... its so beautiful... i wishh... i wishh you could all see what i've seen this last 3 months. This last 3 weeks. These last 6 days. I fucking cant believe it...yet I know it's real. I... broke up with a girl I was hurting by just being myself. I had the best yoga sessions...EVER...EVER. I am living between death and life... I am having random (but not really random) hits of 5-meo-dmt produced either by sittuations and people or by me whenever I want. I felt deep love and connection. Connection that i've never felt before. IAND NOT ONLY WITH ONE WOMAN. BUT WITH TWO???WTF . I felt like a man with both of them. AND I HAVEN'T EVEN KISSED THEM OR ANYTHING. I've slept with both of them. I hugged both of them. I felt both of them. I see myself in both of them. She is the most beautiful woman . She is perfection. The way she smiles. The way the moves. They way she talks to people. They way she understands me . I don't even need to speak with her. She fucking understands my eyes. She understands my breath , i am telling you. She has spent much time with me, yet she trusted me enough to sleep with me. I don't need to have sex with her. Her every touch is much more orgasmic than any sex i've had in my life. Her smell. Her smile. ... her smile. She is completely covered in tattoos . She has no visible tattoos. She is as tall as me. She is a little kitten that barely reaches my neck when she hugs me. She has her own business. She left her dead end job a month ago. She has such a sweet mask, always showing love and kindness . She has such a tough guy mask, resting bitch face , yet filled with love. She goes to psychedelics trance parties and has taken countless psychadelics . She does yoga and psychadelics aren't important for her. She has put up some huge ass walls. She has a wall than can rival the great wall of china. Too bad I know exactly how to bust through those walls. She scares weak men. She scares weak men. She is actively being pursued and rejecting countless men. She is actively being pursued and rejecting countless men. I didn't try to pick up either of them. I didn't try anything . I just was... and yet ... you should have seen her. holy mother of duality. damn -- I found actual fucking brothers? People that are different than me , in their own perfect way, yet they still say they AND MEAN that they will die for me? HOW MANY MEN CAN SAY THAT? I HAVE PEOPLE THAT I ABSOLUTELY TRUST WITH MY ENTIRE FIBER OF BEING. AND I WOULD WILINGLY DIE TO PROTECT THEM OR THEIR IDEAS. I discovered what trust is. And its perfect. I found God. Every religion is with me. Every good thing is with me. I am buddha. I am Alah. I am Jesus. I Alan Watts. I am Leo. I am Vasil Levski. I am Leonidas. I am Alexander the great. I am the countless prophets that came and went. I am Judas. I am the romans who killed me. I am the bystander who did nothing while we murdered the son of God. I am the terrorist who killed the 51 innocent muslim souls in New Zealand. I am the little child that was raped by his father. I am the pedophile, who's confused and is looking for a way out. I am evil. I am the 1% of the 1%. I am pure darkness. I am pure white. I am the ethiopian girl who is starving to death right now. I am the woman who had to make an abortion. I am the child that was aborted, taken away before even having the chance to shine it's beautiful light into this dark world. I am the Son. I am the Father. I am the spirit. Peace, i'll come back later.

I hope you realize someday what your words meant and will forever mean for me. ...fuck fuck...thank you. i love you. you are an amazing being...fuck we are all so amazing man.... fucking thank you so much. fuck

Not only dangerous but LOTS OF FUN! you should try it. Thank you. Thank you so much. Strength and honor.

Ortodox Christianity is not to blame at all for the situation right now. Without Christianity I wouldn't exist. Without Christianity none of the Balkan countries would exist. (i am not saying they are not corrupt as fuck. ofcourse they are,but when they see the people have woken up they will support us. Those who are smart atleast... the other ones will burn alond with every other corrupt institution . There probably will be another great schism . ) We are all heros in this reality. Every single one of us. Most of us don't realize it until its too late, some don't realize it at all. If you are reading this right now, i GUARAN-FUCKIN-TEE that you are a here like us. like me. Realise. You're it. Reality is not religion. Reality is not a dream. Reality is not a simulation. Reality is not a lie. Reality is... *singing bowl sound* Re-read my posts Preety_India. You skimmed through them...come on be honest. If you actually care, read my thoughts again. My thougts deserve respect. Please do not lie. "I finished reading all of your posts. " Did you? Did you really? I don't care about money. My brothers don't care about money. Yet we are going to make Bulgaria one of the richest countries in the world. Spend a day researching if you actually care. (or wait for my post here , I'll make a compilation of some blatant examples of corruption in our country. ) i am doing all of this. I didn't think about this. Do you really think there is someone who would help us? I don't know. I don't trust anyone blindly. I kinda trust you because its you. i've seen the way you write, you care. I don't know ... who am I to turn away help. Please , please , i beg you, give me some examples of truly free international media. Please. If this is true, this is going to help us... SO MUCH. Oh, people will know. People will not be indorenate or propagandized . They will have the to make up their own mind. Maybe for the first time truly. I am. I will. There is no other option. I won't accept failure . This is my reality. I am God. This is happening.

