TheSilentObserver

Your own imagination is so powerful that you're convinced with all your heart that other people (non-existent phenomena) are conscious and separate from yourself. It's so powerful in fact that the belief of others still lingers on even after your first awakening, even when you've come to know and accept that everyone you've ever met, seen or known is just imaginary. You have no idea how sneaky God is.

So, when you take a look at the human body, inside and out... what part of it is actually aware of it self? I don't mean the fact I can point towards my eyes and say "these are my eyeballs" or touch my brain and say "this is my brain", but I literally mean how can we prove the body isn't some unaware flash bag being controlled by literal magic of invisible consciousness? Because there's my own voice in my head. I don't register the individual thoughts of my elbow, knees, kidneys or even the brain. Is the brain really aware of itself? Have you ever heard thoughts coming from the brain? Not your own thoughts, but the brain's? As trippy as that sounds. I suppose you could say pain and bodily sensations is the body's way of communicating to you, but if your body develops stage 4 cancer there's no way it will tell you before it's way too late and you're already about to die. I'm really struggling to wrap my head around this but I feel like I'm on to something. Does any of this make sense?

I was going to post something else but I just literally had this insight right now. It's all coming in, so forgive me if it's a little all over the place. I hope you'll understand what I'm trying to get across. So, ever since humans could talk it's all been gibberish. Like, it's all been random sounds that we've agreed that meant something and sounds that we didn't understand it had to be something else but that. The idea of real separate languages even existing seems increasingly foolish. Where does English end and French begin? I will admit I don't understand French or any other language but both languages share a lot of words and vocabulary structure that if you think about it long enough, they're both tied together too tightly to be called real separate languages. They're two versions of the same language. I suppose you could say English and Chinese are distinct from each other enough to be called separate languages, but even then both of them have words that match the same things you and see feel in the phenomenal field. I know practically speaking this doesn't mean that I'll understand every language now but if a true separate language ever existed, it would have words and ideas that humans wouldn't be able to understand or translate. In fact, I believe we wouldn't even recognise it as one at all. Man this hurts my head to think about, but it's worth it. What do you guys think? Hopefully I'm on to something and not just chasing my tail, so to speak.

Life is a dream. It even looks like one if you pay close enough attention.

Even if it's controversial, I wanna see deep this ant hole gets

I find it hard to really fully explain, but I know I awakened some time ago when was I high off my balls on weed. Basically, I came to realize my own life was something truly unknowable and that unknowable-ness is the very fabric of the universe, and the two just became one. I felt selfless for a time, sadly to my own detriment but after a while my ego came back but perhaps, more detached? I'm not entirely sure. I liked debating politics, society and god, all that stuff with other "enlightened" minds beforehand. It made me feel really smart and unique then but looking back I did nothing but intellectual masturbation. I had some nuggets of awakening before, but not to the scope of my enlightenment so I was still stuck in a "trapped in a body within a physical world" type of thinking. After my actual enlightenment, I don't really want to talk about anything with anyone, it all seems done and dusted. I asked myself the greatest question and found the one true answer, so discussions about politics, society and god seem so radicicolous and restricting to me even in the most radically open minded spaces, including this one. The more I come to see how silly everything really is, the less I want to defend my position and just let things be, even within myself. I'm not entirely sure what to ask but if anyone has any advice, it would be highly appreciated.

Physically it's impossible to see your own face