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Does "catching the ego" imply stopping doubt from arising? I don't know if it's a function of my ego or something, but I don't think doubt should be supressed in any case. Recently I watched Leo's video on scepticism and it struck a cord with me, but I don't know how that vision of "always doubting" or "always being open minded" is compatible with an enlightenment that has absolute certainity at its core.

This sounds really enticing, but I find it hard to believe there really is a state one can achieve with no reasonable doubt, or whether such a state is desirable, as I can see it being dogma hidden as absolute truth. In any case, if that state is real, and doesn't feed you lies, then I hope I can achieve it one day.

I understand that but I don't understand why I should take my own subjective experience as above other kinds of experience. To say that subjective experience is true over other kinds you still inevitably need an extra layer of analysis.

I trust my own perception more but I don't fully trust either.

You can try meditating standing up or with your eyes open.