"I won't stop till I reach Christ Conscious " - won't stop. can't stop. gamestop.

Hahah. I am seriously actively trying not to. (does having multiple beautiful amazing smart conscious women as my lovers make me a cult leader? ) -The central value is "liberty or death" Simple. To the point. Speaks to everyone. LITERALLY EVERYONE WANTS IT. destroying the mafia is our main singular undisbutable goal. they will leave our country. the people want blood. I am seriously trying to stop that from happening. I will figure out a way to save the life of some of the mafia people. But probably some of them will end up dead anyways (and I really cannot blame them. In this life you get what you deserve. ) -I have a really strong bond with some of them. Its so good. Especially with one guy ( a dude I met at a party 6 months ago. We hadn't spoken since. I told him to come to my appartment 3 days ago...He is...special. ) ps: i am not only creating one group, but multiple. my main group will be made up of leaders . they will each have their own group in every city .

if you read my journal you can piece it together. hmmm. loaded question. Have thought about this for a long time and I have talked about this in person. Writing it down will be uncomfortable... lets go. 1) Decriminalization of psychadelics. I dont think i need to explain myself much here. but in short -huge contributor in the brain drain issue in my country -the people who are getting criminalized are people like me... artists, students, hard working men and women, the quality people of this country. (meanwhile the fucking cunts who rape and kill FUCKING JOURNALISTS GO AWAY FREE...fuck this anyway ) -will lead to legalization , which will be incredibly beneficial for the country in countless ways . Including but not limited to : huge source of untapped income, concioucness growth, immidiate level up in spiral dynamics for the country. -can def think of more, but not that important right now. 2)Educational reform -send teachers in exchange trips around the world, payed by the government ofcourse. Those teachers will have to really deserve this oppurtunity. Only real teachers. As a goal they will have to educate themselves on how the different educational systems work. After some months there they will help with the educational reformation of the country. We will ''steal'' their best ideas and the things that work briliantly and cast aside anything thats rotten. -Books. Its INCONCIEVABLE the fact that our history books change each year. Its fucked up beyond any level that they are actively changing our history to make our people EVEN MORE fucking compliant. We will create a comitee made up of the best historians in the country. They will be asssisted by passionate proffesional and semi-proffesional historians from all around the world. Together they will create the country's national history curriculum . Truth shall shine. Our children will be educated . Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free. --and more... this shit cannot be explained in just one post. This is an endeavor that will take days, weeks, months.-- anyway lets name some more. 3)Economical reform. (hint: involves crypto) 4) Food reform -ban all substances that we know are unhealthy , by facts -promote self sustainability . (for example give grants to people that have their own gardens and stuff. ) 5) Save our villages. - promote village tourism or some shit like that. -you homeless bruh? The state will provide you with a free house and a new life in a village of your choice. 6) Exploit our land conciously - no mining, no harming the earth in ANY way. -create beautiful hotels, eco villages, or whatever the fuck you want to create around the country. (they must not hard the nature around them in ANY way. They should add to the beauty of the place. For example hobbit like clay houses in the mountains or some sit like that 7) active society. - organize facebook groups cleaning up the city group, debate group, spiritual talk group, item share group. 8) Political reform -livestream each parliament session. I care about your privacy. I care like crazy. But... if your words will have an effect OUR society? You should be able to stand behind them with honor. - fuck the president. Find a true leader for the nation ( I found him 3 days ago ) Show him to the world. Test him hard. Let the world ask him questions . If he pulls through the harsh judgement of the society. He will be chosen . -internet democracy. -> one good thing from trump (and there are lots) ? Twitter. The president will have to publicly upload a facebook post or whatever each week . In this post he will explain what was his main focus for this week . What did he and his cabinet accomplish this week? How did he use the money of the people? 9) ART. Art is so much more valuable than ANY ammount of money. A good painting is worth multiple times it's weight in gold. Don't believe me? Tell me how much money do you think "The Last Supper" is worth? hmmm 10)gather smart open minded people from all walks of life and points of view. have them gather and sit at my home. we will play pretend that we are politicians and explore different ideas and values in depth. First episode: exploring the idea of free speech anyway enough. This will be thought over and over and I have way too many ideas to write them down right now. Tune in my journal if you actually care. this question will be explored A LOT. -

