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Yep. Well said. And don’t get me wrong, I do listen to those more uplifting, upbeat and beautiful in that way -type of music too. But here we dove into the topic of emotional depth. Also, as an emotional being and a dancer, I get the most out of my body, dancing skills wise, when I let deep pain take me over. Or anger, hence I started as a hip hop dancer but as I matured, I grew tired of ”biches, money and gun” type of music, and went more into love and heartbreaks type of music, as that is more conscious than violence.

Yeah, I went through 4 extremely painful break ups that grew me so fucking much. Each being extremely painful in its own ways. The first ones were painful because they were my first times, for the lasts ones I was mentally prepared for, but the relationships were way deeper than my first ones. But on top of the lyrics, listen to the dramatic melodies and the tone of the singing towards the end. It’s very sad and seemingly hopeless. But she is still trying to win the pain. It’s bittersweet. Bittersweet is one of the most powerful and emotional emotions I experience. It expresses the quintessential paradox of life.

I love how we have developed a lot of roots to a huge tree of discussion about Music, but we have yet to actually start and dive DEEP into it. We had one minor version of it the other week. It’s clearly coming.

Definitely. In fact I feel that way with most electronic music too. And honestly, with most music genres and songs in general. In every genre, there’s just a few rare gems that has that specialness to it. For example, this one is a complete different genre and most of the songs in the genre is total crap but if I want to feel deep into my pain, this one does it. I cant remember how many times I’ve cried to this. It’s raw: https://on.soundcloud.com/pPgeiDEu3gJVhSnXRK

Chill. We are just discussing our experience.

Last one, this is such ethereal. So graceful. If I haven’t listened to it for a while and it spontaneous starts playing, tears immediately roll out. Listen to the build up towards the drop: https://on.soundcloud.com/ai6HMTP4DWKTfsVAMh

Listen to how majestic these are, despite being in the electronic music genre: The angelic voice of the singer. My Godness. And definitely wait for the last drop:

@integral I am almost with you. In some ways my music taste is quite similar to Leo but at the same time I find his playlist to lack depth. I have skimmed his playlists but never got deep into them like LifeEnjoyer did, so perhaps I missed the soul and the essence of it. But yeah, those electronic steps are just one genre that I listen to. And even when I listen to them, I am very picky. I need deep melodies, melodies that touches you on a deeper emotional level. Example: this build up, the story towards the peak: the drop, is what I mean. It makes me feel somewhere very deep: https://on.soundcloud.com/vVdj3NhUG3pVLtvpfW I guess in a nutshell, from the skimming I’ve done, I feel like Leo’s music is better as background music, rather than something you get lost in, get goosebumps and drop tears. Perhaps I need to look into his playlists again with a deeper intention. As a dancer of 2 decades, and someone who listens to music probably more than anyone, I have developed a very very specific taste. Advanced taste if you will.

My man, always be starting wars

I never thought Sincerity would be this genocidal that he would take his own kind too

Yup. But oral from a random club hoe def has risks.

This could be a joke, but it ain’t even

I laughed way harder at this than I should have.

Oh yeah the condoms is so obviously awful, I forgot about them completely. Great oral is also a huge part of enjoyment in sex for me. Oral with condom is so lame, it’s better to just not bother. Most girls also do not know how to actually properly please me orally, unless they go through a Miguel training

The other side of the coin: 1. AI moderation would make this place much more colder and lifeless. The role of a moderator is not just to be pragmatic, but also to show leadership, to be a role-model and to support (emotionally) with whatever capacity they have. A human element cannot be replace by AI, by definition. 2. Being a moderator is a huge chance at growth, right fellow mods?

If only we were on a forum which main focus is Consciousness, Spirituality & God.

Same. Rarely do I find a girl I enjoy with so much to the point I can actually say the sex is better than jerking off. And the effort I have to go through to find that rare gem in itself is such a huge waste of energy and time, that it makes the sex with that girl less worthy. A big part of good sex also comes from training the girl to know how to please you. This is only possible if you actually enjoy spending lots of time with her.

