Leopold

Thank you for your support man, I appreciate it a lot.

I will try to take those steps because it's not getting better by itself, thank you so much! I decided several times to do a shadow work but I forgot that every time. Another way of self-sabotaging I guess. I wouldn't say I was abused as a child, but I was grown up in a family where everything was terrible and there was no love among family members whatsoever.

Seriously, I was not expecting the effect which I am having from implementing those things. I went very deep in my past and discovered few things that were eating me alive from very deep inside. Somehow I still have not managed to do the exercise and I will force myself to do it today but what you said there, has already helped me to get free from some very bad things and I thank you for that! You helped me a lot

I tried but that resistance has beaten me each time. I will do that again in the future and will try to remember what you said. Thank you!

Hi everyone, name's Eric, 25 years old. want to share my strange issue here, any opinion will be appreciated. I am a type of person that everyone tries to be around me, I'm getting a lot of respect by almost everyone I know, I don't drink or take drugs, anyone who knows me would describe me very positively and lot of girls are also attracted to me, I get lot of Tinder matches and I can see lot of girls like me in the streets and I don't want to go on but I have lot of things that many other guys would love to have, but I still manage to make my life miserable. I tend to isolate myself all the time, I make the life decisions that move me further away from my loved ones, I live in a foreign country now, don't even speak a local language and I don't even try to learn it, I have 0 friends in this country and I never text or call with my friends back in my country unless something is happening that needs to be discussed. I am ghosting pretty much everyone I know, I almost never text anyone on Tinder and if I do, somehow the conversation almost never begins. The problem is that I would love to be social and have a girlfriend or just friends but I somehow act against my own will and I don't know how to fight this. If anyone had this kind of problem I would love to hear about how did you beat it because it's already getting pathological. I used to have a pretty flatmate who was also single and I spent 4 month of the lockdown, living with her, craving for any kind of social interaction and I COULD NOT MANAGE TO TALK TO HER EVEN ONCE, while she was dropping the hints every day and I even liked her very much. I think I harmed her self esteem terribly and I also feet bad about it. Thank you for your time