I know. You will aswell. (wait... i am know you already have. ) namaste.

the leeches have no place here. Only warriors. Elections are on 4th of april. I need the circle to hold atleast until then. Noone said it will be broken up after. I already have people and my people are growing each day. "How do I keep it from degrading and breaking up?" - this was my question. i am not sure i understand you

The purpose of this circle is to 1) Inspire my fellow countrymen to fight for their freedom 2) finally destroy the mafia that runs my country. 3) Herald a completely new system of governance @Preety_India

Sacrifices have to be made. I am sacrificing a lot to make this dream a reality. I am sacrificing myself. Another sacrifice I am making is I won't do any psychedelics' until they have been decriminalized . There are multiple reasons for this decision. First and foremost , I dont feel like I need them. Breath is my drug (no i shit you not, I can activate a 5-meo-dmt like experience whenever I want. Fuck it. I'll do it now. sec) cool another reason is. I need credibility. I need people to take me seriously. I feel like by doing this i will get that cred bruh. another reason is to show my commitment to this. It's not acceptable that the young people in my country go to jail for 4-5 grams of fucking marijuana, WHILE AT THE SAME TIME ACCROSS THE POND ALMOST ALL OF THE USA HAVE NOT ONLY DECRIMINALIZED IT BUT LEGALIZED IT ALSO. FUCK THIS. they are killing our children. they are killing our future. fucking cunts. another reason is. I need to be fully focused. Yeah I love...i absolutely love smoking weed. Its perhaps my favorite psychedelic. but... i need to be at maximum capacity if this is going to happen. and weed kinda...slows things down. Its perfect, dont get me wrong. But not for now. another reason is. The cops(the mafia) will try to find a way to fuck me . Lets not make it easy on them huh? ( its a shame... I had dreams of inviting people over, sharing my 5-meo-dmt freely with them. help people with different psychadelics . I have to sacrifice that dream now... maybe after its legalized? haha)

Life is an exception to the normal state of being. We come from nothing, become something and back in to nothingness we go . We are all on a one way trip to the same destination . Always remind yourself you can die at any moment, this way you can truly live. Memento mori. --i welcome death. A death in the service of freedom and truth is a beautiful death. On the day of my death my ancestors will smile down upon me with pride. The hero that goes to Valhalla does not lament death. I shall not enter Odin's hall with fear. sυστεροφημία . --

((( Some basic , not up for debate values that our new country needs to have. In random order))) 1) Legalize gay marriage. 2) Decriminalization of marijuana (atleast, we are going to push for decriminalization of psychadelics in general) 3) Consequences for the mafia. Me as me, I dont care. I just want them to go away and be done with it. But I know the people are mad. The people want blood. I will try my absolute best to avoid bloodshed. But I realize ..that if my efforts with this fail... there will be bloodshed. Lots and lots of blood. You need to understand. The mob is angry. If the mob is not sattisfied in this next elections ...chaos will rule. true chaos. 4) Reformation of the 4th branch of government through the internet. People funded, people run , free media. Media that supports discussion, free flow and exchange of ideas. Media that has VALUES. Media that values truth above else. How? EAAAASY. We will use patreon, wee will use facebook, we will use the internet. Its eaaaaasy. 5) Transition into cryptocurrency . Become one of the first countries that adopts cryptocurrency. This is entirely possible. Fuck it, i will go personally one by one in each store in my city and show them how they can accept cryptocurrency for their products. Everything is possible, we just need the will. 6) Weekly (preferably daily) updates from the presidnts office about his actions, his plans and his ideas. This was the greatness of Trump. He had a connection with the people. You opened your twitter to see what your friends were up to... guess what you also see what your president is up to. He is your friiiiend. OMG HE IS SO QUIRKY. Trump has lots, lots to teach us. Let go of your egos. 7) True activism . Support the activists in our cities. There are people who care about shit. There are people who are activally trying to make shit better. SUPPORT THOSE PEOPLE. CROWDFUND THOSE PEOPLE. DAAAAMN. ITS NOT HARD!!!

