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Hi, I need some solutions, I feel like I'm stuck in an endless loop, where I rotate between being totally lazy and then periods of working hard as much as I can till the burnout hits and then going back to the starting point. I have a job which I feel I should love (I work for a sports betting company), which fits perfectly my interests and my life, but I don't love working there, sometimes I hate it a lot. I have a girlfriend which does a lot for me, loves me and she's always there when I need her, yet I can't feel the same towards her. I'm miserable all the time, unhappy, lazy, lots of bad habits, getting addicted to things like weed or gaming very easily. I'm trying to improve, fight against those bad habits, but I always fail, I always keep going back to them, I only have strength and motivation to keep going only for so long, it always exhausts me at some point and I need MONTHS to regenerate mentally to give it another try, even though I know it's not gonna work. I started therapy half a year ago, I'm learning more and more about myself but I can't find the way to break the cycle, I've been trying for years. I know I'm a very weak human being, but I can't help it. I hate myself for it, I always give in.

Hi, I've recently moved to the letting go meditation where I just don't try to do anything, I even let go the desire to let go as Leo said in one of his guided meditations. This way works best for me in terms of not thinking during meditation but whenever I really let go I have this weird, heavy feeling in my chest as if my lungs were pressured. It's hard to describe it but it's in a way relief but also I can't take it for too long, it exhausts me pretty quickly. Did anybody experience something like this? I know Leo was talking about being superconductor where you don't even feel the negative emotions going through you but my experience is far from that. After this kind of meditation I feel better and more clear minded but still it's hard for me to stay in it for more than 15 minutes really. Will it pass with time? I don't feel many negative emotions, I don't really experience many emotions at all, I didn't feel really happy for the past four years but I don't feel sadness either. Should I just keep going with it or adjust it?

One interpretation that I think is missing here is the fact that much evidence indicates that the Earth has been destroyed many times and civilizations were wiped out. For example Pyramids and Sphinx are sophisticated buildings in their construction that would be very hard to replicate even with today's technology. I really recommend to watch this video on how advanced those pyramids were. Much of the evidence emerging lately suggests that the pyramids are much older than they are believed to be by the mainstream science. That would mean that there was an ancient, advanced civilization that was capable of building such a complex structures and it must've been wiped out. What if the 7 burning suns in Buddhist apocalypse just mean 7 comets that would destroy the earth?

Hi, I am really interested in developing psychic powers, does anyone here know any good sources on how to develop them?

Hi, I've had a wrist problem for about 2 years now and I went to the doctor and he said everything was fine, then I went to the physiotherapist and she tried to fix it but it didn't really help much. I am looking for some guides/books for healing and maybe some advice from you what's your way of healing yourself with your mind? cheers

@allislove Thanks for that, will definitely try this out @Nahm yeah sure you can pm me

I had a break for studies and couldn't devote much time to training my abilities. I am working as a trader and I earn on difference between selling and buying prices on sports market. Today I tested my ESP abilities and tried to predict which greyhound is gonna win. There are 6 greyhound in a race so I have 16.67% chance of predicting correctly. Out of the first 4 races I predicted winning greyhound 3 times, I was pretty confident in them winning and I felt tired after that, then my next bets were losing and I lost my confidence and I wasn't really happy with my predictions and out of the next 12 races I only predicted 1 correctly. This is something I've noticed a while ago. It's like I am using some sort of mental energy and I am able to predict correctly at the beggining but with time and effort I lose this ability and it's harder for me to see clearly. I'll have to experiment with it more and read more books on this subject.

I am just starting with developing psychic powers, don't know much about them but I think I have natural gift for them. Today I healed my girlfriend just after watching one video on healing and then tried to heal myself but I was exhausted after healing her and my healing didn't last for long. I healed my girlfriend's leg and she is very sceptical about everything but she was amazed how this worked. It didn't heal her fully, after about 10 minutes pain came back but she told me it was like 20-40% of the previous pain. When I tried healing myself it only worked for 2 minutes and then pain came back fully but I felt it wasn't gonna work on me, I was so tired after healing her. I download an app called ESP trainer and I've tried using my mental power to predict colours but it didn't work. I felt it wasn't gonna work but I am sure it'll work one day

@Nahm when playing football I fell on my hand and something was wrong with it and it didn't heal properly after that and it causes me pain.

