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@UnbornTao Alright brother. I’m gonna move on. Cheers Hope ya’ll have kept the quality of the forum going on. Be civil! I won’t be able to be too active the upcoming weeks. Will just mostly read the blog.

I am not sure if Tarion is talking about intelligence here when he talks about smart (haven’t watched the video), but try becoming so intelligent that despite being charismatic as hell and having lots of people in your life, yet feeling more lonely than you have ever felt in your life, because people feel like alien species to you that don’t even speak the same language. Try develoing such emotional and empathetic intelligence that you feel the pain that other people’s unconsciousness creates for themselves.

@UnbornTao Where do you want to lead me to? I am lost.

You are a fool if you don’t see the immense, priceless value of the work here. I haven’t been following what you guys have discussed about cult, as I have been busy with life. So I am out of context, but your comment sounded like it’s shit thrown at Leo’s work.

I’m in tears. The amount of pain I have had to go through since doing Leo’s work seriously (from 2020 onwards), and from facing so much of my own self-deceptions, lies, devilry, manipulation, selfishness. Facing how much pain and hurt I’ve caused in others. In people I loved and held dear. It’s been absolutely devastating. I don’t know if there is a word to describe the pain. And it is still going on. I don’t know if it ever even stops. Every year the quality of the pain deepens. Not only that. My mind is wired to be a people person. I can see how people will get themselves in so much pain because of their unconsciousness and lack of this work. I can meet a girl romantically, be safe for her to be vulnerable to the point she open up to me — and me being vulnerable to her — her crying in my arms.. then leaves me for an unsafe, exciting fuckboy. I can see (and feel) how much pain that will cause her. How badly she will be used and dumped, how worthless she will feel, and how badly she will be hurt. All that makes me feel extremely sad for her. And she is just one of many. And finally, the loneliness this work creates is.. agonizing. Deep.. existencial, pain. I want great people around me. I am the total opposite of an introvert.. Nonetheless, all this deep pain is worth it. It is what is True. It is what will eventually take humanity to a better place. Thank you Leo for the work you do. Without it, I would still be a full-blown spiritual devil. I would probably just have doubled and tripled down on it throughout the years.

I was 17 when I did my first serious mediation retreat. I remember being physically in school but always just meditating. Going home, meditating. Meditating while taking a shit. Meditating to fall asleep. 3 months. I don’t think I’ve ever been anywhere near as happy (blissful) as I was during that time. Eventually my youthful desires and urges took over as I had repressed them for too long, and then went on to conquer those. Ever since then, I’ve had a few of those phases like for example, during covid (it was half-forced tho). I am looking forward for the next phase of that. Perhaps this time I will be able to push it to 6-12 months.

I’ve had over 100 partners. Way more if we are not being humble. Never had any STDs. Not a single one. Instead I got things like angina which was fucking hell for me. Anyways, when I was younger, I even had some sex without condoms that I should never had. Sometimes condoms also broke. And I had too many blowjobs as well. The point is, if you use condom, and basic measures like don’t fuck a girl who looks like they’re full of STDs, you are fine. That being said, I might have something that never just got activated, like herpes.

@MarkKol Leo’s main focus is God and Consciousness. Nothing comes close to it.

You cannot compare these to the work we do here. Not even close. The work we do here is directly threatening survival. The stuff you mentioned enhances survival.

You are more likely to figure out a way to have a good time with shallow people, than to find higher conscious people to date.

@LordFall It makes sense that with more entrepreneurial minded people like some models are, speaking business can work better. Top that with flirting and you are good. The issue still remains, that to build a social circle, you need to do general socializing first and probably always to maintain a good flow of leads into your circle.

Thanks for chipping in. Bitcoin is a trendy topic, and an emotionally charged for a normie. By meaningful, I mean something actually meaningful, like the work we do here, or anything remotely resembling it. I have not hosted parties. I’m sure I would be a great host.

The ego cannot survive without attention and validation.

Hahaha, have you tried to find these people?