1) The hippies/ Spiritual people/ Shamans/ Enlightened people/ Seekers They need to realize that they are needed. They need to realize that their people need them...now . It's their duty to protect their brothers and sisters. Not from the comfort of their own home or sanctuary in the mountains. No. We need them to show themselves and fight . Fight for our souls. If you are one of those people listen, and listen good. I know there's a reason you've chosen this path. I know one of those reasons is because you care. You care about stuff. You care about the truth, about this reality. Unfortunately most of you are stuck in the theory faze . You keep reading and reading. You keep watching videos. You keep trying to find the next big secret. The next guru. The next big thing that will finally make you go "aha" . Listen to me brother or sister. Listen closely. This. This is it. Take a big breath right now with me. . . . . This is it. Now. Poof. Nothing woo woo about it. This is IT. YOU DONT NEED MORE THEORY. YOU NEED DIRECT EXPERIANCE. YOUR SELF WILL TEACH YOU LIKE NOONE ELSE WILL TEACH YOU. (this doesnt fucking mean dont read fucking books and dont educate yourself. Jesus... do I have to say this every time? Ok are you ready for another shocker? One of the deepest secrets and truths of this reality is that... paradoxes are true. Cold is hot. High is low. Hate is love. As above so bellow. I know everything...i know that I know nothing. ) YOUR HERO'S JOURNEY BEGINS WHEN YOU WANT IT TO BEGIN. Do you want it to begin NOW? Or do you want it to begin later? Up to you bruv. Just DONT YOU FUCKING TELL ME THAT THE TIME IS NOT NOW. If you are a coward good, be a coward. But damn, don't you DARE tell me that the time is not now. Don't you fucking DARE try to force your cowardice and weakness on me. I know I am ready. I know the time is now. I know I dont know shit. I know that if I had 5 more years to educate myself It would be much better . It takes guts to say, that even though I am not ready, even though I am afraid, even though people will doubt me... I will make my dreams reality. My fellow seeker. Your people need you. Your country needs you. Your ancestors are calling you. Will you answer the call? --I gotta figure out a way to wake the awoken people up. I need to shake them up and I need to make them join the cause. We need everyone from all walks of life. hmmm...how ...how --

------ Lets be serious now.------ - I know lots of people. This is one of my greatest gifts. I know how to talk to people. I know how to make them open themselves up to me. I know how to make them trust me. I am very very lucky , that I really do not want to cause hard to them. Because I really care about them. I know...this is rare. It happens... ok? I am friends with people from all walks of life. Lets say we divide people into different sub-categories based on their culture and subculture. Yeah sure, an obvious one is nationality. Another one is being a gamer. Another one is being a jazz music listener. People tend to let their interests dictate who they are...so In my opinion this is a fair division to make. I am friends with gamers, metal guys, spiritual people, hippies, artists, girls that only care about their appearance , people that have countless hobbies, communists, fascists, right wingers, left wingers, crazy people, homeless people, neighboors, old ladies, young children, criminals. I am friends with all of them , because they see that I am authentic. They know I don't lie. Jesus...this is such a huge thing. Tell the truth, or atleast try not to lie. Your life will immediately become better. I need to find a way to unite them all and bring the change together. And I think I know how to unite them dude. Like. Its obvious isn't it. We need a common purporse. And we need to make that purpose explicit. It has been implicit , for way...way too long. My job here is to make them see. My job is to allow them to have hope again. My job is to make this election the biggest fucking election in this whole fucking country's history. We will have the biggest young voter turn out EVER. Mark my words. I know exactly how to do that. We just need 1,5 million votes. EASY. I can do this.