So I have dropped my affirmations and started working with my meditation habits and reading. I was just chilling for a past two days and today I started slowly coming back to my good habits. I feel a little bit overwhelmed because of the amount dopamine that hit me in the last 2 days. I guess to create perfect life I need to find balance between work and fun. At the moment I have no idea what the balance might be but I'm pretty sure I can't do much work before I feel burned. I'll do it step by step and see where it'll take me.

hi, my biggest goal atm is to progress on a spiritual path and even though I don't care about materialistic world as I do about my enlightment it's crucial for me to change. With the way I am now it'd be impossible for me to achieve anything on my career path, let alone spiritual path. I've started changing myself in October 2020 with meditating for 1 min a day. I know it looks really funny but I would never expect better results than I've got from this. Later I added reading 1 page of a book per day and it scaled quite nicely. Before February 2021 I was meditating for 20 minutes a day and reading 50 pages per day. I had a habit of watching Ajahn Brahm every morning but with time his stories were very repetitive and I dropped it. When February came I've added one 5-minute affirmation but then I thought it would be better with visualization so I added 5 mins of visualization of it. But then I thought it might be worth to add other affirmations and I added 4 other affirmations so I basically added almost 1 hour of new stuff to my day and I expected it to work. Little did I know and my whole strategy crashed as soon as my girlfriend's birthday came. I couldn't force myself to do all the meditating and affirmating on hangover. A week later there was Valentine's day and same storry happened. My brain was overloaded and I didn't have enough will power to overcome every obstacle that came into my way. I never realized that those affirmations were the problem until now. Now I know that I need to get rid of them, at least for now. I'll be adding them with time like every other thing. I don't know what I was expecting to be honest haha. I lost a whole month but I learned a valuable lesson. I have a resolution for this year to read 52 books, one each week and I've only read 7 so I am already behind the schedule. I guess after removing affirmations from my day it'll become much easier to read my books.

I've tried healing my wrist today but I wasn't succesful, maybe I can't channel enough energy to it. Maybe I need more time to actually heal it. I spent only around 3 minutes on doing that. Maybe this process must be longer. I need more knowledge on this subject.

I would start by watching those 2 videos. I do affirmations for 5 minutes and then I follow with 5 mins ofVisualization. But you need to find your best way that suits you the best imo.

hi, I feel like every time I tell someone about the things that I want to achieve I never really achieve them. I've noticed that a long time ago and I really believed it. I've started doing affirmations a month ago and my girlfriend asked me what I was doing. I've realised that I don't wanna tell her about it because I'm scared just because I tell somebody about it, it will not come true. But at the same time I feel like it's so irrational to think that just telling her about my affirmations would make the worthless. But on the other hand if its something programmed in my brain subconsciously it might be harmful since my beliefs create reality. What should I do?

I fell asleep again, it's weird because I had full 8 hours of sleep and didn't expect I'd still need more. Again I was dreaming. I had argument with my girlfriend which happens frequently during my dreams. I felt very isolated as we share many mutual friends and everyone was on her side even though I didn't do anything wrong. I can't even remember what we were arguing about. Yet another not particularly pleasant dream. But I talked to God before I fell asleep again and he told me that I have to go through everything to purify myself. I asked him to show me the path and lead me and deep down I expected easy path, I expected him to take me there but now I know it's not possible. I have to grow to get where I want to get. I have to be prepared for the worst and be strong.