Of course

That's what I am talking about!! And people are giving me shit for tearing up from all that Ethereal Wisdom. My Godness, how blind can you be! Leo is truly ascending to a level he has never been at before, and doing so in such a graceful, majestic way. A role model and a true display of conscious leadership.

@gengar Thank you for writing all that to me, and to us. When I was younger, I actually did not appreciate my strengths at all. Simply because they all came naturally, and were taken completely for granted. Some years ago, I was also doing dating and socializing coaching (because I had the results others wanted, right?), but I quickly realized that my natural personality + looks were a huge unfair advantage (thanks to Leo for breaking me out of the whole non-dual brainwashing, where they like to pretend that individual personalities, strengths and weaknesses do not exist), making me not able to relate to the average guy struggling with dating almost at all. It felt deeply unintegrous to keep selling dating as easy, when I knew it is was not easy for the guys seeking help, even tho it was easy for me. And I had no patience, nor relatability and experience for their struggles, as I did not go through the same challenges. So I quit. My natural strengths around dating and socializing (+ being the #1 hip hop dancer here getting me a ton of validation, artistic status, and attraction) has surely made me blind, and corrupted. I am seeing things more clearly at this time of my life, but for the bigger part of my life, I was completely delusional on how skewed and biased dating is (since it is just survival after all). Of course it is easy for me to behave all confident and charming, and to be myself -- when everywhere I go, I have people looking at me and smiling. Random people complimenting how gorgeous I look. People giving me special treatments. And as a result, I started behaving more entitled, which only lead to better results with girls, and then the upward spiral is complete. I cant even begin to imagine how life would be like if I was born ugly. At my peak of chasing sex, I was a complete brat. Even right now, I notice my mind wanting to tell you: "it's just sex, it's just girls. They all get boring and annoying after sometime. There's much more to life". But of course I can say that, because I have lived through all that in abundance. I must say though, you have a very artistic way of expressing yourself. I see some form of the 'deep pain' in your writing, that I made a thread about the other day. Perhaps, see if you can focus more on your natural strengths, and on spiritual matters, as Leo said. And as you said yourself, find yourself a niche and master that. Life can probably be fairly enjoyable that way. And through that angle, you can possibly get a much better chance at dating and love too. But again, I try not to be biased, since I have exhausted the material stuff so much that of course they don't bother me much anymore. On a final note, I must say though: I have worked my ass off in life, gone through extreme levels of pain in every chapter of my life. Went through 4 brutally heartbreaking break-ups, have had pretty much all my dreams shattered (and I am a very dreamy person, a visionary if you may). And I am not even going to go into the all the suffering from deep spiritual and self-developmental work. As for you having nobody to talk to, please never forget that this place exists for that purpose. We gather here of like-minded people, so we don't feel so alone in this otherwise extremely lonely journey. And I will take into my heart and contemplate my freedom of these karmic loops. I am grateful for you to remind me to do so. Thank you.

Where is you

Btw, lovely to meet a brother! I’m born and raised in Finland, even tho biologically I’m something completely else. You should know, Finns and Swedes are basically like brothers. And our big daddy is the Russian Leo

I was gonna say, she looks younger than me and is way older

I’ve worked on it for a years on and off already! But thank you!

Thank you Leo, means a lot to have you personally say that. It’s been quite a journey from the unconscious, selfish devil I was in my younger years. Even in 2020, when I was 25 and just re-bumped into your content again (previous time was squirting video — imagine the shock in my face tho when I saw you talking about God!), I was deeply delusional and lost in non-dual brainwashing. And the worst part was that I truly believed I had it all figured out! God is truly genius for inventing non-duality! I can confidently say that this development of mine would not have been possible without your work, and I am just getting started. Wait till I master my survival and get my hands on psychedelics! I will be writing the most profound and beautiful trip reports. Perhaps you will send me off into the journey with your retreat. That would be quite romantic. For now, good night ya’ll. I’ll try to catch up with ya tomorrow evening after work ❤️