NOTintoxicated

I find it rather bitchmade that a post of mine was deleted, despite breaking no discernible rules, merely because I challenged Leo's authority. This forum can be such an embarrassing display of mankind's most cringe-inducing characteristics. I'll repeat what I said without the rhetorical finesse, since I highly doubt my post would have been deleted if it weren't so stylistically articulated (a rhetorical approach that seems to intimidate the insecure self-appointed arbiters of forum etiquette), since the actual substance of my post contained nothing inappropriate. I simply stated that Leo's perspective should be disregarded, and Rush Limbaugh's death SHOULD in fact be celebrated, and that it is perfectly moral and rational to desire a similar fate for his evil, unhinged counterparts. I also posted a photo of myself wearing a shirt that read "Good riddance Rush", while I flipped off Limbaugh's caricature printed on the shirt. I can't imagine middle fingers are inappropriate on a message board belonging to a content creator who's most popular video has a thumbnail of him flipping off the camera. That was the entire substance of my deleted post, absent the rhetorical flairs I included for dramatic effect. If that post got deleted than this should too, but if this post is not deleted, it would demonstrate that the substance of my post was not a violation, but instead, my voice was censored on the basis of ego-driven identity preservation, serving as outright proof that the moderation of this forum merely serves as a petty power trip for whoever owns the privilege. Celebrate Limbaugh's death. He was a piece of shit who indoctrinated my mother who is now a batshit insane Q-anon supporting imbecile. She would listen to him every day. So glad that shit is over.

Sincerely, if I were actually face to face with "God", and he possessed the "holy grail" that would liberate me from suffering and bestow infinite love and ecstasy ungraspable by the human mind, of such profound goodness that no mere mortal could ever come close to being worthy of even laying eyes on this "holy grail" let alone actual possessing it, this fantasy scenario would play out with me indignantly snatching the holy grail out of God's hands before he could even offer it to me, and I'd be like "Gimmie that shit, mother fucker.. It's about goddamn time."

Yes, because to oppose hateful bigotry is to spread hatred yourself. Spare me this pompous rendition of the infamous "You don't tolerate intolerance? So much for tolerance!" muttered by knuckle-dragging inbreds. Everything I've said is entirely compatible with a spiritual pursuit. Yes, obviously the goal is to liberate oneself from the grueling nature of egoic judgement and the resulting suffering. This does not make it counterproductive to advocate for a cultural contempt for evil. Even though evil is a fabrication of the mind there is no denying the harmful effects certain conscious agents bring about, and the idea that such people need to be mourned and respected at the time of their death is a harmful nonsense. Opposing this foolishness with strong language is profoundly necessary, and I'd love to see you struggle to deny this. You'll have to excuse my nuanced perspective on this matter, perhaps I've been watching too many Actualized videos. Perhaps you aren't watching enough.

So tragic.

I understand that reality can be and IS infinite. There's not much to take issue with there. But what doesn't make sense is when Leo describes reality as infinitely infinite, as in, infinite in every conceivable capacity, not just linearly infinite (like a never ending set of numbers), but infinite to such extent that there is not a single conceptual manifestation of infinity that is left out of reality. If reality is infinitely infinite, then there should be incarnations of consciousness forever trapped in their own infinite life form. How can reality include all sets of infinity? Some of these sets would just be a consciousness trapped on a black screen of semi-awareness for all eternity, which would inadvertently preclude any other incarnation from manifesting. Yet, here I am, in a finite life form with a biological lifespan that is always approaching it's foreseeable end. Leo talks about impermanence, or the concept of nothing being permanent. If nothing can be permanent, this precludes the aforementioned conception of a never ending instance of localized consciousness. So reality is not infinitely infinite? I am not claiming to know for certain, I'm only describing what seems to make the most sense. Does anybody have a more informed perspective on this matter?

@Twega Yeah, it's a lot.. There's like 20 issues I have with nondual conceptuality, too much to go over at once. I'll post new threads for each of my logical grievances when I get the time. But can it be explained how reality supposedly includes 'EVERYTHING'? Because everything would include a reality that prevents other realities from manifesting. I don't get how there be these colossal "contradictions" regarding the sequential nature of conscious incarnations. If everything exists, and that the conscious source, or "God", will experience everything, (which seems to contradict @Jirh's idea that the 'infinitely infinite' is just conceptual potential, as opposed to 'actualized infinity' which is the manifested reality) how can there be any experience that follows an incarnation of infinite lifespan. If my current lifespan were infinite, wouldn't that mean that my "impermanence" has been robbed from me? I would be stuck forever in this incarnation. Do I just need to try 5meo? I really want to understand at a deeper level, however I feel like the messages I've been receiving from my psychedelic trips have been pushing me to get my life in order before doing anything too hardcore. It's been 7 months since I've tripped, and it was a paradigm shattering experience, borderline nightmarish.. Should I try 5meo regardless? Unfortunately I think answers like what you've submitted are too deferential to conceptual hearsay. There are assertions being made, but aren't substantiated with any logical backing. If infinity is reality, and reality includes anything I can think about, it would include a reality that precludes my current existence from manifesting by means of the initial incarnation never ending.

Well first of all, I don't understand how something can be infinitely finite, as if such an object is so finite that it's infinite. Are you referring to the possibility of zooming into a seemingly finite object forever? I can give credence to that, but try to see where my confusion comes from. The way I'm imagining reality, is that there is an infinite set of finitudes. The finitudes allow for the "next" instance of conscious incarnation to eventually occur and be experienced, but if one of those finitudes were infinite, then the next "dream in reality" can never take place, because the previous one is preventing anything else from manifesting because it never ends. I suppose my conceptual approach may be incompatible with absolute infinity, because for sake of simplicity I am imagining reality as a continuity of singular conscious incarnations occurring one after the next, linearly. Is it possible to clear this up any further?