I had a lot of dreams during night, most of them were not nice. One dream was literally like a horror movie, being in it I knew the plot and I even knew how long it was. There were deamons that looked like people and they wanted to murder me. Another dream was about me being in school, secondary school. I very often think about those years as the best years of my life. But still even though I was with friends there, I was scared most of the time because I wasn't going to pass year because of my attendace at German language. I always hated it and I hated the teacher. In real life I almost didn't graduate high school because of my attendance at German language. Before going to sleep I had huge headache, I tried healing my self but failed to do so. I knew i was gonna fail. No energy to do it. Question is if I really didn't have energy or I just thought I didn't have it. I guess both would result in the same outcome. I asked OM to help, but I didn't feel anything. Then I called God in my native language and I felt him. I surrendered to him and he healed me. henever I think about him or I do something while having him in the mind I feel much better. I have so much studying to do for next week so I can't devote as much time as I'd like to devote to my spiritual path and learning about psychic powers, but I will spend some time on it nevertheless.

I feel like I've always known things that you just wrote but I really needed someone to actually say it to me. Thank you so much. I will definitely check out this book.

Beside that I think I'm able to heal myself with visualization but it takes much longer than from what I've read healers can do. I have a wrist injury and I started healing it through concentrating on it, giving it my love and playing some healing music on YouTube. The pain disappeared after a week and I was able to do push ups without any pain but after I stopped healing it, the pain came back. I've been to the physiotherapist a few weeks ago and she was supposed to repair it and she told me everything should be fine in 2 weeks but I was sceptical about it and had a feeling it wouldn't work and it didn't. Pain is even stronger than ever and I've started healing it again a few days ago and I really hope it works permanently this time.

Wow didn't expect so many people to reply. Thanks for all the resources, I'll definitely check them all out. I'm not sure to be honest, I don't know much about them so I'd like to read more about it. I've always felt that I had some impact on the world just through my mind. I come from christian family, I never really believed in this whole practice of going to church etc. but I found that every time I asked "God" about anything it always came into realization. I didn't really give that much thought into it, I just asked it and it happened sooner or later. Or if something's on my mind it very often occurs in real life, for example once when I was watching Batman and Joker said something about fireworks, in the same second I heard fireworks outside and it was middle of the summer in the UK so it really shocked me haha.

May I ask you how did you form a belief?

do you mean by not wanting psychic powers I'll aquire them or that I shouldn't want them

I've heard many stories about people who gained knowledge after being enlightened and suddenly becoming wise even though they were not so intelligent before. Is it even possible?

Hi, so I am the type of person who didn't really have to do much work in school in order to get good grades. I guess because of that I had a fixed mindset, that is I thought that I was someone special and I was gonna become very succesful in life even without any hard work. I had always been leaving everything until the very last moment before deadline and most of the time I'd chill play games, watch esports etc. Then after reading a book about fixed mindset and growth mindset I realized that I was so wrong and to accomplish something meaningul I have to work hard and strategize. I started with a small steps and in the first week I meditated for 1 minute per day, then I added 1 page per day. I've added some other things too and now I read a lot like 50 pages a day (I've read 7 books this year so far) and I meditate 20 minutes per day. I don't add anything new because I've started feeling overwhelmed with other things like work and school. It came to the point that I am only able to do my basic morning routine which takes up to 2 hours, 1 hour or 2 of studying and then 3 hours of work. I work at home, I am trading on greyhound racing and it's pretty easy strategy so I am able to listen to actualized.org videos in the background without losing much focus. So I wake up around 7 am and my work ends around 2 pm so it's only 7 hours but after that my brain feels exhausted. I am not able to learn anything new even when I try to focus I just can't and it doesn't get any better till the end of the day. I have evening session of trading between 6pm and 9 pm where I too listen to actualized.org videos and sometimes I even listen to them after trading but the next my brain feels like it was melting and I can't focus on anything. Is it because it's really tired or I am just thinking that? When I think of programmers for example who are able to code for 10 hours straight without break I am amazed and I think to myself that I'd never be able to do such things. Is it going to improve with time or I'm at my limit already? If there's a book on how brain works in this regard I would love to read it because I'm really lost. Also I don't know how to rest properly. I used to play games but the only game I really like is League of Legends and it doesn't relax me in any way haha. I've tried meditation to rest my mind but I can't focus when I'm tired and my mind wanders a lot. I don't know if I should keep pushing myself or not.

@Tim R I am on keto, I feel much better on it rather than on my normal diet which was so bad. So you're saying that with time I'll be able to do more during the day if I stick to my schedule but listen to my organism?