Leopold

Thank you for your support man, I appreciate it a lot.

Hi everyone, name's Eric, 25 years old. want to share my strange issue here, any opinion will be appreciated. I am a type of person that everyone tries to be around me, I'm getting a lot of respect by almost everyone I know, I don't drink or take drugs, anyone who knows me would describe me very positively and lot of girls are also attracted to me, I get lot of Tinder matches and I can see lot of girls like me in the streets and I don't want to go on but I have lot of things that many other guys would love to have, but I still manage to make my life miserable. I tend to isolate myself all the time, I make the life decisions that move me further away from my loved ones, I live in a foreign country now, don't even speak a local language and I don't even try to learn it, I have 0 friends in this country and I never text or call with my friends back in my country unless something is happening that needs to be discussed. I am ghosting pretty much everyone I know, I almost never text anyone on Tinder and if I do, somehow the conversation almost never begins. The problem is that I would love to be social and have a girlfriend or just friends but I somehow act against my own will and I don't know how to fight this. If anyone had this kind of problem I would love to hear about how did you beat it because it's already getting pathological. I used to have a pretty flatmate who was also single and I spent 4 month of the lockdown, living with her, craving for any kind of social interaction and I COULD NOT MANAGE TO TALK TO HER EVEN ONCE, while she was dropping the hints every day and I even liked her very much. I think I harmed her self esteem terribly and I also feet bad about it. Thank you for your time

I will try to take those steps because it's not getting better by itself, thank you so much! I decided several times to do a shadow work but I forgot that every time. Another way of self-sabotaging I guess. I wouldn't say I was abused as a child, but I was grown up in a family where everything was terrible and there was no love among family members whatsoever.

Seriously, I was not expecting the effect which I am having from implementing those things. I went very deep in my past and discovered few things that were eating me alive from very deep inside. Somehow I still have not managed to do the exercise and I will force myself to do it today but what you said there, has already helped me to get free from some very bad things and I thank you for that! You helped me a lot

I tried but that resistance has beaten me each time. I will do that again in the future and will try to remember what you said. Thank you!