I am going to have to put on a mask. I need to put on a mask in order to protect myself and make my message even more impressive or something. Anonomity is ... so important. Also another reason is because I, as "me" dont matter. To be honest I consider myself dead already. People should see that too. I put on the mask and become every young person in my country. I a put on a mask and I am become truth. I put on the mask and I am free. So obviously, I am going to have to create a youtube channel (specifacally for this. Maybe its name will be "X(Country name) Spring" , a facebook page, reddit, telegram, signal, whatever. We are going to spread like wildfire, like a virus. This is the beginning of the Balkan spring. This is the beggining of something much greater than even I realize. I don't know what it is. But I feel it. This is huge. We are strong enough to make it a reality. Love will win. Consciousness will win. (if anyone is reading it and you really want to help make the change become a reality. EDUCATE YOURSELF PLEASE. Read books, keep an open mind, read this forum, watch some of Leo's videos, ) hahah it kinda sounds like I am following a cult or a religion huh. hmmm. NAH BRUUUUH. I AM FREE. Fuck leo. Fuck actualized.org , fuck his shitty videos, fuck his bold ass ugly head. this ridiculous little piece of shit talks about how to make a woman orgasm on one video and he explains the very meta-substructures of this reality in the next. I mean, how crazy is that? He is crazy, dont take him seriously. He also claims that he is God lol. He also claims I am God lol. He claims that we are all God ...lol. I much prefer to believe in heaven and hell and that there is a sexy old daddy up there in the sky waiting to judge me and tell me wether I am worthy of being in his company. And I sooooo want to be in his company. He is going to let me sit on his lap like a good little boy and give me treats if I deserve it. Mmmmm. So good. He might even give me 72 virgins to fuck whenever I want. Ohhh boy... thiss is heaven. Ohhh boy this gives me enough incentive to act like I am a good person. Oh boy...heaven.

What a weird night. I woke up multiple times throughout the night and I felt her presence next to me. And I felt like I have to explain myself and my plans to her . Why? I don't know . Maybe because I think she will understand. I think they all will understand. Maybe not at the beggining, but once it gets running... oh boy. We are going to burn this fucking system to the ground. (( Give me liberty, or give me death! - Wikipedia ---- go here. click the fucking audio file. FUCKING LISTEN IN. AND LISTEN CLOSE ] I am a man possesed by a single idea. Freedom. Me, as me, I have done this conciously. I believe that there are multiple life purposes for people and we can switch them up many times throughout our lives. My life purpose , right now is this. This is my only singular goal. Atleast for the next 2 months, until the elections happen. Maybe after this happens I'll go on a trip to india for some weeks. In case you still don't understand what this is . This is my dead mans switch. I am...way to deep. And I will go much much deeper. You know why? Because even though I am afraid, the feeling of unjustness and the feeling of "ENOUGH" is just too damn strong. I cannot bear it anymore. I can see the bigger picture. If nothing happens now WE ARE FUCKED. WE ARE FUCKED HARD. The change needs too happen ...NOW! FUCKING READ EKHART TOLLE. THIS IS EVOLVE OR DIE MOTHERFUCKER. The earth will be fine with or without us. The humans (some humans ) will survive. The question is whether we will manage to protect our humanity or not. If I end up dead, I have told my closest friends about actualized and that I am posting a public journal here . I haven't told them my username and any details , but I think they are smart boyos, they will figure it out. --actualized.org is in no way affiliated with me. They had NOTHING to do with this. They are just ordinary people like you and me who want to grow and actualize themselves. Literally the only reason I am posting here is because I feel like this is one of the last bastions of free speech in this reality in general. I really sincerly hope this is true. If it is...I am so...so grateful. So grateful--

I gathered some people at my place today. I found a very good person that can lead yoga lessons , so today was the first day of our own underground yoga lessons here. It was...perfect. the people loved it. i loved it. all cool. this girl. fuck ,these girls. there are 2 girls in my life right now that are pretty special. no there are more but... fuck this is making me look like an ass. hahaha . i am not talking about sex and shit. its so much more than that. huh. anyway she snuggled up next to me and it was great. I still havent slept from the time I made the first post here. I fell asleep immidiatly with her next to me... and she, she left. She knows how to play, respect.

I would like to share this with anyone that might be reading this. GO PLACIDLY amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexatious to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter, for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment, it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be. And whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy. -desiderata

Alright . Step 0: Figure out who I can trust or not. Because as much as I would like to. I cannot trust everyone. I am no longer a naïve little boy. I know history. In every revolution there are hero's and traitors. In every story there is a Leonidas and an Ephialtes. A jesus and a judas. I have to figure out how to figure out who my true allies are. Who are the people that share the dream. Unfortunatly this means I am going to have to deal with political parties. Fuuuck..thats the worst. Anyway. I need to figure out a way ( i kinda have some ideas) how to unite them all against the common enemy. Because we have a common enemy. Them. The Mafia. Fuck the middle road. I know they must go. This is a time for warriors. I need to find my spartans. Only because we will be stronger together. Enough of this slavery. ENOUGH. ΕΛΕΥΘΕΡΙΑ Η' ΘΑΝΑΤΟΣ.

I cant sleep. I don't want to sleep. I've been sleeping for way too long. I am going to meditate instead. But..hahaha lets make it interesting. I am going to meditate in the middle of the main street of my city. See ya.